we party out here

This years first heat wave has come to a close, rushing in thunderstorms. As I'm writing this, a clearing has come in between the rains, gracing me with the sun I so hated just a couple days ago.

I've said enough about the whats and the whys and the hows in the recent posts, so I won't repeat them here.

I've cleaned up my gallery of commissioned artwork, archive for which is available at
https://mega.nz/folder/OEx1narB#OEV.....K67dZbbrar-gbQ
If for whatever reason you might not want to be included there, tell me and I'll fix it up.

For the ones I haven't published yet I'll go notify the authors to upload them on their pages, possibly without attribution.

Watches have also been cleared as we're re-calibrating on the current state of affairs, come pester me in the notes, and I'll be sure to add you back.

and no AC in my apartment, so I'm melting, but nothing that a (multitude of) beer can't fix.

Things are moving along well, recently I've had more time for art again and motivation is slowly coming along.

So huzzah! More soon.

While I was switching across a plethora of websites throughout the years, I've made a sort of a saying for myself


Out of the differences, once perceived as weaknesses, comes the strength to reach new heights in life.


It's a bit dusty and corny but it hits the point.

It's a sort of a result of an internal struggle which I had for a better part of my adult life. During the way I realized that I wasn't solving the problem of who I wanted be or what I wanted to do, but the problem of how I wanted to present myself to the (laughably tiny but still frighteningly large) public.

This was also fueled by my own fear of the realization that I'm gravitating towards topics that the commoners find problematic, tearing me between the social norms that were impressed on me and my own gut feeling from which I get my creative energy.

So in a way I was stuck in a downward spiral of self-censorship, tiring myself by building a likeable image of myself that I myself didn't like.

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Getting to this point of self-awareness will hopefully allow me to get past that and focus on work that I personally find intriguing, be it for my loins and / or for my mind.

I don't expect anyone to like it. In fact, I do expect for the majority to hate it, and they have their valid reasons to do so.
And that is ok.

I'll assert that most people with a content filter set to Mature should be able to understand that not everyone will share their views.

At the same time, I do not intend to prod into other people's communities where it would result in discomfort.

Coexistence requires tolerance that goes both ways.

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In a way, this change won't be as drastic on the outside as I hadn't much of a following before except for the few people that didn't bother watching the account.

But it is a harbinger of things to come.

Finished this journal on this song, and it feels somewhat appropriate.