I guess I'm "paranoid" -_-

Are You Afraid Of:
[] the dark
[X] staying single forever
[X] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[X] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
Total so far: 3

[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[X] failure
[ ] success
[] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] girlfriends/boyfriend's dad
[ ] girlfriends/boyfriend's mom
[X] rats
[X] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
Total so far: 6

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[X] crossing hanging bridges
[X] death
[X] heaven
[] being robbed
[X] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls
[ ] large crowds of people
[] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilities
[] doctors, including dentists
[X] tornadoes
Total so far: 11

[X] hurricanes
[X] incurable diseases
[X] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[X] ghosts
[X] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[X] becoming blind
[X] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up
Total so far: 18

[] creepy noises in the night
[X] bee stings
[X] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[X] throwing up
[ ] falling in love
[ ] super secrets
Total: 21

If you wish to post this journal, it's been requested that you title it, "I'm afraid of __ out of 72 fears"

if you get more than 30, I highly suggest counseling
if you get more than 20, you're paranoid
if you get 10-20, you're normal.
if you get under 10, you're fearless

I've been feeling down a lot lately and for some reason the stuff I have been thinking about has been the future and what is to come. I'm currently living with my mom who is in her 50's and her mom who is nearing her 80's but that's not what I'm worried about. It's the fact that I'm living with them both and I'm worried that I will be living with them for the rest of my life. I want to move out but my mom is discouraging me from doing so stating that I am not able to and the places that I'm looking for are houses that are in areas that are not great or suitable to live in My mom keeps reminding me that I can't be spending on stuff I don't need and save up on the imminent death of her mom and the fact that the house we're living in will be sold and I will be left houseless with hardly enough money to buy one not only that, my mom doesn't agree with my sexuality and if her mom found out then she would throw me out of the house and I would have nowhere to go I'm currently working for about a year now and my employers have not offered me a contract yet and I don't think they will as I've learned that they will be letting me go this month and I will be placed back at where I did my work experience before I arrived at the place where I am now. Not sure when though >.< what do I do?

Stolen From  Mordicai_the_otter
About Yourself:
[x] 1. Think of yourself as a furry
[x] 2. Been in the fandom for more than 5 years.
[x] 3. Ever barked or howled.
[x] 4. Worn a collar before.
[ ] 5. Room is filled with furry stuff
[x] 6. Feel cool about suiters in public
[x] 7. Looking for furry commissions
[ ] 8. Like rave/Own some rave stuff
[x] 9. Furry 4 life
[ ] 10. Ever watched/seen yiff

total = 7

Every Day:
[ ] 1. Drawing furry stuff everywhere you go
[x] 2. Thinking about people you see, can be furs
[x] 3. Check furry art when you got Wi-Fi
[x] 4. Getting fur related food/drinks when possible
[x] 5. Looking at things and realizing they contain furry art
[ ] 6. Fascinated by dogs and cats in the streets
[x] 7. Daydreaming about walking as your fursona
[x] 8. If it has a cool animal on it, get it!
[x] 9. Listening to music made by furs
[ ] 10. Make food that looks like anthro/feral animals

total = 14

Fursona:
[x] 1. Thought about your own fursona
[x] 2. Have your own fursona
[x] 3. Drawn your own fursona once
[ ] 4. Have your fursona drawn by friends
[x] 5. Been in love with another fursona
[x] 6. Imagined your and their fursona together
[ ] 7. Seen that fursona without clothes
[ ] 8. Have a fursuit of your fursona
[x] 9. Biggest wish is to become your fursona
[x] 10. Acting like your fursona irl

total = 21
In Public:
[x] 1. Preferring to be named by your fur-name
[x] 2. Some of your best friends are furs
[x] 3. Told your friends that you´re a furry
[ ] 4. Drew some furry art for your friends
[ ] 5. Using a furry background on your phone and/or PC
[x] 6. Seen one or more furs in real life
[x] 7. Been to a furmeet
[x] 8. Been to multiple furmeets
[ ] 9. Been on a public fursuit-walk
[x] 10. Want to meet furs you have never seen before

total = 28

Furcons:
[ ] 1. Ever planned a furcon
[x] 2. Planning to go to one
[x] 3. Get easily excited over videos from cons
[x]4. Had a dream about being at a con
[ ] 5. Have been to a furcon
[ ] 6. Planning buying tickets at first day
[ ] 7. Bought ticket at the first day
[ ] 8. Been to Anthrocon
[ ] 9. Been to Eurofurence
[ ] 10. Been to furcons multiple times

total = 31

Result:
00-10 = Minimum Furry (You like anthropomorphic art, and can call yourself a furry if you want to)
11-20 = Medium Fur Interest (You can look at furry art and think almost everything is normal)
21-30 = Default Furry (You´re on the Fur level of one that´s... normal, but not as a human)
31-40 = High Fur level (Normal humans will look at you as weird, which is a positive thing)
41-50 = Super High Fur Danger (You are dangerous for the human society, you will get cookies)

Now that my birthday is over, I have gone back to work since the 6th of January. It's the only source of income for me at the moment. I am finding that I am spending more than I should. I have already spent money of cosplays including a couple of Sonic & Shadow cosplays suits, A Malfatto cosplay from the Assassin's Creed game & I'm getting Menma Uzumaki from the Naruto anime movie "Road To Ninja" cosplay. At the moment I'm selling a couple of things including a whole deck of Pokemon cards and costume material. If anyone is reading this and is interested, please let me know in comments or PM. If anyone can help me with the selling of those cards and the said costume material, I'd be most grateful and would help me a lot especially with my finances at the moment

Anyway hope everyone had a good happy New Years 2014

Believe it or not, this has been my very first time that I have been to Dublin Comic Con 2013! =3

But hey, this one was awesome. I cosplayed as Noctis from FF XV and on Sunday was Light Yagami from Death Note ^^

I walked around and lots of people asked me for photos especially on Saturday =) I entered the cosplay competition but unfortunately didn't win but oh well, maybe next year =3 So yeah apart from that, I was pretty much just walking around and taking pictures with all those other cool cosplayers some of which I missed out on taking photos of cosplayers from Homestuck and I also bought a new comic =3

I have always wanted to go to Comic Con but haven't had the foggiest as to where it was or how to even get there :(

I'm hoping next year I will be definitely going next year. Next cons that I will be attending are Nom Con and Eirtakon 2013.

Seeing my fellow furries especially seeing  Kevin-347 and  YouMeAtSix and hanging with friends has been so far, the best 2 days of my life =)

1. You can ONLY answer Yes or No.
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages/comments you and asks. And believe me, the temptation to explain some of these will be overwhelming... things are not exactly as they seem.
3. It is harder than it looks, but NO explanations !!! You will want to... but don't!!!

Kissed any one of your Facebook friends?- No
Been arrested? - No
Kissed someone you didn't like? - No
Slept in until 5 PM? - Yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? - Yes
Ran a red light? - No
Been suspended from school? - Yes
Experienced love at first sight? - Yes
Totaled your car in an accident? - No
Been fired from a job? - No
Fired somebody? - No
Skydived? - No
Sang karaoke? - Yes
Pointed a gun at someone? - No
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? - Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? - Yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? - No
Kissed in the rain? - Yes
Had a close brush with death (your own)? - Yes
Seen someone die? - No
Played spin-the-bottle? - No
Sang in the shower? - Yes
Smoked a cigar? - No
Sat on a rooftop? - No
Taken pictures of yourself naked? - No
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? - No
Skipped school? - No
Eaten a bug? - No
Sleepwalked? - No
Walked a moonlit beach? - No
Ridden a motorcycle? - No
Forgotten your anniversary? - No
Lied to avoid a ticket? - No
Ridden on a helicopter? - Yes
Shaved your head? - No
Blacked out from drinking? - No
Played a prank on someone? - Yes
Hit a home run? - No
Felt like killing someone? - Yes
Cross-dressed? - No
Been falling-down drunk? - No
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? - Yes
Eaten snake? - No
Marched/Protested? - No
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? - No
Puked on an amusement ride? - No
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? - No
Been in a band? - No
Knitted? - No
Been on TV? - No
Shot a gun? - No
Skinny-dipped? - No
Caused someone to need stitches? - No
Ridden a surfboard? - No
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? - No
Had surgery? - No
Taken by ambulance to hospital? - No
Passed out when not drinking? - No
Peed on a bush? - No
Donated Blood? - No
Grabbed electric fence? - No
Eaten alligator meat? - No
Eaten cheesecake? - Yes
Eaten kids' Halloween candy? - No
Killed an animal when not hunting? - No
Peed your pants in public? - No
Written graffiti? - No
Still love someone you shouldn't? - Yes
Think about the future? - Yes
Been in handcuffs? - No
Believe in love? - Yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? - Yes
Been to a furry convention? - No
Own a fursuit? - Yes
Bungee-Jumped? - No
Stolen something? - Yes
Kissed someone, same gender? - Yes
Kissed someone, different gender? - Yes
Had sex in public? - No
Skipped a night? - Yes
Lied? - Yes
Created a Meme? - No
Been to another continent? - Yes
Been in a country without knowing the language? - Yes
Have seen a parent naked? - No

Any questions feel free to ask.

Stolen from rexythewhite & ravell

There's something I need to get off my chest that's been troubling me since day 2 on Friday of Arcade Con. I arrived with my hun & I to the convention under the pretense that we had VIP passes. When we arrived at the table, the female staff member told me that we weren't on the VIP pass list. I ended up at the back of a VERY long queue that extended outside the hotel in which we were staying at the time. A hour and a half hours later, we arrived at the table to collect weekend passes. I felt so fucking bad that everyone might as well just pointed and laughed at me for being such a fool. For once I wanted to feel special and awesome and with a weekend pass I just felt it was just another convention. Everyone keeps going on how awesome it was just makes me feel even worse because I've missed out on so much and I doubt it'll be even better next year. So Arcade Con for me was ruined. I know what's done is done but I don't know if I can ever feel like myself again

So I attended Arcade con this year in Dublin and man I gotta say what a decent con it was. Unfortunately I didn't get to enjoy the entire weekend of the con as on Friday afternoon I was told I did register VIP instead what I registered for was weekend pass so had a bit of an arguement with a woman behind the table. I rushed up to our room and had a bit of a rant with my mom bout it so it left me with no choice but to accept defeat with the weekend pass :(

Seeing some of my best fur friends especially  Kevin-347 &  YouMeAtSix was pretty cool and it was really nice to see them again. The highlights of the weekend was unfortunately not getting to meet my idols twinfools and nova from FDP. :( but on the upside, I did get a photo with Matt Elliott,putting 70 Euro for a Gaara's sand vial at the closing ceremony charity auction and getting compliments for a suit that was made by a local fursuit maker so that was something.

The weather was unreal, I mean the sun was blazing. Ireland+sun=A good time!

Ok I'll wrap this up, and over the next couple of days, I'll upload some of the madness that was arcade con 2013!!

Ok so, here in Dublin we had our Gay Pride Fest on Saturday. Weather wasn't too bad. However I'm a lil sad I missed out because I only went into town after 1pm when the Fest started at 12pm. Can't beleive I didn't get to see  YouMeAtSix at it :( but since I'm attending an Irish Anime Convention on the 5th July-7th July 2013 called Arcade Con at the Ballsbridge Hotel, Dublin, Ireland, I'm hoping I'll get to see  YouMeAtSix there =) I'm sorry I haven't uploaded anything more on here other than the fursona IDs that were drawn by the lovely  alystair-the-cat due to the fact that I can't really draw or make music for that matter. So I'm going to push myself to photo as many cosplayers and fursuiters at that con as much I can. I've kinda been too specific when taking photos of cosplayers and fursuiters. I've been taking photos only the ones who cosplay or fursuit really well but I promise that won't matter this time round. So anybody watching me, please keep an eye out for Journal updates and convention photos. Comments would also be well appreciated =)

Ok first of all I want to get an idea of why you guys find guys who have a body that's a bit chubby like mine so attractive?

This is just something I just wanted to get off my chest. Being a furry since I was 16, I have come nothing short of being special. The fact that I have AS and I haven't attended a gym for god knows how long doesn't really help. But I am creative,imaginative,kind,loving but there are things that I can't do that alot of people seem to have. I can't make fursuits, I can't draw, I can't do anything that's worth contributing all because I haven't had time,money or materials to learn to do anything or anybody to learn from.Spent so much time living with my homophobic mom and her mom and since they're so closed minded, I haven't expressed to come out to them of who I am and what I am or even who I'm with. As much as my mom would put me down by putting non-belief in myself that I can't really move out and to be honest, I don't think there is any accommodation in which to move into. The fact that I have a permanent job under review, I still feel like I'll never move out It's like my life is one big secret. Is it?

Greetings to all who are reading this =) Today is a very good day for me. First time for me in Ireland that here in Dublin it is FINALLY warm with sunshine and no rain on the horizon =) I'd just like to give you more updates. I have been running around doing stuff and organising bits and pieces. I still haven't got a fursuit as fursuit makers here are pretty busy at the moment. I just need somehow to find someone to help me out :( I'm purchasing a couple of cosplays from different animes. 1 from Naruto and the other from Angel Beats if anyone has watched that series =3 right now I feel like I'm hyped on caffeine but I haven't drank any coffee at all today. All I have drank is tea =3 anywho,I still have a desire to be somewhat of a popufur and cosplayer ^.^ August 10th-11th is when I head off to Dublin's Comic Con with a couple of friends so that should be exciting =3 August 24th is when I see the musical CATS and August 30th-September 1st should be Nom Con =) I'll be sure to take pictures ^_^ Be sure to comment and I'll get back to you asap =)

~Laz~

So today being the 17th of May 2013, I am well looking forward to the weekend and have a few things to get done first. One of them is that I am looking for a fursuit maker who can make me a fursuit of my current fursona but problem is local fursuit makers here are either busy or low on funds at the moment and the fact that I don't want my mom and her mom finding out bout my fursuit, so I'll need someone local who can keep my suit for me to collect. Finally,most International or European good quality fursuit websites only accept credit cards which I don't have. Only debit =\ Am glad that people are reading my journals though. =) But seriously if anyone out there who can help me with this problem please let me know <3

Life has taken a lot of my time lately and when I mean a lot, I mean A LOT. So am on a job trial till the 16th of May in a Tax Consultancy firm working 9am-5pm Monday-Thursday and a 9am-4pm job on a Friday. Plus I have been working without a Laptop or a PC so, I'm trying my best to save up for one. Since I have last posted a journal not only have I moved on but found a loving boyfriend, friends and a partial fursuit (yes, a partial FURSUIT). Been to a few musicals. Oliver,Starlight Express,The Lion King and The Phantom Of The Opera. August 24th is when I go see CATS with my boyfriend so am looking forward to that. Nearly got chucked out by ushers on Saturday after some people complained bout me making out with my boyfriend during the first half performance of the 2:30pm showing of The Lion King. I don't know whether I should hate myself that I should have been more restrained :( there have been many things that I've done that I hate myself for doing including have psoriasis of the scalp to deal with :( I have only taken medicated shampoo only ONCE and I'm only supposed to take it TWICE a week. Not that I weigh 80kg and my mom's constant "you look like you're 6 months pregnant" comments help either :( I bet there are better guys that are better off than me Anyway, be sure to comment and leave stuff on my page.

Where to begin? Let's see. Couple of months ago in May, my laptop CPU melted and up until recently I've been trying to save fur a new pc and have been reduced to using my I~Touch so which I guess will have to do until I have saved enough fur a new PCM & a fursuit o.o Amywho, I recently attended Nom Con 2012 which was pretty awesome which I saw fursuiter YouMeAtSix (I think =3) as I was cosplaying as Naruto Uzumaki from the anime series Naruto and I also cosplayed as Inuyasha on that day. It was awesome ^_^ So comment on what cons in Ireland you'll be attending and I'll let ya know if I'll be there or not =3

Here's to Eirtakon ^.^

Hey it's me again. Just to say I'm back 9 days from travelling to London Expo with a group of guy friends, well when I say a group I mean 6 or 7ish =3. Anywho, I've been unpacking my suitcase and I must say I've had an awesome time. Apart from seeing a cool Wicked musical, I thought London Expo rocked! You name I saw it. Darth Vader & co were there. Pity there were no rebels around! *laughs* Anyway, I bought myself a black wolf tail from Team Giblets for £20 which I thought wasn't bad. I wish I could post a couple of photos on here but sadly my digital camera battery died. *sadface* So I had to make do with some Kodak disposable cameras and now I have sent the films to be made into photos at a local Boots pharmacy here in Dublin. Back to London, I saw loads of Fursuiters, cosplayers, crossplayers and even somebody wearing a Gundam mech suit =O. I also bout 2 Naruto vs Sasuke anime canvases that I bought for £70 which I then lost at Victoria Coach Station on the way back to Dublin >.<. So anyway I've lodged a lost property form into the Victoria Coach Station website and I just hope to god that someone has handed them in... I will update my journal entry as soon as Victoria Coach Station has notified my that the canvases have been found. So, my next anime con will be Eirtakon which I hope I will work on a SasuKiba yaoi cosplay sketch by then. Anyway I#m kinda running out of stuff to say here so any feedback on this Journal will be most welcome! ^_^ Ciao fur now

Just had an awesome 2 days at Nom Con and I got to see and have my pic taken WITH THE Kyle Hebert! =D I know Veronica Taylor was there too with Little Kuriboh but still, I had an awesome time nonetheless. Now, hello London Expo and hello Eirtakon! =D

Ok so, it's my first journal here on FA and since Ive had nothing to wirte about, I'd like to write one now, Firstly I'l like to say that it's been over 2 weeks since I was supposed to here from Facebook about my disabled account which is wrecking my nerves. I also I have found out something recently. 1 is the fact that I'm not as using Bebo, Myspace and Deviant Art as much I used to. Maybe I should start updating Deviant art although I'm not much of an artist. Maybe I should start going into music, drawing and writing....ok maybe music and writing but definately getting practice of the drawing bit. I will post any art that I get done on here from now on =). Anyway 5th of August is Nom Con 2011 and I'm cosplaying Kiba Inuzuka from the Naruto Anime and I'd like to ask whether I should gel my hair or leave as is, since I have dark brown short hair? I really want to get to the closest appearance of Kiba as I can so any tips would really help =D Oooh and apparantly Kyle Herbert will be there too so I'm wondering what I should get Kyle Herbert to sign for me? Any ideas?

Anyway, see you my fellow furs ^.^ This Ferrewolf is off to grab some sleep.

Ni ni ^_^