I'm so excited for this meet! This month actually.

I haven't been to a lot of meets and I'd really really like to. I want to see my friends nd make new ones, plus I still think a lot of you don't know my face and name with my username lol.

Plus, my birthday is the 24th! Nothing really planned yet though haha.

Plus this month it starts getting a little cooler and breezy, plus I will admit I'm a little excited for school haha I'm a dweeb.

Looking forward to seeing you all next week!

Hey guys started using my tumblr since I got it like last year lol. If anyone is interested my tumblr is Serrugh, and if you see me follow you it's not some randi, just me :)

Hey guys, sorry I haven't been around in a couple months, but I've been pretty busy with work and school, and life in general lol.

I've been having trouble drawing or getting in the mood, but I've decided I just have to push through this rut I'm in and practice anyways. I'm not fantastic at it, but I'd like to be able to create characters for video games one day, so I think practicing is in order.

I'd also like to tell you guys that I WILL be going to furfright this year, hope to see you guys there :)

... How or where do I get my badge laminated?? :3

I'm sure not many people know, but lately I have been really struggling with depression a bit. I'm having extreme difficulty with school, and feel inadequate to even attend. My car has been giving me more problems, for probably the 50th time in almost the two years I have had it. I absolutely and utterly hate my job, and every morning I wake up dreading and counting down the minutes to when I have to showmy sorry ass to my shitty job.

I never cry in front of my parents, and today my mom came in and saw I was crying at my desk because I was literally about to quit on my computer programming homework and just take the 0. She asked me what was wrong and I told her "This is all extremely overwhelming" and told her how difficult school is for me. She literally walked out of my room without saying a word.

You know, it would be nice to know my parents worry about me a bit, especially since I've had extremely unpleasant thoughts about my life. A little support would be nice, but usually I don't talk to them about my struggles, and today when I finally opened up a little, one of them had absolutely nothing to say. The other would probably just tell me I'm not trying hard.

I've opened up to my boyfriend about it, but I feel he doesn't grasp the seriousness of how honestly deep my depression is right now. I chose not to really tell many of my friends because I don't really find a point, which has led me to post this here, because the recent actions of my mother have shocked me so badly I was gasping for air for a minute or two while trying not to cry even more.

Which makes me think, I honestly don't know what to do anymore....

Are your parents married or divorced?
For 27 years

Are you a vegetarian?
Hell NO! I love my meat too much... and please don't take that sexually -_-

Do you believe in Heaven?
Not sure, but leaning towards no

Have you ever come close to dying?
Have you ever been in the car with me driving??

What jewelry do you wear 24/7?
My industrial piercing and second ear piercings, and sometimes my first. I want my tongue and nose done though ;3

Are you eating?
Just finished

Do you eat the stems of broccoli?
Yeah, but I really don't like broccoli that much...

Do you wear makeup?
No, too much work

Would you ever have plastic surgery?
Probably not, I'm kinda scared of surgery... and hospitals

What do you wear to bed?
t-shirt and shorts

Have you ever done anything illegal?
Everyone has.

Can you roll your tounge?
Yeppers

Do You have a boyfriend or girlfriend?
 dhara <--- This guy!!

Do you believe in Abortions?
Yes and no, it's complicated

What is your Hair color?
Light brown

Future child's name, boy and girl?
Daniel, Alexandra

Do you smoke?
ICK.

If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be?
Japan

Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
No, but a bunch of pillows

If you won the lottery, what would you do first?
Put a down payment on a house or apartment.... and quit my job. How much we talkin'?

Gold or silver?
Silver

Hamburger or hot dog?
Dogs of hot

If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?
Pizza

City, beach or country?
Beach

What was the last thing you touched?
IMMA COMPUTAH

Where did you eat last?
In  dhara's room

When's the last time you cried?
Don't remember

Do you read blogs?
Meh, like one

Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?
No

Ever been involved with the police?
Maybe, maybe not

Do you talk in your sleep?
Yeah hehe, I recite produce codes from my cashiering job

Ocean or pool?
I enjoy both :3

What's your favorite song at the moment?
Waiting Alone- Shiny Toy Guns

have you ever had a cavity?
3 or 4

Window seat or aisle seats?
Window, it helps me daydream better

Ever met anyone famous?
Dale from Walking Dead

Do you feel that you've had a truly successful life?
I think what I'm doing it right, but at the moment it makes me a little unhappy

Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
Niether, I just dig in like a barbarian

What is your fav. sport to play?
Whatever doesn't involve me getting of the couch

Basketball or football?
Football

when was the last time you went to the bathroom?
and hour ago?

Do you drive a stick?
Nope, automatic

Cake or ice cream?
Ice cream by faaaaar

Are you self-conscious?
It depends on how I'm feeling that day, but mostly yesssss

Do you like any of your close friends?
It depends on whom it is, but mostly yes. We all have that friend we sometimes hate.... or is it just me?

Have you ever given money to a bum?
I am the bum

Where do you wish you were?
I'm fine where I am at the moment

On myspace why is the 1st person on ur top 8 there?
I never had a myspace

Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
No, and lets hope that never happens

Can you tango?
Tango rhymes with mango

Last gift you received?
An IPOD TOUCH from  dhara

What occasion did you recieve your gift?
Pure generosity, and knowing I'll be very happy with it <3

Last thing you spent lots of money on?
I spent $6.13 on some chicken and rice to make... that's a lot of money to me.

Where do you live?
Ansonia

Last wedding attended.
My uncle's

Favorite restaurant?
OLIVE GARDEN!!!! SO MANY YUMMIES!

What is your favorite kind of car?
Sports cars please <3

Most hated food?
Onions!!!!

Most loved food?
Pizza

Can you sing?
I don't know... can I guys?

Person on your mind?
The one I'm with <3

What's your least fav. chores?
Fucking dishes

Favorite drink?
Iced tea by far

Currently have a Crush?
On my boyfriend?

How long was your longest drive in a car?
Florida to CT

Why do you do Myspace surveys?
But I never had a myspace....

So after a long and cold winter, me and  dhara will be returning to the CT fur meets in March, which is exactly two weeks away! We've already decided to request off from work, and are excited to see our friends again.

I'm sorry if I haven't exactly kept in touch with everyone. I don't want anyone to stop thinking I'm their friend or anything. I've been so busy with school and work, and I've become a little stressed out and over...emotional -_-

Hope to see many of you there!

So I feel like shit. I guess I don't help anyone out with anything and I'm not important to anyone. Apparently I'm not there for people or I don't help them with their problems, or try to help them get out of ruts.

Yeah, I'll say it. Lately I've been feeling left out. I feel forgotten about. It's pissing me off and making me feel unwanted/needed. I'm sorry I'm really busy, but that's the price I pay for going to school part time and working a shit ton days a week. I'm sorry if I can't always hang out, or if I can't talk. But I tell you people I will always get back to you, and if you need me talk to me but no one ever listens.

I'm thinking maybe I should shut this account down. Half of you don't even remember me from the meets, and the people who do don't seeme as a friend.

Whatever guys, I'm sure no one will read this anyways.

Hey guys, I have a turtle I just can't seem to take care of anymore, and I was wondering if anyone was interested in taking care of her?

It's a female red-eared slider, which is an aquatic turtle that prefers most of it's tank to be water. Very shy but also very nice. She doesn't bite (unless you hold her for too long that is hehe) and about 7 inches long.

I'm also providing a 10-gallon tank for free, along with a floater for her and a brand new filter which I just bought a week ago.

If anyone is interested I'll send you a picture. :)

Again, I'm not selling her or any of the tank products, I'm just trying to find her a loving home.

Aaaaaah, I love this time of year. The cool breezes, the coloring of the leaves, Halloween stores popping up, and pumpkins at the super market again. :)

Too bad I'm sick. Last night I spiked a fever of 102, and work sent me home because I was crying and in so much pain, my whole body hurts. My throat is killing me, and my fever is at 100.5.

Mom says she might take me to the doctor on Friday if I don't get better tomorrow. I'm worried I won't be well enough for the New York Comic Con next week, and we leave next Friday. Hopefully it'll go away, but on the other hand my paycheck is gonna suck :(

Countdown to Comic Con with  ludovicus and  dhara in 8 days :)

Hey guys! So my birthday is almost a week away now (the 24th) and my friends have surprises for me and will NOT tell me what is going on whatsoever! It's really starting to bother me D:

My parents are gone for the week, leaving me home alone. No, I will not throw any crazy parties :P I won't even be home a lot of the time, since I spend most of the time at school or work now. I'm stuck figuring things out for dinner, and hoping I don't burn the house down >.<

On Friday, I'm taking me and my mate  dhara to a local aquarium. We first went 6 months ago which was our first date as a couple, so we're going again to see a new exhibit and just in celebration of half a year together already! Then I'm gonna bring him over for a little while and make us my homemade chili and apple pie. The pie is made completely from scratch, including the crust! :D

Well thanks for making it this far if you did, and I'll be sure to tell you guys what this super big fantastic ANNOYING surprise is!

stolen from  ludovicus after he stole it from  felix. who stole it from someone else :P

A - Age: 18
B - Bed size: Twin
C - Chore you hate: Dishes
D - Dog's name: Don't have a dog :(
E - Essential start your day item: Phone
F - Favorite color: Blue, Purple, Green
G - Gold or Silver: Silver
H - Height: 5'8"
I - Ireland or Italy: Ireland
J - Job title: Cashier
K - Kid(s): No.... absolutely not...
L - Living arrangements: With parents... and cats
M - Mom's name: Candace
N - Nicknames: Laggos, Sar,
O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: No... absolutely not
P - Pet Peeve(s): My stupid mate, people I work with, people driving my car, people in general
Q - Quote from a movie: "It LEVIOOOOOSA, not LEVIOSAAAAAAAAR"
R - Righty or Lefty: Righty
S - Siblings: 1 sistuh
T - Time you wake up: between 9:30-12
U - Underwear: Ummmm
V - Vegetables you dislike: Spinach
W - Water or land: Wataaah
X - X-rated or PG: PG
Y - Yesterday's best moment: Cuddletime :3
Z - Zoo favorite: Tigers and wolves :D

So recently, two very good friends of mine have been having issues, and are finding it hard to be together because of parental difficulty. They are still together, but they have obstacles to overcome

It just makes me think that I'm honestly so grateful to my mate  dhara I've spent a great 5 months with him so far, and my life has honestly significantly improved with him being apart of it. We have our own issues and obstacles, but I make it a point from now on to not go to bed mad.

I just hope my friends make it through this mess, and that I'm here for them.

I just had like the worst day ever.

I'm a cashier at a grocery store. This job makes me absolutely miserable and it's extremely stressful and annoying. I know it's an easy job, but I'm seriously considering sending out applications for other jobs, I work with a bunch of idiots.

I just worked my third night in a row until 11, this is tiring enough as it is. during tonight's shift, I drop a can of vegetables square on my foot, turning it black and blue and it is extremely swollen. It hurts to walk, yet I continued my shift anyways.

I have no money for food, thus I spent my entire shift working on the energy of one frosted donut a friend gave to me.

I get in a fight with my mate, which just puts me over the edge, and I drove home after my shift crying. I'm still teared up a little.

Fuck it, I'm watching My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic and eating ice cream on the couch...

Sorry for the rant, I don't usually do this :C

I admit to being a Nicki Minaj fan, yes...

Haha but it's true I'm going to the beach tomorrow. Actually, leaving In like 9 hours. Going to Misquamicut, Rhode Island for the day, I hear it's beautiful up there, and the weather is gonna be perfect. I'm excited to go, it will be a decent end to a good summer with my wonderful love  dhara

Next month is my birthday, which I've been thinking a lot about. It's not a big one, it's an awkward number really. I guess I'm just excited because  dhara keeps talking about it but isn't telling me what it is... I like surprises :3

Okay, I'm watching Ferngully on Netflix!

So my absolutely wonderful mate  dhara spent his hard earned money on a tablet for an early b-day present on little ole' me! He's gonna spoil me rotten! And my b-day isn't even until September, so that's not all he's got planned for me I believe ayyyyyyye <3 I posted my first picture I drew on the tablet, so go check it out guys!

I've been to the beach twice this week already. I'm exhausted, but a good exhausted. We picked up hermit and regular crabs, and hummed to sea slugs too. Did you know that if you hold a sea slug in your hand and hum to it, it will pop out of it's shell and crawl on your hand? Try it, it really works!

Going to the meet in Rocky Hill on Friday night as well with  ludovicus  nightfox7 and  dhara. Of course, I have work the next two days, but it will be nice to look forward to. Hope to see a bunch of you there!

Sooooooooooo me and  dhara are going up to NYC's Comicon in October and grabbing a hotel for two days with possibly two other friends.

I'm so excited, but now I cannot spend ANY money except on school books. (which are so damn expensive) We'll even be dressing up. I plan on going as Yuna from Final Fantasy X, and I even got someone to commission a staff for me for a really good price!

We found some cheap hotels, but again were just going to unload our crap and sleep, it doesn't need to be five stars.

Anyone else plan on going?

So, I'm like 75% sure I'm going to this year's Connecitcon in Hartford with a friend and possibly  dhara (< you better go)

I want to cosplay, but I will be unable to, due to I work at a grocery store and I'm incredibly poor. Although I have a Sailor Moon costume from hot topic, my hair will be dyed soon, and was cut extremely short yesterday, and there is no way I'm ordering a wig within the next 2 days.

If anyone is going, I really enjoyed the meets at Rocky Hill along with your suits, and I'm hoping to see you there! I'll only be going Friday though, due to my tight schedule! :)

Hey guys, I'm obviously new here. I've recently been going to the fur meets up at Rocky Hill in Ct, and you might have seen me hanging around with  ludovicus and  nightfox7

I've finally made an account, and already added some of you I've met the last two times. Hopefully some of you will read this journal and know who I am instead of wondering "Who is this random ass girl adding me?"

See you around :3 ~~~