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Ich brauche ZWEIMAL Urlab
Posted a week agoHeya! :D Back from Germany and slowly getting back into work.
It was a blast, too much to mention here. I will say I loved it, did some fun things, ate great food, and loved experiencing some new culture. Mostly how public toilets have sensors that rotate the seat and clean it! And recycling gives you credits??? I didn't end up cashing in my 4 Euros on recycles, since the Rewe near me was closed for Sunday ;v; All in all, I loved it!
SO! MFF!!!
Since I was out of commission during AC due to having severe Mono, I decided to continue the annual tradition of being a bird in Chicago in December! I'll be on a tighter budget this year but I'm planning to do all the suiting I missed out on in July @v@
I'll be in the MAIN HOTEL this year! WTF DAVID BLAINE!! Never stayed there before, so this should be interesting.
I'll be there THURSDAY TO SUNDAY. I normally stay through till Monday but my Germany trip has eaten up all my available PTO. It's all good! I need an excuse to not spend so much money.
FEEL FREE TO SAY HI IN SUIT OR OUT OF SUIT. Feel free to take photos in suit or out of suit too!
MY BEAK IS FRAGILE- please don't be too rough with it ;v; I'm trying to make this suit last until my replacement is finished!
I DO NOT DRINK- feel free to invite me to room parties and events though! I'll just have a soda :D
Uhh I'll probably add more when the time gets closer....oh crap, it's like three weeks away! Ah well.
SEE YOU ALL THERE!
It was a blast, too much to mention here. I will say I loved it, did some fun things, ate great food, and loved experiencing some new culture. Mostly how public toilets have sensors that rotate the seat and clean it! And recycling gives you credits??? I didn't end up cashing in my 4 Euros on recycles, since the Rewe near me was closed for Sunday ;v; All in all, I loved it!
SO! MFF!!!
Since I was out of commission during AC due to having severe Mono, I decided to continue the annual tradition of being a bird in Chicago in December! I'll be on a tighter budget this year but I'm planning to do all the suiting I missed out on in July @v@
I'll be in the MAIN HOTEL this year! WTF DAVID BLAINE!! Never stayed there before, so this should be interesting.
I'll be there THURSDAY TO SUNDAY. I normally stay through till Monday but my Germany trip has eaten up all my available PTO. It's all good! I need an excuse to not spend so much money.
FEEL FREE TO SAY HI IN SUIT OR OUT OF SUIT. Feel free to take photos in suit or out of suit too!
MY BEAK IS FRAGILE- please don't be too rough with it ;v; I'm trying to make this suit last until my replacement is finished!
I DO NOT DRINK- feel free to invite me to room parties and events though! I'll just have a soda :D
Uhh I'll probably add more when the time gets closer....oh crap, it's like three weeks away! Ah well.
SEE YOU ALL THERE!
Ich brauche einen Urlab
Posted a month agoWow. I can’t believe in three weeks I’ll be leaving for Germany! It’s my 3rd time out of the country, first time as an adult.
I’ve been working 6 day workweeks (~60hrs each week) since August. I’ve paid some debts off and I’ve funded the trip. Now that overtime is over all my remaining funds are going to expenses while I’m there. It’ll be for my good friend’s
GotParallax ‘s wedding!
So uh, anyone have good recommendations on things to do in Schleswig-Holstein? I’ll have a car and about four day’s worth of free time. I want to see a castle for sure!
(Oh yeah and find me at MFF this year too- on a budget and off the con block and probably leaving Sunday!)
I’ve been working 6 day workweeks (~60hrs each week) since August. I’ve paid some debts off and I’ve funded the trip. Now that overtime is over all my remaining funds are going to expenses while I’m there. It’ll be for my good friend’s
GotParallax ‘s wedding!So uh, anyone have good recommendations on things to do in Schleswig-Holstein? I’ll have a car and about four day’s worth of free time. I want to see a castle for sure!
(Oh yeah and find me at MFF this year too- on a budget and off the con block and probably leaving Sunday!)
Health update!
Posted 4 months agoTurns out it was mono! Like, an exceptionally bad case of mono. Like an “if I can’t bring myself to eat a bowl of grapes you need to call me an ambulance”.
I’m a hypochondriac and neurotic whenever I get sick but I mean this whole heartedly- I thought it was non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. It didn’t help that a friend who heard about my symptoms called me personally to tell me to get myself checked out since HE had the same symptoms when he had NHL. Either way, I was convinced I had it.
Yeah, wild. I had awful night sweats. Felt like a fever despite never having a temp. Chills. A raw throat with a cough. A lymph node the size of a quail egg. Unable to eat despite a ravaging hunger.
Oh! Did I tell you I didn’t eat a “meal” from 6/26 to 7/15? Yeah. That was yesterday! Lived off one or two protein bars every day, maybe a kiwi, grapes, and a big container of homemade chicken broth. The entire time. I lost 20lbs in about three weeks! Not by choice. Mostly muscle mass, sadly.
I had some of the worst fatigue ever. I had to take breaks walking to and from the bathroom, and my bedroom is NEXT to the bathroom! And stairs? Hah. Better bring your phone with you. If I go down I need at least 30min to rest before I go back up.
And the brain fog! Good god. I remember my Mom coming to visit me in Ohio back in early June. Then I got sick, and things got really fuzzy. I remember Anthrocon, I remember my High School reunion and home visit, and the week of rest, but in bits and pieces. Stuff that happened like 2 weeks ago are in my memory as if they were FIVE YEARS AGO.
But hey, I’m getting better. Well, better enough to resume work this week. My strength is returning and I’m eating again. All food tastes terrible and I struggle to eat my usual portion sizes, but it’s all about baby steps!
Oh! And I, uh……kinda wrote an entire 42pg sex story between a man and a huge anthro bird woman 👀 Time to do some edits! Will be released at a later date unless you want to help with revisions.
I’m a hypochondriac and neurotic whenever I get sick but I mean this whole heartedly- I thought it was non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. It didn’t help that a friend who heard about my symptoms called me personally to tell me to get myself checked out since HE had the same symptoms when he had NHL. Either way, I was convinced I had it.
Yeah, wild. I had awful night sweats. Felt like a fever despite never having a temp. Chills. A raw throat with a cough. A lymph node the size of a quail egg. Unable to eat despite a ravaging hunger.
Oh! Did I tell you I didn’t eat a “meal” from 6/26 to 7/15? Yeah. That was yesterday! Lived off one or two protein bars every day, maybe a kiwi, grapes, and a big container of homemade chicken broth. The entire time. I lost 20lbs in about three weeks! Not by choice. Mostly muscle mass, sadly.
I had some of the worst fatigue ever. I had to take breaks walking to and from the bathroom, and my bedroom is NEXT to the bathroom! And stairs? Hah. Better bring your phone with you. If I go down I need at least 30min to rest before I go back up.
And the brain fog! Good god. I remember my Mom coming to visit me in Ohio back in early June. Then I got sick, and things got really fuzzy. I remember Anthrocon, I remember my High School reunion and home visit, and the week of rest, but in bits and pieces. Stuff that happened like 2 weeks ago are in my memory as if they were FIVE YEARS AGO.
But hey, I’m getting better. Well, better enough to resume work this week. My strength is returning and I’m eating again. All food tastes terrible and I struggle to eat my usual portion sizes, but it’s all about baby steps!
Oh! And I, uh……kinda wrote an entire 42pg sex story between a man and a huge anthro bird woman 👀 Time to do some edits! Will be released at a later date unless you want to help with revisions.
Anthrocon is done
Posted 4 months agoAnd I’m still sick
I lived off of granola bars, applesauce and eventually some sour candy that
lordvimless brought me like he does every year. I nursed Red Bulls for hours. I sipped water. I got soda to give me more calories and it only made me sicker.
On the 4th I tried to fullsuit but ended up in the headless lounge completely exhausted before I’d even made the trip. Con staff had to get involved. lordvimless, thankfully, was working safety and was able to get me a little sustenance and escorted me back to my hotel.
I was able to go down to the river on the 5th, but I kept nodding off and fighting brain fog as people tried to talk to me. Got to sit next to a man puking into the river. Turned out I’d ALSO been sitting next to a ziploc bag full of vomit the entire time and didn’t realize it.
On the 6th my friends checked out and left, I went to my new hotel to drop off my luggage…only to find out their servers were down. So, no room keys. My plans to go back down there for the final night were crushed. But it was okay, really. I was exhausted.
So yeah. Tomorrow will be 2 weeks since these symptoms first appeared. Today is 1 week since I started antibiotics. If anything I’ve only gotten worse. I still struggle to eat and drink.
I lived off of granola bars, applesauce and eventually some sour candy that
lordvimless brought me like he does every year. I nursed Red Bulls for hours. I sipped water. I got soda to give me more calories and it only made me sicker.On the 4th I tried to fullsuit but ended up in the headless lounge completely exhausted before I’d even made the trip. Con staff had to get involved.
lordvimless, thankfully, was working safety and was able to get me a little sustenance and escorted me back to my hotel.I was able to go down to the river on the 5th, but I kept nodding off and fighting brain fog as people tried to talk to me. Got to sit next to a man puking into the river. Turned out I’d ALSO been sitting next to a ziploc bag full of vomit the entire time and didn’t realize it.
On the 6th my friends checked out and left, I went to my new hotel to drop off my luggage…only to find out their servers were down. So, no room keys. My plans to go back down there for the final night were crushed. But it was okay, really. I was exhausted.
So yeah. Tomorrow will be 2 weeks since these symptoms first appeared. Today is 1 week since I started antibiotics. If anything I’ve only gotten worse. I still struggle to eat and drink.
Anthrocon!
Posted 4 months agoI’ll be there! I’m arriving Wednesday afternoon and getting a cheap hotel in the area. I’ll be at the Omni until Sunday, and staying in another hotel till Monday morning!
Uhhh so. I’m pretty sick. It’s not a cold, or COVID, or anything like that. I started showing symptoms last Tuesday and it hasn’t gone away. My doctor gave me antibiotics and said it was Strep Throat, even though the test came back negative. I’m positive that it’s not strep.
That being said, I’ve been assured I’m not contagious. I’ll be wearing a mask just to be safe. But I’m experiencing some bad full body fatigue and brain fog. Getting up from a sitting position makes me dizzy. I can’t really eat, and I struggle to choke down food. So I’m weak, tired, and kinda out of it.
If I don’t see you at the con, just know I’m probably in the room resting. Hopefully my antibiotics will kick in and I can start eating again. But with the weather and how much I struggle to walk and maintain body temp, I don’t know how much I’ll be fursuiting @v@
Either way, see you all there! Bring me electrolytes.
Uhhh so. I’m pretty sick. It’s not a cold, or COVID, or anything like that. I started showing symptoms last Tuesday and it hasn’t gone away. My doctor gave me antibiotics and said it was Strep Throat, even though the test came back negative. I’m positive that it’s not strep.
That being said, I’ve been assured I’m not contagious. I’ll be wearing a mask just to be safe. But I’m experiencing some bad full body fatigue and brain fog. Getting up from a sitting position makes me dizzy. I can’t really eat, and I struggle to choke down food. So I’m weak, tired, and kinda out of it.
If I don’t see you at the con, just know I’m probably in the room resting. Hopefully my antibiotics will kick in and I can start eating again. But with the weather and how much I struggle to walk and maintain body temp, I don’t know how much I’ll be fursuiting @v@
Either way, see you all there! Bring me electrolytes.
Woah forgot I’m here
Posted 5 months agoSo yeah, life offline has been going pretty well. I’m still active in the fandom but in a more offline role. I also quit Twitter, which was my main furry outlet, though I’m keeping it to use during cons.
Otherwise I’m on bluesky!
Otherwise I’m on bluesky!
RIP Dragoneer
Posted a year agoThis is a tragic loss to our community. Dragoneer put his life and soul into FA, which was a starting point into the fandom for many of us pre-social media. He never sold ads, turned down techbros who wanted to commercialize the site, and WORKED HIS ASS OFF to help it survive.
I never knew him offline but did have minor interactions with him over the years. We were mutuals on Twitter, and it was hard not to feel starstruck to see him interacting and commenting on posts.
It was so sudden how he went. Just hours earlier he was online posting updates about his health and being his usual self. While the outlook wasn’t ideal, I don’t know if anyone expected him to be taken so suddenly.
The US healthcare system is a nightmare. He didn’t deserve to be caught in the middle with his life on the line. He didn’t deserve to go broke just to attempt to save his life. It could and does happen to any of us.
The number of artists commenting on how their lives were changed thanks to FA is incredible. People owe their careers - even their personal lives- to this site, and Dragoneer was there for all of it. He never gave up on the site, and he never gave up on the fandom. He helped foster starting artists, he helped boost smaller accounts, and those who are new to the fandom don’t realize that STAPLES OF THE FANDOM got their start on this site. His contributions can’t be overstated.
Rest in Peace, Dragoneer.
I never knew him offline but did have minor interactions with him over the years. We were mutuals on Twitter, and it was hard not to feel starstruck to see him interacting and commenting on posts.
It was so sudden how he went. Just hours earlier he was online posting updates about his health and being his usual self. While the outlook wasn’t ideal, I don’t know if anyone expected him to be taken so suddenly.
The US healthcare system is a nightmare. He didn’t deserve to be caught in the middle with his life on the line. He didn’t deserve to go broke just to attempt to save his life. It could and does happen to any of us.
The number of artists commenting on how their lives were changed thanks to FA is incredible. People owe their careers - even their personal lives- to this site, and Dragoneer was there for all of it. He never gave up on the site, and he never gave up on the fandom. He helped foster starting artists, he helped boost smaller accounts, and those who are new to the fandom don’t realize that STAPLES OF THE FANDOM got their start on this site. His contributions can’t be overstated.
Rest in Peace, Dragoneer.
Not quite dead!
Posted 2 years agoHello! :> Just dropping in for some updates.
No, I'm not dead. I still check FA regularly but I haven't really been active. So, thanks for all the watches and the faves! *proceeds to nuke both notifications*
So in November, I started having weird health problems that began to look like liver failure. Anyone who knows me knows I've had my problems with alcohol in the past and GOD DAMN IT can I not stay sober. Well, this put some fear into me. The doctor said my liver and pancreas (for all intents and purposes) were in working order but they wouldn't stay that way for good. He ordered me to get sober, resume my Seroquel, and start attending AA.
Who would've guessed AA's been beneficial?? Yeah the religious parts suck, but the community is great and I've gotten genuine help and concern from people within the program and made a few friends. Now there's stuff I can do without alcohol being involved. Currently on day 84, which is roughly 100 days from my previous record.
On other topics, I've taken a break from cons for the time being. My credit score's plummeted and I need to focus on paying off some debts. As of right now, MFF is going to be the only con I'm making an effort to attend. Good news though- when I went in 2022, I barely had any alcohol. Maybe a few beers at the end of the night, or one or two during the day, but that was it. And I still had a blast. I'm confident I can attend cons without feeling the urge to drink.
As always, I'm on Twitter @/tucakeane , though that site is definitely going downhill. For mental health reasons I'm trying not to spend too much time online. Books, hiking, disc golf, and some paint-by-numbers art stuff has been a good break.
Take care :>
No, I'm not dead. I still check FA regularly but I haven't really been active. So, thanks for all the watches and the faves! *proceeds to nuke both notifications*
So in November, I started having weird health problems that began to look like liver failure. Anyone who knows me knows I've had my problems with alcohol in the past and GOD DAMN IT can I not stay sober. Well, this put some fear into me. The doctor said my liver and pancreas (for all intents and purposes) were in working order but they wouldn't stay that way for good. He ordered me to get sober, resume my Seroquel, and start attending AA.
Who would've guessed AA's been beneficial?? Yeah the religious parts suck, but the community is great and I've gotten genuine help and concern from people within the program and made a few friends. Now there's stuff I can do without alcohol being involved. Currently on day 84, which is roughly 100 days from my previous record.
On other topics, I've taken a break from cons for the time being. My credit score's plummeted and I need to focus on paying off some debts. As of right now, MFF is going to be the only con I'm making an effort to attend. Good news though- when I went in 2022, I barely had any alcohol. Maybe a few beers at the end of the night, or one or two during the day, but that was it. And I still had a blast. I'm confident I can attend cons without feeling the urge to drink.
As always, I'm on Twitter @/tucakeane , though that site is definitely going downhill. For mental health reasons I'm trying not to spend too much time online. Books, hiking, disc golf, and some paint-by-numbers art stuff has been a good break.
Take care :>
MFF journal meme thing!
Posted 3 years agoHah, made ya look.
Unfortunately, due to finances and lack of PTO, I'm not planning to attend MFF.
It's the first one I've missed since 2017 (minus the pandemic), and since it's my old homecon I'm especially sad to miss it.
Hope everybody has a great time. MFF is massive and can be stressful at times, but I still love it. I'll be with you in spirit!
SO! TFF is my next con, tentatively. I'm also hoping to make FWA a yearly thing.
And hopefully, I can make MCFC finally! Bird con, yay.
Unfortunately, due to finances and lack of PTO, I'm not planning to attend MFF.
It's the first one I've missed since 2017 (minus the pandemic), and since it's my old homecon I'm especially sad to miss it.
Hope everybody has a great time. MFF is massive and can be stressful at times, but I still love it. I'll be with you in spirit!
SO! TFF is my next con, tentatively. I'm also hoping to make FWA a yearly thing.
And hopefully, I can make MCFC finally! Bird con, yay.
FWA JOURNAL!
Posted 3 years agoHey yeah so I've never been to this con, so I figured why not do "the" meme?
FWA 2022 - HOW TO FIND ME AND PECK ME
Convention's Name:
Furry Weekend Atlanta
Website:
https://www.furryweekend.com/
Transportation type:
6hr trip with
kurrikage at the wheel. No worries, I'll keep the music/podcasts going!
Hotel you're staying at:
That ribcage hotel, I'm pretty sure.....the one you can see in the final 20min of the Academy-Award winning movie "Flight"
Dates:
May 4th (WED) - May 9th (MON)
Rooming With:
twstacker and friends
Gender:
Male (He/Him/They)
Age: 30 even
Description (out of suit):
A small, bearded, balding man about shoulder height compared to everyone else. Most likely wearing a "Last Podcast on the Left" tshirt and blue jeans.
Fursuit(s):
I'm a terrorbird! See my twitter (@tucakeane) and see the bird!
Relationship Status:
Single, not interested in a relationship, but open to flings and other crap like that
Who you will be with a majority of the time:
I'm kind of a lone bird and just wander around these things. If I'm not hanging out with people, I'm in my room. I'm always happy to meet up with peeps but I just go with whatever everyone else is doing. So if they're doing a "hey we're gonna go drive around Hotlanta for 9hrs" then I guess I'm riding around Hotlanta for 9hrs
Are you Cliquey:
No? Not really? What does that even mean?
I mean yeah I like hanging out with people I know but I tend to be pretty open to getting to know new peeps
I've had the best luck hosting CaH sessions with people and doing drawings so just come up and say Hi, idk
Where/What do you usually eat:
Breakfast- Coffee, water and aspirin
Lunch- A GIANT FREAKING MEAL
Dinner- Whatever is available
Parties?:
I tend to wander around at cons, so I leave my schedule open. I love parties, but I don't really drink too much anymore.
Fursuiting:
I have one of those! I'll come by and peck you :D
Daily activities:
Sleep, shower, watching KOTH in the hotel room, fucking with my badges, hiding in your trunk while you drive a group of furries across town to go see the Aquarium AND/OR Zoo
Nightly Activities:
Fursuiting, and parties
What time I usually go to bed and get up:
I try to be active by 10am and tend to wind down by 3am. It's a con, not an inconvenience!
Do you talk out of suit:
OH yeah! I talk IN SUIT quite often!
In fact, if I remember you while I was suiting and see you while out of suit, I'm gonna squawk at you!
Do you talk in suit:
I don't like to talk with casual peeps or anyone just wanting a picture. I'll squawk and make bird noises and be cute (NO), but if I know who you are or you're wanting to socialize, I'll definitely break character to talk to you!
Can I hang in your room?:
It's not my room. No. Hell no.
I'll take my CaH deck down to the conspace at 4am and we'll play down there.
Rules of engagement OUT OF SUIT:
- Tell me who you are. My memory sucks and my brain's fried
- Show me your fursona if I seem confused
- I'm not trying to flirt
- I'd LOVE to get some food with you and your friends!
Rules of engagements IN SUIT:
- MY BEAK IS SUPER FUCKING FRAGILE. DO NOT SLAP OR ROUGH-HOUSE MY BEAK
- Hugs are fine, just ask
- Make sure my badges are visible
- I might be damp- I'm working on that
- If I'm suited up but stationed in a social area (ie,. conspace, dancefloor, headless lounge) then feel free to ask to try on my head. Just know I sweat a lot XD
- I have a scannable badge, PLEASE use it.
How far is too far:
-Physical tricks like tossing me, picking me up, rolling me over, or shoving
- Groping my ass or balls (unless we're being horny together)
- Being rough with my beak or tail
- Spraying stuff on me without warning
Can I take pictures with you:
Yes, in suit or out of suit. I'll be wearing a mask out of suit. Just make sure my badges are turned forward X3
Can I buy you things:
Don't buy me alcohol, I prefer to keep tabs on myself. You can buy me food! And art if we discuss it beforehand.
Best communication mediums to reach you:
Twitter! tucakeane
Telegram! tucaburb
I don't really do Discord or anything else. I check Twitter all the time and I only check Telegram when I'm expecting messages.
See ya in Hotlanta :>
FWA 2022 - HOW TO FIND ME AND PECK ME
Convention's Name:
Furry Weekend Atlanta
Website:
https://www.furryweekend.com/
Transportation type:
6hr trip with
kurrikage at the wheel. No worries, I'll keep the music/podcasts going!Hotel you're staying at:
That ribcage hotel, I'm pretty sure.....the one you can see in the final 20min of the Academy-Award winning movie "Flight"
Dates:
May 4th (WED) - May 9th (MON)
Rooming With:
twstacker and friendsGender:
Male (He/Him/They)
Age: 30 even
Description (out of suit):
A small, bearded, balding man about shoulder height compared to everyone else. Most likely wearing a "Last Podcast on the Left" tshirt and blue jeans.
Fursuit(s):
I'm a terrorbird! See my twitter (@tucakeane) and see the bird!
Relationship Status:
Single, not interested in a relationship, but open to flings and other crap like that
Who you will be with a majority of the time:
I'm kind of a lone bird and just wander around these things. If I'm not hanging out with people, I'm in my room. I'm always happy to meet up with peeps but I just go with whatever everyone else is doing. So if they're doing a "hey we're gonna go drive around Hotlanta for 9hrs" then I guess I'm riding around Hotlanta for 9hrs
Are you Cliquey:
No? Not really? What does that even mean?
I mean yeah I like hanging out with people I know but I tend to be pretty open to getting to know new peeps
I've had the best luck hosting CaH sessions with people and doing drawings so just come up and say Hi, idk
Where/What do you usually eat:
Breakfast- Coffee, water and aspirin
Lunch- A GIANT FREAKING MEAL
Dinner- Whatever is available
Parties?:
I tend to wander around at cons, so I leave my schedule open. I love parties, but I don't really drink too much anymore.
Fursuiting:
I have one of those! I'll come by and peck you :D
Daily activities:
Sleep, shower, watching KOTH in the hotel room, fucking with my badges, hiding in your trunk while you drive a group of furries across town to go see the Aquarium AND/OR Zoo
Nightly Activities:
Fursuiting, and parties
What time I usually go to bed and get up:
I try to be active by 10am and tend to wind down by 3am. It's a con, not an inconvenience!
Do you talk out of suit:
OH yeah! I talk IN SUIT quite often!
In fact, if I remember you while I was suiting and see you while out of suit, I'm gonna squawk at you!
Do you talk in suit:
I don't like to talk with casual peeps or anyone just wanting a picture. I'll squawk and make bird noises and be cute (NO), but if I know who you are or you're wanting to socialize, I'll definitely break character to talk to you!
Can I hang in your room?:
It's not my room. No. Hell no.
I'll take my CaH deck down to the conspace at 4am and we'll play down there.
Rules of engagement OUT OF SUIT:
- Tell me who you are. My memory sucks and my brain's fried
- Show me your fursona if I seem confused
- I'm not trying to flirt
- I'd LOVE to get some food with you and your friends!
Rules of engagements IN SUIT:
- MY BEAK IS SUPER FUCKING FRAGILE. DO NOT SLAP OR ROUGH-HOUSE MY BEAK
- Hugs are fine, just ask
- Make sure my badges are visible
- I might be damp- I'm working on that
- If I'm suited up but stationed in a social area (ie,. conspace, dancefloor, headless lounge) then feel free to ask to try on my head. Just know I sweat a lot XD
- I have a scannable badge, PLEASE use it.
How far is too far:
-Physical tricks like tossing me, picking me up, rolling me over, or shoving
- Groping my ass or balls (unless we're being horny together)
- Being rough with my beak or tail
- Spraying stuff on me without warning
Can I take pictures with you:
Yes, in suit or out of suit. I'll be wearing a mask out of suit. Just make sure my badges are turned forward X3
Can I buy you things:
Don't buy me alcohol, I prefer to keep tabs on myself. You can buy me food! And art if we discuss it beforehand.
Best communication mediums to reach you:
Twitter! tucakeane
Telegram! tucaburb
I don't really do Discord or anything else. I check Twitter all the time and I only check Telegram when I'm expecting messages.
See ya in Hotlanta :>
TiFF
Posted 3 years agoHeya! I'm flying to Texas in the morning to be a bird among his flock in good ol' sallaD.
Hope to see ya there!
Hope to see ya there!
MFF, TFF , Mardi Gras!
Posted 4 years agoYup, I'm 30 now. But that doesn't mean I can't have fun!
Working a new job (same company), which has greatly improved my mental health. It's what's kept me from going over the edge once Basil was put to sleep.
Anyways, I'm going to be attending MFF in December! I'll be suiting, and driving. Still don't have a room @v@
After that, Mardi Gras with the roommates!
Then, TFF at the end of March :> Will be nice to be back at the con that was the *FINAL* event before COVID shut it all down.
Looking forward to 2022.
Working a new job (same company), which has greatly improved my mental health. It's what's kept me from going over the edge once Basil was put to sleep.
Anyways, I'm going to be attending MFF in December! I'll be suiting, and driving. Still don't have a room @v@
After that, Mardi Gras with the roommates!
Then, TFF at the end of March :> Will be nice to be back at the con that was the *FINAL* event before COVID shut it all down.
Looking forward to 2022.
End of an era
Posted 4 years agoOn 9/10 , the morning after my 30th birthday, I hopped into the shower at 5am.
20min later, I filled up the bathtub and soaked my boa constrictor for the last time.
At 6am, we hit the road to Illinois. I had her heatlamp, thermometer, and carrying tote loaded up with towels to make the bumpy 4hr trip back home more comfortable.
About an hour before arriving at the veterinarian, I pulled off into a rest center. I turned the heat on full blast and stared across the man-made lake by the parking lot. I went into the restroom and washed my hands. I looked in the mirror. I saw grey hairs.
I went back out to the truck. Her carrying cage had gone from 79F to 82F. Comfort levels. I opened the lid and peered in. There she was, head raised up, trying to slither out of her box. She never did like it in there.
We hopped back on the road. At every bump or hard brake, I reached out to steady her box in the passenger seat. “Sorry about that, Basil” “It’s okay, girlie” “Just a few more miles”
850am, I lugged her into the vet’s office.
855am, I weighed her on the scale in the lobby at the request of Cody, the teaching assistant
915am, the vet broke the news, “I’m afraid there isn’t much treatment we have available for her. It may be time to say goodbye”
I got time to sit with her. Stroke her. Tell her how much I loved her. How it wouldn’t hurt. How she’d fall asleep quickly.
She seemed so alert. She seemed so normal. But she hadn’t eaten in over 6 months. She was emaciated. She didn’t slither about like before. Her tail was distended and bloated. She was paralyzed. The rats she last ate had decomposed in her intestines. She couldn’t see well. She was weak. The infection had spread to her brain. She was swarming with ants and bugs. She wasn’t going to get better.
At 9:45, I signed the consent forms. I asked to be present. We’d shared a room for a decade, I didn’t want to leave her alone.
They asked if I needed more time. I said I hated long goodbyes. They rubbed some stuff on her gums and left. Basil was alert, upright, staring, like she would do if the bedroom was too loud. I sat there stroking her neck until she slowly lowered her head. Then that was it. She was knocked out. She wouldn’t be waking back up.
I was there when it was done. She was rolled onto her back. I sat there stroking her chin, something she never would’ve allowed. I got to hear her final heartbeats on the EKG. Then she was gone.
I don’t know why I’m writing this. It’s still so fresh in my mind and I’m scared I’ll forget it. I’ve been a nervous wreck for the past day. I’ve slept all of 6hrs since I woke up that morning. I barely eat. I go through bouts of being sociable and friendly to keep my mind occupied, then retreat to be alone and cry. Her cage sits there empty. I keep expecting to peek in and see her. I’ve been off my Seroquel for a few days. I knew with 90% certainty that I’d be taking her to Urbana to die, but always hoped I was overreacting. I’d planned to go visit family while the vet cared for her. Even while driving back home, I secured her box with every hard brake and bump, saying “I’m sorry, Basil” and “We’ll get you home.”
She wasn’t just a pet. She was my daughter. I met her when she was small enough to wear on your wrist. Everywhere I moved, she moved. She never bit, never hissed, never struck, just slithered about with quiet curiosity.
10/21/10 to 09/10/21
Rest in Peace, Basil.
20min later, I filled up the bathtub and soaked my boa constrictor for the last time.
At 6am, we hit the road to Illinois. I had her heatlamp, thermometer, and carrying tote loaded up with towels to make the bumpy 4hr trip back home more comfortable.
About an hour before arriving at the veterinarian, I pulled off into a rest center. I turned the heat on full blast and stared across the man-made lake by the parking lot. I went into the restroom and washed my hands. I looked in the mirror. I saw grey hairs.
I went back out to the truck. Her carrying cage had gone from 79F to 82F. Comfort levels. I opened the lid and peered in. There she was, head raised up, trying to slither out of her box. She never did like it in there.
We hopped back on the road. At every bump or hard brake, I reached out to steady her box in the passenger seat. “Sorry about that, Basil” “It’s okay, girlie” “Just a few more miles”
850am, I lugged her into the vet’s office.
855am, I weighed her on the scale in the lobby at the request of Cody, the teaching assistant
915am, the vet broke the news, “I’m afraid there isn’t much treatment we have available for her. It may be time to say goodbye”
I got time to sit with her. Stroke her. Tell her how much I loved her. How it wouldn’t hurt. How she’d fall asleep quickly.
She seemed so alert. She seemed so normal. But she hadn’t eaten in over 6 months. She was emaciated. She didn’t slither about like before. Her tail was distended and bloated. She was paralyzed. The rats she last ate had decomposed in her intestines. She couldn’t see well. She was weak. The infection had spread to her brain. She was swarming with ants and bugs. She wasn’t going to get better.
At 9:45, I signed the consent forms. I asked to be present. We’d shared a room for a decade, I didn’t want to leave her alone.
They asked if I needed more time. I said I hated long goodbyes. They rubbed some stuff on her gums and left. Basil was alert, upright, staring, like she would do if the bedroom was too loud. I sat there stroking her neck until she slowly lowered her head. Then that was it. She was knocked out. She wouldn’t be waking back up.
I was there when it was done. She was rolled onto her back. I sat there stroking her chin, something she never would’ve allowed. I got to hear her final heartbeats on the EKG. Then she was gone.
I don’t know why I’m writing this. It’s still so fresh in my mind and I’m scared I’ll forget it. I’ve been a nervous wreck for the past day. I’ve slept all of 6hrs since I woke up that morning. I barely eat. I go through bouts of being sociable and friendly to keep my mind occupied, then retreat to be alone and cry. Her cage sits there empty. I keep expecting to peek in and see her. I’ve been off my Seroquel for a few days. I knew with 90% certainty that I’d be taking her to Urbana to die, but always hoped I was overreacting. I’d planned to go visit family while the vet cared for her. Even while driving back home, I secured her box with every hard brake and bump, saying “I’m sorry, Basil” and “We’ll get you home.”
She wasn’t just a pet. She was my daughter. I met her when she was small enough to wear on your wrist. Everywhere I moved, she moved. She never bit, never hissed, never struck, just slithered about with quiet curiosity.
10/21/10 to 09/10/21
Rest in Peace, Basil.
Not dead
Posted 4 years agoJust around!
Been busy trying to recalibrate my worklife and figure out how you're supposed to fill your free time when you can't have booze. It's harder than you'd think.
Due to a sudden $1000+ debt from medical bills (personal and boa-related), I haven't been seeking out commissions as regularly as before. Even $30 headshots are a luxury I CAN'T afford right now.
That being said, I'm heading to Houston in August for Stratosfur to bird about, eat some local Texan (??) cuisine and record a live episode of the SoCal Shepherd Show with the rest of the team. Don't worry, we're splitting the cost of the room. Even with money woes, its one small saving grace I can allow before tumbling headfirst into my THIRTIES!!!
Am still occasionally sketching, but as usual my tablet doesn't appear to be working. In other words, a 20min sketch turns into 1.5hrs of reformatting drivers, erasing lines, changing hotkeys, checking cord connections, etc.... I think it might be good to stick with traditional art for the time being.
Hope to see some of you in Houston next month!
Been busy trying to recalibrate my worklife and figure out how you're supposed to fill your free time when you can't have booze. It's harder than you'd think.
Due to a sudden $1000+ debt from medical bills (personal and boa-related), I haven't been seeking out commissions as regularly as before. Even $30 headshots are a luxury I CAN'T afford right now.
That being said, I'm heading to Houston in August for Stratosfur to bird about, eat some local Texan (??) cuisine and record a live episode of the SoCal Shepherd Show with the rest of the team. Don't worry, we're splitting the cost of the room. Even with money woes, its one small saving grace I can allow before tumbling headfirst into my THIRTIES!!!
Am still occasionally sketching, but as usual my tablet doesn't appear to be working. In other words, a 20min sketch turns into 1.5hrs of reformatting drivers, erasing lines, changing hotkeys, checking cord connections, etc.... I think it might be good to stick with traditional art for the time being.
Hope to see some of you in Houston next month!
Hippie Birbday
Posted 5 years agoI'm officially 29.
My 20's are ticking away!
But it was worth it. I'm doing good. I'm happy :>
My 20's are ticking away!
But it was worth it. I'm doing good. I'm happy :>
Leaving FA
Posted 5 years agoBecause they suck
They are bad and have always been.
In what way? IDK, but I’m told they were bad
Guess I’ll go to much more successful sites like....................
I heard Dragoneer likes R34 of Digimon.
Gross.
Digimon are animals. That’s abuse. My friend HuskyWolfsunie said so. His gallery is 90% dog knots and he owns dog-cock shaped sex toys. He’s not happy about the Ho-Oh porn in my gallery.
(Not actually leaving FA. Just been seeing a lot of journals like these.)
They are bad and have always been.
In what way? IDK, but I’m told they were bad
Guess I’ll go to much more successful sites like....................
I heard Dragoneer likes R34 of Digimon.
Gross.
Digimon are animals. That’s abuse. My friend HuskyWolfsunie said so. His gallery is 90% dog knots and he owns dog-cock shaped sex toys. He’s not happy about the Ho-Oh porn in my gallery.
(Not actually leaving FA. Just been seeing a lot of journals like these.)
The Fandom, Podcast, Updates
Posted 5 years agoJust finished "The Fandom" by Ash/Ash Coyote (full documentary found right here). What can you say that it didn't mention already? Retrospective AND introspective view of the furry fandom in its entirety, from the offshoot of Sci-Fi conventions to overcoming negative press and powering onward. It's surreal to exist within the fandom for over a decade and finally learn the history! Seems that while our look/styles/traditions may change, our fandom remains the same!
In a few days, I'll be starting a new job here in Ohio :> It's a far cry from what I've been doing for years, but I'm up to the challenge. June and July meant no job and, besides no income to rely on, nothing much to do. While I did manage a few outings with roommates and local furries (including a trip to Kings Island on the 4th!) , COVID's kept everyone inside. This oppressive heat-wave's been no help either! My down-time meant for reading books, practicing art and trying to pick up vidya games met with half-hearted attempts and eventually a drop back into browsing Twitter and Facebook. What can I say? Awful as current events may be, it's more entertaining than anything on Netflix right now. Although I did finish Parasyte XD
I'm looking forward to beginning a new career, working in a new environment in a new city with new company! Income will mean an increase in commission, likely, and a chance to travel once my 90-Day probationary period is up.
Yeaaaah, I called it a bit early last year when I said 2020 would be cancelled. Who would've thought days after TFF (yes, mere days) the rest of the world would be too. It's been an odd year, but I've been prepared to sacrifice some time to ensure entering 2021 (and eventually, my 30's *v*) will be for the better.
So, what else have I been up to?
Since May, I've been cohosting a furry podcast with some friends, The SoCal Shepherd Show ! I met the eponymous SoCalShepherd prior to TFF, we struck up a friendship and were part of a panel at TFF mediating the goriest and most ruthless battle of the southwest in modern era - "In-N-Out VS. Whattaburger". Surprised by the turnout, they approached me after a few social nights on Discord to cohost their upcoming podcast with two others (Erica & Gooie) , and it's been a success! We discuss a myriad of things, from the Black Lives Matter movement and the plight of BIPOC furries in the fandom, including numerous guests sharing their experiences- to mundane things like favorite shows as kids, creating our fursonas, and the classic question of "Real VS. TheOnion", where we try to point out which is news and what is "news".
We're available on Anchor and Spotify, and you can find us on Twitter @/SoCalShepShow . We tape live on Twitch every Saturday around 8pm EST (9pm EST in August) and new episodes are available every Sunday!
So that's life. Hope you're all doing well :>
In a few days, I'll be starting a new job here in Ohio :> It's a far cry from what I've been doing for years, but I'm up to the challenge. June and July meant no job and, besides no income to rely on, nothing much to do. While I did manage a few outings with roommates and local furries (including a trip to Kings Island on the 4th!) , COVID's kept everyone inside. This oppressive heat-wave's been no help either! My down-time meant for reading books, practicing art and trying to pick up vidya games met with half-hearted attempts and eventually a drop back into browsing Twitter and Facebook. What can I say? Awful as current events may be, it's more entertaining than anything on Netflix right now. Although I did finish Parasyte XD
I'm looking forward to beginning a new career, working in a new environment in a new city with new company! Income will mean an increase in commission, likely, and a chance to travel once my 90-Day probationary period is up.
Yeaaaah, I called it a bit early last year when I said 2020 would be cancelled. Who would've thought days after TFF (yes, mere days) the rest of the world would be too. It's been an odd year, but I've been prepared to sacrifice some time to ensure entering 2021 (and eventually, my 30's *v*) will be for the better.
So, what else have I been up to?
Since May, I've been cohosting a furry podcast with some friends, The SoCal Shepherd Show ! I met the eponymous SoCalShepherd prior to TFF, we struck up a friendship and were part of a panel at TFF mediating the goriest and most ruthless battle of the southwest in modern era - "In-N-Out VS. Whattaburger". Surprised by the turnout, they approached me after a few social nights on Discord to cohost their upcoming podcast with two others (Erica & Gooie) , and it's been a success! We discuss a myriad of things, from the Black Lives Matter movement and the plight of BIPOC furries in the fandom, including numerous guests sharing their experiences- to mundane things like favorite shows as kids, creating our fursonas, and the classic question of "Real VS. TheOnion", where we try to point out which is news and what is "news".
We're available on Anchor and Spotify, and you can find us on Twitter @/SoCalShepShow . We tape live on Twitch every Saturday around 8pm EST (9pm EST in August) and new episodes are available every Sunday!
So that's life. Hope you're all doing well :>
Off to Ohio!
Posted 5 years agoAll packed and prepared to make the move in with 
fenrierreddragon ! It’s the first major move of my life, and while the country is in chaos right now, I’m going through with it. Will be sleeping well tomorrow night!
fenrierreddragon ! It’s the first major move of my life, and while the country is in chaos right now, I’m going through with it. Will be sleeping well tomorrow night!Moving!
Posted 5 years agoNah, not to a different site or profile. The old type of moving! Like, physically!
I’ll admit, the past few months (ie., ever since I turned 28) haven’t been the best. A close friend died, an even closer friend moved across the country, I started sad-drinking again and OH YEAH CORONAVIRUS!
At the end of the month, I’m leaving my job, packing up and relocating a few states over to live with fenrierreddragon and her roommate! Am still in the process of finding a job, but there’s a few promising prospects in the work.
Might be a little quiet for the next few weeks, but once I get there I plan to finishing uploading old commissions and start drawing again! :>
I’ll admit, the past few months (ie., ever since I turned 28) haven’t been the best. A close friend died, an even closer friend moved across the country, I started sad-drinking again and OH YEAH CORONAVIRUS!
At the end of the month, I’m leaving my job, packing up and relocating a few states over to live with
fenrierreddragon and her roommate! Am still in the process of finding a job, but there’s a few promising prospects in the work. Might be a little quiet for the next few weeks, but once I get there I plan to finishing uploading old commissions and start drawing again! :>
Hey anthros, wanna get some art together?
Posted 5 years agoGot a YCH slot for 
ksilence , and am currently the highest bidder on slot 1. Am looking for a slot 2!
Give it a gander :>
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35511667/
ksilence , and am currently the highest bidder on slot 1. Am looking for a slot 2!Give it a gander :>
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35511667/
CORVID-19
Posted 5 years agoSo yeah, it's getting bad. All restaurants/bars are shut down, we've had one confirmed death in IL, basically everything is cancelled until May, and working in retail has NOT been fun *v*
Nobody said you can't leave the house, especially if you need supplies!
What are you guys doing during this pandemic? Are you working from home? Quarantined? Sick? Not sick? Working as usual?
Nobody said you can't leave the house, especially if you need supplies!
What are you guys doing during this pandemic? Are you working from home? Quarantined? Sick? Not sick? Working as usual?
TFF- Terrorbird Feathery Festival
Posted 6 years agoSo yeah, gonna be in Dallas the final week of February, Wednesday through Monday. Gonna be suiting. Who wants a hug?
Handlers?
Posted 6 years agoMFF is my first con suiting, and so far I don't have a designated handler.
Neither of my roommates have been handlers before, nor do I want to interfere with their scheduled plans.
Anybody want to help a bird out? For small bits at a time? I'm mainly suiting Friday and Saturday but will be in my partial suit most of the con anyways.
I'd like to think I can adapt and work my way through a crowd without one - I do have a water bottle on a leash just in case I'm alone! - but it would be nice to have a plus one.
Neither of my roommates have been handlers before, nor do I want to interfere with their scheduled plans.
Anybody want to help a bird out? For small bits at a time? I'm mainly suiting Friday and Saturday but will be in my partial suit most of the con anyways.
I'd like to think I can adapt and work my way through a crowd without one - I do have a water bottle on a leash just in case I'm alone! - but it would be nice to have a plus one.
MFF 2019 MEME
Posted 6 years agoFirst con suiting (for real this time!), so please don't hesitate to stop me for pics and hugs.
BASICS
What day are you getting there?
Thursday (12/5)
How are you traveling?
Rental car
Where are you staying?
Embassy Suites
Who will you be rooming with?
yami99 and 
veem0n
How long are you going?
Leaving on Monday
PERSONAL
What do you look like?
Kinda like Post Malone, if you believe what the college students at the bar tend to say.
What is your gender?
Male
How tall are you?
5' 7"
Can I talk to you?
I'm not a very talkative bird, but if you initiate conversation I'm going to try my damndest to keep it goin!
Can I touch, hug, or snuggle you?
Hugs are always fine with me! In suit or out of suit! Would just prefer to be asked but I honestly don't mind them. Snugs are better for in suit.
Are you nice?
NO FUCK YOU
Are you taken?
Not taken, not necessarily looking. Everything is open this weekend.
ART
Can I draw in your sketchbook?
Please do. Am trying to make it a tradition to bring it for signatures and such. Probably won't have it when suiting though.
Can we get art?
UM well I really didn't plan to spend a lot this con, since I have TFF coming up a few months after, but if you want to split on something please let me know. Generally I'm very happy to get artwork with people! Budget is my main concern *v*
CONVENTION
Will you be fursuiting?
You know it!
Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
I have no plans *v* I tend to just wander around.
What is the best way to find you?
Twitter is your best bet. I check that quite often. If I know you, then telegram. If I know you REALLY well, text or call me.
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
"BIRD!"
or
"TUCA!"
Are there any panels you might be attending?
Avian Meet N Greet, and if Adler's hosting another Adler Animates Live panel, that too! Otherwise I leave panel-attendance open!
Will you be going to parties?
I don't plan to. I'm always happy to be invited but I was fine not going to room parties last year.
Will you be performing?
Will do the chicken dance if asked. Otherwise no.
What/where will you be eating?
YOU HAHAHAHA
IDK man bird's gotta eat so wherever I want.
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
I don't really have much of a group this year as I did previous years. But I'm pretty sociable when need be. If we're hanging out and I want to grab some food, you're welcome to come!
Can I visit your room?
Would prefer you didn't! I'm not sure if my roomates would be okay with that.
Can I buy you drinks?
GIVE ME YOUR ALCOHOL!!!
Can I give you stuff?
You absolutely can. I will refuse initially, as is custom, but will accept it after you insist I have it. And will be extremely grateful ;v;
Can I take your picture?
In or out of suit, yes! Just ask!
What are your goals for the con this year?
Scamper about like a dumb stinky bird and not step on anyone's tail *v*
BASICS
What day are you getting there?
Thursday (12/5)
How are you traveling?
Rental car
Where are you staying?
Embassy Suites
Who will you be rooming with?
yami99 and 
veem0nHow long are you going?
Leaving on Monday
PERSONAL
What do you look like?
Kinda like Post Malone, if you believe what the college students at the bar tend to say.
What is your gender?
Male
How tall are you?
5' 7"
Can I talk to you?
I'm not a very talkative bird, but if you initiate conversation I'm going to try my damndest to keep it goin!
Can I touch, hug, or snuggle you?
Hugs are always fine with me! In suit or out of suit! Would just prefer to be asked but I honestly don't mind them. Snugs are better for in suit.
Are you nice?
NO FUCK YOU
Are you taken?
Not taken, not necessarily looking. Everything is open this weekend.
ART
Can I draw in your sketchbook?
Please do. Am trying to make it a tradition to bring it for signatures and such. Probably won't have it when suiting though.
Can we get art?
UM well I really didn't plan to spend a lot this con, since I have TFF coming up a few months after, but if you want to split on something please let me know. Generally I'm very happy to get artwork with people! Budget is my main concern *v*
CONVENTION
Will you be fursuiting?
You know it!
Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
I have no plans *v* I tend to just wander around.
What is the best way to find you?
Twitter is your best bet. I check that quite often. If I know you, then telegram. If I know you REALLY well, text or call me.
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
"BIRD!"
or
"TUCA!"
Are there any panels you might be attending?
Avian Meet N Greet, and if Adler's hosting another Adler Animates Live panel, that too! Otherwise I leave panel-attendance open!
Will you be going to parties?
I don't plan to. I'm always happy to be invited but I was fine not going to room parties last year.
Will you be performing?
Will do the chicken dance if asked. Otherwise no.
What/where will you be eating?
YOU HAHAHAHA
IDK man bird's gotta eat so wherever I want.
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
I don't really have much of a group this year as I did previous years. But I'm pretty sociable when need be. If we're hanging out and I want to grab some food, you're welcome to come!
Can I visit your room?
Would prefer you didn't! I'm not sure if my roomates would be okay with that.
Can I buy you drinks?
GIVE ME YOUR ALCOHOL!!!
Can I give you stuff?
You absolutely can. I will refuse initially, as is custom, but will accept it after you insist I have it. And will be extremely grateful ;v;
Can I take your picture?
In or out of suit, yes! Just ask!
What are your goals for the con this year?
Scamper about like a dumb stinky bird and not step on anyone's tail *v*
What to expect while suiting?
Posted 6 years agoOk, so I've worn my fullsuit about 4-5 times total since I got it in April.....all for less than an hour total. I'm planning to suit at MFF for the first time ever this year, primarily most of Friday, Saturday, and some of Sunday.
I have the following supplies-
*A quick-dry fan hanger for the bodysuit
*Fursuit shampoo
*Fursuit fabric freshener
*Balaclava
*Underarmor
*Bandanas to freeze and wear under suit as a poor man's cooling device
*Water bottle I can drink from while suiting.
…..Uh, ok. What now? What do I do? How do I fursuit?
I have the following supplies-
*A quick-dry fan hanger for the bodysuit
*Fursuit shampoo
*Fursuit fabric freshener
*Balaclava
*Underarmor
*Bandanas to freeze and wear under suit as a poor man's cooling device
*Water bottle I can drink from while suiting.
…..Uh, ok. What now? What do I do? How do I fursuit?
