We had strongest Earthquake in Korea. because we usually don't have strong earthquake.
I have experienced stronger earthquakes before. at Japan, and Chile. But pretty sure this will be the first time for the most of Korean.
Lots of people noticed some huge problem. We are Not very prepared to this...
Some phone line died, messenger server died, lots of fake informations and rumors, NEWS and some safty center doesn't work properly, acted very late (sent evacuation alarm late or even didn't) and the most serious problem is, our buildings.
Since we almost never experienced strong earthquake in our history... Not sure How many buildings are "ACTUALLY" prepared for strong earthquake.

...Our [safety ignorance] is abnormal. seriously. remember the 'sewol ferry disaster'? safety ignorance. and other tons of disaster by safety ignorance in our history.

-And, the most terrifying thing is, there are quite many nuclear powered plant around this epicentre.
I don't want 3rd Chernovile or 2nd Fukushima... <_> RIP Korea. Must escape ASAP.

anyway, I'm still alive. for now.

This means I'm busy again . z .
Wish I can graduate and have some free life.
...well free comes with responsibility tho . _ .
But still, college life sucks X_X

Thanks everyone who left comments on my previous journal U_U
3 days of funeral was so tiredsome.
I will take some rest and start my work soon...

My father's side grandmother passed away today's 2a.m at the hospital...
Her condition wasn't so good from years ago.
I just hope she rest in peace... hope it wasn't painful.

Still, loosing family is unrealistic yet cruel. Hope my father is ok.
...I can't imagine what would it feels when my mother passes away in the future... will it be super sad? or unrealistic like now?...

There will be funeral soon, so my commission works will be... late...
I'm doing fine. don't worry about my U_U

Because I need money >.>... to get new body piercing jewelries (high quality prince albert wand is really expensive . _ . ) and etc.

you can see the price info here : http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6538970/

I might need some time for rehabilitation : P I stoped drawing in my college semester.

Oh yes. right. finally, the 5th semester is end ^z^ yay

I'll take 2~3 slots first. after 2~3 works, will decide to take more or not ' v '

slot1  vesaria Done
slot2  fen.seiyu waiting(reserved)
slot3  Carcin-Ryuu Done
slot4  togepi1125 Done
slot5  Ratty_June reserved
slot6

Some of my friends know that I have nipple piercings >v> (at Feb 24)
Today, I got Prince Albert >_<
It was painful of course. but the piercer is pro. so it was done quickly.
Personally, I think nipple piercings were hurt more then PA.

Anyway, I'm very satisfied with those results (nipples and PA) X>...

and my recent state.

I'm in Final exam. still have 4 subjects. semester will ends at... Jun 16.

It felt really long... but also.. short? ...I dunno. Time goes fast.

Still, 3 semesters left U_U

anyway, I'm doing ok. see you next week!

僕まだ24歳なのに I am 24
まだ大学3年生…（軍務とかいろいろあって卒業してない) And college 3rd year...(because of military service, didn't graduate yet)
電子工学科とか、何やってんだろう。Studying Electro Engineering... What am I doing?
なんだかんだ入った大学。I entered College somehow.
大学に行くことしか知らなかった高校時代。I didn't know anything but only about entering college in highscool age.
大学に来てやっと自分の人生とは何だろうか考えるようになった Finally I started to think about my life after entering college.
幸せな人生とは What is happy life.
ただ安定した職場で、沢山金を稼げばいいのか。Is it about stable job and earning lots of money?
勿論、安定した職場と収入さえあれば、そのお金で幸せに近くなれるだろう。Of course, with stable job and income, you can be easily happy with those money.
幸せはお金で買えない、という人もあるが、それは嘘かもしれない。金が無いと幸せも遠くなる。Someone might say [you can't buy happiness with money], but that might be a lie. If you don't have money, Happyness easily goes away.
金があって不幸せになるのは…どうすればそうなれるんだろう Unhappyness with money...? How can it be possible?
ともかく。Whatever.
いくら収入が良くて、金が沢山あっても、ストレスばっかで、健康を失ったら台無し。Eventhough with good income, with huge amount of money. tons of stress and lose your health, then you lose everything.
死んだら意味ないんだ。Lose everything if we die.
じゃー僕は今、何のために生きている？何のために勉強している？ Then- what am I living for? what am I studying for?
＝自分を見つけるため。=for find 'myself'.
本当になりたい自分自身を見つけるため。to find 'true myself' what I want to be.
だとしたら、人生とは。then, Is Life-
＝自分自身を見つけるための旅。なのか =journey to find true yourself?
そして、何時か自分自身を見つけたら、そのたびはそこで終わりなのか？ and, when you find your 'true yourself', will journey ends?
何になりたいか、それをわかって、それになったらおしまいか？多分そうではないと思う。 If you find out what you want to be, and become what you wanted to be, will it be the end? I gues not.
つまり、人生は、自分を見つけ出す、終わりのない旅の続き。So, Life is, Endless Journey about finding yourself.
自分自身のための勉強の続き。 Endless studying about find yourself.
鍛える。発展させる。過去よりもっと改善した自分を作る。 Train. Improve. Make better yourself then the past.
成長する。Grow up(Be mature).
多分、それが人生じゃないかな…と I guess, that's the meaning of our 'life'...
思うライムでした。That's what Lime thought.
U_U

It was simple and also shameful. because I wasn't confident to live my own life. to live alone.

My life had no big trouble because of my family. Rich family... (my dad even sent my stupid brother to US. that means our family is quite rich.)

So, I was worried I might lose this safety and happiness when I graduate and independant from my parents.

Because I know i'm still not ready to go out this real world.

Kinda shame. I'm already 24. but still like a child.

I will try hard to focus on present. Train myself, look for what I can do.

End of the journal.

Please...
Do not send message when someone is sleeping.
Stupid mobile Skype seems making me online all the time, and I can't even change my state as do not disturb. Thanks Microsoft! (well fuck you)
Hope you can see my time zone on the Skype. Or check before you poke me.
GMT+9:00 Korea, Tokyo.
My phone buzzed all night, and I couldn't sleep. I disabled my notifications on group chat, but then people personally poked me.
I know you guys love to talk with me. Thank you. But I'm also human and animal.
When you disturb my sleep, I can't be nice. Like any other animals.
Don't disturb my sleep.

...ok I just disabled my mobile app notification so I might not able to respond to you instantly.
Rather I cut myself from internet.. Damn it.

That means I will be busy, difficult to upload new artworks, difficult to response on skype or telegram, maybe even from twitter...

Since I already saw/felt Korean college is mostly full of perfunctory teaching style, I thought I lost hope and excitment from learning something new things.

But maybe I didn't lost all the hope. i was actually kinda excited. and also nervouse a bit. : P new semesters.

...hope i can learn something new. hope this isn't just more waste of time. hope this will worth it. and get my diploma/degree/title whatever...

and considering move into Chile. to live with my Best friend, Life teacher, Senpai, and lover >v>... Chile published the civil union in 2015. so, I can be his mini-waifu XD...

-still, nobody knows the future. nobody knows what will happen. If I want to live in Chile, I must study Spanish ' v ' and have to speak some decent Spanish.

anyway. I'm pretty tired already = v =;;; dang. College is like Time machine. you ride it, and you arrive in Future. but can't go back to past : P

so... stay calm everyone. This peeper will get busy UzU. seeya!

p.s. i'm 3rd year in college. 2 more years left.

I became 24 today.

In Korea, they cound the date in mother's belly, add one more. so in Korea i'm 25. half-50.

In Asian Country, they think Age=Power. so they want to be older then others. when someone doesn't like you, he asks. "how old are you?!" and ignores your opinion.

The more you older the more you get wiser? bull shit. they just get shameless. (At least, in Korea.)

wisdom just don't comes to you. you need experiences. means more time. that's why people used to say [old people are wise] because they have more experiences then you.

but nowadays, there's tond of old grumpy and ignorant people everywhere. in Korea, those stupid old people are ruining out society...

anyway. age is nothing but a number. i just want to don't get old for nothing. i want to be mature. more responsible. better person.

 pentalis is my good mentor. life teacher. Best friend. "what do you do everyday? that makes what you are." this made me think alot these days.

What do i want to do? what do i want to be? what do i like to do? what do i like to be?

know yourself. find yourself. explore. discover. learn.

...happy birthday Jaeyoung.

and Thanks to my parents. love you mom, dad.

please somebody kill me.

I'm worthless piece of shit.

i just misunderstood alone. shadow boxing alone. made up invisible enemy.

and vent it to wrong people. harrassed my friends. and hurted them for nothing.

i want to die now.

Next week.. Feb.26, i become 24...

Hmm... i was thinking age is nothing but a number. but... i don't know.

what is getting old? just aging and little bit closer to the death?

or become more mature? (Lingo : ..well, you don't automatically become mature just by aging tho... there's ton's of people who just old but still act like a child.)

anyway. 24. almost half-50. and.. more or less 1/4 of my life. (lingo : who knows? it might be 1/3...or 1/2) god dammit lingo >:v

I already feel lived long. but then still have long days infront of me. i'm pretty sure will live more then 30 right? ...unless i die ridiculously..(accident or something)

...i still didn't graduate my college. what a shame. ..well, i blame mandatory Military service in Korea. pure waste of 2 years. (really)

at least, i learned alot. experienced alot. my english skills improoved, met a good good gooooood friends, ( pentalis,  keshiji,  coju...)

especially...thanks to Pentalis. he is my true mentor. life teacher. learn how to live life, how to act like decent human, ...like, 2nd parents XD

...mama pentalis X>

wonder what will happen this year. soon, new semester starts, thing will be gets busy as usual. go school. study. do homework. rest. prepare test(maybe not XD), prepare team project...

boom. one semester done. summer vacation. ..i hope i can visit Mick again this summer.

and- after summer vacation, prepare 2nd semester. same. boom. 3rd year is end. winter vacation. ...and it's getting difficult to imagin/simulate future.

that's enough for short-term view. ...what about long-term view? so called 'dream'. what i want to be? what do i want to? ...

at least, one sure thing is, i want to leave this shitty place. Korea is doomed. no hope. nope.

...and also not only think about the future, focus on present. what do i do daily? that's what makes you as you... so.. what do i do? what have i done today?

' - ' think. discover. learn. experience. ...and.. i should read more >_> books or..somethin >_>... nngh.

ok. end of miscellaneous stuff.

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Thanks  makudaichi X'D

The one week in Japan passed like a dream...

Glad that i made many good memories in there ; u ; ...

Hope i can visit again in this summer U_U

Thanks to  mick39,  coju, and  togepi1125.

I'll unpack my stuffs and take whoer, and...slowly check the FA submissions and such.

From tomorrow, i'll go to Japan for one week. (24 to 30)

And I will Visit  mick39 again <3

She moved into new place, middle in the mountain o z o ... so i have to prepare not to freeze and die >_>;;

Packed clothes, foods, and etc etc... Also, not Only me,  coju and KemosawaKouichi will visit together ' v '

It feels like Camping OvO

I'm pretty excited but also nervouse... (btw we will be at her house between 24~27. 27~30 will be traveling Osaka with  togepi1125)

I'll try to take photos as many as i can ' z ' and hope i can make some good memories.


... man, tons of submissions on FA (a.k.a porns) will be stack when i return XD

but i'll keep try to check my twitter and FA when i can access internet ' v '

Wish me good luck > z > and see ya everyone!

http://pastebin.com/b6RJrQCv
Here's the screen shots of note i sent : http://i.imgur.com/p3ay6uj.png
and the note i received : http://i.imgur.com/jwmomE1.png


http://i.imgur.com/1pfHEC0.png

welp. since he opened my note on public, ok then.

Now let's see who's greedy and backfireing c:

Kiki and our team will handle this soon.

...this might create new furry drama...but i can't stand spreading wrong stories on public.

Mick is just too tired and lazy to prepare legal stuffs.

and that's why our team supports her, so she can keep create her own works.

we were been quiete because we didn't wanted to make this huge problem.

but that guy is keep spreading wrong informations and vicious rumor on public, i have to do this.

P.S. People who have question, please contact  pentalis. he is also member of Vilous official staff, he is smarter then me, his english is better then me. i'm just an amature translator that translate Jap<->Eng.
Thank you

p.s2 people who looking for removed comments.
https://archive.is/FH7ra
https://archive.is/LsZ9i
Thanks to  Curus-Keel

This year wasn't so great. personally, and globally. :(

mostly return to college life. got busy. busy busy busy. stop drawing. and my drawing skills became super rusty...
socially... terrorism.. ..and Korea.. of course getting worse and worse. it's like getting similar to North Korea? lol. (not yet but soon...)
I really hope i can escape this living hell asap...after i graduate. glad that my english skill became really decent.

but there wasn't only bad things. some good things. my english skills became better. no more afraid to speak with foreign peoples.
and this Autumn. UNDERTALE. what a great game. what a great story. what a great music... U_U

-and i got REALLY sick at the end of the year XD... it's like, 1-YEAR-OF-SICKNESS in one shot. I was too busy to get sick this year X'D...really...
I had to endure it and resist it with my will power. so i wasn't sick in the semester. but after winter break... my will power become loose.. and..boom. sickness.

so i really suffered. i thought i might die (well not actually. but it was really horrible). like, 'what if it's not just entretis and flu, but encephalomeningitis or some other terrible disease??' ...but nah... now i'm almost recovered. (my belly is still ache a bit...)

...I really hope 2016 will be a better year... really...
...but it's clrear Korea will getting worse and worse. ...if we keep like this, our country might doom ^z^ ..i mean seriously. our society is really unstable...
so many young people suffering. so many young people get fired super early. before 30. madness. labor condition getting super shitty.

btw. we don't even have labor's rights ^~^ yup. no labor union. how did Korea joined OECD? ...by cheating. they promised they will allow making labor union but they didn't kept their promise. still no labor union, no labor's rights. yay.
it doesn't mean we can't make labor union...but it's almost close to impossible. and standard of cultural level is still very low... ...i see no hope in Korea '-'
so, a lot of Korean escape and give up their nationality. i would do that if i can. nobody proud our country anymore. our country doesn't care citizen. soon, dictation.. not soon. it's already happening. censorship. controlling. obey. train. suppress...

sigh

...too many worries... ~_~ ... i should enjoy the present. not worry about future too much. ..at least, i don't clings on the past.

Anyways anyways. Happy New Year. hope everyone... every world will become better in next year!

Merry christmas everyone.
This year was really busy year... back to college... time flew away. really fast... wow.
but many thing happened. good things, bad things. played Dark Souls in summer, and played UnderTale in Fall..
well..in Korea. everything is bad. and getting worse ^_^... dictation, censorship, etc etc... anyway...
I'm actually little bit sick right now X_X...

I should take some rest...and i want to care my helth in this winter vacation... exercises.. ...my drawing skill is now very rusty again...
and..my parents wants me to get a driver's lisence >_>...
but driving in Korea? imagine driving with bunch of Asian drivers. yes. it's HORRIBLE. and i'm afraid of..driving >_>;;

...and oh! i'm also planing to Visit mick's place again! next year January ' v '
With Coju and some other japanese friends ~v~ ... hope i can have fun with everyone!

-and had some short fun at SL with Coju ' v ' (and of course, NOT THAT KIND OF FUN. I am sick now)
https://twitter.com/KPYOSHI/status/.....24454974455809
https://twitter.com/KPYOSHI/status/.....31694569603072
https://twitter.com/KPYOSHI/status/.....33215612993537
https://twitter.com/KPYOSHI/status/.....48375299874816

http://undertale.com/
http://undertale.com/
http://undertale.com/

...one of the Best game i ever played in 2015...

; > ; ... Q z Q ...

So much feeling...

and yes. i cleared it as Pacifist run. ... and i don't want to reset and watch genocide run ; z ; ...

...such good game... such lovely characters and storys... thank you Tobyfox.. and everyone made this game...thank you.

p.s. i reccoment you to play Demo version first. try this and that... so you won't regret...

Love Tori, Undyne, Alphys, Asriel, and everyone...

http://goldring.wikia.com/wiki/Nevreans

 coju said wiki page for Nevrean is done!
well, it might still need to be polished;  fen.seiyu and other people will help finishing work.
...I was the one who suppose to help Coju translating these, but because of my college stuffs, only i can do is just advertising through FA journal ; v ; ...

Please, take a look!

Hope people will learn about Nevrean more correctly UvU <3

...well it's just only 1st week passed though :T

studying electro engineering is difficult as shit... so i gave up about [get a good grade]. just try to understand and focus [why we learn, what will we do with these].
also, i don't know after graduate, i will work as elecric engineer or not :P
..and even i decided to just [graduate and get the title] was first plan U_U...so.. try not to stress myself hard and get obsessed with studying stuffs...

So.. i'm still keep try to enjoy my life... Korea is full of stress... you know the asian studying stuffs are...pretty stressful :P and our society is pretty fucked up hard.
we got dictator again XD lol... our president is daughter of dictator. and our society is pretty much undercontrole, we are pure slave. we don't have labor right.
...and didn't had thta from 1970. and still. our country is so much wrong.

hope i can escape safely somewhere...better then Korea U_U

http://imgur.com/Ezwu92i,9wsmNyL,duFsQPX,9m2cSLN,DamxJuq,fHCveg1,8LFFniA,oC5TDUo

my mom brought me hair shop ' z '
they trimmed my hair, and also suggested me to dye my hair.
so now i got a light brown hair.

i just took some photos after back at home.
not sure how long this will last, because i have curly hair... they made it straight with dryer and brush. it might go back curly after shower :P
and i still can't do that alone (using hair dryer and roll brush to make it straight)

...next week. new semester will begin... slightly nervouse and anxious ~_~...

well not right now. but soon. Aug 31. 2nd semester begins UzU...
maybe nothing much change... but just..i will be bit busy ' > '

i'm doing ok.

Because some guy asked me for commission with poor explanation, i asked for proper explanation many times, and his answer was "sorry i have ADHD".
...well that was perfect excuses for making me misunderstand everything.

ok. here's the story.

At first. some guy asked my steam trading card. then suddenly asked my art. so i was confused that [is this guy want to pay by steam trading card??] but it didn't made any sense.
because he's the one who receive my trading card (he said can i borrow your trading cards), not the giving one.
I keep asked for explain what do you want from me, and couldn't hear a proper explanation.
Only i could do is, guessing game from his gibbery words, so i found out that he wanted steam trading cards and also art commission. (if i decoded it correctly)
then he got annoyed because i don't give what he wants, nagging and offenting like "Y U NO GIVE ME CARD AND ART". well actually not like this at all. because i couldn't understood what he said properly.

and i said "well, i just asked proper explanation from you, i still don't know who you are and what you want from me"
then he tries to insult me, "you can't refuse commission request from people because you don't draw well" (?) or "if you don't accept my commission, why you open commission?"
...and i couldn't answer. because it's...absurd question. i think i have a right to refuse commission request from person if i don't/can't draw some stuffs.
for example. if i can't draw scat, then that's proper reason to refuse someone's order. and if i don't want to draw, i can still refuse it.
i'm not their employee or art slave, and plus, i didn't even received money from him, and couldn't listen what he want me to draw.
he just rage quit and said "ok shut up i'm done" ...and i was like, wat? what just happened? did i wasted my time for nothing? I keep asked for explain what you want and he just say this and that ramdomly.. and only explanation is [i suffer from adhd].

ok then. i stop accept commission from first met person or random people. no art trade.
this means i might accept request, art trade or commission(only if they want to pay me) between friends.
I will keep draw what i want to draw, when i'm in the mood. I will be a pricky bastard peeper. plus, lazy peepr.

Satisfied?