When I'm sixteen, I'm going to go to American Idol and try out. Mum said she'll drive me and everything. So, yeah, I'm thrilled about that.

...Yeah, that's it.

I tried putting some music I made on here and it just gave me that damn "UNABLE TO MAKE REQUEST" Page. >:(

So, now I'm sad and eating ice cream. :V

Ha, ha. Made you look.

Around six pm today, I had began a new chapter in my life. The girl I mentioned in my last journal is no longer a friend and I hope, even if that sounds cruel, that we never become friends. It was on and off. It would have never worked.

But, as I watched the sun set (I really did, so shut up) I realized that I had made new friends. Real ones. Ones that would never hate me for being a furry, pansexual, or a little random at times. They like me for me.

As she finally stated she wasn't my friend no more, I felt as if the chain that had been keeping me to Earth had broke, and my wings were free as I flew to space.

And now, a new chapter begins....

I'm in so much fucking pain. My friend, who I've know for 6 years just ditches me. She claims her mother says not to be my friend because I'm immature. It is said she is "saddened", but I know that is bull because she is laughing and smiling with all my other friends. Only my cousin seems to care. I'm just so fucking mad and in pain. I swear, I'm about to cry...How sad is that? Crying about something so stupid...

It's just not fair! Why does everyones parents hate me!? What did I do to them! Every one of my friends parents hate me and I don't even fucking know why! I don't drink, I don't smoke, I'm not mental. I only cuss, but not in front of them! And I usually only cuss (not counting journals) when one of my friends cuss. It's not fair.

Why? A simple question, no? How come no one can tell me why they're ditching me? I had to go to another friend to find this out! What the hell?!

...I'm sorry...I'm...I'm just so upset...

Okay, I was watching Dan Cook. (Dane Cook, Dan Cook, somthing like that. First time I ever saw him, so lay off. He's funny) I realized after watching him for a bit, he had no *beeps*. Yeah, he could cuss all he liked. So, why would Comdy Centeral do that to him and not Katt William? THE Katt William!? Not a Katt Williams, THE Katt Williams. It made me realize that this: Comedy Centeral is racist. Makes me sorry to think about George Lopez and what will happen to him.

So, I now have a friend who I know from school and she is one of my best friends.

 meteorcosmos is her. She is an owl!!! :D :D :D Which is awesome, cuz I'm a red panda.

 psychweasel and  scruffydelargehuskey are also awesomes friends, but, sadly, I don't know them in real life.

Anywho, in other news, my scanner is broke/won't work for my dad's laptop. We have no clue why. My laptop is being fixed and then I'll put up all the perdy pictures. Right now, the only pics you guys see from me are commisions I paid for or, if bored, from the crappy system of paint. I hate ususing cuz I don't have a mouse. I have a crappy touchy thing. Yeeeaaahhh....it suuuuccckkkks....soo...freaaaakkkkiinnng...much.

It's weird. A lot of my friends "could" be furries, like my cuz would be bunny and another one would be a vixen (female fox), but one is lazy while the other is trapped in a world with no internet. OH NOES!.

Anyway, I was bored and I wanted to put something, soooooo...yeah. Bye. :3

It's funny, how you don't think about life until everything is silent. Or when you're listening to music.

I, myself, was listening to "Fireflies" by Owl City (secretly wishing that I may find a man who will sing to me like that. lol, pathetic, right?) and I was staring out the window as my da drove. We passed a field and I got to thinking of why we were picked as humans. God could have very well made us an animal. Or even a chair or car. Why human? Did our souls get picked because of some greatness to be human or is it random? Life is stupid like that.

I thought of how stupid my life was, how everyone would be so much better without me. Then, I looked into the azure sky and saw a bird. A black bird. Simply flying.

It made me realize that, no matter how stupid your life is and no matter what you are, you must keep on going.

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you which song or movie you remind me of.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.
8. I'll tell you my favorite thing about you.
9. I'll tell you my least favorite thing about you.
10. If you play, you MUST post this on yours.

Stolen from  psychweasel

I MAY be getting a boyfriend and I'm thrilled about that, but I have a question: what would you call a realationship where a furry is with an anime person?

The reason, my MIGHT boyfriend is into anime and all that (He'll let me draw him as a furry) and likes some furry art (Sorry, Psychweasel, I know you hate Japan and all that. :( ) while I'm a red panda.

What would you call that? The internet is not helping me.

Sunraye Razzmatazz D'Furlow (My main furry) - Female red panda, pansexual. She's a random furry, but, at the same time, mature. She loves to sing, dance, and write. She'd rather hint people into asking her or such as. Even if she's hyper at times, she's a bit insecure. Her close friends are Harley (Harley ©  psychweasel), Moxy (Moxy ©  scruffydelargehuskey), and Malibu (Me).

Malibu Manson Brooklyn - Male crux, bisexual. He's usually calm, but, at rare times, is hyper. Is country boy, but has no southern accent. Only clue is that he plays a fiddle. Even so, this crux has a rather musical talent.





These are the only two I have come up with. Any suggestiong will help.

Sunraye (had to type this one)
Can u imagine if we were even HALF anime? I'd murder u all with my new abilites!

3:35pmAlan
hahahaha ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
SHADOW CLONE JUTSU

3:36pmSunraye
NO!!!!! becomes one of them wierd ghost things that animes do when hit

3:36pmAlan
ha ha ha
NINJA CENTERFOLD (AKA SEXY JUTSU) ha ha ha
thats a weird naruto move

3:37pmSunraye
NOOOO!!!!...yes it is...

3:37pmAlan
ha ha ha

3:37pmSunraye
gets a big head Pikachu, I choose!
snorelax comes out
Dammit, Move!

3:38pmAlan
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
heartless from kingdom hearts
attack

3:40pmSunraye
Axel's keyblade BACK, YOU UGLY THINGS THAT NEVER SEEM TO FREAKING DIE, EVEN AFTER YOU BEAT THE GAME!

3:40pmAlan
all of orginazation 13 and all of the nobodys
attack

3:40pmSunraye
O.O
I SUMMON...........YO MAMA ANIME!!!!!!!!!!

3:41pmAlan
i summon cloud from final fantasy 7

3:42pmSunraye
dude, FF9 is better...has a hot furry in it... cough SUMMON DEATH NOTE SHIGAMI!

3:43pmAlan
I SUMMON INUYASHA AND THE CAST OF THAT 70'S SHOW

3:43pmSunraye
I SUMMON THE GAY EDWARD CULLON WITH MR. PHIL! DOING THE CAN CAN!
AND FUTURAMA!
puts general hat on Beat that, u crumpet!

3:46pmAlan
I SUMMON IT FROM STEPHEN KING THE FAMILY GUY CAST, BARNEY, THE RUGRATS CAST, AND SORA FROM KINGDOM HEARTS

3:47pmSunraye
Ohh...good choice, BUT NOT GOOD ENOUGH!!!!! I SUMMON STAR FOX, SONIC, FINAL FANTASY 9, DISNEY, PIRATE OF THE CARIBBEAN, AND THE MCDONALDS CREW!

blaster time to die!




We all know who won. hehe.

Anyone want a comission?

Sketch - 1.oo$
Ink'd - 5.oo$
Colored - 8.oo$

Please? Note me.

I don't know what to do....
Me and my *cough* boyfriend never seen eachother. One of my friends set us up. I spoke to him and...regret my choice...a lot.

He's really disrespectful to adults and its so wierd talking to him. He's the first boyfriend I've had, so that might be it, but...ugh, I don't know.......

I'm just really stressed about this. I don't want to hurt him and I don't want him to start getting mad at me...

Help... :(

I am so happy.

I, Shelbi Linn Smith, have a boyfriend. My very first boyfriend. <3