Is it just me or has the jackass level of MD drivers gone up 200% in the last few years.....

Share some of your random thoughts.

*sits at full attention*

Im tired of being alive

Been 11 years since I became a member here

Started as a shy lurker, then found some happiness and opened up....then found alot of pain and fake friendships which scarred me deep leaving me as this broken depressed anti social dragon afraid to chat on-line now..

Oh well..the internet and people on it can be quite cruel.


Bleh...anyway have a good Easter and stay well.

Was 2 1/2 years ago..


..Perhaps I should again..

Anyone think its worth it?

Leaving for South Carolina tomorrow for a week vacation.

Yahness and stuff.

Im all 33 today

yah and stuffs

Feeling like im in a dark bubble

Hard to explain...need cheerful things right now i think...

I dunno..

Just throwing a Merry Christmas journal into the pile.


Have a great holiday everyone

I would like to apologize to everyone.....

I have tried to heal these last few years but i cant.....the sheer magnitude of the pain a few have caused me in the past has forever scarred me...

I am afraid to be social...i used to chat all the time...had a group of friends that were always there....but then most of them turned on me...hurt me and abandoned me...

This caused me to shut myself off to everyone.....the few i started growing close to after that..like a certain person i hung out with at ac a few years ago....also ended up hurting me..

I am now afraid to get to know others...afraid of getting hurt more....i have tried reaching out to a few old friends but i get ignored....i dont blame them for hating me after i went quiet for so long i suppose...

It would be nice for others to checm up on me...text me without me having to text first....no one does, i am unimportant and someone easily forgotten and shoved aside...

Thats why i dont get on skype...why i dont use telegram..and why i dont chat mych anymore....there is something about me that drives people away..and i dont want to feel that deep pain anymore every time it happens..

So again sorry...im a failure as a friend and will forever be broken never to heal...every time i try to open up again i get slapped in the face...

Sorry...

....Start trying to draw again


....possibly..perhaps..

Dunno...my art is atrocious and makes the eyes bleed upon seeing it and makes the souls of children cry out in agony


...but I have a few I still want to give gifts...and a few I still owe gifts I think..

...I dunno....

I always felt like I was simply making a fool of myself with my incredibly lackluster terrible art "skills"




*paces deep in eternal debate*

*sits in a chair and stares at everyone patiently*

After 6 long years with a old Verizon flip phone I finally joined the new age and bought a Samsung Galaxy S7 Edge.

I am not used to these touch screen phones and apps and all this new technology.

I know Im like a decade behind everyone else in technology terms, will take me a while to get used to this phone.

How did I get a cold in the middle of August!!!

garrhhhhehee!!!

*table flips, sofa flips, house flips, neighborhood flips*


RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGE!!!


*sits coughing*

Yet again I have been randomly blocked.

Tried faving something by someone I have been watching and it said I couldn't because they blocked me.

Unsure why considering I have never had an interaction with this person, and they must have blocked me within the last month because I faved something of theirs last month.


...So yeah, again someone decided to block me for some weird reason.

Oh well I guess....will bug me not knowing why.

Lets see here





2 Goodie Bags full of small assorted things
6 Crackling Balls
6 Strobe Light Pieces
1 Strobing Fountain
2 Tank-Larges
2 Super Spinners
6 Gemeni Shots
12 Tanks with Report
3 Big Balls Mines
1 Firecracker Dynamite
1 Sparkling Knight Sword
6 Party Poppers
1 300 Shot Missile Battery
1 Spin Doctor Sparkling Box
1 7 Shot 200gram One Eyed Jack Box
1 16 Shot Confetti Cake Box
1 25 Shot Doc Holiday Box
1 75 Shot 200gram Ace of Spades Box
1 12 Shot Mini Rig Box
1 8 Shot Hypnotic Box
1 16 Shot 500gram ONE Box
3 Single Shot Artillery Tube Shells
1 10 Shot Orange Crush Box
12 Chasing Tail Artillery Shells
6 Double Break Neon Shells
6 Triple Break Neon Shells
24 HD 60gram Cannister Shells
24 Aftermath 60gram Cannister Shells
24 Pro 60gram Cannister Shells
1 172 Shot 500gram Master of our Enemies Finale Box






The booms are indeed ready

about ten hours away till a sparkling sky...

yep...

As always Im staying here


See no point in running away like others have


Will simply dewatch anyone leaving and laugh at the ones claiming FA is going down

Alright...I have 48 phantom submissions, 2 phantom comments and 1 phantom note after FA returned



Anyone know how to get rid of them?

Didn't notice till now that April 14th marked my tenth year as a FA member.

Yah face

Want some classic awesome old school genesis music from a mostly forgotten game


Go here and listen....I think this game had some of the greatest game music ever.


https://www.youtube.com/playlist?li.....slWinB99nj5rIK

*curls in a corner*

Yep


And now the lovely links because Im mean and dont put the video in the actual journal because I like the element of surprise for the few that will click said links......................................and stuff




https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tX57jqetDGA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vMCbJB4yNXo

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IlPAiol98ns

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOZAHFFIJGI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ThwSWIXhiRw

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y9x2CHQClTU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LyA1GL1touw

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j47OMBfl-3A

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7q2bNqe0Xyk

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tYTwIZslZXo













loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooots of noooooooooooooooooooooooise

A big thanks to the few that gave me birthday wishes <3



But now because for the last 2 years I received no birthday gift art ...........and I have an overwhelming love of being drawn but have no extra money at all to pay for it....................



Its time to start operation guilt trip till someone draws me!



*sits in a big pile of snow shivering while playing sad music on a violin with big sad puppy eyes with a sign asking please draw me*




***((disclaimer...journal should not be taken overly seriously but probably will resulting in several accusing me of bad things and my total watchers plummeting...............................................and no..I have no shame))***

Turning 32 today


Yep, now its off to work


*throws confetti*