So an incredible artist known as  oTroisiemeoeilo is having a YCH auction to raise funds towards their sick pet.

So I wanna get the word out there! Help 'em out, yo! D:

And also give them a watch, because the quality of work they put out is absolutely outstanding.

You can find the YCH over here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14629481/

Until next time!

- Kon

So I managed to get those commissions done and I'm glad I could after such a long down time D:

I think I will stop commissions though until I get back into the full swing of art again. The week in France coupled with me feeling kinda crappy has taken it's toll on my work and I wanna be fully better before I draw since I want you all to get my fullest of quality when getting work from me.

So yeah, commissions will be down until I'm more comfortable with doing them again. I'm gonna start to try and draw every day again, starting with my own and  Ryarik 's characters. c: Should be fun!

Also got some pretty awesome news that my brother has put in a word for me at where he works, so I'll be handing in my CV there tomorrow and we will see how that goes!

All in all, I'm feeling a bit better. Still kinda meh over stress and such but I'm getting better and that's good. c:

Till next time!

- Kon

Incoming vent

It really really sucks for me to type this but the last remaining commissions will be delayed. Reason is to my own fault really.

I haven't been viewing myself in positive light for a week or so now. Constantly putting myself down in any moment and such. This may have been reignited by the fact my own boss called me worthless but the thought has always been there. I've had the help from my incredible fiancé and awesome friends to get me through these times, but unfortunately I'm going through them again. I went on Holiday when I clearly shouldn't have, I've been under preforming with art and just not keeping people in the light about it, I've been letting myself down so much. I've let those at my work place down, and now I think I've hurt the people I care so much for in the world. Sorry for the vent but I really need to let this out.

I've not been the person who I wanna be these few weeks. I wanna be that nice, funny guy around my friends that everyone can't wait to come online. I want to be that person who makes the one he cares about most laugh and smile throughout the day. And when I can't live up to be that person, it sucks.

I feel like I'm letting everyone I know and love down. And it hurts. I guess it all comes back to when I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder but I don't know.

I just want everything to be fine.

I'm sorry again, thanks for putting up with me.

- Kon

Yo guys I am now back home! Time to get right to work. <:

Sorry for the delay!

- Kon

You heard it here, my magnificent butts. <:

I'll be home tomorrow! Then work shall commence and I will upload shit again! :D

- Kon

Okay so I'll be here for only 3 more days and then I'll be coming home.

Turns out EVERYTHING happens when I go on Holiday as per usual. League of Legends get's its update, new game mode, news the characters are gonna be re textured for the updated map.

I get invited to the freaking WoW WoD Beta but my lappy here can't run it >:

And then Destiny comes out! I shouldn't of played until level 10, I'm starting to get withdrawals.

Ah well! I'll be back home soon! Then I'll be able to chill, chat with my fabulous peoples, draw and game until grumpily returning to the place where I work in the morrow.

I seriously can't wait to get a different job.

Cya in 3 days!

- Kon

Just giving you all a head's up that I'll be going to France for a week. This DOES mean I wont be able to really upload anything during my time away but I will still have an internet connection and a phone! So what I'll be doing while chilling is continue to draw and also draw my own thang. c:

So to the commissioners, I'll contact you during my time in France with some pictures of what the commissions look like so far, and if I need to edit stuff around I'll do it then and there. Once it looks all good, I'll scan them in when I return home. c:

Really sorry about this guys. The Holiday was kinda last-minute. Turns out my family thought I could use a holiday because of stress. (?)

Anyways, hope you all have a good week and stay safe!

Also Dat Destiny, man. It's pretty gewd~

- Kon

All this shit seems to have calmed down a little now so I think I'll be able to work now without pause. c:

Thanks again for bearing with me guys. Back to work!

1:  Ironwolf85 Done
2:  caliburman Done
3:  Stick-Shiply In progress
4:  Zs99 In progress

- Kon

Real Life things am I right?

No but seriously I'm really fucking sorry but the commissions I accepted may be a little late. I'm going to get the first two done today and the second tomorrow but still I'm sorry for making people wait. I've been having a shit load of problems at work and well; long story short:

Boss is an arsehole, has no meaning of the word empathy.
Had ANOTHER breakdown at work thanks to this douche.
He insulted and lowered the self esteem of so many of my hard working colleagues I'm considering writing him up.
Will be leaving my job to hopefully work with my brother.

And people wonder why my hair is falling out... This year has been a tough one.

Sorry again guys.

1:  Ironwolf85 In progress
2:  caliburman In progress
3:  Stick-Shiply
4:  Zs99

- Kon

Okay so the last 3 commissions I did were really good fun to work on! So I thought I'd open 4 more slots this week to be completed over the next few days. c:

If you like what you saw in my gallery and are interested in commissioning me, then hit me up with a note. :D

I'll let you know in response if it's something I wont like drawing or can't draw. I just recently started getting into more adult stuff so if there's something I seem uncomfortable with drawing, like certain fetishes then sorry in advance.

As per usual they will be priced at $5 each

So yeah! Frankly I was surprised I got any takers at all last time! o-o

1:  Ironwolf85
2:  caliburman
3:  Stick-Shiply
4:  Zs99

Okay back to Wakfu I go~

- Kon

I remember earlier this year I just managed to get 100!

Thanks so much for the support guys! c: Even if the milestone is small I'm still surprised I managed to get more than 5 people to watch my work.

To those of you who came in for FN@F stuffs, don't worry, I'll post one or two more, considering how you all seem to love it! D:

I'll also be drawing more of Ragga's femboi characters, because they have some delicious booties c//:

Maybe also some Wakfu stuff. Been playing that with a couple of buds and it's pretty fun! Love the design for the Xelor so I shall maybe sketch something to do with those little time mages~ <3

Anyways, have a good day guys! :D

- Kon

PS: I see you there.

 Stick-Shiply <---- Stick does some awesome work and is just getting back into the swing of things over here on FA, so go show him some support!

As for me, I'll be working on a few more sketches these next 2 days and maybe tomorrow Imma gonna open 3 more commission slots.

Doing the other 3 were good fun!

Oh and I haven't given you all a health update in a while! So many of you know earlier in the year I had a panic attack that hit me pretty hard and I was left pretty lifeless for a good few months, but after this latter half of the year came in I've been doing far far better. I've been learning to change my way of thinking around things and even my OCD is starting to "slow down" one could say. I'm not falling victim to doing the same tasks over and over again to try and make myself feel better (which never worked but felt like it did), to put in summary.

This year was a bad time but also a good time that I dealt with most of this crap, and I'm glad I'm changing for the better, c:

Also doing more art now. Usually I'd upload once per month but now I'm glad I found my love for drawing again~

It was probably behind the fridge where every freaking else is.

- Kon

http://kilinah.tumblr.com/

I upload pretty much the same stuff there but WIPs too! :D You also get to see the fucked up stuff I like and reblog, so fun times for all!

Stream will be tomorrow, yo.

- Kon

Maybe tomorrow instead, not really feeling up to it today. Need to take some time off to pull myself together so to speak! I should be fine tomorrow. <:

Some people were wondering if I myself played Five Nights at Freddy's, considering I draw work associated with it. To which I reply; you fucking crazy?! I HATE horror games! D8 Which is why, yet again my good friends are forcing me to sit down and stream it.

This is slender all over again. ._.

Not to mention a friend of mine is feeling down, and usually likes watching me get scared, so I guess I better cheer 'em up in a way that terrifies me as much as possible.

I'll post a journal before I go live with anything, but just wanted to let you all know it was a possibility. <:

- Kon

Okay so Commissions have been taken in. I honestly didn't think I'd even fill 2 slots. o-o

If all goes well, I may open for more next week. :D Until then! To work I go~

Okay so, here goes nothing!

Disclaimer before I type this though; if you're still interested in RQs then drop a message into the pool: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6007504/

I look at it every now and then and I'll see if I can get some recommendations done. No promises though! But you never know :D

Now onto this part: So I guess I'll open up some commissions. For now I think I'll only take 3. These commissions will be done in my usual sketchy style -see my gallery- and can include 3 characters max. NSFW or SFW, you want it I'll draw it! Unless it's something I'm uncomfortable with, if that's the case I'll let you know! <:

Since I'm just starting out with this I guess the charge for a sketch will be $5 per drawing. Note I've never done anything like this before so I'm totally new to all of this! If you're interesting in commissioning me, hit me up with a note and I will get back to you!

And again, you can still pop a RQ in the pool by all means! :D There's just no guarantee I'll draw it but there's a chance!

Sorry I get wordy when I'm nervous...

1:  PlaysWithFire
2:  Garash
3:


- Kon

So someone noted me wondering if I was opening for commissions which was a little new to me! Considering I think my sketches really aren't worth much in value. So I'm guessing I'd charge...Iunno a couple of bucks? I'd be reallly fucking cheap is what I'm saying.

So. Question is, who would be interested in that? They could be anything, NSFW or clean, but how many of you would consider commissioning me?

Hit me up with a comment sharing your opinion. Personally I think I should just keep on keeping on until I'm a little better in my eyes! D:

- Kon

This one takes a little bit to get going but holy shit I loved editing this.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1XixNt3PXJ8

So I just finished a few more drawings and I thought now would be a good time to be open for NSFW sketch RQs.

But first a note! They wont be first come first serve. Just leave a comment of what you want and I'll see if it interests me or not! It can be whatever really, unless it's something I'm really put off by.

ALSO. No promises! I may end up drawing most of them or maybe even none! It all depends on how I'm feeling exactly! <:

So go right ahead. Leave some RQs down below and maybe I'll draw them.

MAYBE! D:

- Kon

Okay so because I really need more work I was thinking of doing this. NSFW art is something I like doing but I'm not 100% with it. So I was thinking after I've finished my last normal RQ I'd open up special NSFW RQs and take about 3. How many of you would be interested in seeing it though? Considering my lack of experience. I only ever really draw size-play porn because I love that shit. And blowjobs. ¬.¬

So yeah, who would be interest?

SLEEP TIME.

- Kon

Okay so I've been streaming a little more lately with tha vidya geams and what not and I'll be doing one later today, question is should I start making journals when I'm streaming for you guys to come and watch? Or are you cool with not being informed? I usually play anything while chatting to some skype friends so a fun time is usually had.

THAT IS ALL.

- Kon

Or afternoon at least. Today's the day Ragga gets back online! :D Can't wait~ <3

Also I shall be drawing more today. Been getting the inspiration a lot more recently. Might do some fan art as well!

- Kon

We all get that feeling from time to time whenever we look at a great artist's work and think "wow I suck ass in comparison, why am I bothering?." I get that once or twice every year but whenever that shit comes around there's something I love to do.

I get up the latest drawing I did and compare it to my old deviant art account and look at my drawings 5 years ago when I started posting there and woaaaahhh. I get the feeling that the me back then couldn't believe that I'd end up drawing as well as I do now! Sure it's still not perfect, there are still things that need work on and these shall be over the years and for the rest of my artistic life! Everyone goes through a blue period every now and then. Even the artist you look up to can go through it, constantly wanting to better him or herself; and in a way, isn't that awesome? To be constantly growing and bettering your own work in your own eyes without even knowing it?

If you ever go through these periods then just remember to do this every now and then. See how much you've improved! Give yourself a specific goal to work towards, be it more interesting poses or going digital. And remember the old saying "Rome wasn't built in a day." The artists you may look up to most likely spent their whole lives getting where they are today; and if you're just starting out or are many years in and still consider yourself to be "bad", take your time. No rush at all. You do things in your own speed and one day you can reach any heights. Funny thing is, most people wont even notice they did it~

Okay that's your motivation for this evening. Just felt like typing that one down because I have an A level in English for some bloody reason, eh?

Keep on keeping on.

- Kon

Today is an awesome but sad day.  ryarik has gone back home after his 3 week stay in England with me and is heading back home as I type.

What makes this day suck especially to leave is that it is the day me and Ragga got together as a couple today. So I just wanted to take type to type this here so he can see it by the time he gets home. <:

So happy anniversary Ragga face~ It feels like we've been together pretty much our entire lives. I think it's actually just 6 years though! Here's to many more! :D A short wish but hey the other stuff I wanna say will be in private~ c/:

Oh yeah and I better upload those RQs.

They'll be up this week. Thanks for being so patient with me c: >

- Kon