...And a happy new year everyone! ^w^

I apologies for the silence, but I have been trying to make some progress and fortunately, I have been. However, there are still some things that I can't really control and thus hope for the best that it won't last much longer than it has been. So...on to the news!

The Good News~
Finally after years of blood, sweat, tears, and many mental stress situations, I actually got an actual job for real. Meaning I'm finally getting my life together after what felt like frickin' forever! Hopefully start fixing up some computer issues regarding my semi-dead processer unit that needs to be replaced. :D

The Bad News~
Unforunately, but thankfully minor, my brother's computer which has been handed down to me, requires better internet to fully reset it and make it my own. Meaning I still won't be able to do Art/Music for awhile until the peaple get better internet hooked up in our place, which I won't know how long that will take so until then, I'm still on hold. Xb

Anyway, thats all I got for now. Have a great day and always stay safe in these trying times!

I don't really do these kinds of journels, but I think this is a bigger problem that needs to be brought to light.

Unfortunately AND recently, a large number of individuals have reported CP(Child porn) on this website. I don't know who posted these...things(god forbid), but if you happen to see CP while you're scrolling through FA, send a report at https://cybertip.org/ with a repository link, and they can send it to authorities who will be able to track down the source. We also encourage you to spread the word by making a journal of your own, either via Copypasting this journal or editing it / writing a new one.

Until I replace it or get a new computer, I won't be on as much so forgive me if I'm slow to respond. As for why I haven't been posting new stuff is because of real life been keeping me busy more than usual so I haven't got the energy/motivation to work on it.

Thats all for now!

Figure I get this off my chest and tell you guys about my current situation.

First of all, lately I haven't been exactly in an artistic mood lately due to Real Life issues so you'll see art from me very rarely. Second is my internet connection, its absolutely terrible. If I don't respond in a long time or ended up accidently spam a massage, its my internect acting like crap. In short, I run on satellite internet, which is better than nothing, but still annoys me. We were was suppose to get better internet last summer, but due to Covid, that didn't happen. So I don't know when we'll get it, but if I were to guess, it won't be a VERY long time (ughh). Last but not least, the creation of music. This is probably what I'm gonna be reduce to for a bit til' I can get things sorted out. Cause one: Its easy, and two: I've been able to actually enjoy it. Main reason why is because I like the idea of creating my own music for me (and a few others) to listen to as I get more confortible as well as get better at using the music program. Currently it's just for my enjoyment and I figured I share some of my creations with you guys. I did have a little help from my older brother (whose been keeping me preocupied with his shenanigens) to help me make my music sound better, basically my Second Opinion Guy.

So yeah, thats my current situation and hope y'all have a better year than the last. And as always, stay safe! ^w^

Man, what a messed up year. And I thought 2019 was bad, but compared to this year, it wasn't anywhere near as THIS.

Well, anyway...Wish you all Merry Christmas and stay safe out there with the whole world gone mad. ^^'

If life taught me anything, its to never have expectations...

Before I begin, I want to say some things first.

I don't usually or really like doing these kinds of journals, but right now I REALLY need get something off my chest. And before you start freaking out, no its nothing depressing or my whole life story or anything, just some issues I need to address in my life(I think that is how you say it), so if you don't like reading these kinds of journal then do not continue and delete the notification to said journal (I won't blame you for doing so), and if your still here, then bare (bear?) with me ok. Good. Also going to keep it relatively short sooooo.....yeah. Oh, and also another thing, by "you" in this vent story, I mean someone else who I've been pretty angry with for awhile now.

And with that lets begin.



So here's the story: I have zero confidence in my abilities and in myself, making me feel like a complete waste of space and all I do is make mistakes on a daily bases....AND I'M TIRED OF MENTALLY BEATING MYSELF UP FOR EVERY SINGLE MISTAKE I'VE EVER MADE IN MY ENTIRE LIFE! I'm getting real sick of feeling like trash on a daily bases and thinking so god damn nagative about everything I've ever done in my life 24/7! I will admit, it NEVER has been this bad for like, my entire life. Sure I've made mistakes in my life, I've done some things I shouldn't have done like nearly causing a fire in a town, or said some things I should have never said without knowing what the word meant. If I can learn from my mistakes, even if its from trial and error, then its fine, I can understand why people are angry with me, and I won't do it again. BUT THAT DOES NOT GIVE YOU THE RIGHT TO CHEW MY HEAD OFF, AND SPIT IT OUT LIKE TRASH, FOR EVERY F*****G LITTLE MISTAKE I MADE ON A DAILY BASES AND NOTHING MAKES ME WANT TO TEAR MY STUPID HEAD OFF THEN THAT! I AM TIRED AND SICK OF THIS SH*T THAT YOU PUT ME THROUGH AND IF YOU AREN'T HAPPY WITH THE WAY I DO THINGS, THEN DO IT YOUR F*****G SELF. I didn't help you so I get yelled at for making MINER MISTAKES, I helped you because you have a hard time doing it yourself. I can't learn from said mistakes if you just throw a big fit about it and SHOVE ME OUT OF YOUR WAY(mentally) TO DO IT YOURSELF JUST AFTER I TRIED TO FIX THE MISTAKE I MADE! You say that your not going to be around for long to take care of everything, well newsflash for you as well, I'm not going to be around to help out with everything as well. I want to live my own life someday. I want to do the things I want to do instead of being guilt tripped into staying to help you out just to endure more mental degration from you. Right now, the only things that are keeping me grounded right now is my mom, my brother, and ironically, my inability to explain myself to you before you draw up an instant conclusion TO CONSTANTLY LECTURING ME ABOUT EVERY MISTAKE I DO AND I'M SICK AND TIRED OF IT. For a long while I've been bottling up my own emotions just to deal with the mental abuse you put me through so I can get it right, but enough is enough. If I have to suffer a physical injury, big or small, through trial and error, in order to learn from my mistake, then its my own damn fault for that mistake. Eventually I'm going to move out, but because I can't go anywhere at the moment doesn't give you an excuse to keep piling up more and more responsibility on me to the point of multitasking(which I'm terrible at) and then blame me for not doing it correctly. As long as the job gets done then that should be the only thing that matters, BUT DOES NOT MEAN THAT YOU HAVE TO NICKPICK ON EVERY SINGLE INCORRECTION I MAKE AND IF YOU WANT ME ME TO LEARN, THEN LET ME FIGURE IT OUT MYSELF SO I CAN LEARN FROM MY OWN MISTAKES! You say that old saying that there is no need to cry over spilled milk, well why don't you take your OWN DAMN ADVICE FOR A CHANGE INSTEAD OF BLAMING ME FOR EVERY F*****G THING I DO, JUST TO TRY AND HELP YOU GET YOUR SH*T TOGETHER!!!!!!


And that is all I have to say for now because I'm tired and I'm just going to listen to my metal for a change....

You like games, right? RPG specifically?

Then here is some for you to enjoy! No its not something furry/scalie related but I do recommend you give it a read!

Here's the link and enjoy! https://www.webtoons.com/en/action/the-gamer/ep-1/viewer?title_no=88&episode_no=1

Don't forget to support the artist!

Here's da link---->https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9457557

I'm pretty sure I'm not the only person who does this, but does anyone else spends most of their time on character creation creating multiple characters and then come up with an epic background story for each one then saves a screenshot of said character for either fan art or fan stories or both because its really fun and the more stuff you can do with or change more of with characters the better because then you have a whole list of characters with epic background stories and you could probably make a good story or comic with them, etc, etc?

Just wondering.

There's not enough fanfic stories for this epic series!!!

Well...at least any good long ones that weren't abandoned. Actually, I found TWO good ones, both with a lizard protagonist. Except one is finished, but takes a dark turn with the protagonist's companions and the other is still in working progress and isn't as dark and has a few mistakes, but its still a good read. Would definitely recommend checking them out!

This one is written by Rainbowhawk1993 and is still in working process, It updated several days ago with chapter 42--->https://www.fanfiction.net/s/13077403/1/My-Story

This one is written by Slywyn and is currently finished so no cliffhangers here--->https://www.fanfiction.net/s/13380784/1/Godwoken

Edit: Decided to remove a part of this cause I'm still deciding whether I should or shoudn't do the thing I said I'll do but what the heck...

Still...I'll try

So I've been thinking of getting a better program, mainly because the one I'm using is very limited when it comes to artistic options. Also because whenever I do something big or really detailed to the best of my abilities, the system starts to lag and it just throws me off and starts to get annoying. I mean, its great when someone is just a beginner, but your limited on how much you can make. So I've decided to get a better program that doesn't feel very limited and decided to get this one. https://graphicsgale.com/us/

The previous one that I have been using is here (It's also free)----> https://www.piskelapp.com/

I am also willing to listen to any other recommended programs that would also help me improve my pixel art, so don't be afraid to comment on any recommendations!

...and it was pretty great! This game was recommended to me by a relative awhile back, and I thought I give it a go. And my first thought...was that the game is just, if not exact, like dnd! And I loved it. Would definitely recommend it to anyone who likes/loves dnd. This game contains excellent turn-based mechanics, and also mind racking puzzles plus excellent character development. I definitely enjoyed the experience.

The best part, in my opinion, about the game is the various choices and paths you can choose to take AND the various endings you can have (yes, this game has multiple endings)! there are also various classes you can choose from and four races you can play as (as well as the undead version of said races). For example, you can be a dwarf battlemage who also excels at sneaking, or a undead lizard rogue or assassin who fights for justice.

All in all, I would definitely give this game a rating of 9/10 for great effort put into this game and for having an enjoyable experience! I do hope they make more games like these in the future!

So long 2019...

And HEL-Ooooooooooooooooooo 2020!

Hope you all have a great Holliday and a happy new year!

After several months, I felt like playing MTGA (Magic The Gathering Arena) again, so I can get back to making my ultimate deck of pure awesomeness, only to have my mood killed due to unable to connect to the MTGA Server because of sucky internet. I tried again, but just end up getting the same results.

*siiiigggghhhh*


So glad I'm getting better internet next year...because this sucks. :(

With all the things that has been happening this year and the year before that, how do you think next year would turn out for us? Would it turn out better than this year or continue spiraling downward to more misfortune and despair?

SO GO EAT CANDY LIKE ITS NOBODY'S BUSINESS!!!

just watch out for diabetes!

I'm puttting the link in the journal for those who wants to know the details and/or want to support this person. They're journal would explain everything!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9269276/

Plz help...in anyway you can...even just by spreading the word. Every action counts. This is one of those people we can't afford to lose! :(

I have to travel to somewhere to help out one of my relative due to having breathing problems and they can't do much on their own, and where I'm going there will be no internet. Meaning I won't be online for a bit, but will attempt to check every once in awhile or whenever I get the chance. So expect my responses to be very slow. I also hope this will bring back some of my motivation back due to working on some pixel art, but then immediately lose interest

That is all I have to say for now. ;)