If you happen to follow my IG or Twitter you've already seen my post. If you're reading this, thank you for sticking with me in my absence.

Long story short: the past two years have been rough. My mental space was not very good to begin with because of things going on in my life (past, present), then coupled with physical health issues (1. My collarbone, which was never resolved... It just stopped hurting after about 6~months, but still pops in and out of place. It is most likely subluxation at the sternoclavical joint; 2. The return of my chronic endometriosis despite a full hysterectomy.)

My mental health took a massive dive with things in my life getting worse, to the point I unaliving plans twice. Obviously, I am still here. I would like to say that things are good, but I am managing. I still slip and fall and found myself spiraling just yesterday, choking back the tears while I sat at a table in the lunchroom at work. (I'm currently on accommodations because I broke my pinky, so I sit at a table for 10 hours doing nothing. Thankfully this should be my last week.)

With all that said, I'm trying to get back into things finally. I don't expect to be opening up commissions anytime soon, sadly. I have little free time now with my new job. We will see, but for now, baby steps.

Due to medical issues, I'm unfortunately having to put commissions on hold as I'm unable to draw without pain and discomfort.

What I thought at first was just muscle aches from being sick, continued after I got better. I had my suspicion that it was more than just "being sick" because I noticed my collar bone on the right was sticking up slightly further than the left which wasn't normal. I had also had some "popping" of the bone at the sternum when moving certain ways.

I went to an Urgent Care about a week and a half after it started, at this point no longer sick, and was told "swollen lymph node from being sick" because nothing showed on my x-ray. I was also told the popping was "normal"...

Another week+ later (bringing us to yesterday) I went to the ER in hopes of getting a real diagnosis. More x-rays showing nothing and a c-scan also showing nothing appearing to be wrong, other than all the muscles in my neck to shoulder/collar bone being super tense.

I've been referred to an orthopedic specialist as they believe I may have subluxation of my collar bone at the sternum, which won't always show on scans because the bone is literally sliding in and out.

I was given some muscle relaxers to help with the pain that is going up the side of my neck due to the muscles, and I'm hoping they might help relieve some of the overall discomfort while I wait to see the specialist. Depending how that goes I may try to work on current commissions, but will have to refuse any new ones and I apologize.

Thank you to my two current commissioners for being so understanding of my super bad luck.