Though we never interacted, though you never met me, or I you, I sincerely thank you for this place called FurAffinity, which has been a home in which my furry self has been able to be developed and flourish over the past 14 years.

I hope wherever you are now, that you are able to rest easily and happily.

Rest in peace.

So I realize I don't post like...At all. Ever.

I'm not an artist, I'm not a writer, so I'm pretty well unknown on this website outside of my enjoyment of peoples incredible skill.

Right now I'm reaching out to the people that do follow me with a request for help, please understand it's not mandatory nor is it expected, really.

I've been in and out of work due to the pandemic since January, and screwed by several employers who did some exceptionally shady shit. That being said, I am really deeply struggling with making ends meet, as unemployment has failed to come through (Thanks NYSDOL...), I am far behind on rent and utilities, and at risk of losing my vehicle as a result.

In total I'm looking at around $1200 to actually catch up and level out... I have created a PayPal fundraiser for this https://www.paypal.com/pools/c/8C752zVmqB

If anyone IS able to assist financially, you would be saving my life. I will put my PayPal and such below...Again, please understand that if you cannot help, that's fine, as I know millions of us are.

PayPal: IMur91
GPay: murray.ian91[at]gmail.com
CashApp: $iKuro91
Venmo: IMur91


Stay Excellent~

So I don't know how many of you are following the situation that has cropped up recently, but Blizzard banned the competitive Hearthstone player, Blitzchung, after he spoke out in solidarity with the Hong Kong protests, wearing a gas mask in support during his interview. They banned him from competing in competitive Hearthstone for a year and took his winnings from the most recent tournament he won. AND THEN THEY TURN AROUND AND LET AMERICAN UNIVERSITY TEAMS HOLD UP A SIGN THAT SAYS "FREE HONG KONG, BOYCOTT BLIZZARD" AS THEY'RE PLAYING AND THERE IS NO PUNISHMENT.

LIKE REALLY? HELLO? Fuck Blizzard. I'm so disappointed in them.

I love being broken up with like, 3 days before Christmas...Awesome..I always end up alone on this stupid holiday...

Well. I just got cut out of someones life for good, because I'm clearly not worth giving another chance to make things right, to fix myself, to do my damn best to fix the fuck up I've created, but no, you go ahead and cut me out of your life, it's not like I even matter anyway.


Now where's my fucking shotgun...

Don't you just love when someone ASKS you to come over to their house, and then blatantly fucking ignores you and has other people over?

Please fuck off. Kthx.

I'm so glad people find that it's okay to blatantly fucking lie to my face about things.

So recently, I've felt disconnected from the fandom...Like, I have neglected to stay in contact with the furries I know both IRL and online...Reason unknown. I just...I feel very DONE with all the drama and retardation. It's almost not so much a disconnection as a distancing. After my last few exe's it's just...Being a furry sometimes feels completely and totally pointless because I'm going to keep dealing with the same dramatics over and over again, and I will never be able to get away from them. At this point; I'm kind of at a loss of what my next move should be.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yFjJTwut23U


FUCK YES. <3

If you have 00-10 ... write [I'm a goody-goody]
If you have 11-20 ... write [I'm still a goody-goody]
If you have 21-30 ... write [I'm average]
If you have 31-40 ... write [I'm a bad kid]
If you have 41-50 ... write [I'm a very bad influence]
If you have 51-60 ... write [I'm a horrible person]
If you have 61-70 ... write [I should be in jail]
If you have 71-80 ... write [I should be dead]
If you have 81-90 ... write [I got a ticket to Hell]



HAVE YOU...

[x] smoked
[x] consumed alcohol
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
[x] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] had sex
[x] had someone in your room other than family
[x] watched porn
[x] bought porn
[x] tried drugs

TOTAL SO FAR: 10

[x] taken painkillers
[] taken someone else's prescription medicine
[x] lied to your parents
[x] lied to a friend
[x] snuck out of the house
[x]done something illegal
[x] felt hurt
[x] hurt someone
[x] wished someone to die
[x]seen someone die

TOTAL SO FAR: 19

[x] been to a wild party
[] been to a Mardi Gras parade
[x] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night
[] had a spring break in Florida
[x] sniffed anything
[x] wore black nail polish
[x] wore arm bands
[x] wore t-shirts with band names
[x] listened to Ra
[] owned a 50 Cent CD

TOTAL SO FAR: 26

[x] dressed gothic
[x] dressed girly
[x] dressed punk
[] dressed grunge
[x] stole something
[] been too drunk to remember anything
[x] blacked out
[x] fainted
[x] had a crush on a neighbor

TOTAL SO FAR: 33

[x] had a crush on a friend
[x] been to a concert
[x]dry-humped someone
[x] been called a slut
[x] called someone a slut
[] installed speakers in a car
[x] broken a mirror
[x] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush

TOTAL SO FAR: 40

[] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper
[x] seen an R-rated movie whilst being underage without your parents consent.
[x] cruised the mall when you were forbidden to do so by those in authority
[x] skipped school
[x] had surgery
[x] had an injury
[x] gone to court
[x] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
[x] caught something on fire
[x] lied about your age

TOTAL SO FAR: 49

[x] owned/rented an apartment/house
[x] broke the law in the police's presence
[x] made out with someone who had a GF/BF
[x] got in trouble with the police
[x] talked to a stranger
[x] hugged a stranger
[x] kissed a stranger
[x] rode in the car with a stranger
[x] been harassed
[x] been verbally harassed

TOTAL SO FAR:59

[x] met face-to-face with someone you met online
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight
[x] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight
[x]been to a fair
[x] been called a bad influence
[x] drank and drove
[x] prank-called someone
[x] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex
[x] cheated on a test

TOTAL IN ALL: 69

Well then....Finding out that one of my best friends got fucked up because of a drunk driver...Yeah, that was a wonderful thing to find out today...I'm just lucky I had friends to get me out of the house and cheer me up....





~~~ <3 <3 R.I.P Viviana Pena, you were one of the best friends I had in high school and I will never forget you...<3 <3 ~~~

Stolen from a lot of people.

1. You can ONLY answer Yes or No .

2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages/comments you and asks. And believe me, the temptation to explain some of these will be overwhelming... things are not exactly as they seem.

3. It is harder than it looks, but NO explanations !!! You will want to... but don't!!!


Kissed any one of your Facebook friends? --- Yes
Been arrested? --- No
Kissed someone you didn't like? --Yes
Slept in until 5 PM? --- Yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? ---Yes
Ran a red light? --- Yes
Been suspended from school? --- No
Experienced love at first sight? --- Yes
Totalled your car in an accident? ---No
Been fired from a job? --- Yes
Fired somebody? ---No
Sang karaoke? --- Yes
Pointed a gun at someone? --- Yes
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? ---Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? --- Yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? --- Yes
Kissed in the rain? --- Yes
Had a close brush with death (your own)? --- Yes
Seen someone die? ---Yes
Played spin-the-bottle? --- Yes
Sang in the shower? --- Yes
Smoked a cigar? --- No
Sat on a rooftop? --- Yes
Taken pictures of yourself naked? ---Yes
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? ---Yes
Skipped school? ---Yes
Eaten a bug? --- Yes
Sleepwalked? -- No
Walked a moonlit beach? ---No
Ridden a motorcycle? ---No
Dumped someone? ---Yes
Forgotten your anniversary? ---No
Lied to avoid a ticket? ---No
Ridden on a helicopter? ---No
Shaved your head? ---No
Blacked out from drinking? ---No
Played a prank on someone? --- Yes
Hit a home run? ---Yes
Felt like killing someone? ---Yes
Cross-dressed? ---No
Been falling-down drunk? ---No
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? ---Yes
Eaten snake? --- No
Marched/Protested? --- No
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? ---No
Puked on amusement ride? ---No
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? --- No
Been in a band? --- No
Knitted? ---No
Been on TV? --- Yes
Shot a gun? ---Yes
Skinny-dipped? --- Yes
Caused someone to need stitches? ---No
Ridden a surfboard? ---No
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? ---No
Had surgery? --- No
Streaked? ---No
Taken by ambulance to hospital? ---No
Passed out when not drinking? ---No
Peed on a bush? --- Yes
Donated Blood? ---No
Grabbed electric fence? ---No
Eaten alligator meat? ---No
Eaten cheesecake? ---Yes
Eaten kids' Halloween candy? ---Yes
Killed an animal when not hunting? --- yes
Peed your pants in public? ---No
Written graffiti? --- No
Still love someone you shouldn't? ---Yes
Think about the future? ---Yes
Been in handcuffs? ---Yes
Believe in love? ---Yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? ---No

Ask if ya want details, I guess, lol.

Comment on this journal and I will.....


1. Respond with something random about you.
2. Tell you which color you remind me of.
3. Tell you my first memory of you.
4. Tell you what animal you remind me of.
5. Ask you something I've always wondered about you.
6. Tell you my favorite thing about you.
7. Tell you what song reminds me of you.
8. Challenge you to post this on your journal.


DEW IT! :3

Reply to this journal!!!!!!


[] Push me into a wall and kiss me?
[] Come To My House To Do Nothing But Chill?
[] Slap Me?
[] Have Hard Core Sex With Me?
[] Slap Me If I Asked You To?
[] Lick/Suck My Neck?
[] Let Me Lick/Suck Your Neck?
[] Watch A Movie With Me?
[] Take Me Out To Dinner?
[] Take A Shower With Me?
[] Take Me Home For The Night?
[] Let Me Sleep In Your Bed?
[] Let Me Sleep In Your Bed (With You)?
[] Take Me Anywhere With You?
[] Repost This For Me To Answer Your Questions?
[] Lock Me In Your room And Take Advantage Of Me?
[] Let me lock you in your room and Take Advantage of you?
[] Make me breakfast?
[] Tickle Me?
[] Let Me Tickle You?
[] Stick Up For Me If Someone Was Being Mean to Me?
[] Instant Message Me?
[] Greet Me In Public?
[] Hang Out With Me?
[] Hold my waist from behind while we are out?
[] Bring Me Around Your Friends?

Do You...
[] Miss Me?
[] Love Me?
[] Think I'm Hot?
[] Think I'm Cute?
[] Think I'm Ok?
[] Think I'm Ugly?
[] Want To Kiss Me?
[] Want To Cuddle With Me?
[] Want To Date Me?
[] Want To Love Me?

Am I...
[] Sweet?
[] Funny?
[] Cool?
[] lovable?
[] Adorable?
[] Great To Be With?
[] Attractive?
[] Mean?

Have You Ever...
[] Thought About Hooking Up With Me?
[] Found Yourself Wanting To Kiss Me?
[] Wished I Were There?
[] Had A Crush On Me?
[] Wanted My Number?
[] Had A Dream About Me?
[] Been Distracted By Me?
[] Thought About Fucking Me?

Are You...
[] Happy You Know Me?
[] Thinking About Me?
[] My Friend
[] A Freak-A-Leak

Stolen from DionWestford. *Giggle*
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
1. Sex in the Morning or Sex at Night?
both. :D

2. Favorite Sex Music?
Silent is better. :3

3. Naughty Pics or Naughty Home Video?
Both. ^^

4. Fabulous Sex With:
People I care deeply for.

5. Vibrator or Dildo?
Vibrator

6. Bedroom Sex: Lights Off or Lights On?
Dimmed.

7. Word preference: Pussy or Cunt?
They both are kinda...Ew...*Insert horrid vagina dentata reference here*

8. Spanking Over the Knee or Spanking Only During Sex?
Only during sex. ;3

9. More Exciting: Sex in an Elevator or Sex in an Airplane?
Elevator, surprise! <3

10. Ron Jeremy or Peter North?
Ew porn stars...

11. Word preference: Cock or Dick?
Either.

12. Linda Lovelace or Jenna Jameson?
I'm gay... o-o;

13. Rope Bondage or Bondage Tape?
Not too into bondage but if I had to choose, rope.

14. Give a Rim Job or Receive Anal Sex?
Both! <3

15. Get Rich Stripping in a Skanky Bar or Get Rich as a Call Girl/Guy for Celebs?
Neither. o-o

16. Which threesome: Boy/Girl/Girl or Boy/Boy/Girl?
Well, Boy/Boy/Boy would work for me. <3 But out of the two Boy/Boy/Girl.

17. Flavored Oil or Tingling Oil?
Tingling <3

18. Pearl Necklace or Swallow?
Swallow.

19. Sex While Strangers Watch or Sex with a Stranger?
I've regrettably done both...Never again. o-o

20. Tied to the Bed or Tied to a St. Andrew’s Cross?
To the bed.

If you have 00-10 ... write [I'm a goody-goody]
If you have 11-20 ... write [I'm still a goody-goody]
If you have 21-30 ... write [I'm average]
If you have 31-40 ... write [I'm a bad kid]
If you have 41-50 ... write [I'm a very bad influence]
If you have 51-60 ... write [I'm a horrible person]
If you have 61-70 ... write [I should be in jail]
If you have 71-80 ... write [I should be dead]
If you have 81-90 ... write [I got a ticket to Hell]

HAVE YOU...

[x] Smoked.
[] Consumed alcohol.
[x] Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
[x] Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
[x] Kissed someone of the same sex.
[x] Had sex.
[x] Had someone in your room other than family.
[x] Watched porn.
[] Bought porn.
[x] Tried drugs.

TOTAL SO FAR: 8

[x] Taken painkillers.
[] Taken someone else's prescription medicine.
[x] Lied to your parents.
[x] Lied to a friend.
[x] Snuck out of the house.
[x] Done something illegal.
[x] Felt hurt.
[x] Hurt someone.
[x] Wished someone to die.
[] Seen someone die.

TOTAL SO FAR: 16

[x] Missed curfew. (never had one. o_O)
[x] Stayed out all night.
[] Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
[x] Been to a therapist.
[] Received a ticket.
[] Been to rehab.
[] Dyed your hair.
[] Been in an accident.
[x] Been to a club.
[x] Been to a bar.

TOTAL SO FAR: 21

[] Been to a wild party.
[] Been to a Mardi Gras parade.
[] Drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
[] Had a spring break in Florida.
[] Sniffed anything.
[] Wore black nail polish.
[x] Wore arm bands.
[x] Wore t-shirts with band names.
[x] Listened to rap.
[] Owned a 50 Cent CD.

TOTAL SO FAR: 24

[x] Dressed gothic.
[] Dressed girly.
[x] Dressed punk.
[] Dressed grunge.
[x] Stole something.
[] Been too drunk to remember anything.
[] Blacked out.
[x] Fainted.
[x] Had a crush on a neighbor.

TOTAL SO FAR: 28

[x] Had a crush on a friend.
[x] Been to a concert.
[x] Dry-humped someone; been dry humped.
[x] Been called a slut.
[x] Called someone a slut.
[] Installed speakers in a car.
[] Broken a mirror.
[x] Showered at someone of the opposites sex's house.
[] Brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush. ewww

TOTAL SO FAR: 32

[] Considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
[x] Seen an R-rated movie.
[x] Cruised the mall.
[x] Skipped school.
[] Had surgery.
[x] Had an injury.
[] Gone to court.
[] Walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping.
[x] Caught something on fire.
[x] Lied about your age.

TOTAL SO FAR: 38

[] Owned/rented an apartment/house.
[] Broke the law in the police's presence.
[x] Made out with someone who had a GF/BF.
[x] Got in trouble with the police.
[x] Talked to a stranger.
[x] Hugged a stranger.
[x] Kissed a stranger.
[x] Rode in the car with a stranger.
[x] Been harassed.
[x] Been verbally harassed.

TOTAL SO FAR: 46

[x] Met face-to-face with someone you met online.
[x] Stayed online for 5+ hours straight.
[x] Talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
[x] Watched TV for 5 hours straight.
[x] Been to a fair.
[x] Been called a bad influence.
[] Drank and drove.
[x] Prank-called someone.
[x] Laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
[x] Cheated on a test.

TOTAL: 55

Lol.

Taken from Sevlowtyak

苦痛は強さ、未熟さを作成する愚かさを作成する。

Pain creates strength, immaturity creates stupidity.

Ok. So I stayed over at a friends house last night with my husky friend John...WOW. 3 furries+another friend of ours=Fun. xD

Basically, it was blasting rave music all night, people with tails, and squeaky toy fights.
Damnit I didn't wanna go home lol. XD

Natural Hair Color:
[x] Brown - $100
[] Blonde - $50
[] Black - $15
[] Bald - $5
[] Other-$75
[] Red - $1000
Total: $100

Eye Color:
[] Brown - $1
[] Green - $75
[x] Blue - $50
[] Hazel - $100
[] Other - $15
Total: $150

Height:
[] Over 7' - $200
[] 6'8" to 7' - $175
[] 6'0" to 6'7" - $150
[X] 5'5" to 5'11" - $75
[]4'9" to 5'4" - $45
[] Under 4'9 - $45
Total: $225

Age:
[] 31 to 40 - $100
[] 26 to 30 - $75
[] 21 to 25 - $50
[] 19 to 20 - $25
[x] 0 to 18 - $100
Total: $325

Birth Order:
[] Twins or more than twins - $300
[x]First Born - $300
[] Only Child - $250
[] second born - $150
[] Middle child-$100
[] Last Born - $100
[] third born - $100
[] fourth born - $100
[] fifth born - $100
[] sixth born - $100
Total: $625

Drink?
[x] No - $400
[] Only Holidays - $250
[] Sometimes - $215 (used to; not anymore)
[] YES - $200
[] Only weekends - $350
[] Every other day - $50
[] Once a day - $15
[] I live from the bottle - $Bankrupt$
Total: $1025

Vision?
[] perfect vision - $300
[] need or have glasses/contacts but dont wear them - $200
[] No correction - $100
[x] Glasses - $50
[] contacts - $25
[] Surgical correction - $1
Total: $1075

Car(s) Color
[] Pink - $2,000
[] Maroon - $800
[] Gold - $700
[] Gray - $600
[] Blue - $900
[] Obsdian - $800
[] White - $475
[] Red - $400
[] Green- $350
[] Silver $300
[] Purple- $250
[] Metallic - $200
[x] Yellow - $100
[] Primer - $75
[] Tan - $20
[] Rusted - $15
[] No Car - $0
[] Other - $ 50
Total: $1175

Shoe Size:
[] 13+ - $300
[x]12.5 to 13 - $250
[] 11 to 12 - $700
[] 7 to 10 - $500
[] Under 7 - $550
Total: $1425

Favorite Color:
[] Black - $450
[] Green-$750
[] Red - $600
[] Yellow -$475
[] Brown - $50
[x] Purple - $225
[] White - $400
[] Aqua - $350
[] Orange - $300
[] Blue - $300
[] Pink - $100
Total: 1650

Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[] Yes - $0
[x]no - $1000
[] on some - $550

Total:$2650


Holy crap..I am an expensive hoe. Lol. XD

Well, things seem to be looking quite up-ish for me as college starting comes closer.
I just recently was hired at Staples, miracle that one was, I never thought I would get hired, but I guess they saw something in me that they liked. =3 I got myself a sexy new laptop as a graduation pressy. WOOT. so sexy it is. x3

Rules:

1) Post these rules
2) Post 8 true things about yourself
3) At the end you must tag 8 people and post their icons
4) Go to their page and send them a message saying you tagged them
5) NO TAG-BACKS


1: I'm a complete computer geek
2: I have a mate that I love with all of my heart <3
3: I have a master aswell who I love very very much. ^_^
4: I would do absolutely anything for my friends
5: I want to own and run my own business one day
6: I love muscular furs, especially wolves. *Grabs his mates paw and winks*
7: I still play RuneScape
8: I am hyper and outgoing online, but I am a shy person irl till I know you well
tagged:

HEY! 8 RANDOM PEOPLE, PLAY THIS WITH ME. I DONT HAVE TIME TO GO TO EVERYONE AND DO THIS, SO YOU CHOOSE FOR ME ^^