I really want and need feedback and just want to know if coming back here would be an good idea

I couldn't get into my account but now the 3rdeye shaman is back. I have missed you all and I have a fuck tone of things to show you guys .

Well every one im back. For the pass two week i could say i been trying to get my life in order first with me and my mate to my classes and work but now that all that is kinda over i'm back with new poetry and the 3rd eye. I know many of you probably don't remember me or even like to read poetry and your just here to look at the art of other furs but TRUST me when i say this my poetry will open your mind and heart to new things just open up and let your mind wonder while your eyes read

Many use this word alot...i use to too but now its like i means nothing to ppl and starting to mean less to me too.I think to myself about all of the people i met while on fa and i have to say i met some great fur's some could be life long friends but other's have only caused pain to me and my state of life (you could say)...sigh i know i post alot of sad shit or shit people dont care about but today i wanna talk about those fur's who i thought were my friends but wasnt. one thing i can say i learned from FA is that friends come and go like the wind sad to day but its true but one thing i can say is that Old Mama kuri was right when she said ," Some people come into your life for a reason others for just a season its up to you to tell which it is bc when your sun set baby it's set so enjoy your light while you got it" weird but oh so true...SO to get to the point im saying this here and now IF I CALL YOU MY FRIEND YOU ARE MORE THEN THAT YOU ARE MY FAMILY so if your willing to toss our friendship to the side because you get a new pet,master,boyfriend,girlfriend,mate,slave, or whatever just know your still my family but your season has pass and i hope we met again on better terms

welll guys thats my rant like it or not you guys are my family and i love you so chat me im always willing to give you my time and i dont mean bullshit time like i note you then you note me then its like we dont talk i mean real time i got a cell and skype feel free to use them bc i know and hope you would do the same

Truthfully I just want to have sex, smoke weed and write poetry all day.
With one hand to a pen
And the other cupped on a breast
I'd be intoxicated with clouded misconceptions resting on my chest.
I could feel what's real with every stroke of my pen.
A lady's legs tangled around my brown body.
Words wrapped around my head.
Smoke trapped in my lungs.
Beautiful hands rubbing my neck.
I would die happy.
If I was able to express this to others.
But like most,
People are consumed with funny green paper.
And forming ulcers in there guts.
Stressing over student loans
And things that remain out of their control.
While here I am,
Writing out my hearts desires.
Dreaming about the pure and simple things in life.
Like sex after breakfast
And reading books in bed.

High above the clouds I reflect
As the sun shines and reflects off my window
This moment is all that I need to know
I’m at peace
And nothing matters
Thousands of feet in the air
Closer to heaven than I was on the ground
Mellow and calm tones soothe my ears
Oblivious to other sounds
This moment is all that I need, finally I found
My peace
And nothing matters
I no longer feel the need to explode or release
The worries of the world are beneath me
Temporary disconnection from society
I’m at peace
And nothing matters
Admiring the beauty of the sun
As I look through my window
Cruising above the clouds
I’m enveloped with a sense of serenity
Nothing can take this peace away from me
Because, nothing else matters…

My bday was to day

Well i been in the hospital for over a week and i had time to think about alot of things from my pet moving and growing away from to my friend going to jail to my mate death thats coming up soon but this is not my vent MY VENT IS IN MY POEMS i will post 2 parts to my vent now and the other 2 will come tomorrow also plez guy read it

I been feeling like shit for 3 days I been blood shot pain it's like my fucking cells are ripping at my organs..-hood side- right now I min so much pain I'm crying I had no one I could talk to this it hurts so much

i dream of many things but one thing i hopee to dream of is a better feeling the pass few days i been having this bad feeling in my belly idk what it is but its been sending sharp pain into me its gotten to where i cant eat sigh...i dont have many ppl i can talk to about this maybe someone who care can help me out alil

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4894625/

Well guy this is the best sell i can give you as being a poet
Her deals are one of a kind bc i think all those are one of a kind but STILL support a fur by Buying something cute

I want to go away, Fade into black nothing. I am so overwelmed with it all. Life is so much work. All this energy I hold inside. I can no longer keep my eyes dry. Crying, crying. Crystal tears run down my cheeks, The cheeks that are a burning red. You see me in the corner, And comes over to see what's wrong. But you walk away happy that you didn't have to help, When I put on a fake smile and tell you it's nothing. But it is something. Everything. And you are not a true friend, Walking away when I clearly can't handle this alone. So I cry even more, Wailing and groaning. Kicking, Screaming, Punching the walls till my knuckles bleed. Still you don't care, You are afraid I will talk to you And expect you to listen. But that's all I could ever want. To talk. To talk, And be heard. After i'm done crying, I go into a deep depression. Curled up the corner, All my posters torn. All the lights are off, I don't want the light. You gently knock on the door, Like you are against your will. The door creeps open, And you slowly walk in. Your footsteps echo throughout the room. *Boom, boom, boom* Your boots slowly walk twards me. You sit next to me, And hesatate to place your hand on my shoulder. I don't move, My body is pale and cold. A blade lays next to me, My wrist are red with spilt blood. Your hand starts to shake, I can hear your heartrate increase. Tears run down your cheeks, Your vioce so shakey and meek as you speak "H-hey, you alright?" I stay still, My mind is racing But it all comes to a dead halt. All I can do is lay there, Wanting with all my might to tell you. Tell you what is happening to me, What is hurting me so much. But I have a huge lump of ice in my throat, To sharp to swallow. So I don't say anything. And you start to get angry, Your voice changes. Changes to a gruff and nasty tone. "What is wrong with you?!" You scream, And storm out of the room. You don't know how much I wanted to tell you. Tell you everything. But I never will, I'll just keep everything to myself. And hope that is all goes away, Keep telling myself it will all go away. Go away!. Go away!

Stress doesn't kill, it murders.
Stress doesn't weaken, it crushes.
Stress doesn't hurt, it demolishes.
Stress is extremely destructive and harmful.
To be at peace, one must let stress go.
Stress is tied to anger.
Stress is tied to pain.
Stress is tied to love, and health, and the lack of.
To let go of stress, one must let go of all emotion.
But one is only human.

sigh i dont know what to do right now just i got alot on my mind and idk what to do....I wanna cry but it would be a waste

I stay up late
And i chainsmoke
Blunts
Because im not
Excited
For tomorrow
I'd like to stay in the
Soft velvet of 4 am
Where everything
Is so much more
Painful
And i can
Deal with it as i
Choose

I got my internet back so i can upload my work and i can talk to you all i miss you all if you missed me....SHIT even if you didnt miss me i still miss you

I dont have net or cable right now so im bored only being about to get on skype with my phone or ipod when i turn on the hot spot but how is that really fun. so i said fuck that! and found me some free wifi.......but soon i will head back to the dark and scary no wifi having house i call home

im crying

IM STAYING

I havent really made to many friends on here....so if ANY of you would like to be friends or give me the chance to become your friend plez let me know