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That was rather painful.
General | Posted 3 months agoHaving my throat opened up, and my thyroid scooped out hurt!
It really left me weak and tired during the last three days.
It really left me weak and tired during the last three days.
A little heads-up
General | Posted 3 months agoWell, I'm going in for cancer surgery this morning.
It should be no problem, but if I don't update this within a week; then something really bad has happened.
Not that I think it matters if i write it here or not, but this seems to be the the standard thing to do.
It should be no problem, but if I don't update this within a week; then something really bad has happened.
Not that I think it matters if i write it here or not, but this seems to be the the standard thing to do.
Meh!
General | Posted 7 months agoMaybe I shouldn't make big, dramatic Journal-entries, but my introspection over the last month have at least made me realize why I do them.
Childhood trauma is a hell of a thing, eh?
I suppose that I could remove the old ones, but I prefer to simply put up this new one to hide them from the front page.
Just making some small changes, nothing for anyone to care about.
Childhood trauma is a hell of a thing, eh?
I suppose that I could remove the old ones, but I prefer to simply put up this new one to hide them from the front page.
Just making some small changes, nothing for anyone to care about.
Maybe my own uploads, but no more commissions for a while.
General | Posted 8 months agoWhatever the case, be it my handicap, my upbringing, or the negative atmosphere at my current workplace; I have obviously normalized certain negative behaviours and feelings.
If I am so blind to my own bad behaviour, and if I let my feelings override my logical reasoning; then I should not be directly interacting on social platforms right now.
It is not enough to just say that I'm screwed up. Not enough to say that I'm "learning "or "working on it". Not enough to say that things will be different next time I talk to someone.
I cannot keep telling myself that I'm a good person when my actions inadvertently hurt others.
I need to take some time to actually fix myself.
Writing stories helps a bit, but it is a slow process, and it cannot fix everything. I need to do more then that!
I know someone who has taken some courses and workshops to handle his own feelings better. I will ask him for some recommendations.
I will try to focus on my writing so that I can put something on my page, but unless I stumble over something I really, really want to commission, then I will not publish something from another creator for a while.
Maybe I won't commission for 1 month, maybe not until December, maybe longer. Who knows?
I only know that I cannot fully trust myself with artists on FA and other sites right now.
If I am so blind to my own bad behaviour, and if I let my feelings override my logical reasoning; then I should not be directly interacting on social platforms right now.
It is not enough to just say that I'm screwed up. Not enough to say that I'm "learning "or "working on it". Not enough to say that things will be different next time I talk to someone.
I cannot keep telling myself that I'm a good person when my actions inadvertently hurt others.
I need to take some time to actually fix myself.
Writing stories helps a bit, but it is a slow process, and it cannot fix everything. I need to do more then that!
I know someone who has taken some courses and workshops to handle his own feelings better. I will ask him for some recommendations.
I will try to focus on my writing so that I can put something on my page, but unless I stumble over something I really, really want to commission, then I will not publish something from another creator for a while.
Maybe I won't commission for 1 month, maybe not until December, maybe longer. Who knows?
I only know that I cannot fully trust myself with artists on FA and other sites right now.
Fair warning
General | Posted 11 months agoI know that the only people that visits this page are either just looking for the art I have commissioned from others, or scammers wanting to trick me.
But if you for some reason actually want to talk to me like an honest person: Don't ask about anything but my characters and their lore!
I have already accepted that I am just too mentally different from everyone else to be considered a "good" person.
And even though I try my best to be nice, I will eventually turn a conversation bad.
And it will be because I do not understand/realise that I am doing something wrong.
My lore and characters: good conversation.
Anything else: bad.
Some humans are just too flawed to work properly, I guess.
But if you for some reason actually want to talk to me like an honest person: Don't ask about anything but my characters and their lore!
I have already accepted that I am just too mentally different from everyone else to be considered a "good" person.
And even though I try my best to be nice, I will eventually turn a conversation bad.
And it will be because I do not understand/realise that I am doing something wrong.
My lore and characters: good conversation.
Anything else: bad.
Some humans are just too flawed to work properly, I guess.
Free headshot raffle
General | Posted a year agoA good artist 
~Corbin that I was recommended is holding a free headshot raffle.
It could be worth checking out. (And not just because I get an extra number for posting this journal)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58629094/
~Corbin that I was recommended is holding a free headshot raffle.It could be worth checking out. (And not just because I get an extra number for posting this journal)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58629094/
Story ideas
General | Posted 2 years agoI have put together quite a bit of backstory to my OCs and the world they inhabit. If I was some kind of good writer, I could probably write some stories about it.
Food for though, I suppose.
Food for though, I suppose.
