its been.. a really weird last few years. Lost my comptuer, had to get new ones, trying to write a book, and moving like 12 times I sware!

Anyway, if poeple are still around here I do have alot of artwork I can upload from the last couple years if anyone wants to see it.
Past that, you can find me on tumblr, sometimes dev, and.. just sorta around.
my tumblr is lacyazlin.tumblr.com and I do have a few interesting subblogs and rp blogs.

Moments like this I wish I wasn't so overrun! I'd be asking for commisions if I didn't already have a full plate

4 adults in one house and three having all unluckily all been fired within a short time of eachother. (and one disabled, me.) So currently we're trying to pay our rent. Mind you, we've been ON TIME with our rent, even when 4 months ago we started to have the firings going on. This month we have 2/3rd of the rent, and since the landlord told us if we have some issues with things corordinating (the next UI check comes in in two weeks) payment rather than paying it all in one sum late, just pay what we can and get the rest to him.
So that's what we do. And what he do? Calls and THREATENS US. Mind you, we've been patient with the man for our entire lease. He's never repaired things, he hasn't done what he said he would. We have nasty carpets from the 70s that needed to be replaced YEARS ago, we have craked paint, and moldy stairwells. I've gotten horribly SICK in this house because of my allergies. The electric is frankly frightening.. and the heat isn't working.
Does he listen to the fact that frankly we've been telling him to repair things for months which he said he would and according to the tenant/landlord lease he's AGREED to doing, he says that us being late on a SMALL PORTION of the rent is 'breaking lease' and if we don't get it to him in the next couple days we need to 'come to a new arrangement' then tells us he'll make us leave, that there are lots of people who can pay the rent who would be interested.
I'm sorry, I KNOW state laws! I HAVE OUR FUCKING LEASE (pardon my language) and he has to first give us a letter of notice. IF we pay the back pay before the time (end of THIS month) then we stil have possesson of the rental and he CAN'T throw us out. He's just stupid and thinks he can bully us.

SIGH but I still need to come up with an extra 500, at least for next month.

http://community.livejournal.com/steamfashion/2422602.html a link to my livejournal entry, it's public so everyone should be able to see it!

I'll be at the Tim Burton Ball tomorrow Feb 26th, in NYC. Anyone else going to be there? Hopefully we can run into eachother!

I got a chance to watch the new trailer for the Prince of Persia movie.
So decided 'what the hell'.. I'm doing a small review of it.

Well after staring at posters and replaying my games a million times I have to say that the trailer really blew me away.


In a word. It's Beautiful!

rather than following the first game word for word, they seem to have taken things like in the direction of a 'spin off' or 'alternate universe'. This can be fine really (Silent Hill anyone?) when done well, and can suck majorly if not done well.
Considering this is from the same bunch as the Pirate of the Caribbean who have made a huge franchise off of a 5 minute Disney RIDE, I wasn't really worried that this new adaptation of the Prince would suck tons of ass.

The new trailer is just breathtaking and gives me huge hopes for the movie.

Some of the things I took note:

Biggest thing, they have expanded on the scope of the first game. Instead of traveling about the ruins of a palace they do a touch of world hopping and travel instead to a far place where they attempt to contain the dagger before it can get used for evil. Mixing in it seems aspects of the other games. Makes me wonder if they have plans on continuing the series as was done in the games or if this is going to be the only one. Which would be a bit sad, i would love to see their take on the Two Princes... Warrior within not so much, but story wise that game wasn't nearly as good as the others. The newest game, well I just got a new PS3 and haven't been able to buy it yet (saving money saving money.. be responsible, don't go out blowing cash on Devil May Cry and Prince of Persia and...)
Instead of the Prince's first outfit, the wardrobe choices seem to be a bit of a mix of the second and third games.
Character choices are fantastic...I was a little worried, but hearing Jake as the Prince just made me so happy, he sounds so much like him! Looks like him too! *drools*
And I love the Princess... She's adorable! And the line they have in the trailer just utterly showed their relationship perfectly. (love their bantering in the series. I always would stay in the panel to hear it all whenever they start talking at each other. It usually always ends up funny as hell.)
They gave the Prince a name, in the game he stayed pretty nameless, but with the scope of things here it seems having a proper introduction does seem right to name him so much sooner. I wonder though if they will have time messed with enough to pull off the final scene of the game? Time bending fun can hurt one's head and make for not quite happy endings...

What I don't like? I can't say at the moment. Oh sure I could say that they changed too much of that they aren't staying utterly loyal to the games.
I'm sorry... I PLAY those games, I want to sit and watch something I haven't played to the point of memorizing every move and angle! Just the fact that they kept the Prince's gravity defying wall jumps, climbing, and the beauty of the fighting makes me happy!
Haven't seen yet if they have all the sand monsters still.. there is one guy in black who looks a bit like a sand beast, but it's hard to say...


So to see the trailer yourself, go here http://www.imdb.com/video/imdb/vi3583509785/
and for more info go here http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0473075/

Quote from the Trailer:
Tamina: Such a noble prince leaping to assist the fallen beauty.
Prince Dastan: Who said you are a beauty?
Tamina: There must be a reason why you can't take your eyes of me.
Prince Dastan: [stutters] You're... I...

Baby girl (my sister's baby) has now come into my care (as I'm her babysitter, get paid too) and most the time she's a quiet cheerful baby,but right now she's had a couple colds in a row, and is cutting a tooth, on top that she's been having some acid problems that been making her uncomfortable. Right now she's screaming and there is nothing I can do for her.

I've resently hit a dry spell in my roleplay partners online. Everyone's gotten busy with other things and so I'm looking for someone new to play with.

Heh I was entertaining my room mates with a story the other day, a dream I had. Where a meteor/comet ended up crashing into us and we had NO real warning. The angle it came from we didn't see it until it was practically on top of us.

For alot of people the impacts literately came out of nowhere. While they slept and such. The meteor broke up so we ended up with two main impacts and a bunch of smaller ones that didn't do nearly the damage of the main ones.
A good portion of the southern half of the US was wiped out, the axis of the earth was made a little more extreme so the summers tended to be warmer and the winters hella colder. But the way the currents ended up regoing the northern half of the earth was in an iceage and the southern half was not that cold.

So out of the 7 billion people in the world about 80% died.(so while some idiots died, one can always imagine that most of them died...) Either during the collision or the first couple years after. The continents ended up shifting by multiple feet in a lot of areas, so you can imagine the earthquakes, volcanoes and tsunamis that set off! Let alone the crazy weather. So there where alot of deaths due to accident, nature and pure stupidity!

NewYork City by the end of it ended up resembling Venice, a good portion of the buildings where underwater. Coming from the old gulf of Mexico (that was one of the main impact zones) was what was now referred to as the 'Mississippi Gulf' the river didn't really exist anymore, instead up that area was a huge expanse of water. Where the ocean came right up the central US. Splitting the area practically in half nearly up to the Great Lakes.
Because as cold as it was in the northern half of things, me and a couple others ended up getting together and pooling resources. We started a small caravan, had a bunch of animals that we'd gathered from various farms. Horses, Cows, Sheep and Goats. So we started to lead them south. The original plan was to find a good area of pasture and start farming. In the end we found ourselves with more people that thought we had a good thing going and joined us, people that started to give us things to carry onto other areas, traveling with news, culture, and knowledge to help out others. Our actions ended up founding towns and other towns and such started to spring up along the path we took as our territory. So accidentally we started a new Nomadic lifestyle.

By the end of things we found out about a couple more groups that started up, all together there where 4 main 'tribes'. One that went up and down the west coast line, my tribe that covered the eastern, (both of us would travel up as far as we could before the snow turned completely all year round... So we didn't get far into the old Canadian territories) And two tribes that traveled from the western coast line to the central/eastern. One on the northern half and one on the southern. The area that three of the tribes intersected ended up turning into a HUGE fair. We'd all meet up and trade and work with each other, other people started to hear of it and soon alot of people started to converge on that place during that time. Making it a huge affair of close to 700 people. Countries reformed,government re shifted and with the smaller base a democracy on the way we know it just didn't work. There wasn't the communication necessary for such a thing. Mail started to reform a bit by those of us that traveled, and another group calling themselves 'Runners'. Who started to set up little stop points and would carry mail from one point to another. It was slow, but people began to communicate more. We had no clue what was going on over seas. Just in our own area. Mexico was wiped out, and no one had made it down to South America yet to see how they where doing.

Then new adaptations and changes started to be seen. Alot of animals started to get bigger,(some smaller) alot more hairy. As the colder climate meant creatures with warmer coats lived. Totally new species started to show up.. And then there was the panic. We heard tell of a massacre in a town where they killed nearly 20 people because of a werewolf scare. While we didn't see it in our own group, we heard of areas where babies where killed as soon as they where born because they were 'different'. But no one would say HOW.

At one point I had met a drifter, he kept covered but with the cold alot of people did. we hung out for a bit and ended up in a relationship, then he drifted off again. Which made me sad, but I had a caravan to run and couldn't go drifting with him. I'd asked him to stay but he only said that it would be better if he didn't.

About 9 months later. lol. I ended up with a baby. I was pretty happy. Then it started to be noticed that my baby was a bit.. different. His proportions where off, his eyes where oddly shaped, and he ended up developing a very interesting jaw line that could open up totally and revealed alot of very pointy teeth. (It would split from the lip down the jaw. So his mouth opened out three ways.)

Some of course called my baby a demon and said I should kill it. I called them idiots. I wasn't going to let people of our caravan fall into the same paranoia that we where seeing elsewhere. Aside from his differences, my boy was perfectly NORMAL. He was still utterly human. Just looked a little odd. that's when we started to see more things like that. The impact was causing man to shift, adapt, mutate, and evolve.

So that was the end of that dream.. but it was fun that last night actually started up with the same setting about 20 years later. With my boy all grown up and running the caravan. that had by that point split into a couple smaller ones that took different territories within the same larger one that he still traveled. Everything had resettled. New names had sprung up, contact was made eventually with the rest of the world. News of what happened there. New mythologies and religions sprung up, technology took new twists, and the world had resettled into a new 'norm' for the most part. A new struggle was going on as a general fear of the new groups of people that where rising up started some interesting fights. Alot of people with simular differences started to get together. There where a few rather regular changes that happened that where the most common to see banding together. Extreme large size. Just massive people that grew to be like 8 foot tall. they called themselves Giants. And then there where the smaller stockier people that where strong and compact, with alot of facial hair.. Dwarves of course. And yes.. there where elves. lol. Pulling names from fantasy creatures just seemed the thing to do. When people and animals resembled the descriptions of old stories.

Random dreams

Today has been so surreal.

I had a dream where I was watching some program, ended up like watching 2 seasons worth of this show..

Overall it was the basic story over and over.. girl introduced in a nice story format. Meet her life a bit.. just the 'this is what she does and who she is' and then ending up in this rather sick twisted game by this 'villain' who every time was a little different (each show was animated and done by a different crew, so the styles changed) but was really the same guy, you could tell if you really paid attention.

I was like sick or something so had myself a marathon of the program, and when I got to the last epasode I was told by everyone not to watch it, and just wait til the next season was out. Which was kinda weird. I mean WHY should I skip the season finale? that just seemed weird to me.

So I watched the last show, it was good, enjoyed it.. and then after the credits I went to turn off the tv, it came back on.. and there was the villain. Who smiled and said "I think you would do."

Then comes OUT of my tv screen.. it was a moment of 'what is this? the ring?'
(well, he tripped, which was kinda funny..)

The guy comes out, tells me then that I should go to sleep and when I woke I would be in his game.

I didn't want to go to sleep, he just sort of tucked me in, kissed my head like I was a child and I was out like a light.

I woke up this morning with my roomie asking if I was ready to take her to work.

So now all day has been utterly unreal LOL! It's just felt strange with how that dream ended and the timing of waking up.

I made it home, everything alright, missing a couple items I think I left at shin-chans. So I have to call her. *such a brain dead dummy*

Currently in early working stages. Setting up settings, working on maps..
But this is a story I will leave open for friends or just those interested in writing a new world. I hope to turn this into a series where I can publish a magazine for members and share everyone's stories as the world forms.

http://www.freewebtown.com/lacewing/index.htm

Current webspace while I work, if you would like to join in the stories, send your ideas and illustrations to me and I'll be happy to look them over.

Off to jersey with some friends for the weekend. Hang out in NYC, chill, should be fun.
See everyone monday

Whoever is doing that.. I sware..when I find out who it is.. I'll delete them.
12 submissions in my inbox
ONLY2 WHERE THERE! the rest deleted by owner!
SERIOUSLY if you ain't keeping it up then don't load!

NEPB
(the Nameless Entity Pretty Boy)

A new character I'm working on for future rps....

He doesn't rock boats with anything like BACK STORY, or PERSONALITY or QUIRKS.
He exists only to be pretty, stand for hours being ignored and then only talked to or used momentarily by whoever's passing gaze falls on him then is dumped in a moments notice.
He doesn't mind. He just goes on either smiling or stoic, having no real personality means he can't be hurt or feel ignored.
He doesn't care if half his scenes are edited out later. Or if there was even permission to be used at all. He doesn't care if the editing makes things feel choppy and dumb. He doesn't care if it makes him look utterly stupid or inept. He doesn't care if it means he's been dumped so badly he could never come back.
He'll be up for any sexual fantasy the other player wants. He doesn't mind doing whatever even if the player feels uncomfortable. Unwanted, or left out. He doesn't care if everyone else looses interest in him, since he has no story there's nothing to plague his player with when (s)he's got ideas but no one else wants to do them. Instead moving onto another story because they are using their characters elsewhere where it's more interesting for them.

you know, cause like.. having a REAL character gets people mad because their quirks or story doesn't always fit into how they think a world should be.
Never minding it's fantasy.
and it's about as dumb as arguing why Potatoes, which like corn, came into history much later than the middle ages, always show up in midevil FANTASY rps. You know, sorta like dragons and elves and other things don't exist show up all the time, so why argue about a damn potato?

Yeah. Seriously. Stupid.

Today I saw a group with a disturbing trend of thought.

Now, mind you, I believe that healthcare, section 8 and other forms of welfare and social security needs to be changed in this country. I believe it needs an update, and definitely needs to be less bias against the single person. (I'm sorry, but when you only get 30 bucks a month in food stamps as a single person, but pick up a deadbeat looser of a boyfriend the amount goes up to 200! No, that's wrong. A person should not be force to have to have a child, a looser partner who doesn't work for themselves, or other extremes just to be a VALID PERSON who needs help!)

But I do not believe is should be completely taken away. I'm sorry, but it would NOT help people to come out of poverty. Going to school, working hard and everything is part of a key to change. But if you take away the foundation there to help these people survive. People become desperate. Crime would increase, and we'd see a disturbing increase in drug trafficking and child prostitution as people started to get desperate to not live on the streets. Let alone the greater increase in homeless.

I'm sorry. But I don't want to see more children than there are without homes, abandoned, unwanted, and alone on a street corner with nowhere to go and no hope for the future. His belly grumbling because he's hungry, likely sick and possibly addicted to something just to help him 'cope'.

And I know for myself, I've lived since 2000 on the aid of the government. Food stamps, welfare, SSI. While I hate it. I hate the limits and I see from the inside how the system needs to change. How the people running it need to change, I also see how I would not be where I am now without it. I would be living on the street, or going from house to house to house among my family with no hope of things getting better. Having everyone pressuring me to 'get a job' when without the medication, the doctors and other medical I needed, I would be terrified to even go out the door, stuck in a wheeled chair and alone after my parents passed.

I've come a long way, I still have a long way to go. But today thanks to help I wouldn't have gotten WITHOUT the welfare and such that these people wish to be rid of, I am starting to work again. I live independent (with a room mate) and I look forward to having another day where I will be able to walk in the sun on my own two feet. Be able to live, and love and be with my friends. Not hiding like a hermit in a small dark place, or a street corner.


Let's not go into credit checks this time.. That's a whole 'nother can of worms.

Started a new job. Going to try school bus driving. Part time hours, full time pay in a week. (over 16 dollars an hour with 4 hours of work, that's pretty decent) Some rocky starts (working out of one shed, but being trained from another because of boarder issues. Working in jersey, have PA license) with some paperwork and whatnot. But past that, it's not too bad.
The training been fun, if starting rather late at night. (starts at 5 and goes on and on and on) so far it goes pretty fast.
Just look forward to having extra money for taking little trips in the local area, or enjoying a new game or other things. I can finally buy some wood to build a temp wall so I can have real privacy. and upgrade my computer a bit! I need a new graphics card (mine is good enough for most things, but I need a bit more for some of the games I want to play)

Past that, I want to play my bon voyage game but I can not find it. It's not in its case, or in any other case, so I'm not sure where it disapered to. So hunting about my room. Blah, well I know I'll be picking up a couple of the expansion packs I don't have for the sims. Although I'm wondering if it's worth it in that the new sims 3 will be released soon, and thus will have to start all over again. (more nightlife, pets and other expansion packs) I may hold off on the sims 3 just cause I still like my sims 2, I use to play the orignal sims loved it, but was more than happy to upgrade to the newer game. For this next one I'm a little more hesitant. Afterall, even if I have the entire thing, I likely couldn't even sell it on ebay to recoup the losses. Considering the main game was 30 almost 40 dollars, each expansion was 20 and the stuff packs where about 15 apiece.. and I have 13 different containers of the game... yeah.. alot of money I've downed into the game. And I still wished they'd add a few little things, like bunk beds. Bunk beds I saw in the Online sims game (back when I was testing it) LOVED them and could never understand why they NEVER released them to the orignal game or later to the Sims 2, bunk beds where awesome. It let you fit more kids into a smaller space. (even though it was normaly on the online game us adults) but just the way to be able to have siblings share a room easier. and if one was to turn the bottom bunk (you know someone would have done it) and make it a double, you could have a bed that could fit three.... awww wishful thinking. LOL if I find out that on the new game they have bunks... I may actually buy it when it comes out vs just waiting a bit.

Other random things, I'm not looking forward to the 125 lbs pull for my phsycical test. I've only just been released for lifting weight. I know it's for the (god help us) possibility of if there is an accedent and you need to be able to get a child to safety. ANd they figure the weight on the size of an adverage highschooler in the state of NewYork, And its only a drag test, not a lifting test.
But I've back issues. I was never informed while applying for work about anything about lifting or moving really heavy objects. So yeah, I'm just hoping it doesn't land me in the hospital because they make it clear.. fail and you don't get the job.
Loosers.. really.

Sorry, but this has been a pet peeve of mine for a while. I'm not trolling (well maybe a little) or telling you how to run your character. Just giving an opinion and getting something off my chest. Welcome to share your own opinion but this is mine. So if you take offense as an opinion then you are silly and need to have your head checked.

I do have a minor question. While I do know that there are genetically male females out there (the female form is the standard, not the deviation. The male is the deviant when it comes to the body's blueprint) They still refer to them as FEMALE not male. (even if one identifies herself as male, on the paper she's still female) HOW THE FUCKING HELL CAN A FEMALE WITHOUT ANY MALE GENETILIA BE CONSIDERED IN WHAT UNIVERSE -BESIDES SOME MESSED UP GUY'S HEAD- MALE?!?

So when I see something like these females claiming to be male, nothing on it to show MALE (namely, yes. male parts. A flat chest doth not make one male. Just very small breasts because all mammals have breasts. It's just the matter of glands and padding as to whether they can produce milk or not)
Real genetically male females can't have children, but can still enjoy sex and all that just like anyone else.
Running a crossed these (mostly) lovely characters and staring at them and going "WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THEM BEING CALLED GIRLS?! THEY GOT VIRGINA! NOT DICK!"
Hermaphrodites have both parts, the word coming from the goddess Aphrodite, who was said to have both male and female reproductive organs, but still was identified as namely female than male. But as far as I ever heard there where never in history males that don't have cock unless it's been chopped off. And even the transvestites who have themselves surgically altered will say they where born one, but are now another.
So saying a male who doesn't have any of the things that make him MALE is an oxymoron and just bugs the hell out of me genetically wise.
There is NOTHING WRONG with being female. If said female prefers other females or males, doesn't matter.
A woman who doesn't have male organs is NOT male. She's just weird in the head and needs psychiatric help.

And that's the opinion of one very confused girl who got woke up at 5 in the morning by jerks who can't obey noise ordinance laws.

Have been bouncing between doing a japanese ghost girl (I got half the stuff and just need a wig and bit of powder) OR doing something more fun...
And I think I'd rather go with something more fun.. Something of a 'gothic clown' or 'fool' And currently I have face painting idea, which comes from a photobook of Malice Mizer, Mostly just the way the eye makeup was done, and the top lip. I'm going to do something a bit different with the bottom lip..
So I need various items. I have my shoes already, but because my balance is shaky do to a bad hip/knee.. I need a taller cane to help me keep my balance. (Since I will be going to a party in NYC) I need long loose black pants (my legs aren't good enough) poofy goth skirt for my fat ass, and I want a men's dress vest.. I'll likely do a sketch to show off of what my concept is..

http://lacewing.deviantart.com/art/Costume-95774543 my concept sketch

For her part, my room mate is deciding between dressing as the Witch of the Waists, or as the bar keeper in Twilight Princess.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vr3x_RRJdd4

Something for a smile. For those that haven't seen it.
Give a hug to brighten someone's day.
And share it with a friend.

Just looking for rp. My current revenues have dried up or got busy.
I like all kinds. So long as there is a story involved somewhere. lol

to me..
I look like a monkey, and smell like one too

*snickers*

My birthday is April 14th, and someone asked me to do a 'wish list'

frankly I never know what to ask for, I dunno.. um... fan art of my charas? If someone wanted to be really kind.. small amounts of cash in cards would be nice XD (I'll likely give back pictures)

So yeah.. whatever.. big 3-0 and my sister is threatening to send me black balloons.

edit: You know, i was thinking.. and what I would really really want?

WoD books! The core book, werewolf, changlings, awakening (mages), psion (really need since I'm playing a character that uses these rules) and the one that will be out in time for my b-day Innocence! I've really been getting into this game again and got a group I can play with regularly. While I'm snooping through the books at the book store, comic store and my friend's house.. I really need some books of my own that I can pour through. Since I've hosted one game, btu I really want to host a serious game and need a few more rules to work with...

um.. past that.. I need art supplies.. pencle leads (.07 and .05) erasers (the nice clean artist kind, not the pink ones that smear everything) and paper.. really need paper..

So hate being broke..

I really need a 'work from home' job that doesn't involve me getting exposed to tons of diseases.. I'm useless sick all the time, and thus I can't ever KEEP a job because of my health, but I can't ever find a job that would either let me work without alot of contact with people, or from home!

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080123/ap_on_fe_st/odd_missing_cat

I will do avitar drawings for gaia gold and trade (like thank you letters and shop items)