just when things were going smoothly everything has to get f'd up.. i dont know why i keep getting royally screwed over at every turn but it sure likes to keep happening. so everyone i can generally talk things out with is not talking to me or not around. phooey. it will take more than this to take me out tho.. fek you reality!

anyways sorry ive had nothing worth posting in a stupidly long time, ill redouble my efforts when i aquire more time <3

yay new pc... now to assemble n,n

so i'm probably gonna be knocked down to part time soon at work... witch is cool because A:i been there the longest so they are losing the most experienced person on the team and B:i have better availability than one of the other people that is totally not getting harassed by management.. but hey that means lots more free time right? no $$ but more time... whatevs... long as my ride still gets her hours i will try and survive

blerg for virus scanner failz... gmail was apparently muffed up so if you got something from me and you're not dave, the only person i've emailed in a month, it probably wasnt from me :P changing all the passwords and stuff... phooey

OH JESUSF*$)(*&#)%CHRIST ON A CRACKER DAVID PETERSON YOU ARE MY HERO ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

this creature that i have become, how can i justify his existence? in ways i find myself stronger and more sociable than ever before, in others i find myself longing for connections that time has stripped from me like flesh from bone.. are these emotions a byproduct of the monster i am, or are they simply reflections of the masks my faces must hide behind? can i truly think of myself as a strong individual or should i wallow in the weakness i perceive? the one i depend on the most knows of my frailty and that is really all that matters, but i long for the open minded acceptance in all my paths.. why? does the trickster want permission to be naughty? what causes this? what keeps turning me into something i hate?

new avatar get <3<3 love

i am so sick of not being able to get my thoughts out on the fecking paper... sddddddddda;jkllllfffffffffffffffj;klasdf;jklfsj;klfa;jkldjs;kljas;klfj;kladsf

orz

Godzilla movie marathon COMPLEEEEEETO

highlights:

Favorite movie: final wars!

Haet: Godzilla's revenge (skipped this so jared didnt have to watch the horror but i remember it clearly)

Favorite monster: Godzilla!
Favorite non godzilla monster: uhm... godjira? :3 ok ok i gotta go with mecha king ghidora... just an awesome conversion of godzillas mightiest foe... <3 <3

Favorite fight scenes: Final Wars (this movie really did kick so much ass... i'd have to say the next would be the ones from gmkg:giant monsters all out attack were my next fav tho)

Favorite incarnation of godzilla: the one from gmkg: giant monsters is just so insidiously evil its really kinda great n,n

Favorite mothra: godzilla vs mothra the battle for earth, he's adorable!

Favorite villian: the young controller from final wars... i failed to aquire his name =(

so thats that! all in all frickin awesome =3 i can now say i've seen them all finally, with netflix filling in the tiny holes that i had been missing over the years... someday when i'm an older wiser man maybe i'll get one of those huge epic sets with all the movies =3 but for now... woot!

thank you jared for supporting my horrible habits... golf games and godzilla movies <3

today was kinda odd... i woke up and was immediately frustrated by the turn of events that had revealed themselves, i was really looking forward to gaming with the guys, and the day had other ideas. frustrated beyond whatever level would have been acceptable, i had Jared take us to town, grabbed a bite to eat and then indulged myself with a wholly selfish game purchase and headed home to try it out, then pete called and we got to go do some quality hanging out with the people i wanted to see.. so had an emotionally draining but good day and got a game out of the deal.. i feel kinda weird o,O

So its here... the day i wasn't going to have... 30 years on this hellish mudball. I don't know what the rest of the days will bring but it's really just now getting interesting so i guess I'll keep going. Time just keeps moving one way or another right? so why not. I've never been good with decisions but i guess this one was pretty easy...
Thank you especially to Jared, who makes it possible for me to get out of bed every day, without whom my life would be taking a very different and probably worse direction at this point...

only 9 hours left till i get old... still haven't decided... but i suppose what would be the point in looking back when theres so much more entertaining stuff to look at in front...

jared and i played munchkin quest today... when all was said and done the final boss was a level 55 unspeakably awful horror and his pet goldfish... i love this game.

holy fucking shit tokyo gore police is the most awesome piece of cinema ever made XDXDXDXDXD

Ya know what would be nice? if someone would give us a big sack of cash.. no questions asked... like 10k & we'd be fricken set.. only way ya can break even in this life is to die & have good life insurance.. srsly.. >,>

I gots me a smartphone n,n so now I can be online EVERYWHERE O:

we seem to have acquired three... Lenore, a little black one named by the female type person that failed in her duties of not letting me get gerbils... a brown one i have dubbed "brown" and a grey one i've cleverly dubbed "grey" i would imagine they need names and such but i always like to keep things simple... hmm...

anyways... yay fuzzies! <3

they are adorabibble and they seem to be addicted to wheel...

I know its silly but on this generi-holiday I'd like to thank my beloved jared for putting up with me in this house that was undoubtedly not designed for 2 large gay men and all of my quirks and flaws for 3 years... love ya babe! <3

according to my fancy calendary thing i have exactly 5 months from today in witch to make something of myself... guess i should get moving but i don't see my current path changing much =P

good xmas... wish i could have done more...

shower is broken across the street... might have to take one over here tomorrow if its not fixed yet...

did up another little bit of art but its nothing special or good... babs supposedly but ugh didn't come out the way i wanted it to..

start on 4pm-1am shift tomorrow... poop.

battling a massive bout of holiday depression... boyfriend is out for the night... family was being frustrating... the money tank is next to empty... its cold... i'm tired... wired... and lonely...

but everythings gonna be allright...

ya know why?

http://img254.imageshack.us/img254/.....mmichespb0.jpg

THATS RIGHT
LC HAS BALOGNA FCKIN SAMMICHES FOR SUPPER!

WOOOOOOOOT!

Tomorrow I'm headed to north conway for the week... its only 2 or so hours away but I'm a little nervous... i don't do trips like this often and it's gonna be the first time I've been away from home for an extended period without any of my loved ones being with me... Okey I'm a lot nervous... but I'm not gonna let that slow me down... new experience go!

nobody better decide to rob my house or kidnap my boyfriend while I'm gone, or I'll have to go all kung-foo on yas!

ahem.......

GODZILLA FINAL WARS IS FRICKIN AWSEMZORZ !!!!111!!111!!one one exclamation point!

that is all

n,n

here is a man-o-war
http://img134.imageshack.us/img134/.....6082004yk0.jpg
http://www.coolminiornot.com/198441

and the kodiak
http://img392.imageshack.us/img392/.....082005chk5.jpg
http://www.coolminiornot.com/198442

yay for being one of the worst mini painters in the world! woot!

Level 1
(x) Smoked A Cigarette
(x) Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
SO FAR: 3

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x) Dumped someone
( ) Been Fired
(x) Been In A Fist Fight
SO FAR: 6

Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped Class
(x) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die
SO FAR: 10

Level 4
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Furaffinity Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
(x) Thrown Up From Drinking
SO FAR: 13

Level 5
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
(x) Met Someone Through Internet
(x) Been in a Mosh Pit
SO FAR: 16

Level 6
(x) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Liked/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel
SO FAR: 21

Level 7
(x) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding
(x) Played Dress Up
SO FAR: 25

Level 8
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledding
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School
SO far: 30

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake
SO FAR: 31

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(x) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood
SO FAR: 35

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident
SO FAR: 38

Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
(x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) Danced in the moonlight
SO FAR : 40

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
( ) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
SO FAR: 43

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying
SO FAR: 46

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
( ) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
SO FAR: 50

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
( ) Made Prank Phone Calls
( ) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
(x) Kissed In The Rain
SO FAR: 52

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere
SO FAR: 56

Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey
SO FAR: 57

Level 20
( ) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
(x) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
( ) Swam With Dolphins
SO FAR: 58

Level 21
( ) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cubes
( ) Kicked A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
( ) Sat On A Roof Top and watched the stars
SO FAR: 59

Level 22
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
( ) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about
SO FAR: 61

Level 23
(x) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had/Been In A Tree House
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone
SO FAR: 65

Level 24
(x) Believed In Ghosts
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
( ) Visited Jail
SO FAR: 66

Level 25
( ) Played Chinese Chicken
( ) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
( ) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
(x) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused
SO FAR: 68

Level 26
(x) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
(x) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed
SO FAR: 73

Level 27
(x) Mooned/Flashed Someone
( ) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
( ) French Braided Someones Hair
( ) Gone Skinny Dipping
( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
SO FAR: 76

Level 28
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
(x) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
(x) Had A Cavity
( ) Black-Mailed Someone
( ) Been Black Mailed
SO FAR: 79

Level 29
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone
SO FAR: 83

Level 30
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
( ) Flattened someones tires
(x) Rode in a car/truck until the gas light came on
(x) Got five dollars or less worth of gas
TOTAL: 85

85 out of 120... hokay then