I know I know, should be writing and drawing more. Just life is busy at times and sometimes other things is more important. Although be it good news or bad to some. More OCs, Perhaps death of older ones, and new life comes. Akkuna Ma ta ta, Momentai, No worries. 2020 may have been bad yet it gave us time to really think about us as a whole. Humanity, True Colors, and who are we individually. Wish I can just say that suddenly I am as good as an artist as what I want to see myself as or some day will be. Yet sadly past wounds still hunt my mind and no matter what I do. They shall always be with me. Drawing is fun to do, don't get me wrong. Yet so is rp, time with friends, watching a fire at night.
First off some good news that some don't fully know about yet. Inari shall return to his guild at some cost for the pain with others he hurt emotionally. The ninetales will need to beg for forgiveness with tears in his eyes to understand how worried others were about him. Zena will forgive Inari yet things cannot be like they used too. Life is like a ever flowing river where the currents take us, we cannot travel back. Time may heal all wounds yet some get worse from time. Mentors die, so so loved ones or those we hate from past anguish. More good news Rosa a Roserade has joined the guild. So has 13th 9 from a past love. Clues shall be given onto 13th 9 for that is only a nickname to hide some truth that will be a surprise.
Bad news. Death will happen to someone that some know. Yet please do not cry for he was already dead. Tobius the teacher of Inari will be missed yet life goes on and we must look foreword in time with hope of better times to come. Fear drives us to do foolish things or smart. Depends on who is afraid. Sorry old friend. Your time has come. No it will not be from a Death Note. Wish I could say that some loved Tobius to you all. Yet most do not know him or never given the ghost a chance.
1. Don't Shirk Work. 2. Smiles go for miles. 3. Help others like you want to be helped. 4. May some memories be precious to you. 5. Enjoy the little things in life.

Hope you all have a nice year. Time to think of some Ox puns since we all need OXygen.

Well lately I have been making sure to use what time I have to better myself, maybe seems for the worst now. Hard to really tell since I cannot read myself well. (Studied a bit of psychology to make myself harder to read since I don't like people using psychology to read me like an open book.) Maybe it worked to well or not enough yet. As for the hard work it's mostly cleaning the house a lot now so it is easier to clean for Thanksgiving later. Still reminding myself to draw more, just here is the thing. If you cram too much into a schedule the end result may be getting things done with feeling tired and stressed as another result. Don't worry I am still getting sleep just been more of a night owl lately. WHO! I mean still organizing my room and gifting some things to people I know. Might be feeling like a husk at the moment yet maybe all of this will be worth it in the end.
Still coming up with a lot of ideas for my OCs just still feeling I need to rely onto myself for a while to boost my drawing skills to what they used to be. As well keep my skill to love drawing even more. Kind of despise tablets though and it's nothing against the artists. I should of been born years sooner. Sure today's tech is nice yet small moments can still be a nice chat or doing something I enjoy right? May be still saving money for keeping my word and enjoy something once more as well then some. Hyped for Hyrule Warrior's Age of Calamity if anyone was curious.
Few more things, Might need a new phone or get myself a scanner onto posting drawing. Bet FA will still say it's not there despite a lot of effort or care was used when drawing or writing. Wonder if anyone may read this, if so thanks and have a nice day despite state of things around us.

Getting myself to draw more. A rl friend of mine is right, it was a confidence booster/thing. Also do need to draw anyways for my OCs that need the time, effort and love towards them. Plus it's helping me with ideas to them that may help in the long wrong. Won't say them yet. A few surprises are on the way. Do hope that FA is kind to me when I upload, since it fought me often since I don't have a scanner. I go by phone to discord to laptop to crop and enhance. Sounds fun huh. You try to do that onto a laptop that hates you at times and give me an answer. Anyways I have a list of too draw and lots of art I want too redraw. May even show some to people I trust.
Did have to mention I don't have a tablet so I am going my method of choice. Pencil, Paper, and Color Pencils. I am well stocked onto those for a while and can get more as needed. Sure I may not have every color that exists like those who use drawing programs. Not to mention I want to see those who use tablets hand draw onto paper more. Might be same thing with a tablet and stylus Idk yet. Just view it as money gets you further compared to hard work at times. As for my profile pic/avatar on here that is just a temp and something that works well for Halloween. As well as got to remember the past to not repeat it into the future.

I'll be a little blunt. Kind of hate my life at times, feel down even though I know my life isn't bad. Possibly lonely at times too. Do draw every so often yet phone over to laptop then enhance is not as good as a scanner. Not to mention been feeling sick as well sore lately. Glad I am seeing my Chiropractor again. Before anyone asks it isn't the bloody C word Covid. As for my drawings I may post in time. Just feel I may amass by crossing off a list then mass posting if this site let go from hating me posting. (Tried many times and it didn't want to accept despite the fact I drawn my drawings and went to the effort of digital enhance.) Hopefully I won't need to buy a tablet for a while. Since I recently bought more art supplies. Drawing my OCs for a while before I think onto what next.

Alright I know it is easy to do so yet I keep having a problem. Every single time with out fail when I try to post art of my OC Inari it comes out as Image not found. I have 3-4 images/drawings/ commissions of him counting a black and white copy of a colored one I have. Just to my bad luck I can never post them. Posting I never had a problem with and have posted fanfics before. I do plan on doing more, just sadly not chapters since I never seem to be able to finish them. I am very sorry Inari, Zena, Tobius, Celia, and more. I can use them for one shots and maybe that is a lot more up my ally. I do have things I want to do with my OCs and please don't go in to the comments to write OCs must have ref sheets. I am not a rich person and this cannot spend $50 or more on a whim. I do have some I want to get ref sheets of and think they all need both sides of SFW/NSFW. Not sure how many will read this yet to those who do MERRY CHRISTMAS/HAPPY HOLIDAYS. I caps locked for a reason. Thank you for your time.

I am drawing again just not sure how to post drawing and only know how to post fan fics. This site confuses me even though it is easy. Drawing a lot more then I used to and some I want to show you all. Yet now I have the idea to design Celia and be the one to draw my own ref sheet of her. If it goes badly I need someone good with Mews and gems. Plus NSFW for her. I will draw Mews more to practice for Inari's past mate. Just want it to be good and Holidays are here. Also I am planning on D&D stuff plus cleaning a house. I'll shush on being busy. Just any ideas are welcome in the comments and I need advice on drawing NSFW. If you can please leave comments. Thanks.

I'm sure it happens even to the best of us. Just still feel horrible about it. Just every time I try to write lately I've been getting writers block. Sorry CH. 4 will be late and the side CH as well. In the mean time I will use this time to try to gather more ideas and push through. Hope this doesn't ruin things for me to write more and end up posting something else in a long time from now.

Lately I've been pushing dex work onto Ultra Moon really hard. I finished all the islands to then figure out some ultra beasts count also. Idk if I can QR scan them either, so I cannot use GTS. I was planning onto Shiny hunting a lot of Zorua for my friends to save money for Christmas. Just I feel I need to rush now. Another plan of mine is after the Holidays attempt to write a younger days series of my OC Inari. I got a good partner/sidekick for him. I don't want to just shove him and Zena into a guild though. Things I need to improve on- Time Skips, Transitions, and finishing a series. Just hoping I can not get side tracked and also reach my agenda for shiny zoruas.

Well I do like looking at others posts. Yet since I used to be a decent artist in the past I thought, hey draw every so often to regain past skill. Not fully like riding a bike in this case. Just of course the biggest challenge at times is posting. Plus I write fanfictions well just never finish. Maybe I'm better at one shots. Just posting them that's another story, no pun intended. Yet also another well " Dream" is one of my ocs famous one day. Yaaaa like that could happen, long road ahead. Also being a brony plus loving pokemon. I have a mix of things, and don't combine them. They are separate right. Well maybe I should write one shots at least, wouldn't hurt. Just I feel safer posting drawings then I do fanfictions. How funny,1,000 words to a picture yet here I am needing back bone to post something wrote. Well any bit is still something and every so often isn't so bad. Just another thing sure is fun juggling things. (Won't go into detail, i'm sure you can understand at times with a busy life) Well I bored you enough, and if you some how found this entertaining to read well guess this was worth some time.

Well probably most of you don't know , yet every so often I write Fan Fics. I'm sure most know some of my problems though. Never was able to finish one. I get shy onto posting them and hardly ever show them. Yet I know I'm good cause to those I do show, love them onto what I wrote so far. May need to practice one shots. Glad i'm in the mood again though. Get a chance to use a few of my Ocs. Kuro- A Male absol, Inari- A Ninetales with a chip on his shoulder, Lux a bit of a vorish Luxray do to a mate he used to have. Shade- A female Mismagius that corrupted Lux in the past. Greeny/Carbuncle a shiny espeon that was kinda a joke character with a unique gift from Arceus. Well I won't tell all you of my Ocs. Merry Christmas and thanks for reading.

Well I still keep drawing yet i'm in a artist slump. I feel I could do better, everyone could draw better. I think I need more inspiration yet also feel I won't cut it as the kind of artist I want to be. Wish this feeling would go away, ugh.

Planning on drawing this weekend. If I'm bad well good reason to cramp my wrist then. I have a few ideas that might work. Hopefully things will work out.

Well I'm having trouble deciding on the base pokemon. Some thoughts are shinx, yet lately I've also thought zorua. Plus my love for eeveelutions. Going on a gut feeling here.

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