Hey guys, once again....again, apologize for the depressive journal title, I've been getting very bad psychotic thoughts lately, and I think its from jealousy. I think its because a friend of mine hasn't been replying to me like he used to, but its also because I don't want to go spamming crazy like I did back in 2016, but by not replying, I almost feel like he's bored with me, or he thinks I'm bored with him. but still what he said got me so fucking angry......

Everyone, Net Neutrality is almost down next week, We need to be prepared to ration anything you got stored, so....... DO IT NOW BEFORE ITS TOO LATE!!!! D: "screaming" DX

Kitty Shadow:"Screaming in panic around in circles" D:

Man was today my lucky day! my uncle just suddenly showed up to check my AC and when he went to check my AC, he saw that the blower piece was out of place and he puts it back after we kept testing the AC, and now my AC is fixed! :D Yay! X3 "happy bunny dance" X3 though still my mom's AC is still no good, hopefully that repair man can come to check the situation, but yay anyway! XD

My Ac just went kaput..... FUCKING GREAT!!!!! JUST FUCKING GREAT!!!

man this was hard to decide, but some tough choices had to be made, even of my friend wanted to help me, I hate to do this to him after all the hard work I was doing, but now I just wanna go back to drawing what I love. was my decision either ok or stupid, idk, life can be a bitch sometimes, that I have to acknoledge

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FdFpAp2pLUk

Ok.....So, I didn't paid attention a challenge that is somehow recently trending, I only done the Harlem Shake back at high school, some of my own family members did the Ice Bucket Challenge, but this challenge is........idk stupid? because who wants to snort a freaking condom up their nose and take it out from their mouths? this challenge is dumb as fuck.......and also really dangerous, kids and teens shouldn't even be doing these types of challenges, but sadly its the world we live in....... so yeah, all everyone can do is tell kids to never snort condoms up their noses, if they know what's good for them.

Ok so the other day I told you all that I had a job and that I wasn't sure, well guess what, I am 100% sure I can't do this job, even as simple as architect, my friend/boss opened this company since 2016, but there the way it is right now, I don't think I can do this, plus I have to wrk on Saturdays and Fridays, that's it, and that wrecks my weekend plans down the drain, I have friend who I have knows since high school and some since college, and I am not prepared to lose them over this job, it may sound incredibly stupid for me to say that, but it is not worth it, I would rather work weekdays thanks just Fridays and Saturdays, so that way my weekends can be free, and I have a viernes Santo where I have to work on that day. its really eating me alive.

Ok, A few days ago a dear old friend of mine offered me a job when I was telling about my situation, it was an job for an architect, though..... is it worth it? I know he did to help me with my job issue, but building an arck reactor, but in my part that I was assigned early a Tesla coil, sounds simple to build, but without a actual one, I can't do the other parts. and no its for a school project, its for a presentation in a expo in Switzerland, but science and me don't mix well, and I don't have a problem with science, I'm just not that good with science, but doing calculus, method, the schematics are ok since they're blue prints, but everything else..... yeah that's putting me in stress, and I can see he has put a lot of work into it, he even said that after this projec, he was gonna open a video game company (which I found perfect) but I wish he could have hired me when he was doing that, not this arck reactor thing. "Sigh" why am I nervous wreck, and I shouldn't be, but again, and I'll say it, Science and me don't mix well.

Hey guys, just to a little knowing on by the title of the journal says "Well.... I'm "Canned" " Its because I got a call from my mom that when she was calling her to tell her that I'm staying home today, but then she said that he needs to come here to clean up the mess he made, you wanna know what mess I made.....I forgot to take out 10 cans of Coca-Cola from the freezer to then later put them in the fridge....So yeah I'm screwed, now I have to go tomorrow now to clean up my mess that I have made, but after that's done, I think I won't be going back to my aunt's house ever again because of what I did. I've been too focused on my work that I completely forgot to take cans out, I'm not being hard on myself, I'm just questions now "Am I this stupid" and the answer is..... yes. so like the title, I'm canned.

Ok, so far after being 5 months without doing anything, worrying about my laptop's consumption for battery power, and all of the other shit that happened, I can't of anything draw, plus my muscle anatomy skill are rusty.

Hey guys, sorry If I'm bringing up from what happened yesterday, and I know you all said don't everything's fine and stuff, but me I feel like I just couldn't take this guilty feeling, the animation that I was doing wasn't from an ammeter project, it was for a small ad for 7Up, and aI screwed it up for taking too long, a freaking 5 second animation what was given me, I did the first one, I was doing a second one with characters, and yet when I try to do that one, it took me too long, I was having thought that if I had just done was just animating cans, I could gotten the job, but no.... I wanted to do something more, and even after losing it, I till get insulted by my mother... saying I don't do anything or that I'm a fat, lazy good-for-nothing..... I feel so depressed that I just wanna end it, I always get these feelings and thought of depression....Finding a job within my expertise and in Puerto Rico, of all places....with everything this hurricane did, I just don't know what to do......I feel like I let my whole family down "crying" I feel like I'm a lying disappointment to my mom.......I DON"T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!! "crying"

Well...."Sigh" I screwed up big time, I just lost the job opportunity, someone took it.....FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK! Can I do anything right!? I swear I must the most laziest and incompetent human being on the face of the planet!

Ok, since last year, i’ve been without power for, how long? 5 months, until today, yup, ladies and gentlefurries, I GOT MY POWER BACK!!!!! :D WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! 0o0 :3 yup! X3 i am back!

Hey everyone! Sorry for not keeping you all informed last year and these last few days, been kinda busy, and a bos distracted with my NINTENDO SWITH ! OwO... “ahem” anyways i’ve been having a hard time thinking about what to draw, and so far my attempt to find a job has some bumps along the way, so yeah, this little bunny is still unemployed.... Sadly, but anyways, i’ ve been doodling to have some kdea of what to do draw, but havig a very difficukt time with the fact that my aunt has cameras in her bedroom, kitchen and living room because oof her cats, also, if anyone has any ideas, let me know and thanks for taking your time ^^ bye bye~ 😘

i wish everyone a happy new year, and may 2018 bring you love and joy to alll of you! :D

Kitty Shadow:Yay! :D “rolling around and squealing like a silly fluffy kitty” XD

Hey guys.... Sorry for sad journal entry, i just been feeling really lousy, i haven’t been to draw anything due to the conditions i’m in, i can’t even take the time to draw anything all by myself, if I wanted to, i keep falling asleep on my friends on Skype because of me. sometimes i feel like crawling in a space and cry, other part of me is slapping me in the face and just stay strong, but really, I’m depressed about everything, with the world. I feel like......”sigh” here I go again, look, all I’m saying is that with the hurricane season being next year and if what if this new hurricane that may or may not happen, actually puts Puerto Rico even worse, i already have a bad time looking for a job here at home, but now with how America is turning into, i feel like I have no hope for the future, no hope for anything, i mean, what’s the point in reaching for your future if there are others in power who only want to make people suffer because of greed, i feel like i should just retire from drawing and just die, but that would make me looks like a quiter before I could get a job. I’m just upset ok? I’m upset with everything, i wish my life was back to being what it was before this stupid hurricane changed it all.

(note: i’m justventing out what I’m feeling, so its fine)

There’s a video feed on Facebook, its about the Net Neutrality repeal.

Hey everyone, just thought let you all that WE ARE ONE FREAKING AWAY BEFORE FUCKFACE PAI REPEALS NET NEUTRALITY!!!!! D:

Kitty Shadow: D: “screaming in fear in a circle” DX

If you all don’t know what Net Neutrality is, then let me show you what iit means in definition.

Net Neutrality:
the principle that Internet service providers should enable access to all content and applications regardless of the source, and without favoring or blocking particular products or websites.

Idk if there’s anyone who already know what Net Neutrality is, but this is just merely a refresher.

There’s a petition on Change.org where you can sign it and the vote will increase, also, go to battleforthenet.com to where you can call your local congressman and tell them why you don’t want Net Neutrality to be kllled.

(I need to find the links)

Well people, its Thanksgiving again, i hope everyone is looking forward to the food, the big turkey and how much you all wanna stuff your faces with that turkay XD, me, kinda different, well let’s see what today has in store for me and everyone, enjoy everyone, and Happy Thanksgiving

Hey guys, sorry for updating since September and October, been distracted lately, also, to let you all know, i still don’t have pwer back at my place its gonna be now 2 months withoutpower at my place, so far there are days where My mom and ai have been staying at my aunt’s place rpfor a bit, plus looks like Puertorrican government has been going under fire a few weeks ago. But also or seems like the electric company and the other ones from America are now fixing in the gloria, which is not far from where I live, so there might be a chance that i’ll get my electricity back.

Hey everyone, sorry for not responding, but i got good news, i got signal again, Finalleh! XD also its Hallowee, so i wish you all a happy halloween and night full of frights also, the governor canceled the contract with Whitefish electrics, you can say it was a “fishy” situation ;3 , lol! XD but yeah the electricty may a bit late, uhg! Also my aunt has now power, but she has no internet nor cable, so yeah that sucks for her. Also, i almost feel like i’m used to this way of living, and me no likey that! O_O anyways, i’ll keep you all updated with anything that can sound good. Thanks ^^

Well i got some good news, my phone providers sent a post on Facebook a new list of the places in which they’ll fix the cell service and that now inclides where I live! :3 yay! XD also one Saturday ago my mom and I saw something really strange, while it was raining and getting misty, there was a really aminous orage glow that just covered the whole place, and that was late in the evening, i swear, have anyone ever seen something like that at all? Its so creepy and almost something out of a horror film or something, all that’s missing is a Zombie to complete that.

FINALLY I can post a damn journal here!!!!!!!!! Man being three weeks off after returning from Tampa as shelter fucked up, i had crash with my mom’s cousin in lakeland just for only we can return!! Good thing my mom bought a trackphone brand smartphone while we did. But it can only get good singal away from where i live, and IT SUCKS!!!! I can’t even watch damn youtube only here where my mom works or anywhere, but wow, you will not believe the crazy shit, plus remember when i sais that i got my data back? Turns out it only freaking applies to America! Since my phone provider are somewhat licked to Verison Wireless. But overall I’m fine, my house is still in one peice, just THE WHOLE DAMN LEAVES were blown off their branches and now their starting to grow again, but holy fuck if i had photos of when Maria came in, everyone and everything is fucked up. But slowly recovering, but the goverment here is a peice of shit....... and don’t get me started with whatelse happened here. Anyways just wanna let you guys know. ^^

Sorry for the slow updates since then, but i got good news, looks like i’ll be able to head back tomorrow, and my phone provider is not gonna cut my data until new further updates have been issued, plus hospitals back in Puerto Rico have been working again, supermarkets have been getting heir power back to provide peoduce and other necesities to customers, 681 out of 1001 gas stations have been re-opening, but they’re running on generators ^^; they gorvernor Ricky Rossello has been able to send trailers with suplies to the isoalted areas where people are trapped and now are getting the things they need, the truck driver somehow involed sith the electric company, or i thinks its what ai know of, i’m correct, plus looks there are some places with Data, but Trujillo Alto isn’t mentioned,yet. And also they lifted a ban on alcohol sales during the crisis, so now people can now drink again and get drunk! :D lol jk, but overall, everything is slowly improving, not fast, but at least its something ^^