Gonna get into the groove of drawing again, and I SWEAR im gonna finish this damn picture even if it kills me.


I reformatted my comp not to long ago and lost all my projects.

but I like to think of it as a fresh start rather than a loss.

A phoenix from the ashes if you will.


Just started working on Passionate Aftersex again, and THIS time, im gonna FINISH IT.

Woo.


I've been drawing stuff lately, but I keep losing interest, also just finished my newest Musical Album, availiable for free here: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=7I8D5LDD


I've been trying to finish that catgirl picture I lined a while back, and I have been lining some FanArt for Fenoxo's Corruption of Champions.

Now, I know I suck at this whole art thing, but for some reason I feel as if I HAVE to do this picture, and I don't even know why...

maybe because i'm a big fan of the game, maybe because I need to have some small sort of visual aid with this Text-based adventure, but whatever it is, it's spawning the most hardcore picture i've ever conceived, complete with D+ sized breasts, a Dick, and Vagina.

Also, a Syringe and maybe some piercings....and small demoness horns...and.. like, a Canine face or something.

This game is based heavily around Transformation, so i'm trying to mix a lot of that in there...

I dunno if that picture will ever see the Light of Day, but hey, you never know.

Gah, you know what I hate about myself?

The fact that I get sooooo mad over things I really shouldn't get mad about.


And of course it's comes to bite me in the ass, especially when i'm just voicing other peoples opinions.


Something happened in my D&D group (Yeah, I play D&D, fuck off, I like it and it's fun.)

where we were all waiting for a game to happen, but then the DM decided to make the game without checking with us, regarding whether we were available on the day or not, and everyone complained about it, but not to the DM, they complained about it to me, and so, since no one decided to say anything or than "Sorry i'm busy that day." I decided to address the issue.


But what did I get? The DM getting mad at me, and saying my complaint was completely invalid, not only that, but no one decided to back up my claims, one even took the side of the DM, even AFTER we talked beforehand.

I hate that shit, SOOO MUCH, I hate that I took all the heat, but I guess that's my fault for telling the DM the concerns of the people.

My bad, so I can only assume that I shall not be playing for a long time, considering the DM himself said I was insulting him, and that he went out of his way to invite me. (His invitation was sent to me over one text, to which I replied "hell yeah!")

Fuck it. I'm sooo angry right now. and I shouldn't be, I shouldn't be pissed off at all right now, I should be happy, or sleeping or something.

But i'm not.

Gah, you know what I hate about myself?

The fact that I get sooooo mad over things I really shouldn't get mad about.


And of course it's comes to bite me in the ass, especially when i'm just voicing other peoples opinions.


Something happened in my D&D group (Yeah, I play D&D, fuck off, I like it and it's fun.)

where we were all waiting for a game to happen, but then the DM decided to make the game without checking with us, regarding whether we were available on the day or not, and everyone complained about it, but not to the DM, they complained about it to me, and so, since no one decided to say anything or than "Sorry i'm busy that day." I decided to address the issue.


But what did I get? The DM getting mad at me, and saying my complaint was completely invalid, not only that, but no one decided to back up my claims, one even took the side of the DM, even AFTER we talked beforehand.

I hate that shit, SOOO MUCH, I hate that I took all the heat, but I guess that's my fault for telling the DM the concerns of the people.

My bad, so I can only assume that I shall not be playing for a long time, considering the DM himself said I was insulting him, and that he went out of his way to invite me. (His invitation was sent to me over one text, to which I replied "hell yeah!")

Fuck it. I'm sooo angry right now. and I shouldn't be, I shouldn't be pissed off at all right now, I should be happy, or sleeping or something.

But i'm not.

I REALLY need to finish these damn pictures, I mean, I start working on them, but then I kinda just, stop.


I don't know....


BUT NO, I MUST DO THIS, So HOPEFULLY, Expect a couple of pictures in the upcoming week.

And, if everything goes the way I want it, Passionate Aftersex will FINALLY BE COMPLETE!


MUHUHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!


FEEL THE WRATH OF MY CRAPPY CREATIVITY!

So I just got back from the hospital for Attempted Suicide, and all I gotta say is this..


Don't try to run headfirst into traffic, your natural "Survival" instincts will kick in and send the WEIRDEST feeling throughout your body.

Also, don't text everyone before you do it, because you'll get calls and "sarcastic" texts like "Dang man, it was almost your birthday." and "Uh, Why?"

Or, maybe you'll have that 'Friend" who calls the cops on you, and then forces you to go to the hospital.

Hope that asshole pays for the bills.

I'm Done.


I am broken.

This is the worst i've ever felt in a long time, and I don't want to feel this way anymore.

So this could be the last thing I ever post on here.

Sorry it wasn't a picture or anything, I kept trying to draw something but it just isn't working.

Come tomorrow, I think i'm finally going to finish what I started a couple years ago.

Goodbye everybody, hope your lives aren't as painful as mine was.



-Brent William Lindhe A.K.A. Kreyowitz

So I went to Comicon today, and I printed out 42 copies of my artwork, 21 were full color copies of my stuff here, the other 21 were sketches I drew on the fly.

I put my "sig" on them and my Email, and within an hour all the pictures had been taken.


It was the happiest I have been in a LONG time.


At first I went to the convention thinking, "Man, I can't wait to sell these!"

Then I started thinking....


I would rather have someone look at my art and WANT to pay me, rather than me FORCING them to pay me for my art.

So I gave them all away for free.

Never felt better.

Sorry I haven't posted anything on here in a while, been busy doing stupid crap in real life, and I can't seem to find any motivation for drawing lately, its kinda dumb really.


Anyways I shall be leaving this Wednesday for two whole weeks, so expect nothing to come up here during that time, no pics, no art, no journals, nuffin'.

Hopefully I can finish these next two pictures before I leave, I need some motivation, damnit.

Anywho.... I know not very many people are gonna be reading this, but hey, at least I try to update whoever IS reading this! lol.

Also, so far my friend hasn't talked to me about selling my art at Comicon while i'm gone, he has made no effort to get copies made or anything, so I have a major feeling he isn't going to do anything for me on that front, then again, it's to be expected, he seems to love making empty promises.


Know anyone like that?

Yeah, I hate 'em too.

That's it for now, everyone have an awesome week! :3

So apparently, my free hand isn't as BAD as I thought it was...

Drew my first furry girl on paper yesterday! :3

Anyways, I have started working on my next picture, "Passionate Aftersex" and apparently on Monday I gotta go make copies of some of my pictures to sell at the Phoenix Comicon, which I'll hopefully be going to, on May 26th til May 30th.

A friend of mine said he thought my pictures were good, so he wants me to sell them, I said "If people think it's good enough to buy, i'm happy with that!"

Hence the selling of teh pictures.

Hopefully I can get "P.A." done and colored before Monday, that way I can get some copies to sell.


(UPDATE: Will not be able to make it to COMICON, but hopefully my friend can still sell some of my stuff there, that is, if he doesn't bitch out on me.)

And it's really depressing!



I LOVE IT.

But it doesn't feature furries, so I can't post it here.

i'll link it in a while...

I have a couple of ideas that I want to use, but i'm not sure which one I should do....


My next drawing is going to be Passionate Aftersex, but i'm not sure if I should make like, a 4/5 page comic of it, or if i should just do ONE picture.

I think the emotion is conveyed a little more through the comic, since I can hit all the schweet spots.

but one picture isn't bad either.... but still...


What do you all think?

Well, I started drawing a test picture to try out my new line art idea, and it TOTALLY DIDN'T WORK AT ALL.


Which probably means I need to vary it a little, because when i tried it on Cherry, it looked BEAUTIFUL, BUT, when I use it on Vanessa it's not so great, PROBABLY because she's so LIGHT..


ugh, anyways, I know no one reads these. so i'll just pour out some more stupid shit to say.

Have you ever drawn something that makes you feel awesome. then you browse the internet and find pics that makes your art look like total shit?

yeah, all day, everyday for me/


BUT!

BUT, sometimes, you come across something so BAD that it makes you feel really good, hahahah.

Anyways, gonna take a break from drawing stuff for now, mostly because drawing that last one took a chunk outta me, especially when no one said ANYTHING about it.

I'm not afraid to admit it, i'm an attention whore, but it's not just that I like hearing about my art, I really DO need feedback on it, otherwise I have NO CLUE if i'm making anything worthwhile to look at.

Whatever, this is longer than it should be, so PEACE!

So yeah, after browsing teh intarwebs, I realized just how much my art FUCKING SUCKS.


Anyways, the Vanessa/Cherry hold hands picture is taking a HELL OF A LOT LONGER than I wanted it to, mostly because I remembered I CAN'T SEEM TO DRAW HANDS, GOD DAMNIT.

Wow...just realized something, whenever I think of something to draw, or something to modify when I draw.... I kind of act it out....like, my face tilts to the position I plan on drawing and I make the face and shit... what the hell...


Ok, anyways gonna try something a little newer on this picture with Vanessa and Cherry, and HOPEFULLY it will turn out as planned.


If not, whatever.

Plus, I already have another picture planned with those two, and it looks fucking beautiful in my head...

let's hope my mouse and hands feel the same way.

Okay updates, thoughts and feelings, let's do this.


I'm gonna try and create a new girl by tomorrow, hopefully I can draw a bunny, or maybe a squirrel...

I dunno, we'll see I guess.

I think i'm gonna make the new girl and Cherry lesbian lovers or something.

Now, the only REAL reason i'm doing this, (go ahead and call me a loser, I won't defend myself, lol.)
is because I know, for a FACT, that I am going to die alone, and for some weird reason, drawing girls that are happy with each other, brings me some sort of accomplished feeling, like I made someone else happy.

I dunno, it's a weird thing with me, seeing girls happy, makes ME happy, even if they aren't real, or if they aren't with me.


Anyways, been off my game today, been spending almost a half an hour trying to draw a good looking face for the bunny girl and it's not coming out right, maybe i'll just start over from scratch. I'll figure it out when i get there.

Anyways, TL;DR, I know, but hopefully i'll have them both up in a picture, or just the new girl in a picture by herself.

I'll make them hug, :3

Well I guess since I've only just recently posted something on here, I thought I might as well put down some thoughts and updates on this little journal here.

First things first, all my artwork is drawn by mouse, no hand-drawn tablet stuff.

Secondly, I guess I can do commissions, I mean, I don't require money for it, then again, I don't think teh quality is good enough to ask for money anyways, lol.

Third, if you DO ask for a commission, please allow me to take a while on it, since my life can get kinda random and I'll never know when things will get done.

Unless i'm in a kick-ass mood, then I can usually get things done within a day.

Lastly, I am currently working on a Sexy Rainbow Dash picture which will feature the FIRST BUTT i've EVER drawn.

EVER.

So far I have a lot of the line work done for it. and the butt is looking good.

So yeah, things are cool lately, and hopefully they shall stay that way!

Kreyowitz signing off.

FEELING AWESOME RIGHT NOW, SO AWESOME THAT I CAN'T SEEM TO TYPE CORRECTLY.


ANYWAYS, My first ever Furry girl is posted and people liked IT, OMGAH.


Feeling pretty sweet right now, so i'm going to go see if I can draw some more....considering my drawing skills vary from day to day.

Also, if your reading this please look at some of the music I posted as well, I worked hard on thems.