I want to draw a lot more of my characters this weekend, but I'm kinda struggling to come up with ideas. Any of you guys wanna toss a few my way to help get my creative juices flowing?

Thanks!

- Kili

So a while back you guys saw I took commissions but slowly phased out of it when I found it to be a bit of a struggle and only wanted back in until I thought I was ready enough. Well time has passed and I think I'm good to go but there will be a significant change and that would be the prices.

I truly think I wasn't really charging enough for my own work and I know while that might sound vain, 20 dollars for a picture that would take me a day just isn't right in my eyes, especially when you convert it into my own currency it's far far less.

So! When I'm back home in 2 days I'll change the info on my front page to show a link to commission prices and such, as well as leaving one in the journal advertising this.

Sorry if the new prices will leave a bad taste in your mouth but hey, no one NEEDS to commission me! <:

Thanks for being patient~

- Kili

Okay these are coming back and I need some characters to draw in interesting posses. This will work like last journal! Post your characters and maybe some ideas and the ones that are most interesting to me I'll attempt to draw!

Reason being I'm gonna try get back into nsfw things now that I've seemed to have got the hang of using a tablet.

Bonus points for F/F since I'm having a blast drawing females lately!

Anyway post your deets below and If I'm interested I'll give you a reply. <: Thanks guys!

- Kili

Yo I need to practice some more with both using the tablet and drawing more cute characters, mainly females.

So if you've got a cute gal character, post a ref down here and I'll try and get around to sketching them. Of course, I'll only be sketching out the ones that are most interesting to me~

- Kili

My bud  cappnkip made an account here not too long ago so go give her some love! Seriously, her art is fucking amazing and you wont regret checking it out!

It's got many good things. I promise. Would I lie to you? Click the fucking link.

Welcome to the site, Cap. <:

In other news I might be streaming later today with  Ryarik so look out for that journal later on tonight! C:

- Kili

Miss me?

So art that's a thing right?! Good news is, while here in Barcelona (I'm on holiday with Smiley, we're havin' a grand old time C:) I drew a boat load of drawings to work on when I get back!

These include: Split Ref sheet, Isabelle drawings x2, Sandy cheeks drawing, Split drawing, Teri from Gumball.

So yeah, expect those to be expected when I get back home on Friday! Got em all drawn so now I gotta digitalise them. <:

Hope you look forward to all those! Sorry again for the hiatus.

- Kon

I've been gone for like 2 months and I see I've hit 600 watchers?! What the balls thanks so much guys!

Reason for me not being active here is because I've got a creative slum going on right now. Mostly I've been doing SFW stuff over on my tumblr and quick sketches and doodles.

Once I manage to find the will again though I will be posting here again so don't you worry about that. It just takes time! And for me to complete the Witcher 3.

And play more Splatoon.

And Darkest Dungeon.

And Fallou-

Okay I'll be back soon.

- Kon

Not mine but an excellent artist is hosting one!

's work is brilliant and if you love a colourful art style that's just pure eye candy, go look at her gallery!

Or one-up! Check out her tentacle YCH auction! Ya love tentacles? Boom; http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16252519/

Go go go she needs way more loving!

- Kon

Keep an eye on  ryarik c: He will be doing some commissions today.

Reason? Well let's just say i really wanna get the chance to visit him again and just be there for him in general during some hard times. AND I NEED YOUR HELP! So go check out Smiley's commissions later on to help us out. This would mean everything to me, guys. Thanks so much. c: >

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/ryarik/

- Kon

Commissions are closed and will about later on in the future

Finished the first batch of five so I'm opening up five more slots again! Sadly I'm still jobless and I'm in need of money to make ends meet but hey.

So I'm opening commissions!

I'll accept NSFW, mature and SFW stuffs but at MAX I'll only draw 2 characters. C: Also note I will draw pokemon/five nights at freddy's stuff, since that's what people seem to like the most.

Prices are as follows:

For a coloured picture with 1 character it's $10 - EG: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15561931/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15375099/

For a coloured picture with 2 it's $15 - EG: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16003848/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15521876/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15830047/

And if you want it to have a painted background (Done By Ryarik) instead of the simple ones that'll be an additional $5. EG: 2 characters: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16138980/ 1 character: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16085321/

Also note these aren't first come first serve.

So yeah, if you're interested send a note my way!

I'll do my best to answer any questions you have. C:

- Kon

Yo guys  MadHatterMonster is open for some bust commissions and they're priced at 10 bucks. Which in all honestly is an amazing price for such a talented artist!

Do please check them out! You can find examples of their work riiiight here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16128601/

Now back to drawin' butts.

- Kon

Holy SHIT that did not take long at all!

So apparently the part replacement was easier than the repair man thought and did it in a matter of hours once he took the PC home. Only cost around 30 for repairs so that's not too bad either!

Back to work! I have my baby back!

- Kon

Repair dude came in today and took it away so I'm gonna have to wait for an update from him. Worst case, I'll be without a computer for around 2 to 5 more days.

Welp. This sucks.

Where's monster hunter? I wanna kill shit. I'd play Bloodborne but I kinda sold my PS4 a while ago for various unemployment reasons.

Sorry again to the last remaining commissioner. I'm so bad at this.

- Kon

OKAY. So I was moving into a new room today and everything's all in there. It's a lovely wide open room with a lot of space for drawing for a bed and for my computer. Got all my posters and pictures hung up got everything moved in there and it looks fucking cozy and awesome!

BAD NEWS. So my brother helped me moving all my technical shit. Including my PC. He picked that tower up so quickly I was kinda nervous. Turns out when we tried to turn it back on something broke.

SOOOOO now I'm on my shitty lappy for the rest of the day as I wait for 9:30am to roll around so I can talk to the repair man and see whats happening. Hopefully as soon as it's fixed I can continue to work. Let's hope so at least. In the mean time I'll keep on drawing, doodling and hunting monsters.

Laters guys.

- Kon

EDIT: COMMISSIONS ARE CLOSED AS OF 13/03 THANKS FOR THE COMMISSIONS GUYS! I'LL OPEN THEM AGAIN ONCE THE FIRST BATCH ARE COMPLETE.


Okay I think I've had a nice little break so it's time to open those commissions again! GREGORY! PREPARE THE COPY PASTE!

Commissions are a go again!

I'll accept NSFW, mature and SFW stuffs but at MAX I'll only draw 2 characters. C:

Prices are as follows:

For a coloured picture with 1 character it's $10 - EG: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15561931/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15375099/

For a coloured picture with 2 it's $15 - EG: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15762632/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15521876/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15683090/

And if you want it to have a painted background (Done By Ryarik) instead of the simple ones that'll be an additional $5. EG: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15902942

Also note these aren't first come first serve.

So yeah, if you're interested, just send a note my way <:

- Kon

Yo guys, just wanted to make a journal about this last half-a-year and wanted to mainly give a big thank you to all.

Around a year ago when I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder I found it difficult to continue with drawing. I was lacking in inspiration and I thought trying to keep it up was pretty much pointless. I didn't think I was going anywhere at all and each drawing was a step back. But I remember one day when working on a request I took a look back at my old work from 4 5 years ago and saw how much things had changed. My anatomy got better, my style more distinguished and developed. Even though I felt like I was going nowhere, I didn't take note that I was leaps ahead.

It was at that point I decided to try and push myself even more. I started drawing nsfw pictures (something I craved to draw for a long time) and while at first I was shaky, I started enjoying it more and more. And to my surprise, some people took notice! I started getting more watchers, more people sending me messages telling me to keep it up and how a simple drawing managed to make someone smile that day.

A year ago I was ready to give up this whole drawing thing for good. Now all I can think about is what kinda piece I should make next. What different poses and characters I can work with. Who's characters I could draw because holy shit some people out there have spectacular characters!

But most of all I wanted to thank all of you. The guys who watch me, who favourite my work, who comment, my commissioners and even those who still bug me for requests. If it wasn't for all your support, your kind words and actions I don't think I'd be drawing today.

Let's see what the future holds!

Thanks guys. For everything.

- Kon

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wTWOAJJ9s1g

Hey guys, okay so I'm now entering my period of unemployment while I wait for my brother to settle things at his place ready for me to move in which should take around 2 - 3 weeks. So! That gives me plenty of time to actually work on things and make some money on the side. <:

So I'm opening commissions!

I'll accept NSFW, mature and SFW stuffs but at MAX I'll only draw 2 characters. C:

Prices are as follows:

For a coloured picture with 1 character it's $10 - EG: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15561931/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15375099/

For a coloured picture with 2 it's $15 - EG: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15762632/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15521876/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15683090/

And if you want it to have a painted background (Done By Ryarik) instead of the simple ones that'll be an additional $5. EG: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15093866/

Prices have gone up a little because of the current unemployment so sorry about that. .x.

Also note these aren't first come first serve.

So yeah, if you're interested, comment below with commission details, a link to the character(s), and what kinda background theme you would like.

- Kon

I'm starting to get out of the bad area of sadness and shit like that and now I'm starting to pick myself up feeling good~

The work that I've been doing made me lose so much of myself that I decided that next Friday I will be resigning from my position there, and luckily my brother will be getting me work at his job come March time. It's still a zone of unemployment but I'll have a bit of money to get me by and most importantly, I'll be happier. C:

My interest in drawing is picking up again and I'm laughing a lot more too!

And if anything, my family helped me get through this bad area a lot but I mainly wanted to thank

Sir Smiley face, you have helped me in so many ways these years~

Everytime I've been down, you're there to make me laugh, smile and even hearing your voice makes me calm. It makes me forget about all the bad things and just focus on what is the best thing about my life. And that's being with you <3

I guess you could say, Smiley is the reason I'm still here~

Thanks so much  Ryarik and I love you with all my heart, no matter what happens~

Well! Time to get some more drawing done and buy my brother his birthday gift! Then me and Smiley are thinking of doing a multi stream tonight so watch out for that. :D

Laters!

- Kon

I have no idea why I made that title the way it is. D:

Okay update time! Y'alls are probably wondering why I haven't drawn anything new recently so I thought I'd hit you up on here. Warning this is a vent journal! Sorry to clog you up with it buuut I kinda need to get this out there. So my battle with anxiety and OCD still rages on today but more recently I've been effected by another part of it which usually happens around this time and that's the bouts of depression, ladies and gentlemen, the magic word of PAAIINN. DB<

It sucks and it's horrible and it plagues the mind. Makes me feel like I'm doing nothing, pleasing no one and thinking that everything I'm doing to friends family and all loved ones suck and I may as well not get up in the morning any more because I cant' draw things I want to or play games or I'm silent way too much but I don't want people to think I'm ignoring them ARGHH.

You know here's a video I linked on tumblr a long while ago the the main point of it all still stands.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HUHcc7ipGt0

Things have been going south ever since I got a new job in that lab, so naturally I want to leave, but the money is still something I need. And the fact that everyone was so proud of me for getting a job working at an analytical lab, I feel like a failure for not liking my place there. Hating the people I work with. Missing my free time since I invest so much into it which ultimately is so little.

One thing I hate more than anything else is letting someone down. And lately that's all I feel like I've been doing.

Things will be better soon, it's just a bad moment. But getting it out there and at least letting you all know is better than keeping it inside like I did last year.

Good thing about all of this is that I have been talking it out with my family and my brother is hoping to get me working with him which will be fantastic. But for now I need to focus on getting better.

Thanks for taking your time to read this guys. I love y'alls.

- Kon

Ding, level 21 achieved.

- Kon

A looott of you turned up that time and it seemed like you all enjoyed yourselves! Next time I do a future stream would you all still like to me keep my microphone on?

- Kon

I'm finishing up the smexin' picture of MM and Diamond, so if ya wanna see some of that come hang out! I'll have some music and my mic on <:

https://www.picarto.tv/live/channel.....?watch=Kilinah

Okay I'm now back home and fully settled in so I thought I'd post a Journal update with what my plan this weekend is! :D

So first up in terms of art work is I'll be colouring my part of an Art trade to warm me back into inking and colouring. Might stream that one too!

Then comes 2 commission pieces which I'll be doing afterwards. I wanna make sure I get the feel back for colouring before I work on them though, since I don't wanna give you guys products that I could have done better. So bare with me on this one and sorry for the wait!

And now it's news time!

So many of you remember that last year I was diagnosed with GAD or "Generalized anxiety disorder" after having an attack a year ago in February and having constant episodes of high stress and worry years before that I went and got myself checked and boom. Safe to say the beginning of last year was bad, but if anything it was a good step towards actually getting better now that I knew what the hell was up with me! D: And over the last year I can safely say that the attacks are getting so infrequent now I'm certain things are on the right track~

Although a few weeks back I did have another attack, mainly because I was worrying over worrying people about the possibility of having an attack with in the end GAVE ME AN ATTACK. D8;

So now I'm back home I'm feeling a tiny bit better but holy shit I'm still nervous and worried about nothing as fuck. On the bright side! I'm still eating and sleeping normally. C: The only thing it seems to have a negative effect on is the fact I'm not really enjoying video games and movies as much since halfway through them I end up panicking about things.

I guess I just need some more time to take some deep breaths and relax. Until then, drawing seems to still be helping~

Thanks for taking ya time to read this guys.

- Kon

Okay so I'm currently at  Ryarik 's dad's place and I can't sleep. Not only because I miss Smiley so freaking much oh god please I wanna go back and be with him some more BUT ALSO because I've been shoved in the kid's room!

There are toy dolls EVERYWHERE and I swear to god half of them weren't looking at me before right now and I'm refusing to sleep, so I'm just spamming youtube videos until it hits 06:00 and I can get going to the airport. D:

It feels like Five nights at fucking Freddy's right now! I'm sitting in a room staring mostly at a screen while watching dolls waiting for the clock to hit 6 am! D8>

PLEASE BE 6 SOON I JUST WANNA GO HOME.

- Kon

Ps: It's me.

Blarrggghhh, now we get to the sucky part >: I had such an awesome time here at  Ryarik 's place and in a couple of hours I'll be catching a plane to Reykjavik then shortly after a plane back to England.

Safe to say I probably wont be feeling so good for a couple of days so if I seem groggy for a lil then don't worry I just need some time to get used to things again D:

On the bright side! I'll be going on Holiday with his sweet butt in June so I got that going for me, which is nice <: NO BAD MEMES GET OFF MY JOURNAL.

Anyways, I'll start posting stuffs soon.

Later guys

- Kon