Hello there. I'm not sure why you watched me. I did a porn. And then you watched me.

I was super nervous to go, luckily I had a friend come with me. But I had a ton of fun meeting new people, making new friends, and hanging out with people just as crazy as I am.

 alexfrostpaw  Steven-O  dippendot It was super awesome to meet you guys and I hope we get to hang out more in the future. :D

My friend  Petrock is looking for some people to help mentor him in art. If anyone would like to give him some tips on anatomy and such, please note him.

It's bunny day! c: Hope you all have a happy Easter and don't get TOO gorged out on candy.

One year ago today, I met the man of my dreams. In that year, I've learned a lot about myself and what it really means to be in a relationship with someone whom I really care about.

Happy one year Here's to a lifetime of happiness.

A lot has happened since the last time that I've posted a journal, and I feel like sharing.

Some stuff has stayed the same, though, however, mainly the whole 'me being stuck in school' thing. I'm making progress, mind you, but I keep being tossed around in the bureaucratic BS that makes me feel like I'm never getting out. At any given moment, I could be "ready to graduate by the end of the semester", to "You'll need to just take one or two classes in the summer", or "You'll have to come back in the fall to finish up." And it's starting to wear on me. Currently, I've been in college for 5 years now, and I'm kind of done with it. I'd like not to have to go 6 years for a 4 year degree, but whatever.

Changes!

I no longer have the internship doing computer graphics at a local manufacturing plant, that sucks, because the job was super easy, and I made FAR too much money for what I was doing. It was good experience, though, and I made some amazing references for when I start looking for a job in my field, however.

What I did get, is my old job back at Speedway. Speedway, for those of you that don't know, is a chain of gas station / convenience stores in the Midwest. The job is easy, the only thing making it difficult is when I get shitty customers, or when I work with people that are inept at the simplest of tasks. I'll probably make a rant journal about the job sometime soon, but if you follow me on twitter (you totally should) you've seen me go on and on about the job.

Luckily, My shift leader, store manager, and District manager are all pushing for me to be promoted to a shift leader because the store I work in needs one. The only downside about that is a requirement for a shift leader is the availability of coming into work at a moments notice in case someone calls in sick. Currently, I can't because of school. Also, I'd be getting a minimum of 35 hours a week, which is FAR too much with my current school load. Either way, I can't get the promotion until I'm done with this semester, so this summer will be a nice money-making experience.

And last but not least, I've found love~

It's found in the oddest places, too.

Through the internet, I've made a bunch of friends. It was inevitable that one of them would eventually get me into My Little Pony. After becoming addicted to it, I ventured onto an IRC network that is centered around the show. From there, I was thrown into a world I hadn't yet quite explored yet. I hadn't been on IRC before and was making friends left and right.

This is where comes in.

See, I met him on one of the RP channels, and at first, I thought he was kind of an arrogant, abrasive kind of person. Then I realized that a lot of the people on the IRC network were just bland, boring people, and he stood out because of how charismatic he was.

Over the course of... a while (I honestly forgot how long it was <_<;; )) we talked, and talked.... and talked, and found that we had a lot in common. A LOT in common, and became fast friends.

More time passed and I started to develop feelings for him. Silly me, I know, falling for someone I had only talked to online for a few 5/6 months online, but I did. Long story short, he felt the same way about me, and we had one of those online relationships going on.

Now, I've done the whole online relationship thing before, and it's... alright I guess. But it's not what I want. I want a REAL relationship, with physical contact and the whole 9 yards, but the distance between us prevented that.

Skip ahead to August of last year, first full weekend. This was the weekend of GenCon. The biggest gaming convention in the world(?) and it's held in my back yard, Indianapolis. Needless to say, not going would be foolish of me, so of course I went like I do every year. was able to save up enough dough to get a plane ticket up here, and visit for the first time while going to the convention.

I was scared shitless.

I was meeting the guy for the first time I was head over heals for, and I didn't know how well it was going to go.

It went so much better than I had ever have planned. From the second he landed in Indianapolis, we were chatting the whole time, talking like we had known each other for years. The entire convention we were holding hands (when he stopped being so shy about PDA) and enjoyed everything. The only down side was we were staying at a friend's apartment down in Indy, along with 5 other people, so there wasn't much room for privacy.

After he went back home, I was in a strange mix of emotions. I was so very happy that we enjoyed each other in real life as much as we do online, and it gave me hope that the relationship was actually going to work, not just look good on paper. But I was also depressed as hell, because now he was away.

Luckily, he was able to visit for a week during Christmas break. For a whole week, I had him at my house, he hung around my friends, and it felt like, well, life. It wasn't anything overly special, but it was everything I could ever want. We went out to eat, shopped, talked, cuddled, slept in the same bed, and basically just lived life together with each other for a whole week and it was everything I could ever want and more. I won't go into specific details, but we were very close.

As all good things go, though, it had to come to an end and he went back home so he could go back to school and whatnot.

So that brings us to now. and I are closer than ever, and making plans on moving in together as fast as possible. Also, he just had a birthday, today in fact! And I got him some art from a couple of awesome, talented artists.

Our Icons came from

And my Birthday for Skyesby commission came from the amazing

Go check out both of of them, you really should. :3

Uhm... that's about all I can think of rambling on so early in the morning, if you read all of it, you get a cookie. c:

So, I got this new job thing now which means that I have money. So I says to myself, "Self! (That's why I call myself, Self) You should live it up a little. Why not get one of them there commissions you're always swooning over."

Yeah. That sounds great.

That's where you come in. I have no clue who the fuck to commission. I follow all these neat-o people on fur affinity, but I dunno who I should get art done by. Suggestions would be awesome. :3

I like Ponies... D:

Start with 100% and subtract 1% for everything that you've done.
Then repost as your __% Virgin Innocent. Lowest number you have, the more you've done!

100%

(x) Smoked.
(x) Drank alcohol.
(x) Cried when someone died.
(x) Been drunk.
(x) Had sex.
(x) Been to a concert.
( ) given a handjob.
(x) gotten a handjob.
(x) given a blowjob.
(x) gotten a blowjob.
( ) Been verbally/sexually harassed.
( ) Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 91%

(x) felt someone up and/or been felt up.
(x) Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
(x) Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
(x) Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
(x) Been to prom.
(x) Cried at school.
( ) Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
(x) Went streaking.
(x) Given or received a lap dance.
(x) Had someone of the opposite/same sex in your room.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 82%

(x) Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
(x) Slept over at someone of the same sex's house.
(x) Kissed a stranger.
(x) Hugged a stranger.
( ) Went scuba diving.
(x) Driven a car.
(x) Gotten an x-ray.
( ) Hit by a car.
(x) Had a party
( ) Done serious hard drugs.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 75%

(x) Played strip poker/darts.
( ) Got paid to strip for someone.
( ) Run away from home.
( ) Broken a bone.
(x) Eaten sushi.
(x) Bought porn.
(x) Watched porn.
( ) Made porn.
(x) Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
(x) Been in love.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 69%

(x) Made out.
(x) Laughed so hard you cried.
(x) Cried yourself to sleep.
( ) Laughed yourself to sleep.
( ) Stabbed yourself.
(x) Shot a gun.
(x) Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
(x) Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
(x) Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
( ) Watched an animal die.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 62%

( ) Watched a person die.
(x) Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person.
(x) Pranked somebody.
( ) Put somebody in the hospital.
( ) Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
(x) Kissed somebody of the same sex.
( ) Dressed punk.
(x) Dressed goth.
( ) Dressed preppy.
(x) Been to a motocross race.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 57%

(x) Avoided somebody.
(x) Been stalked.
( ) Stalked someone.
(x) Met a celebrity.
(x) Ridden a horse.
( ) Cut yourself.
( ) Bungee jumped.
(x) Ding dong ditched somebody.
(x) Been to a wild party.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 51%

( ) Got caught stealing something.
( ) Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.
( ) Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
(x) Gone out with your friend's crush.
( ) Got arrested.
( ) Been pregnant.
( ) Made a girl pregnant.
(x) Babysat.
(x) Been to another country.
( ) Started your house on fire.
( )Had an encounter with a ghost.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 48%

(x) Donated your hair to cancer patients.
( ) Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
(x) Cried over a member of the opposite/same sex.
(x) Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months.
(x) Sat on your butt all day.
( ) Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
(x) Had a job.
( ) Gotten cut from a sports team.
(x) Been called a whore.
( ) Danced like a whore

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 42%

( ) Been mistaken as older than your own age.
(x) Been in a car accident.
(x) Been told you have beautiful eyes.
(x) Been told you have beautiful hair.
( ) Raped somebody.
(x) Danced in the rain.
(x) Been rejected.
(x) Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
(x) Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
( ) Been raped.

FINAL PERCENTAGE: 35%

Not sure what that means, but that's higher than some other people's I've seen.