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Posted 9 years ago"All of these have their own risk of Toxicity, Allergic reaction, and/or Legality.
also, it is critical to know what parts are safe for which uses and what parts aren't!
if you try anyone of them, you are doing so, at your own risk!
this is not a list that I am recommending to anyone.
it is just simply a list for cultural, educational, and historical purposes!"
Achillea species,
Acorus species,
Agastache species,
Allium tuberosum,
Althaea officinalis,
Amaranthus dubius,
Amomum species,
Anthriscus species,
Asafoetida species,
Arctostaphylos species,
Artemisia species,
Apium graveolens,
Bixa orellana L.
Brassica species,
Bunium species,
Calea species,
Calycanthus species,
Canavalia maritima,
Carum carvi,
Cecropia mexicana,
Celtis species,
Centella species,
Cestrum nocturnum,
Chaerophyllum species,
Chelidonium majus,
Chimonanthus praecox,
Cinnamomum species,
Citrus species,
Cnidoscolus species,
Cocos nucifera,
Coleus species,
Curcuma longa,
Cuminum species,
Cynoglossum virginianum L.
Cytisus scoparius,
Coriandrum sativum,
Elettaria species,
Eleutherococcus species,
Entada rheedii,
Eryngium foetidum,
Eschscholzia species,
Dendrocnide photinophylla,
Fittonia albivenis,
Foeniculum vulgare,
Girardinia diversifolia,
Heimia salicifolia,
Helichrysum italicum,
Heliotropium curassavicum,
Hippobroma longiflora,
Humulus species,
Hypericum perforatum,
Illicium species,
Impatiens species,
Jasminum species,
Lactuca Virosa,
Lamium species,
Laggera alata,
Lavandula species,
Laurus nobilis,
Leonotis species,
Leonurus sibiricus,
Lindera benzoin,
Litsea glaucescens,
Lobelia species,
Lythraceae species,
Malus species,
Manihot esculenta,
Maranta arundinacea,
Mesembryanthemum species,
Mentha species,
Mitragyna speciosa,
Nelumbo species,
Nepeta cataria,
Nigella sativa,
Nymphaea species,
Ocimum species,
Olea species,
Panax species,
Passiflora species,
Pedicularis species,
Piperaceae species (though never their seeds.)
Pimpinella anisum,
Piper species,
Plectranthus species,
Pueraria species,
Rubus species,
Salvia species,
Sanguinaria species,
Sceletium species,
Scutellaria species,
Sesamum species,
Sida species,
Silene capensis,
Syzygium species,
Tagetes lucida,
Tarchonanthus camphoratus,
Tanacetum balsamita,
Turnera diffus,
Tussilago species,
Umbellularia californica,
Urera species,
Urtica species,
Verbascum species,
Zamia integrifolia,
Zornia latifolia,
"All of these have their own risk of Toxicity, Allergic reaction, and/or Legality.
also, it is critical to know what parts are safe to smoke and what parts aren't!
if you try anyone of them, you are doing so, at your own risk!
this is not a list that I am recommending to anyone.
it is just simply a list for cultural, educational, and historical purposes!"
also, it is critical to know what parts are safe for which uses and what parts aren't!
if you try anyone of them, you are doing so, at your own risk!
this is not a list that I am recommending to anyone.
it is just simply a list for cultural, educational, and historical purposes!"
Achillea species,
Acorus species,
Agastache species,
Allium tuberosum,
Althaea officinalis,
Amaranthus dubius,
Amomum species,
Anthriscus species,
Asafoetida species,
Arctostaphylos species,
Artemisia species,
Apium graveolens,
Bixa orellana L.
Brassica species,
Bunium species,
Calea species,
Calycanthus species,
Canavalia maritima,
Carum carvi,
Cecropia mexicana,
Celtis species,
Centella species,
Cestrum nocturnum,
Chaerophyllum species,
Chelidonium majus,
Chimonanthus praecox,
Cinnamomum species,
Citrus species,
Cnidoscolus species,
Cocos nucifera,
Coleus species,
Curcuma longa,
Cuminum species,
Cynoglossum virginianum L.
Cytisus scoparius,
Coriandrum sativum,
Elettaria species,
Eleutherococcus species,
Entada rheedii,
Eryngium foetidum,
Eschscholzia species,
Dendrocnide photinophylla,
Fittonia albivenis,
Foeniculum vulgare,
Girardinia diversifolia,
Heimia salicifolia,
Helichrysum italicum,
Heliotropium curassavicum,
Hippobroma longiflora,
Humulus species,
Hypericum perforatum,
Illicium species,
Impatiens species,
Jasminum species,
Lactuca Virosa,
Lamium species,
Laggera alata,
Lavandula species,
Laurus nobilis,
Leonotis species,
Leonurus sibiricus,
Lindera benzoin,
Litsea glaucescens,
Lobelia species,
Lythraceae species,
Malus species,
Manihot esculenta,
Maranta arundinacea,
Mesembryanthemum species,
Mentha species,
Mitragyna speciosa,
Nelumbo species,
Nepeta cataria,
Nigella sativa,
Nymphaea species,
Ocimum species,
Olea species,
Panax species,
Passiflora species,
Pedicularis species,
Piperaceae species (though never their seeds.)
Pimpinella anisum,
Piper species,
Plectranthus species,
Pueraria species,
Rubus species,
Salvia species,
Sanguinaria species,
Sceletium species,
Scutellaria species,
Sesamum species,
Sida species,
Silene capensis,
Syzygium species,
Tagetes lucida,
Tarchonanthus camphoratus,
Tanacetum balsamita,
Turnera diffus,
Tussilago species,
Umbellularia californica,
Urera species,
Urtica species,
Verbascum species,
Zamia integrifolia,
Zornia latifolia,
"All of these have their own risk of Toxicity, Allergic reaction, and/or Legality.
also, it is critical to know what parts are safe to smoke and what parts aren't!
if you try anyone of them, you are doing so, at your own risk!
this is not a list that I am recommending to anyone.
it is just simply a list for cultural, educational, and historical purposes!"
Pipe, parts, materials, made from and/or could be.
Posted 9 years agoI do not currently make pipes, though I have a great love of them, and so I wrote out these lists and definitions relating to pipes.
The three main parts" of any pipe are:
the Bowl – This is where the tobacco or other herb, or mix of herbs are burned.
the Stem* – This is the middle of the pipe, that connects the bowl to the bit.
and the Bit – this is the mouth piece, or where the lip of the pipe is meant to meet the lips to be smoked.
"these are still the names of these areas on a one piece pipe.
*most modern pipes, if they are made to be separated for storage and/or for a filter, do so somewhere along the stem and/or at its ends or middle.
The three, Secondary common/possible body parts, of a pipe:
the Shank – maybe part of the bowl, or connects to the bowl, and to the stem.
the Filter – is generally a piece of metal or fine screen, and/or fiber of some type, and is placed within the stem, or at the bit end of the stem.
the Lip – the raised ring at the end of the bit or the stem, if the bit is not a separate part from the stem.
The four, common/possible decorative parts of a pipe:
the Cap or Crown – any decorative nonflammable upper part, or attachment to, or around the opening of the bowl, and/or that can cover the opening.
the Feet – any decorative protrusions located either on the bottom of the: bowl, stem, and/or bit, that are designed to let the pipe stand upright on any hard surface without letting the bit and/or lip touch the surface that it is resting on.
the Scarff or Rings – any decorative nonflammable part(s), or attachment(s) to, designed to fit around and/or at the ends of the stem.
and the Mane or Tails – any decorative part(s), that are designed to hang or trail from the pipe while it is being held or smoked.
- - -
the nonflammable Materials* that the main/body parts of pipes have been made out of, and/or can be made out of:
Clay,
Stone and/or Gem,
Glass,
Wood and/or Shrub,
Cob, Husk, and/or Reed,
Seed Shell, and/or Seed Pod,
Bone,
Tooth and/or Tusk,
Antler and/or Horn,
Hoof, and/or Claw,
Beak,
Turtle Shell,
Sea Shell,
Metal,
Vulcanized Rubber and/or Plastic.
* these could be of any color or from any area, and often have special meaning(s) to the people that use it to make pipes from.
- - -
the Materials* that the decorative part(s) of pipes have been made out of, and/or can be made out of:
Clay,
Stone, and/or Gem,
Glass,
Wood, and/or Shrub,
Cob, Husk, and/or Reed,
Seed Shell, and/or Seed Pod,
Plant Fiber,
Bone,
Tooth and/or Tusk,
Antler and/or Horn,
Hoof, and/or Claw,
Skin and/or Leather,
Hair and/or Fur,
Feather, Beak, and/or Talon,
Turtle Shell,
Sea Shell,
Cloth,
Metal,
Vulcanized Rubber and/or Plastic.
* these could be of any color or from any area, and often have special meaning(s) to the people that use it to make pipes from.
- - -
the Materials!, I will list only Herbs" here, that pipes have been used to have smoked, or that can be used within a pipe to smoke, either alone or as part of a mixture.
!I simply will not list any smokable chemicals, though I am aware that they exist.
"All of these have their own risk of Toxicity, Allergic reaction, and/or Legality.
if you try anyone of them, you are doing so, at your own risk.
this is not a list that I am recommending to anyone."
the four most common herbs! for smoking are;
Tobacco,
Coca,
Hemp,
and/or Opium.
there is a Long list of other less common herbs! that have been used for smoking and/or that could be smoked, in fact so long that I have given up trying to list them all here.
The three main parts" of any pipe are:
the Bowl – This is where the tobacco or other herb, or mix of herbs are burned.
the Stem* – This is the middle of the pipe, that connects the bowl to the bit.
and the Bit – this is the mouth piece, or where the lip of the pipe is meant to meet the lips to be smoked.
"these are still the names of these areas on a one piece pipe.
*most modern pipes, if they are made to be separated for storage and/or for a filter, do so somewhere along the stem and/or at its ends or middle.
The three, Secondary common/possible body parts, of a pipe:
the Shank – maybe part of the bowl, or connects to the bowl, and to the stem.
the Filter – is generally a piece of metal or fine screen, and/or fiber of some type, and is placed within the stem, or at the bit end of the stem.
the Lip – the raised ring at the end of the bit or the stem, if the bit is not a separate part from the stem.
The four, common/possible decorative parts of a pipe:
the Cap or Crown – any decorative nonflammable upper part, or attachment to, or around the opening of the bowl, and/or that can cover the opening.
the Feet – any decorative protrusions located either on the bottom of the: bowl, stem, and/or bit, that are designed to let the pipe stand upright on any hard surface without letting the bit and/or lip touch the surface that it is resting on.
the Scarff or Rings – any decorative nonflammable part(s), or attachment(s) to, designed to fit around and/or at the ends of the stem.
and the Mane or Tails – any decorative part(s), that are designed to hang or trail from the pipe while it is being held or smoked.
- - -
the nonflammable Materials* that the main/body parts of pipes have been made out of, and/or can be made out of:
Clay,
Stone and/or Gem,
Glass,
Wood and/or Shrub,
Cob, Husk, and/or Reed,
Seed Shell, and/or Seed Pod,
Bone,
Tooth and/or Tusk,
Antler and/or Horn,
Hoof, and/or Claw,
Beak,
Turtle Shell,
Sea Shell,
Metal,
Vulcanized Rubber and/or Plastic.
* these could be of any color or from any area, and often have special meaning(s) to the people that use it to make pipes from.
- - -
the Materials* that the decorative part(s) of pipes have been made out of, and/or can be made out of:
Clay,
Stone, and/or Gem,
Glass,
Wood, and/or Shrub,
Cob, Husk, and/or Reed,
Seed Shell, and/or Seed Pod,
Plant Fiber,
Bone,
Tooth and/or Tusk,
Antler and/or Horn,
Hoof, and/or Claw,
Skin and/or Leather,
Hair and/or Fur,
Feather, Beak, and/or Talon,
Turtle Shell,
Sea Shell,
Cloth,
Metal,
Vulcanized Rubber and/or Plastic.
* these could be of any color or from any area, and often have special meaning(s) to the people that use it to make pipes from.
- - -
the Materials!, I will list only Herbs" here, that pipes have been used to have smoked, or that can be used within a pipe to smoke, either alone or as part of a mixture.
!I simply will not list any smokable chemicals, though I am aware that they exist.
"All of these have their own risk of Toxicity, Allergic reaction, and/or Legality.
if you try anyone of them, you are doing so, at your own risk.
this is not a list that I am recommending to anyone."
the four most common herbs! for smoking are;
Tobacco,
Coca,
Hemp,
and/or Opium.
there is a Long list of other less common herbs! that have been used for smoking and/or that could be smoked, in fact so long that I have given up trying to list them all here.
insight or insanity?
Posted 9 years agowant some things to think about?
then might I recommend giving kasperz3r0 Journals a read through.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journals/kasperz3r0/6/
I can't stop reading them.
then might I recommend giving kasperz3r0 Journals a read through.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journals/kasperz3r0/6/
I can't stop reading them.
emptier stomach... fuller lion.
Posted 9 years agodry heaving sucks, no kidding.
just as much as missing out on things, be it an evening service or a chance to have gotten wild.
I admit that I am too old for this shit, then why I am still doing it, I know not. and nor do I care. I did it, all be it just dry heave even after I missed out on an evening service.
call me what you will, I call the lot of us fools for not knowing what life is worth!
just as much as missing out on things, be it an evening service or a chance to have gotten wild.
I admit that I am too old for this shit, then why I am still doing it, I know not. and nor do I care. I did it, all be it just dry heave even after I missed out on an evening service.
call me what you will, I call the lot of us fools for not knowing what life is worth!
empty stomach... full lion.
Posted 9 years agolife sucks, and I don't mean in any good way.
it is one hellish moment after another, though if I can cling to at least one good thing in that then I choose to do so.
this is how I move forward.
it is one hellish moment after another, though if I can cling to at least one good thing in that then I choose to do so.
this is how I move forward.
jail friend, or is it only an acquaintance?
Posted 9 years agoanyway, long story short someone that I met in jail just visited with his girlfriend, and I am glad that I didn't take any advantage of the fact that they got my drunk, and they got high while they were here.
The "white coat" poem, its once unknown meaning to me. adult
Posted 9 years agoThe "white coat" was a free-form poem, that I once wrote in high school. I didn't find out its true meaning until after I was many years out of school, though I still remember most of it, in that I felt that it held some deep and yet unknown meaning to me.
if only I'd known then, what I'd later be told by my mother's mother. than I might have been able to have recovered faster, or even had been just had ben shaken less, for the limited idea of self that a child's mind holds. and thus it's ability to heal much easier, than an adult's mind of 35, for that was when I finally learned it's true meaning for me. and if I'd known it's deeper meaning back then, would I have blundered so badly through the many men, that I scared or hurt while I was young, horny, and not even heeding my own thoughts.
that had once given their voices, to have had whispered from the depths of my own mind?
"The coat that you wear, the staff that you bare, the mark that you share.
Shared even with me, to share with others, this mark that we wear.
Though, this mark and this staff, are mine to bear.
I will not mark others, to bear this staff, or wear this coat.
As I am not like you, to share without a thought, or a care.
I will take their stavs, and mend their coats.
Though I wear this mark, it is mine to bare, not I, it's to wear."
When I was 35, my grandmother finally just out of the blue told me, while we'd been talking about all of the things that my own sons had gone through in their young lives, for the fact that my ex-wife and I had been through an ugly divorce.
"your sons will turn out just fine someday despite all of it, as just look at how you turned out, even with how you'd been molested while you'd been sick in the hospital during your second birthday."
To say that I'd been caught off guard, with how'd she just said it as such a simple fact, after I'd asked my mother, and even her mother before that same question in different ways while I had been growing up.
"Did anything happen to me while I was in a place where I couldn't leave, where it was bright or dark, where I'd have been away from my family?"
and then after all of those questions and all of those years, to just hit me with it, when I was still off of my feet for what I was still going through with my ex-wife.
"have you no heart, old woman?"
"have you no sense, at all?"
"how could having been protecting me from that admission for that long, helped me any, to stop right then?"
And it's all too true, knowledge and truth, are just like cats and dogs, once they have fought that long to get out of the bag, they'll never be put back into it again, not ever.
I have had to relearn what it means to simply be me, what I have done, what I have been, in the light of this new, at least to me; fact of my own life.
Thanks but no thanks for protecting me, from part of me, if only you could each be made to see the damage that you'd done, in letting me to have healed without the truth, even after I'd asked for it so many times!
No, I am not really mad, sad, or anything like those, just disappointed with how so many years of over protection left me with a sense of self that could be broken at its base, with just one tactless admission of that truth. and then being left to rebuild my sense of self all over again on my own, or is it really that is the only way that one can rebuild it, on one's own. are we all really self-made, even with so many others around are selves, I can't believe it, I had others to talk to, even if at times that they were both few and far away, I still had them, that fact alone kept me going some days.
me and my laptop were having issues. did a digital lobotomy?
Posted 9 years agoit was starting to either request to restart or just freeze with programs and sites that I want it to run... as well as running about 70% to 98% a crossed the CPU, Memory, Hard drive, and the Network... which I know are never good signs, even though I am no programmer.
so... I uninstalled all but the basic system and protection programs and then reinstalled only the programs that I use, as well as running an anti-malware program after all of that.
right now it is running, about 4% to 76% over the CPU, 50% to 60% over the Memory, and 0% to 15% over the Hard drive and Network. the higher numbers being the active times when I actually have asked it to open a program or a web page.
I hope and wonder just how long it'll keep running like this, though I think that we are back on the same line now about how it is expected to run, after it's little digital brain operation.
so... I uninstalled all but the basic system and protection programs and then reinstalled only the programs that I use, as well as running an anti-malware program after all of that.
right now it is running, about 4% to 76% over the CPU, 50% to 60% over the Memory, and 0% to 15% over the Hard drive and Network. the higher numbers being the active times when I actually have asked it to open a program or a web page.
I hope and wonder just how long it'll keep running like this, though I think that we are back on the same line now about how it is expected to run, after it's little digital brain operation.
apparently, wal-mart now has sushi... and apparently
Posted 9 years agoit tastes awful... rubbery rice!
the new "The Furry Quiz" thingy
Posted 9 years ago1. Been in the fandom for...
high school, 1997, so like 20 years.
2. Found the fandom how?
it found me, or rather in high school, an underclassmen showed me a picture of an anthro snow leopard laying on a snow covered rock in just her bikini.
It totally didn't matter that it was a girl, I was totally like: wow that's really hot, wherever did you get that? and bam I was into furry!
3. Chose your species cuz...
I have always liked: lions, bats, and magic... so first, anthro bat-winged-lion-thing, and then his evil shadow.
4. why/how did you choose your name?
see 3.
5. if you had to change your species what would you choose?
I guess, honestly if I couldn't pick a mixed one like the bat-winged-lion, than I'd go with a flying fox (Pteropus vampyrus).
6. What percentage of your friends are furries?
seeing as I have almost no friends left from when I was young aside from the furry ones... like most likely 99%.
7. If you've been, favorite furry con and why?
any, I love to actually get to go to one, in my life time.
8. Got a fursuit?
naw, again an honestly... I'd rather the body mods over a suit. I know. I > freak!
9. RP'ing is:
way, not as much as I used too. now writing it... and I get to, hump, rut, and yiff my own characters together all most any time.
10. Are you open about being a furry, I.E if it comes up in conversation
I'll say that I am, though it gets mixed results.
11. Gay / Straight / bi?
I was on that bi now gay later program, and it's well passed later now!
12. Ever kissed another furry?
and I liked it!
13. Do you have adult art of your fursona? If yes, post favorite
Yes,
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20715357/ < tame, still my all time Fav!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22472422/ < NSFW, newest piece, again Thanks, RubberKitten!
14.Ever hooked up with another fur?
Yes.
15. Opinion on murrsuits?
They're hot, though please remember to clean and dress them for public events.
16. Do you have a kink related to the fandom? If yes, post the one your most open about, if you dare ;)
Gay size DIFFERENCE.
17. Are you in any 18+ Telegram groups? Name one.
sorry, nope.
high school, 1997, so like 20 years.
2. Found the fandom how?
it found me, or rather in high school, an underclassmen showed me a picture of an anthro snow leopard laying on a snow covered rock in just her bikini.
It totally didn't matter that it was a girl, I was totally like: wow that's really hot, wherever did you get that? and bam I was into furry!
3. Chose your species cuz...
I have always liked: lions, bats, and magic... so first, anthro bat-winged-lion-thing, and then his evil shadow.
4. why/how did you choose your name?
see 3.
5. if you had to change your species what would you choose?
I guess, honestly if I couldn't pick a mixed one like the bat-winged-lion, than I'd go with a flying fox (Pteropus vampyrus).
6. What percentage of your friends are furries?
seeing as I have almost no friends left from when I was young aside from the furry ones... like most likely 99%.
7. If you've been, favorite furry con and why?
any, I love to actually get to go to one, in my life time.
8. Got a fursuit?
naw, again an honestly... I'd rather the body mods over a suit. I know. I > freak!
9. RP'ing is:
way, not as much as I used too. now writing it... and I get to, hump, rut, and yiff my own characters together all most any time.
10. Are you open about being a furry, I.E if it comes up in conversation
I'll say that I am, though it gets mixed results.
11. Gay / Straight / bi?
I was on that bi now gay later program, and it's well passed later now!
12. Ever kissed another furry?
and I liked it!
13. Do you have adult art of your fursona? If yes, post favorite
Yes,
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20715357/ < tame, still my all time Fav!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22472422/ < NSFW, newest piece, again Thanks, RubberKitten!
14.Ever hooked up with another fur?
Yes.
15. Opinion on murrsuits?
They're hot, though please remember to clean and dress them for public events.
16. Do you have a kink related to the fandom? If yes, post the one your most open about, if you dare ;)
Gay size DIFFERENCE.
17. Are you in any 18+ Telegram groups? Name one.
sorry, nope.
I love this town. this one is already rented try the next
Posted 9 years agoI just had two people that just rented the next apartment, just try to let themselves into my apartment, and most likely nearly break their key off in my door, while banging on it.
before I had to yell out that "this one is already rented try the next one!"
best of all is that I know that the doors are marked with 3-inch tall brass numbers!
I ask again are the people down here just that: inattentive, or dumb, or uneducated, or inbred?
before I had to yell out that "this one is already rented try the next one!"
best of all is that I know that the doors are marked with 3-inch tall brass numbers!
I ask again are the people down here just that: inattentive, or dumb, or uneducated, or inbred?
dying to live, simple and easily again, living only to die.
Posted 9 years agoI want to live, but not like this.
I can't give up, but I am just so mentally exhausted from it all.
I can see so many ways out,
I can see how so much of this could be solved,
I know what I'd like to have for my sons and for myself,
though how can I get there, without having to suffer the waiting for the powers that be to finally set us free of here, and of her!
moreover, that is if they even will finally do that.
and yet it is sad to think that what will any of this or all of this matter, 30 years from now, 60 years from now, 120 years from now?
will any of this change anything for anyone aside from my sons and their future kids someday, that is if they even someday have any kids of their own.
I know not, nor do I really care, as right now, all that I beg for from reality is some peace from this situation!
I can't give up, but I am just so mentally exhausted from it all.
I can see so many ways out,
I can see how so much of this could be solved,
I know what I'd like to have for my sons and for myself,
though how can I get there, without having to suffer the waiting for the powers that be to finally set us free of here, and of her!
moreover, that is if they even will finally do that.
and yet it is sad to think that what will any of this or all of this matter, 30 years from now, 60 years from now, 120 years from now?
will any of this change anything for anyone aside from my sons and their future kids someday, that is if they even someday have any kids of their own.
I know not, nor do I really care, as right now, all that I beg for from reality is some peace from this situation!
aching to be heard, screaming inside.
Posted 9 years agoas this last legal matter drags on, and I am unable to post anything to FaceBook for the fear that my ex would see it and try to get me locked back up... I find myself aching to post everything and anything, just to let people know that I am out, I am alive, that I still think.
being without the means to post was bad, now though being able to post and yet knowing that I can't do so yet, is so much harder!
I want to post, I want to stand out in the dark of the night and scream from the top of my lungs; "I AM STILL HERE! AND YOUR DAY IN COURT IS STILL COMING! YOUR LAST DISPARATE ACT DIDN'T GET RID OF ME!"
But, I can't, I can't do anything until that day comes, on it's own slow timeframe.
being without the means to post was bad, now though being able to post and yet knowing that I can't do so yet, is so much harder!
I want to post, I want to stand out in the dark of the night and scream from the top of my lungs; "I AM STILL HERE! AND YOUR DAY IN COURT IS STILL COMING! YOUR LAST DISPARATE ACT DIDN'T GET RID OF ME!"
But, I can't, I can't do anything until that day comes, on it's own slow timeframe.
shortly after 2 am, I'll be 36.
Posted 9 years agoyeah, I gonna eat another piece of cake now.
how I miss having birthdays nearer to my friends and family.
how I miss having birthdays nearer to my friends and family.
cold boiled peanuts... is something wrong with me?
Posted 9 years agocold boiled peanuts, sardines, and beer... have been cravings of mine for months now.
and when I also admit that I want to put sourkrout and hot peppers with the boiled peanuts and/or sardines, then I am really left to ask is there something wrong with me?
and when I also admit that I want to put sourkrout and hot peppers with the boiled peanuts and/or sardines, then I am really left to ask is there something wrong with me?
a sinner saved by grace and faith... yet I am still here.
Posted 9 years agothey say that "saved is sealed."
(NIV)
Ephesians 1:13,
And you also were included in Christ when you heard the message of truth, the gospel of your salvation. When you believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit,
Galatians 3:14
He redeemed us so that the blessing promised to Abraham would come to the Gentiles in Christ Jesus, so that by faith we might receive the promise of the Spirit.
James 1:21
Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and every expression of evil, and humbly receive the word planted in you, which can save your souls.
as like Peter, I find that I still.
Romans 7:19,
For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do--this I keep on doing.
how much of myself has to be lost, to be that which I am meant to be in Christ?
how can I be a light unto those whom are like I was, if I leave where I know that they are?
is it only my flesh that still likes the darkest depths of these places, or do I really lose myself from my sight of Christ when I look into these depths and share in their labors?
what good can I be to the kingdom of God, from in the gutters?
again maybe like Peter, I am left asking... is this my thorn in the flesh?
I feel driven to write, and yet I weep over what comes out. when I write.
I feel driven to look, and yet I drool and then mourn over what I am drawn to look at.
I feel driven to stay in touch with everyone that I fear is lost in these darkened places, and yet I fear that doing so will hold me in the dark too, and I like it, though I know that I shouldn't.
can salt and light function as they are meant to, even in mud?
(NIV) Matthew 5:13-16
Salt and Light
13 “You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled underfoot.
14 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden.
15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house.
16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.
I fear that it can not, and yet where would I go from here... my family in Christ would be sickened to know and here of the things that I still do and write about...
does this mean anything to anyone, aside from God, even if I am to be the salt trampled into the road, and/or a lamp under a bowl, at least I may show the path to some others from here, no?
or as King Solomon said; it is all for not!
and if my troubled mind is for nothing, then why should I think about it, even if I am wrong, someday it will still glorify God to judge me and my works, thoughts, and actions... so I'll stay, I'll be has He made and then remade me for as long as He lets me to do so.
(NIV)
Ephesians 1:13,
And you also were included in Christ when you heard the message of truth, the gospel of your salvation. When you believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit,
Galatians 3:14
He redeemed us so that the blessing promised to Abraham would come to the Gentiles in Christ Jesus, so that by faith we might receive the promise of the Spirit.
James 1:21
Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and every expression of evil, and humbly receive the word planted in you, which can save your souls.
as like Peter, I find that I still.
Romans 7:19,
For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do--this I keep on doing.
how much of myself has to be lost, to be that which I am meant to be in Christ?
how can I be a light unto those whom are like I was, if I leave where I know that they are?
is it only my flesh that still likes the darkest depths of these places, or do I really lose myself from my sight of Christ when I look into these depths and share in their labors?
what good can I be to the kingdom of God, from in the gutters?
again maybe like Peter, I am left asking... is this my thorn in the flesh?
I feel driven to write, and yet I weep over what comes out. when I write.
I feel driven to look, and yet I drool and then mourn over what I am drawn to look at.
I feel driven to stay in touch with everyone that I fear is lost in these darkened places, and yet I fear that doing so will hold me in the dark too, and I like it, though I know that I shouldn't.
can salt and light function as they are meant to, even in mud?
(NIV) Matthew 5:13-16
Salt and Light
13 “You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled underfoot.
14 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden.
15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house.
16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.
I fear that it can not, and yet where would I go from here... my family in Christ would be sickened to know and here of the things that I still do and write about...
does this mean anything to anyone, aside from God, even if I am to be the salt trampled into the road, and/or a lamp under a bowl, at least I may show the path to some others from here, no?
or as King Solomon said; it is all for not!
and if my troubled mind is for nothing, then why should I think about it, even if I am wrong, someday it will still glorify God to judge me and my works, thoughts, and actions... so I'll stay, I'll be has He made and then remade me for as long as He lets me to do so.
better do this here. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
Posted 9 years agoI can't yell here at the hotel, let alone rant and break things.... though that is what I'd really like to do, so forgive me, that I am going to do much of it here in text!
...
Shadow, oh shadow stop hiding, and come out and play... don't you want to play a game with me?
games aren't what's on your mind, I can feel it.
come on, it's not like I can actually damage you...
I don't care, I don't want that much... "attention" to once.
you know that you can't hide from me, you're only making it drawn out... and going to give me more time to think of just what things to do to you, when you finally come out... or I get sick of looking and just pull on our link.
I know that it seems out of character, though please just for this once wait until you calm down some, ok?
oh, no... you always have your own out lets, and right now, you're mine. *starts pulling against the links, and can feel the force with which they're drawn tight.*
...
please, please, just wait. *tries to stay out of sight and out of reach within the nearest wall, dispite the lack of distance left for the shortened link between him and his host.
No, I need something that is safe to abuse, and you're it, just as I have always been yours for the same thing! *jurks the last of the link... *
Eeek! *claws at the physical hiding place that seemed to be within said wall, as he is pulled from it.
There we go, *Wills the room's, floor, walls, and ceiling to be covered over in crackling layers of icy frosty energy.* now lets get started. *grabs up the nearest metal object, which happenes to be a decorative figurine statuette humanoid doorstop... and then starts to heat it up with layers of free burning flames dancing over the lower half and base.* you normily beg for this stuff, and attention... in general.
*draws back against the nearest frosted over wall, even though it crackles against his fur like shadowy side, then roars out.* That is only because that is because you're always trying so hard to deny me, and who you really are!
Or so, you like to say! But I have changed, I don't need my past, I barely even need you anymore! *waves the now red hot iron figurine underneath the shadowy lion's muzzle.* You are the worst of me! and I hate everything that you embody!
I am the best of you, your power, your pleasure, your wants! you can't deny me! *starts to grow, trying to over shadow his host's size and become big enough that the little point of flames the living lion is brandishing wouldn't do much to harm himself.*
You sicken me! *jabs the growing shadow beast right in his man bits with the burning base of the statuette, before he can get any bigger... then watches him fall over in pain, readying to fell another blow against his exposed side.* You're no power of mine, you are my weaknesses, my lusts, my down falls! *starts to land scorching blows against the Shadow's fur like side.*
I am you! like it, or not! *the shadowy beast huffs, and then laughs, dispite the burning hits that he's receiving.* Feel my pain, your former pleasure!
Aaa, Damn you! *the littler lion man yowls as he recoils much as if he was hit with something hot to his own side, dropping the iron doorstop from his paw, and watching it fall to hiss as it cools slowly melting a spot into the ice that had formed over the floor of the room.* You think that, that will stop me tonight?
Most likely not totally, though did it make you think, or clear your head any? maybe remind you where you came from, where I came from? what we are to each other? *the Shadow said as his voice when from one of rage to something softer, sweeter, and he ran one of his paws down his own belly and then groaped himself as he stood back up.*
Stop that! don't share that too with me right now! I don't wish to feel it with you or from you tonight! *The lion hissed, and then pulled all of the ice loose from the walls with his will alone, and launched it at the demon, that he shared this hell that he called his life with.* ouch! Fuck, that's cold!
Then stop, just stop hurting yourself, you know that you can't win, that you can't best me... just as I said, I am your best! *the Shadow said now grinning, with each step that he took toward his host, still touching himself as he did so.
I said no! *the smaller man cried out, even as he pulled up a free standing wall of flames between himself and his shadowy demonic past self, and then he ran claws down his own chest and belly feeling the almost burning cold of the ice that he was now willing onto them, chilling both his claws and his skin under his tan fur.* since you're sharing, I know that you can feel this too! suffer with me! don't just feed off my pain! You leach!
Ha ha, did you forget so easily, that your pain has always been my pleasure? *The Shadow laughed, even as he jumped through the flames, barely grunting or being phased by them any, and then caught his host, even as the lion screamed and fell backward as if he'd been shocked to have been put through the flames himself.
let me go, leave me alone, let me die in peace. *the lion panted, even as he weakly tried to push himself free from the shadow's arms.*
Simply, no, I can't do that, you know that. *The Shadow sighed, as he let the lion's pain and ackes from this disagreement pour through their contact into himself and be absorbed as both pleasure and power rather than damage to either of them.* shhh, stop fighting, I balance you, and give you what you need, even when you think that you don't. *the shadow purred as he, touched them both on their most sensitive parts.
oh, damn it, I am done fighting it, whatever.
Good, now lets go play, nicely with our little gifts on each other. *The Shadow purred, as he stood up, holding his host against his chest as he headed to the lion's bedroom.
---
well, yet another, maybe darker, encounter between my sona and my... whatevery Shadow is to me, and to Leo.
I hope that those that follow me, liked this little read too.
...
Shadow, oh shadow stop hiding, and come out and play... don't you want to play a game with me?
games aren't what's on your mind, I can feel it.
come on, it's not like I can actually damage you...
I don't care, I don't want that much... "attention" to once.
you know that you can't hide from me, you're only making it drawn out... and going to give me more time to think of just what things to do to you, when you finally come out... or I get sick of looking and just pull on our link.
I know that it seems out of character, though please just for this once wait until you calm down some, ok?
oh, no... you always have your own out lets, and right now, you're mine. *starts pulling against the links, and can feel the force with which they're drawn tight.*
...
please, please, just wait. *tries to stay out of sight and out of reach within the nearest wall, dispite the lack of distance left for the shortened link between him and his host.
No, I need something that is safe to abuse, and you're it, just as I have always been yours for the same thing! *jurks the last of the link... *
Eeek! *claws at the physical hiding place that seemed to be within said wall, as he is pulled from it.
There we go, *Wills the room's, floor, walls, and ceiling to be covered over in crackling layers of icy frosty energy.* now lets get started. *grabs up the nearest metal object, which happenes to be a decorative figurine statuette humanoid doorstop... and then starts to heat it up with layers of free burning flames dancing over the lower half and base.* you normily beg for this stuff, and attention... in general.
*draws back against the nearest frosted over wall, even though it crackles against his fur like shadowy side, then roars out.* That is only because that is because you're always trying so hard to deny me, and who you really are!
Or so, you like to say! But I have changed, I don't need my past, I barely even need you anymore! *waves the now red hot iron figurine underneath the shadowy lion's muzzle.* You are the worst of me! and I hate everything that you embody!
I am the best of you, your power, your pleasure, your wants! you can't deny me! *starts to grow, trying to over shadow his host's size and become big enough that the little point of flames the living lion is brandishing wouldn't do much to harm himself.*
You sicken me! *jabs the growing shadow beast right in his man bits with the burning base of the statuette, before he can get any bigger... then watches him fall over in pain, readying to fell another blow against his exposed side.* You're no power of mine, you are my weaknesses, my lusts, my down falls! *starts to land scorching blows against the Shadow's fur like side.*
I am you! like it, or not! *the shadowy beast huffs, and then laughs, dispite the burning hits that he's receiving.* Feel my pain, your former pleasure!
Aaa, Damn you! *the littler lion man yowls as he recoils much as if he was hit with something hot to his own side, dropping the iron doorstop from his paw, and watching it fall to hiss as it cools slowly melting a spot into the ice that had formed over the floor of the room.* You think that, that will stop me tonight?
Most likely not totally, though did it make you think, or clear your head any? maybe remind you where you came from, where I came from? what we are to each other? *the Shadow said as his voice when from one of rage to something softer, sweeter, and he ran one of his paws down his own belly and then groaped himself as he stood back up.*
Stop that! don't share that too with me right now! I don't wish to feel it with you or from you tonight! *The lion hissed, and then pulled all of the ice loose from the walls with his will alone, and launched it at the demon, that he shared this hell that he called his life with.* ouch! Fuck, that's cold!
Then stop, just stop hurting yourself, you know that you can't win, that you can't best me... just as I said, I am your best! *the Shadow said now grinning, with each step that he took toward his host, still touching himself as he did so.
I said no! *the smaller man cried out, even as he pulled up a free standing wall of flames between himself and his shadowy demonic past self, and then he ran claws down his own chest and belly feeling the almost burning cold of the ice that he was now willing onto them, chilling both his claws and his skin under his tan fur.* since you're sharing, I know that you can feel this too! suffer with me! don't just feed off my pain! You leach!
Ha ha, did you forget so easily, that your pain has always been my pleasure? *The Shadow laughed, even as he jumped through the flames, barely grunting or being phased by them any, and then caught his host, even as the lion screamed and fell backward as if he'd been shocked to have been put through the flames himself.
let me go, leave me alone, let me die in peace. *the lion panted, even as he weakly tried to push himself free from the shadow's arms.*
Simply, no, I can't do that, you know that. *The Shadow sighed, as he let the lion's pain and ackes from this disagreement pour through their contact into himself and be absorbed as both pleasure and power rather than damage to either of them.* shhh, stop fighting, I balance you, and give you what you need, even when you think that you don't. *the shadow purred as he, touched them both on their most sensitive parts.
oh, damn it, I am done fighting it, whatever.
Good, now lets go play, nicely with our little gifts on each other. *The Shadow purred, as he stood up, holding his host against his chest as he headed to the lion's bedroom.
---
well, yet another, maybe darker, encounter between my sona and my... whatevery Shadow is to me, and to Leo.
I hope that those that follow me, liked this little read too.
holidays in jail, on a false charge. life up date.
Posted 9 years agowell, as I just typed, I spent all of the holidays in the local jail, from Nov. 19 to Jan, 11... ~ 52 to 54 days depending on how one counts it out. thus missing all of the holidays, thanks to my ex-wife making a false charge against me.
though aside from: the missed out festivities, the bad housing conditions, and the awful and redundant food day after day... I am out, ok, and unharmed.
I also learned:
how to trim my mustache with a comb and a basic razor, even how to cut my nails with the same basic razor.
how to wash my long hair with a tiny block of cheap soap, and that it does little to get the coral coloured lint out of one's hair.
how to tie my orange and/or pink clothes together, so that I could get them all back from the jail's laundry.
how to sleep on a thin mat in a room that is either too cold or too hot.
and lastly that one's tooth-paste is also one's: glue, first aid cream, and cleaning additive.
Thank God that it is over!
the next and hopefully last hearing about this matter will be on Feb 14th, I'll have more about this after that.
and hopefully, I'll find out when the next family court hearing will be after that.
though aside from: the missed out festivities, the bad housing conditions, and the awful and redundant food day after day... I am out, ok, and unharmed.
I also learned:
how to trim my mustache with a comb and a basic razor, even how to cut my nails with the same basic razor.
how to wash my long hair with a tiny block of cheap soap, and that it does little to get the coral coloured lint out of one's hair.
how to tie my orange and/or pink clothes together, so that I could get them all back from the jail's laundry.
how to sleep on a thin mat in a room that is either too cold or too hot.
and lastly that one's tooth-paste is also one's: glue, first aid cream, and cleaning additive.
Thank God that it is over!
the next and hopefully last hearing about this matter will be on Feb 14th, I'll have more about this after that.
and hopefully, I'll find out when the next family court hearing will be after that.
Stupidity, protest. (and a Short Lesson on flag care + rant)
Posted 9 years agoTo counter much of the stupidity(and rage.) that I see and hear toward protesters that burn any Flag. For these 2 Points! (Lesson on flag care.)
1, Any flag, should Never be: buried; lowered into any grave or allowed to touch the ground, nor should it ever be allowed: to hang while damaged, tied-up, or bound-up as in it's condition, nor be remade into clothing, or thrown out in or with trash, nor should it be: used as decoration...
These are all in accordance with Basic Flag Etiquette!
2, According to America's Own Flag Etiquette: the Only Respectful way to dispose of a: damaged, aged, or otherwise discontinued to be used American Flag...
Is To Burn It!
- (rant) ->
So... when I see so many of you people that would claim to be so out raged by hearing about: some protester burning Any Flag... But doing so many of these things so much of the time, and failing to understand that you shouldn't ever throw-out Any Flag in your trash, nor let one hang until it falls apart!
I think unto myself, I find it sickening that you are so quick to complain about your misunderstanding of what disrespecting Any Flag actually is... as even in Protest, these people are showing those Flags more respect and thought, than most of you the self labeled out raged citizens of any nation do, while you sleep-walk through your other-wise clueless daily lives!
Wake-up, shut your noise holes, and do something more useful than groan and/or mutter about it!
like take a bit of responsibility for how you, yourself treat and more likely mistreat the Flag of your own nation, in thought or in act!
I mean that if you don't own and properly care for a Flag of your own nation yourself, than you have very little patriotic standing to complain about someone else showing any Flag more thought and respect even in an act of protest, than you do on a daily basis.
Lastly if you are truly up set about how your national flag is being openly mistreated, get out there and talk about how the flag should be taken care of, and talk about how your nation should be taken care of... get active about trying to fix, the whys that your nation is being protested!
Don't just simply add to the noise, speak intelligence and direction toward a goal of: peace and knowledge!
1, Any flag, should Never be: buried; lowered into any grave or allowed to touch the ground, nor should it ever be allowed: to hang while damaged, tied-up, or bound-up as in it's condition, nor be remade into clothing, or thrown out in or with trash, nor should it be: used as decoration...
These are all in accordance with Basic Flag Etiquette!
2, According to America's Own Flag Etiquette: the Only Respectful way to dispose of a: damaged, aged, or otherwise discontinued to be used American Flag...
Is To Burn It!
- (rant) ->
So... when I see so many of you people that would claim to be so out raged by hearing about: some protester burning Any Flag... But doing so many of these things so much of the time, and failing to understand that you shouldn't ever throw-out Any Flag in your trash, nor let one hang until it falls apart!
I think unto myself, I find it sickening that you are so quick to complain about your misunderstanding of what disrespecting Any Flag actually is... as even in Protest, these people are showing those Flags more respect and thought, than most of you the self labeled out raged citizens of any nation do, while you sleep-walk through your other-wise clueless daily lives!
Wake-up, shut your noise holes, and do something more useful than groan and/or mutter about it!
like take a bit of responsibility for how you, yourself treat and more likely mistreat the Flag of your own nation, in thought or in act!
I mean that if you don't own and properly care for a Flag of your own nation yourself, than you have very little patriotic standing to complain about someone else showing any Flag more thought and respect even in an act of protest, than you do on a daily basis.
Lastly if you are truly up set about how your national flag is being openly mistreated, get out there and talk about how the flag should be taken care of, and talk about how your nation should be taken care of... get active about trying to fix, the whys that your nation is being protested!
Don't just simply add to the noise, speak intelligence and direction toward a goal of: peace and knowledge!
people have layers...
Posted 9 years agowe have layers to protect ourselves and to protect those that we care about...
though when we care about someone, or want to get closer to that someone...
we want to work through many of those layers...
though be careful...
with each layer that is gotten past the closer you may get...
but also being able to drive away or trouble each other, with the wrong words, or even just at the wrong time.
-- --
to my someone, I am sorry that I tried to pry a layer back opened, that you might feel needs to stay closed to keep me safe.
I am sorry that I want to look into that depth of you, though I trust you not to let me fall in to fast.
t I need to share most of those depths with someone, I'd more then like that someone to be you.
in words we can explore most of these depths safely... though maybe just not as fast as that once before.
- - http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1407121/
at some point we get to do stuff.
at some point or another.
you let me be the something that you focus on.
you let me feel enough.
you hold me and it means so much.
you let me know that I'm enough.
at some point or another.
though when I miss those points in the times in between.
then you wonder why I have to try so not to cling.
I only want to spend time with you, when we both are free.
at some point or another.
I only want to focus on you.
and share with you all I can.
I don't mean to make demands, when my hands are free.
at some point we get to do stuff.
at some point or another.
you let me be the something that you focus on.
you let me feel enough.
you let me hold you and it means so much.
you let me know that I'm enough.
at some point or another.
I don't mean to make demands, when your hands aren't free.
I know that it is hard at times, to live with another's needs.
be they heard, or only seen.
though when they go unsaid.
it is for the reason, that I most dread.
the thought of losing you.
though when we care about someone, or want to get closer to that someone...
we want to work through many of those layers...
though be careful...
with each layer that is gotten past the closer you may get...
but also being able to drive away or trouble each other, with the wrong words, or even just at the wrong time.
-- --
to my someone, I am sorry that I tried to pry a layer back opened, that you might feel needs to stay closed to keep me safe.
I am sorry that I want to look into that depth of you, though I trust you not to let me fall in to fast.
t I need to share most of those depths with someone, I'd more then like that someone to be you.
in words we can explore most of these depths safely... though maybe just not as fast as that once before.
- - http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1407121/
at some point we get to do stuff.
at some point or another.
you let me be the something that you focus on.
you let me feel enough.
you hold me and it means so much.
you let me know that I'm enough.
at some point or another.
though when I miss those points in the times in between.
then you wonder why I have to try so not to cling.
I only want to spend time with you, when we both are free.
at some point or another.
I only want to focus on you.
and share with you all I can.
I don't mean to make demands, when my hands are free.
at some point we get to do stuff.
at some point or another.
you let me be the something that you focus on.
you let me feel enough.
you let me hold you and it means so much.
you let me know that I'm enough.
at some point or another.
I don't mean to make demands, when your hands aren't free.
I know that it is hard at times, to live with another's needs.
be they heard, or only seen.
though when they go unsaid.
it is for the reason, that I most dread.
the thought of losing you.
I just realized something... (about enemies and friends.)
Posted 9 years agoI am just done, trying to say that I am sorry, or pleasing, or begging... any artist, fellow watcher, or art whore, that I have wronged before, and now that you don't want me watching or liking or knowing that your out there, that's fine.
as I'll say it, I meant what I once said, or even tried to say, about whatever it was that pissed you off.
I still dislike: hell I am not going to list them all why would I do that, either you know something that I dislike or like and already dislike me for it, or you don't in which case why would I want to give you a reason to.
that said, I am glad for everyone that has gotten to know me on here, and to the rest, if you don't like me that is now officially fine with me. if you want to feel free to block me or talk shit behind my back, I no longer care.
I am me, and I hope that one day you'll be just as comfortable to just be you, though until then I don't want to know it or hear it.
thank you, and good bye.
or say hello my friends that don't care that I might not like something that you like, or even that know that I like something that you don't, as that doesn't make us enemies, it's being able to like each other as the people that we are.
That makes us friends!
as I'll say it, I meant what I once said, or even tried to say, about whatever it was that pissed you off.
I still dislike: hell I am not going to list them all why would I do that, either you know something that I dislike or like and already dislike me for it, or you don't in which case why would I want to give you a reason to.
that said, I am glad for everyone that has gotten to know me on here, and to the rest, if you don't like me that is now officially fine with me. if you want to feel free to block me or talk shit behind my back, I no longer care.
I am me, and I hope that one day you'll be just as comfortable to just be you, though until then I don't want to know it or hear it.
thank you, and good bye.
or say hello my friends that don't care that I might not like something that you like, or even that know that I like something that you don't, as that doesn't make us enemies, it's being able to like each other as the people that we are.
That makes us friends!
old worlds, and a wish to be rid of them, or in my case of
Posted 9 years agooh, right like you could stay sane without me around!
given my flesh and blood, man that I have to talk to, yes, I think that I could.
you'd be so empty without me, while you await the day that you can actually touch him... and for the time being, I can take you any-time of the day or night, and in every-way that you can think of, just submit to what you really are.
bottoming is not always a sign of weakness! um, on that admission, and given the time here, I think that we should be taking our leave.
in other words he's ready to take a nap on my- ouch! that is not a handle!
though it does work well enough as one, for dealing with you. g'night guys.
given my flesh and blood, man that I have to talk to, yes, I think that I could.
you'd be so empty without me, while you await the day that you can actually touch him... and for the time being, I can take you any-time of the day or night, and in every-way that you can think of, just submit to what you really are.
bottoming is not always a sign of weakness! um, on that admission, and given the time here, I think that we should be taking our leave.
in other words he's ready to take a nap on my- ouch! that is not a handle!
though it does work well enough as one, for dealing with you. g'night guys.
when I say that I wish someone might try to look at or think
Posted 9 years agowhen I say that I wish someone might try to look at or think about what they have chosen to do, and suggest that they might: adjust, or even change what they are doing... it is not meant from a place of judgement or hypocritical criticism... it is meant in love and caring, for my friends and fellow human beings. in that I love you, and I don't wish to see you suffering from those choices' outcomes... as yes, I did make many of those choices' before, and yes I am still a sinner, even while I hope that I have been saved by grace.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cwMFX7hUefc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cwMFX7hUefc
why anyone would want to starve or eat them-self to death?
Posted 9 years agoI don't understand why anyone would want to starve or eat them-self to death....
now don't get me wrong, I am not attacking anyone... and surely not anyone who has trouble losing or gaining weight to be closer to a healthy average weight for their height.
though it just doesn't make any sense, to choose to want to go to one extreme or the other just to ultimately die there, as one's goal in their life.
now don't get me wrong, I am not attacking anyone... and surely not anyone who has trouble losing or gaining weight to be closer to a healthy average weight for their height.
though it just doesn't make any sense, to choose to want to go to one extreme or the other just to ultimately die there, as one's goal in their life.
back from the e-dead, would be easier if I had really died
Posted 9 years agogot a new over priced laptop... so I am able to get back on here.
still dealing with lies from my ex-wife, and still dealing with court... not sure how I am going to get through this.
still dealing with lies from my ex-wife, and still dealing with court... not sure how I am going to get through this.
