been awhile since this journal's been updated...

things are just crazy aren't they?

just want to try an art struggling to do that even getting coms it seems ^^;

ah well... still will try to enjoy things I can.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qj4sWmdwbjQ

here go get yourself a space kitty

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49088345/

I still want to give a bit love to my OC's that've been on the back burner due to coming me, myself, and I and my kinks and such

I have my pokegals, chaotic mini shark gal Reaka, my funny honey bee Agave, my Dalmatian missy Alexa and of course my shark cat Xenia who I absolutely want to do more with (non kink wise)

but yeah just something am thinking about.

If you actually read this cool!

here be a post of someone needing a hand with stuff

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10175778/

spread the word! (or hopefully donate)

Well for most it's probably almost over...

But the end of the year be coming soon too!

Things still haven't been all that great for some there are many hoping for the best.

hoping this upcoming year is able to be a little better for you guys.

so been awhile on updating this thing, figured since it's the season I hope least someone can help.


 spiritalpha is doing a auction and his stuff be top notch. hope you guys can either help or send word out for him!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/45194076

so, as many posts and such been posting my more feminine side of myself...

been very VERY reserved with commissions and such like this cause honestly how been raised and just been rather shy with certain kinks and interests.

Something to note though as I've seen around here and other sites. Some start to question their gender as they continue to keep discovering themselves.

Well am here to say...

I am still very much a dude, guy, he or what have you. I just like feminine things and such, granted not everyone is like me but I am happy on who I be.

If people mistake my kitty as a girl, cool let them think that. Honestly don't mind being called "she" or "he" it don't bug me.

Just be friendly and helpful and things will go well.

Also will be heading out of town around the 15th of this month. Hoping things go smooth as well with that.

so yea just wanted to get that out there.

five months since my last update on my journal blegh ^^;

so figured I might as well update this, and to make things somewhat breif...

I got hurt at work.

Thankfully it wasn't anything serious, but the careless nature of my new supervisor.

Things have evolved into the point, having to see some higher ups basically making a case... and hopefully keeping my job (or get a new one)

it's been rather busy and taxing for me throughout the week. and Tomorrow is pretty much going to be the same song and dance give or take.

I just hope things can pan out and get back to some sort of normal...

I haven't been able to draw or color just feel so out of place now it's not funny, been trying to play some games and stream but it's been kinda meh for me...

just hoping for the best expecting the worst.

A new year is just a number, doesn't fix the problems that still happen...

so have stated in my previous journal that I now have some roommates staying in.

Well since then things have seemed to go okay...

Till a discovery of damage with some plumbing and after a not cheap repair and inspection (due to the now frequent use)

the damage is VERY severe and to properly fix it, I will be out of utilities for about three months...

Granted this won't happen right away but the fact this has happened, has left me a bit upset.

Though I'd be staying at my folks home for the time being when repairs start. I am really not a fan of having to deal with a lot of stuff they watch/do nowdays.

till then I guess I'll just make due and keep doing what I can.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TiZ1Q5dXyfg

How I sorta feel about it..

https://youtu.be/SGDpuxuBByE

Hope this new year can do a bit more.

Also am old...

It's been a really odd year hasn't it?

but besides that... hope you guys been holding up alright, and hoping for the best.

Take care

well has been ages since have updated this... does anyone read these of mine anyhow?

besides that... saying pretty much anything about this year would be preaching to the choir.

however things in my case are also going to be interesting,

I had mentioned this on my twitter, but I will have to move my stuff for a bit, cause I will be having a roommate

along with her four kids...

Granted I understand the situation isn't great anyhow because but I feel like I won't have nearly as time like I did on the weekends or what have you. not to mention I REALLY don't feel comfortable about the situation anyhow despite being told it's "temporary"

this year hasn't been great and I struggle to just post stuff like I used to. the fact that I'd now have people (mainly kids/teens) also around does not bolster any confidence for me.

I feel like a third wheel in this situation anyhow as most of the drama that ended up having to move stuff and get roommates, wasn't really based on my decision at all.

I don't know what else to say but just hope things keep going well. that's all I can really hope for.

Well if ya seen my posts on here just figured might as well update the journal...

things still suck in some parts but trying to get through, anyhow

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9629973/

this dude is open for commissions, throw him some muns...

So, with all the changes of DA and struggling with Newgrounds, and Twitter.

I've been wondering if I should make FA my place where not only do I post my art (that I do little of...) but also my commissions that a good chunk have been seeing pop up now and then...

I've usually been hesitant cause I want to show off my art and see if I am getting better, as opposed to just having a page filled with commissions I've gotten.... I dunno I'm an odd dude

but yeah, some input would be great.

Yeah...

Needless to say went on a trip, just before things started to shut down and clear out and such and truth be told...

I have no idea but there's a possibility I'm gonna be put on quarantine (so far it doesn't seem like it)

but as this has been all going on, am trying to still keep doing what I wanted to do, and that doing more coloring and art.

not doing that well in the front, ^^; but maybe this could help?

it's definitely been hard cause been seeing a lot of people struggle and I can't seem to do much atm.

I would just love the fact for just a damn week now (or month) things would go smoothly not just for my end but for others...

 nextgenanubiskid is trying to get a thing going www.gofundme.com/f/need-help-d…

 drpossibly had given up her shark and now I own her... (which still feels really odd)

I thought the time off I had went I for a small vacation would help calm my nerves... but it sorta seems to be the opposite

I'm calm in some aspects but feel a bit of worry

Granted I've been well aware there was always going to be something lurking around the corner to screw things up. but didn't think it'd be this frequent. ^^;

anyhow I just am gonna try to keep doing what I need to do. Not burn/overburden myself in the process.

in short pretty much what a rather wise kid had said

https://sta.sh/0j4g396lcvn

just hang in there.

So if you have been following  drpossibly situation she had to sell off her main sharkgal.

I uh, really wish she didn't have to, but being the winner of the auction I guess Shark Tori is now under my watch.

Granted she now has brib which is good as well, but regardless she is my friend. Shark or bird doesn't matter to me.

I am not entierly sure on what I will do, but if anything you'll see her in some commissions and then some I suppose ^^;

So uh yeah, also if you're gonna try to "request" something from me to have it done with Tori....


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2q35PgSXhKg


Let me know when you actually help someone in a serious situation rather than look for damn handout.

hoo, where has the time gone, last journal was about the start of the new year, and here it's February already.

I am doing art and coloring still, just not posting much on here, trying to get better. (been sorta failing that)

but also just been getting a lot of commissions and gifts for others. Now it's something I don't mind doing at all, but may have to hold off a bit, mainly cause I want to do more with my own characters.

Speaking of Characters, am sure a lot of you had noticed about  drpossibly and how things have been screwing her over still...

I have asked for help, I understand if you can't or don't but it would be great if some would still lend a hand to help her situation. Can understand being hesitant due to how things happen, but sometimes shit can happen regardless of how good things can (or can't) be.

but the fact it's gotten to a point where she could pretty much have to sell her computer. losing the one thing where she can share ideas chat play and chill from the crap of the world... it kinda sucks.

even if you can't would be great if others spread the word around. would hopefully benefit her.

https://www.gofundme.com/f/friends-of-tori-assemble?utm_source=customer&utm_medium=copy_link-tip&utm_campaign=p_cp+share-sheet

anyhow if you even bothered to read this thanks... till then guess see you sometime later.

It's been quite the decade for me...

It's had some bad moments, but there's been quite a few good ones.

but feel kinda upset due to the lack of art/improvement I've been trying to do...

However I'm not trying to beat myself up too much, due to the fact that I've gotten a lot of art for others. (and treating myself cause they are my commissions)

Made attempts to help others, with gifts and such as well though it didn't fix the problems. It was just nice to try to show not everything is bad well least that was the goal.

and I am now 30 years old.


yeah tis been a trip, I really can't find much else to say (plus am just tired) but 2020 is gonna be something else for sure.

Or Christmahannukwanzadan

Yeah

Funny I posted a journal saying am back, but then have holiday trips going on pretty much the rest of the Thanksgiving week. But anyhow

Hope thanksgiving was well for you all (well those who celebrate it... cause America woo)

Anyhow finally back again, and heading into the holidays (gonna be busy but hopefully here) and feeling a bit more confident, am gonna try to do more art.

But also in the meantime I would like to open up about taking coloring commissions

15$ per character. and you'll get this lovely thing!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/33095853/

(actual Isabelle maid may vary)


But will ink and color a character or pic you wish. NSFW or SFW

so yeah here's hoping things go well into the new year. and cheers.

and well...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f2dJxFIV28Y


Least am hoping ^^;

As the title suggests am going to be taking a break, even though I haven't been uploading much let alone doing art.

But will be on a trip for this three day weekend, a part of me is torn however, cause I would like to stay. cause could actually draw a bit maybe get better.

But another part of me is wanting to go mainly to take a break from a lot of stress that's been just going on.

Everyone has their moments, myself included, and it's much needed to vent out frustration but what makes it harder is that no one seems to really take action. Hell would be nice to get a "best wishes" or something, but even as I say that now I feel like it's just a hollow thing.

I had asked for help once, and it wasn't for me, it was for a friend  drpossibly (who could still use a hand)


I was nervous at first, but it was neat to see people come together

but I guess it's only good for a one time thing sadly.

I don't expect to fix all sorts of problems nor, I don't expect to have answers to everything, but kinda wish things were just a little better than now.

anyhow I ramble and have to keep getting ready for the trip. hopefully can get myself a bit more situated with everything.

noticed, getting their artwork idolized, or accepted. if it happens they then find people who may share the same interests with one another. Yet, if something goes awry, those who once stood by are gone.Or only staying because they simply are seeking some sort of reward or gratification from it.

it really hurts to see when someone who was supposed to help or someone that seemed to agree with things, easily damage another, or even moreso have others join and attack because of this, that and the other. when there's no solid concrete evidence that they had ill intentions from the start.

bad things happen to good people all the time. but if one keeps staying by regardless of how bad it gets. then I would say that's a good friend.

so if you actually bothered to read this I have been sticking with  drpossibly side, and a lot... I mean a lot of bad shit has happened with her.

I know those who have helped before, don't trust it. think it's a scam, think that I am a fool for asking for help. Honestly it's rather hard for me to figure out what to say now.

I really hope no one tries to cause more trouble, or what have you. especially after what she has been dealing with earlier


https://www.furaffinity.net/journal.....y/#jid:9255923

but just know this, Tori is a person. not just some character you want to see bound up all the time. and when there's something that ends up making things hard on her end? Rather than attacking someone because you're not getting what you want, how about helping out?

I still can't get over how once managed to organize a small group, to help her when she was struggling. I've taken risks that people would think am insane for doing so. and yet I have no regrets on doing it what so ever.

Yet now, I honestly feel like am the only one who really is just wishing something great can happen. something that helps.

as she stated her paypal is YellowSharkStreaming[at]gmail.com

Not going to ask anyone anymore, not really sure what else I can do. I can just only hope.

Am getting rather tired of being told "shit sucks deal with it" or "wishing I was dead" showing everything is bad...

because if it really was? I don't think this site would be here. I know I wouldn't.

has been a while since I've updated this... figured I might as well do so.

Well am doing ok for the most part, am still trying to attempt art, and failing badly at it.

I've been a bit all over the past few days, and I don't like to talk much (least on here) about things that's been going on with me in RL for a multitude of reasons.

But lately what happened rather affected me hard. Definitely hurts when it's someone you knew for a while too.

it kinda just made me put things into question. got to the point had a bit of anxiety rush, something I thought wouldn't happen to me for quite sometime.

Just pretty much got overwhelmed, but am glad if anything for those who I chat to on here helped.

it's still not perfect (then again I haven't done much actual art and still am just crappy) but am still just gonna try to do what I can.

I'm still taking coloring commissions if that tickles your fancy... 15$ per character

but if you really didn't bother with any of this journal whatsoever.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SsiBHDEFu10


TLDR: look still just kinda over the place and trying to get it together. if you want color stuff send a note.

Trip was fun, wish it was longer, but hoping not much crazy crap happened at work.

so

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QChx0aMglS0

yeah

Also still taking color commissions 15$