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General | Posted 16 years agoThursday
So it started as a really retarded lack of communication between Cinnibon and her friend mike. They didnt pick me up but w/e, it was cool. took bart to Fresno took 181 bus to con. wondered around con, met up LeoMagna [murr xD], planned LDW forum lunch for next day, went to gay bars but was underage =[ stupid gay bars. went back to con. Hung out with Straydog, Novafox26, neziggy, Kuma. Maru, K17, Bacani, Kiyosh, and 2 non-furs. The non-furs left and we played an epic long game of "Apples to apples" Left room, hung out with 2 older furs dun remember name but 1s real name was John who's from Albany, CA. Stayed up all night, wanderred and played SBB all night until in the morning i met steve.
Friday
Met a cool guy named Steve, who's this really cool surfer/government worker and has an amazing russian accent. lol stuck my stuff in his room, took a shower, DIDNT TOUCH STUFF IN FRIDGE BECAUSE HE THREATENED TO KILL ME LMAO XD [<3 you for that man] ummm took a shower, wandered con more, hung out with guys from last night again, found out straydog is an amazing artist *shrugs* meh i dont really care that much about artists, he's just awesome to hang out with, really wanted to distract him from drawing all weekend. Wrote more comedy in Creators lounge aka artists alley, aka the fuck off im busy room. went to LDW Forum lunch, played brawl, scraped the shit out of people in FFAs and really should have gotten practice [havent played in nearly 6 months] went to room, forgot which room i was in so went back to scraping nubs in brawl. Met Novafox26 and Neziggy again later on because they were locked out of their room.
Saturday
neziggy and Novafox [from now on going to be shortened to zigs and nova] went back to their rooms, went back to mines, got stuff out of steves room, after another shower.. i think, can't remember [if you havent knoticed yet, i havent slept for @ least 2 days] where was i..... oh yea hung out with more random furs like Keiel [who was absurdly conservative, interrupts you and is a hypocrite in that department when you interrupt him but wtf] convinced him to change his mind on abortion and things couldn't find him again sadly to change his mind on more things, walked around alot, kept seeing LeoMagna randomly =p think he was stalking me xD i wish, checked out Dealers room, GOT MY 1ST EVER COMMISSION OF MY FURSONA!!! KICK ASSS, hung out with more random artists, and hung out with zigs, nova, badinage [really dunno what to think about that guy... so far i don't really care because we dont talk ?.?] Went to Kiyosh's room took a shower, got into a cute little number that shows off legs and sides, saw straydog in room and worries about him most of the night, went to a hoagie place with Nova met up Straydog Kiyosh and Maru. remet up with Badinage Waffles/Blackwolfboy/blacky [im soo blacker than he is xp] and his bf Curtis dunno his Furname. Left with stray and Ditched rest of guys, took a shit, hung out with more random furs, went to Eye of Argon joke thing and was SUPPOSED TO MEET UP WITH ZIGS AND NOVA AND BLACKED OUT SEVERAL TIMES WHILE WAITING!!!! but got ditched and didnt get to get drunk until ditched them @ every corner i saw them [got really pissed @ them for that] had secret party on roof so fuck yea!!! went back to Artists alley and met up with Darrius Koopa [xD keep thinking Darius Cooper] had random jokes and talks about God. Had a blue moon beer xD i was buzzed while joking around.
Sunday
Left Darius went to kiyosh's room, found Stray drunk as fuck sleeping, told Bacani, kiyosh, and K17 what happened so left and went back to party [still not daylight yet] Drank a couple of REAL WHITE RUSSIANS AND NOT THAT CHEAP SHIT MADE OUT OF VODKA AND 1/2 n 1/2 went back to Kiyoshs room seeing LeoMagna on the way, passed out drunk for 3 hours, xD whoot for no asian glow that night or hangover. Met zigs and nova, told them not to do that again after the umpteenth time, and had fun for a bit before they left. had a small chat with kiyosh, packed shit, said goodbyes and went home. Got a call from LeoMagna saying happy late birthday and i have nice legs x3 passed out again and woke up next afternoon.
Monday
Gets kicked out of house by both parents, move into aunts, packing up for Seattle, talks with niece and aunt. passes out again, and wakes up next day
Tuesday
gets bug, rushed to emergency room, parents there wondering wtf happend, didnt want to see them, came back to aunts place, passed out again, and wakes up randomly going on FA, FB, and LDW forum. Passes out again until next morning
So it started as a really retarded lack of communication between Cinnibon and her friend mike. They didnt pick me up but w/e, it was cool. took bart to Fresno took 181 bus to con. wondered around con, met up LeoMagna [murr xD], planned LDW forum lunch for next day, went to gay bars but was underage =[ stupid gay bars. went back to con. Hung out with Straydog, Novafox26, neziggy, Kuma. Maru, K17, Bacani, Kiyosh, and 2 non-furs. The non-furs left and we played an epic long game of "Apples to apples" Left room, hung out with 2 older furs dun remember name but 1s real name was John who's from Albany, CA. Stayed up all night, wanderred and played SBB all night until in the morning i met steve.
Friday
Met a cool guy named Steve, who's this really cool surfer/government worker and has an amazing russian accent. lol stuck my stuff in his room, took a shower, DIDNT TOUCH STUFF IN FRIDGE BECAUSE HE THREATENED TO KILL ME LMAO XD [<3 you for that man] ummm took a shower, wandered con more, hung out with guys from last night again, found out straydog is an amazing artist *shrugs* meh i dont really care that much about artists, he's just awesome to hang out with, really wanted to distract him from drawing all weekend. Wrote more comedy in Creators lounge aka artists alley, aka the fuck off im busy room. went to LDW Forum lunch, played brawl, scraped the shit out of people in FFAs and really should have gotten practice [havent played in nearly 6 months] went to room, forgot which room i was in so went back to scraping nubs in brawl. Met Novafox26 and Neziggy again later on because they were locked out of their room.
Saturday
neziggy and Novafox [from now on going to be shortened to zigs and nova] went back to their rooms, went back to mines, got stuff out of steves room, after another shower.. i think, can't remember [if you havent knoticed yet, i havent slept for @ least 2 days] where was i..... oh yea hung out with more random furs like Keiel [who was absurdly conservative, interrupts you and is a hypocrite in that department when you interrupt him but wtf] convinced him to change his mind on abortion and things couldn't find him again sadly to change his mind on more things, walked around alot, kept seeing LeoMagna randomly =p think he was stalking me xD i wish, checked out Dealers room, GOT MY 1ST EVER COMMISSION OF MY FURSONA!!! KICK ASSS, hung out with more random artists, and hung out with zigs, nova, badinage [really dunno what to think about that guy... so far i don't really care because we dont talk ?.?] Went to Kiyosh's room took a shower, got into a cute little number that shows off legs and sides, saw straydog in room and worries about him most of the night, went to a hoagie place with Nova met up Straydog Kiyosh and Maru. remet up with Badinage Waffles/Blackwolfboy/blacky [im soo blacker than he is xp] and his bf Curtis dunno his Furname. Left with stray and Ditched rest of guys, took a shit, hung out with more random furs, went to Eye of Argon joke thing and was SUPPOSED TO MEET UP WITH ZIGS AND NOVA AND BLACKED OUT SEVERAL TIMES WHILE WAITING!!!! but got ditched and didnt get to get drunk until ditched them @ every corner i saw them [got really pissed @ them for that] had secret party on roof so fuck yea!!! went back to Artists alley and met up with Darrius Koopa [xD keep thinking Darius Cooper] had random jokes and talks about God. Had a blue moon beer xD i was buzzed while joking around.
Sunday
Left Darius went to kiyosh's room, found Stray drunk as fuck sleeping, told Bacani, kiyosh, and K17 what happened so left and went back to party [still not daylight yet] Drank a couple of REAL WHITE RUSSIANS AND NOT THAT CHEAP SHIT MADE OUT OF VODKA AND 1/2 n 1/2 went back to Kiyoshs room seeing LeoMagna on the way, passed out drunk for 3 hours, xD whoot for no asian glow that night or hangover. Met zigs and nova, told them not to do that again after the umpteenth time, and had fun for a bit before they left. had a small chat with kiyosh, packed shit, said goodbyes and went home. Got a call from LeoMagna saying happy late birthday and i have nice legs x3 passed out again and woke up next afternoon.
Monday
Gets kicked out of house by both parents, move into aunts, packing up for Seattle, talks with niece and aunt. passes out again, and wakes up next day
Tuesday
gets bug, rushed to emergency room, parents there wondering wtf happend, didnt want to see them, came back to aunts place, passed out again, and wakes up randomly going on FA, FB, and LDW forum. Passes out again until next morning
need to start making Lymrics <3
General | Posted 16 years agoThere once was a barmaid from Sail
Who had a tattoo that priced marked ales
and priced on her behind
for the benefit of the blind
the prices except they were in braille
Who had a tattoo that priced marked ales
and priced on her behind
for the benefit of the blind
the prices except they were in braille
Why do i bother?
General | Posted 16 years agothere's some really great amazing people in this world. They don't always have free time, and I get that. Its a blessing that I get to spend ANY time with them but because of it, it just sucks how much I enjoy their company how ever little it is and wanting more. Yeah I'm selfish, but I guess that's the person I am.
I didn't want to cause a ruckus about it, I just wanted to tell one friend that I needed to stop trying so goddamn hard to talk to 1 amazing person that's sadly barely in my life because there wasn't enough time in this god forsaken world.
Yeah, I know I have high expectations sometimes... but lately.... I've dropped them so low the bar is just soo stupid easy that I just want to give up on some people.
It started with my xbf, he was too busy and his mom found out and cut us apart. FINE! Then there was home, I have to do ALL the house work aside from cooking every other meal, FINE! Then there was this one "friends" and I use this term loosely for these girls because they only bitched about their xbfs everytime they have a break up; tried to cheer em up, have fun and forget the relationships, Fuck it, same doormat that they always will be. They only talk to me WHEN they break up anyways so why should I care and try to cheer them up. I'm tired about caring for people like this, If you dont get "STOP TALKING ABOUT HIM, IM GOING TO FUCKING LEAVE YOU TO YOUR BITCHING!"
I want to be friends with people who don't really care about you're background. I want friends that just like to talk casually or help solve problems, have fun and move on. Staying in the same problem day after day sucks, so why people dig deeper holes for themselves beats me. I just hate that the people I have so much fun with don't always have time for fun with me. I don't care that this is a selfish wish, to have fun with the people you love and care about? Is that really a "bad" thing?
If you want to be friends and don't have enough time, fine. I'll be friends, I just wish there was more time in this world for me to spend with you. Life's a bitch and then you go on, right? but i mean, is it too much to ask, month after month, after month?
I didn't want to cause a ruckus about it, I just wanted to tell one friend that I needed to stop trying so goddamn hard to talk to 1 amazing person that's sadly barely in my life because there wasn't enough time in this god forsaken world.
Yeah, I know I have high expectations sometimes... but lately.... I've dropped them so low the bar is just soo stupid easy that I just want to give up on some people.
It started with my xbf, he was too busy and his mom found out and cut us apart. FINE! Then there was home, I have to do ALL the house work aside from cooking every other meal, FINE! Then there was this one "friends" and I use this term loosely for these girls because they only bitched about their xbfs everytime they have a break up; tried to cheer em up, have fun and forget the relationships, Fuck it, same doormat that they always will be. They only talk to me WHEN they break up anyways so why should I care and try to cheer them up. I'm tired about caring for people like this, If you dont get "STOP TALKING ABOUT HIM, IM GOING TO FUCKING LEAVE YOU TO YOUR BITCHING!"
I want to be friends with people who don't really care about you're background. I want friends that just like to talk casually or help solve problems, have fun and move on. Staying in the same problem day after day sucks, so why people dig deeper holes for themselves beats me. I just hate that the people I have so much fun with don't always have time for fun with me. I don't care that this is a selfish wish, to have fun with the people you love and care about? Is that really a "bad" thing?
If you want to be friends and don't have enough time, fine. I'll be friends, I just wish there was more time in this world for me to spend with you. Life's a bitch and then you go on, right? but i mean, is it too much to ask, month after month, after month?
Obama on Auto Tune
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Unlimited Sky,close to earth and far from heaven
General | Posted 16 years agohttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YiPiAW5pz-E
Trampling on the remains of a left-behind dream
The whimsical death god stopped and stood
Passing by, it watches me coldly
As if to instigate a foolish sin
It shook and untangled its outstretched hands
Devastating sadness
Overshadows my heart and
Is cruelly repeated over and over
We came to hate even those precious days we can’t return to
What can we do?
We didn’t understand the meaning
Of the glory we carried
The sensations that should have been cast away are resurrected
While clad in serenity
We accelerate and hide our irritations
Things like emotions are useless
But our hearts can’t catch up
The fallen angel swooped down on
The scenario of rebellion
Why are you outside the light?
I realized
If I hadn’t been born as I am,
Would I have been ridiculed?
Within in a selfless love
We don’t know things like solitude
I gazed into the distant sky
That reflected my nostalgia
But no matter how much I wish
I can’t be touched by eternity
I lost to my own darkness
Everyone who can stand is fighting
And carries unfading scars
Devastating sadness
Overshadows my heart and
Is cruelly repeated over and over
The stolen, fleeting light
Connects to the living proof
No matter the fate
I’ll accept it,
And live until the last moment
- Unlimited Sky by Tommy Heavenly6, english translation of the song lyric.
Trampling on the remains of a left-behind dream
The whimsical death god stopped and stood
Passing by, it watches me coldly
As if to instigate a foolish sin
It shook and untangled its outstretched hands
Devastating sadness
Overshadows my heart and
Is cruelly repeated over and over
We came to hate even those precious days we can’t return to
What can we do?
We didn’t understand the meaning
Of the glory we carried
The sensations that should have been cast away are resurrected
While clad in serenity
We accelerate and hide our irritations
Things like emotions are useless
But our hearts can’t catch up
The fallen angel swooped down on
The scenario of rebellion
Why are you outside the light?
I realized
If I hadn’t been born as I am,
Would I have been ridiculed?
Within in a selfless love
We don’t know things like solitude
I gazed into the distant sky
That reflected my nostalgia
But no matter how much I wish
I can’t be touched by eternity
I lost to my own darkness
Everyone who can stand is fighting
And carries unfading scars
Devastating sadness
Overshadows my heart and
Is cruelly repeated over and over
The stolen, fleeting light
Connects to the living proof
No matter the fate
I’ll accept it,
And live until the last moment
- Unlimited Sky by Tommy Heavenly6, english translation of the song lyric.
Do i really know anyone?
General | Posted 16 years agoEver since i was a kid, i guess i was always sheltered by my mom, and even a bit now. I don't feel i really know anyone. I feel alone, and i just want to cry because now i know.... I'm my own best friend... I don't know enough about anyone and I've never really connected with anyone to the point where that person would share that much with me. I know I'm not supposed to believe in fate and am supposed to think i have some sort of free will, but everytime i turn around, am alone, waiting for a friend to call for something other than a set appointment..... well... its like being forgotten and dying alone...
I shouldnt cry about it but i do... and the only thing that i know always wants to see and talk to me is my dog. How sad of a person am i? I read get tarot card readings and its the same results for the same question...."will i ever find someone who will be my best friend and be his or hers?" which is answered with a "you will be the friend of many" or "best friend of someone" and "you will wander alone"
..... i feel like im destined to be this way because everytime i try to convince myself "hey, maybe they'll remember me and maybe I'll get to know them better" the thought comes back to me with a slap in the face. Maybe its my parents fault for never letting me out of the house as a kid without them around or unless it was some jerk from church, maybe its my own for not trying harder or trying too hard, maybe im just fucked by some divine being with a sick sense of humor...
there was a time when me and dan were almost like that... he gave me my 1st kiss from a guy albeit he was being a dick and I was a homophobe then but... anyways he's dead now. the one person i was close to having a really close relationship with only as a friend... gone... by 2 bottles of vodka and 2 cars....
why the hell do i always smile... even when im sad?... I guess i still have to talk to a psychiatrist again... oh well... at least this helps me vent out a bit. besides... what could a person hired to hear your problems and not really give a shit about you do if all i really need is a best friend.
I shouldnt cry about it but i do... and the only thing that i know always wants to see and talk to me is my dog. How sad of a person am i? I read get tarot card readings and its the same results for the same question...."will i ever find someone who will be my best friend and be his or hers?" which is answered with a "you will be the friend of many" or "best friend of someone" and "you will wander alone"
..... i feel like im destined to be this way because everytime i try to convince myself "hey, maybe they'll remember me and maybe I'll get to know them better" the thought comes back to me with a slap in the face. Maybe its my parents fault for never letting me out of the house as a kid without them around or unless it was some jerk from church, maybe its my own for not trying harder or trying too hard, maybe im just fucked by some divine being with a sick sense of humor...
there was a time when me and dan were almost like that... he gave me my 1st kiss from a guy albeit he was being a dick and I was a homophobe then but... anyways he's dead now. the one person i was close to having a really close relationship with only as a friend... gone... by 2 bottles of vodka and 2 cars....
why the hell do i always smile... even when im sad?... I guess i still have to talk to a psychiatrist again... oh well... at least this helps me vent out a bit. besides... what could a person hired to hear your problems and not really give a shit about you do if all i really need is a best friend.
