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charity raffle
General | Posted 8 years agonot mine or such and since i cant afford to enter/help im going to spread the news a little bit.
peek here. everyone who enters gets a little prize for entering too
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8317311/
peek here. everyone who enters gets a little prize for entering too
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8317311/
thursday
General | Posted 9 years agoI know i dont have many followers or anything but i got a big test thursday that if i pass it i have a full time job with 90 days until benifits kick in so i am studying non stop and am nervous so maybe say a prayer or send good vibes or whatever you believe in.
story time
General | Posted 11 years agoWell I have time coming up where I will be able to do a lot of writing. With the next chapter of my story wrote I thought i would offer you to have me write stories for you. Sort of on a comission basis though. The thing is I have no clue how much they would be worth so I would want you to pay what you think they would be worth. I would just ask that it be at least a dollar. I got some bills I want to catch up on. A friend recently helped me out some which was a big help.
Anyway if you are interested send me a message don't post here asking me to write you one. thank you all for reading this. Even if you don't ask for a story.
Anyway if you are interested send me a message don't post here asking me to write you one. thank you all for reading this. Even if you don't ask for a story.
christmas wish
General | Posted 11 years agoXmas Meme
STEP ONE
# Make a post to your journal. The post should contain your list of ten holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a christmas icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV"). The important thing is to make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.
# If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) can get in touch with you. Your home address is not required!
# Make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your journal, or link to this post (it'll be public) so that the holiday joy will spread.
STEP TWO
# Surf around your friends list (or friendsfriends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now, here's the important part...
# If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes one person's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use - or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free - do it.
# You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf - to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not - it's your call. There are no guarantees with this project, and no strings attached. Just... wish, and it might come true. Give and you might receive. You'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.
Here's my list.
1. A job
2. To not be behind on bills (having no job hurts financially)
3. A reference pic of Alex
4. to feel like I matter
5. happiness
6. art program for computer
7. gaia cash
8. Blizzard cash
9. 3ds cash
10. to not hate who I am.
STEP ONE
# Make a post to your journal. The post should contain your list of ten holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a christmas icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV"). The important thing is to make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.
# If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) can get in touch with you. Your home address is not required!
# Make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your journal, or link to this post (it'll be public) so that the holiday joy will spread.
STEP TWO
# Surf around your friends list (or friendsfriends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now, here's the important part...
# If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes one person's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use - or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free - do it.
# You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf - to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not - it's your call. There are no guarantees with this project, and no strings attached. Just... wish, and it might come true. Give and you might receive. You'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.
Here's my list.
1. A job
2. To not be behind on bills (having no job hurts financially)
3. A reference pic of Alex
4. to feel like I matter
5. happiness
6. art program for computer
7. gaia cash
8. Blizzard cash
9. 3ds cash
10. to not hate who I am.
Doing an art thingy
General | Posted 12 years agoAlright I am going to try to do some art this weekend. If you want to see me attempt to draw for you post here with a link to a reference. I won't say you have to follow me but it will make it easy to see if i draw for you. Post below and I will number you because most likely I will do random numbers to decide who to draw.
sigh
General | Posted 13 years agoBirthdays are suppose to be at least somewhat enjoyable right? I mean today has been one of the saddest days of this year. not bad just sad if that makes sense. maybe it is me, but still I just no matter who I was with or what I was doing today i just felt sad. Sorry if I am venting a bit but still.
well....
General | Posted 13 years agoalright for those of you who followed me and such because of my raccoon story sorry but i deleted them from here. that is going to stick on ink bunny.
sigh
General | Posted 13 years agowell it was up for over a year and today i got a message saying my character looked to underage for what they allow of fa so yeah....... put the clean picture in the one and just gonna do a random thing for part two and see what we can do.
personality meme
General | Posted 14 years agoFrom: http://www.signalpatterns.com/psych_central/
some interesting results.
Passionate
You are in touch with your emotions, and sometimes you react before you think. The good news: you don't tamp down your feelings. The bad news: you sometimes say or do things that you later wish you could take back.
You do not live your life on an even keel; you do not go for long periods without experiencing some mood swings.
Pessimistic
You tend to be a "glass half-empty" kind of person, which for you is simply a realistic outlook. Your feeling is that this world can be a depressing place, and only a fool would think otherwise.
You do not waste your time searching for the silver lining in every cloud, nor do you believe it's your job to cheer up the people around you with happy talk.
Original
You are constantly coming up with new ideas. For you, the world as it exists is just a jumping-off place; what's going on inside your mind is often more interesting than what's going on outside.
You don't feel that the road to success is to be a realist and stick to the program; you never stop yourself from coming up with new ideas or telling the world what you're thinking about.
Laid Back
You prefer to do your own thing, in your own way, rather than attempt to force your will, or your ego, on a group. You're happy working on your own, taking your sweet time, and focusing on the job at hand.
You're not pushy. You're not interested in imposing your will on others, taking charge of every situation, being the first to raise your hand in class, or insisting on being the winner of every argument.
Self-Contained
You like to stick to your own business and leave the power struggles to others; you know who you are and what you believe in, but you don't see any reason to impose your values on everyone else.
You generally don't get involved in organizing or motivating people, and you don't feel the need to always be seen as a big public decision-maker.
Upbeat
You enjoy being around others and others enjoy being around you. You have a "live and let live" attitude; because you know that no one's perfect, you are forgiving and happy to give the benefit of the doubt.
You don't feel the need to be controversial or express contrary opinions all the time. You see no reason to go around rubbing people the wrong way.
Reserved
You are somewhat shy, or at least unwilling to spend all your time socializing. With you it's true that "still waters run deep," which is why many of your acquaintances never get to know you well.
You are not always ready to talk at the drop of a hat. Whether you're in the office or at a party, you're not likely to be found gabbing away in the middle of a group of people.
Warm
You have a genuine interest in other people. You're a natural host, and are always thinking about how you can increase the happiness of those around you. When friends have problems or are in trouble, you're usually the first person they turn to for aid and comfort. Scoring high on the "warm" trait suggests that you are among those who enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.
You don't always say exactly what you're thinking; you don't like the idea of causing anyone pain because of your criticism.
Understanding
You are willing to take the time to find out what's going on with other people, especially if they're in distress. You're a good listener, you don't criticize, and you offer unbiased, respectful, honest advice when it's requested. With a high score on the "understanding" trait, it is likely that you are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.
You don't feel the need to impose your standards on others or say things that, even though true, cause pain.
Scrupulous
You are an honest, fair person. You don't lie or cheat to get ahead. You treat others with respect and hope for the same in return.
You do not feel that you are above the rules that everyone else follows; you are definitely not willing to do whatever it takes to get ahead.
some interesting results.
Passionate
You are in touch with your emotions, and sometimes you react before you think. The good news: you don't tamp down your feelings. The bad news: you sometimes say or do things that you later wish you could take back.
You do not live your life on an even keel; you do not go for long periods without experiencing some mood swings.
Pessimistic
You tend to be a "glass half-empty" kind of person, which for you is simply a realistic outlook. Your feeling is that this world can be a depressing place, and only a fool would think otherwise.
You do not waste your time searching for the silver lining in every cloud, nor do you believe it's your job to cheer up the people around you with happy talk.
Original
You are constantly coming up with new ideas. For you, the world as it exists is just a jumping-off place; what's going on inside your mind is often more interesting than what's going on outside.
You don't feel that the road to success is to be a realist and stick to the program; you never stop yourself from coming up with new ideas or telling the world what you're thinking about.
Laid Back
You prefer to do your own thing, in your own way, rather than attempt to force your will, or your ego, on a group. You're happy working on your own, taking your sweet time, and focusing on the job at hand.
You're not pushy. You're not interested in imposing your will on others, taking charge of every situation, being the first to raise your hand in class, or insisting on being the winner of every argument.
Self-Contained
You like to stick to your own business and leave the power struggles to others; you know who you are and what you believe in, but you don't see any reason to impose your values on everyone else.
You generally don't get involved in organizing or motivating people, and you don't feel the need to always be seen as a big public decision-maker.
Upbeat
You enjoy being around others and others enjoy being around you. You have a "live and let live" attitude; because you know that no one's perfect, you are forgiving and happy to give the benefit of the doubt.
You don't feel the need to be controversial or express contrary opinions all the time. You see no reason to go around rubbing people the wrong way.
Reserved
You are somewhat shy, or at least unwilling to spend all your time socializing. With you it's true that "still waters run deep," which is why many of your acquaintances never get to know you well.
You are not always ready to talk at the drop of a hat. Whether you're in the office or at a party, you're not likely to be found gabbing away in the middle of a group of people.
Warm
You have a genuine interest in other people. You're a natural host, and are always thinking about how you can increase the happiness of those around you. When friends have problems or are in trouble, you're usually the first person they turn to for aid and comfort. Scoring high on the "warm" trait suggests that you are among those who enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.
You don't always say exactly what you're thinking; you don't like the idea of causing anyone pain because of your criticism.
Understanding
You are willing to take the time to find out what's going on with other people, especially if they're in distress. You're a good listener, you don't criticize, and you offer unbiased, respectful, honest advice when it's requested. With a high score on the "understanding" trait, it is likely that you are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.
You don't feel the need to impose your standards on others or say things that, even though true, cause pain.
Scrupulous
You are an honest, fair person. You don't lie or cheat to get ahead. You treat others with respect and hope for the same in return.
You do not feel that you are above the rules that everyone else follows; you are definitely not willing to do whatever it takes to get ahead.
one year aniversary
General | Posted 14 years agoWell this is kind of a hard topic so if you are prone to depression or something like that you may want to stop reading right now.
One year ago to the day I had a plan. I had the time it would happen and how it would happen. I had planned out how I was going to kill myself.
I had the pills on my desk ready to be ate and the things i was going to do before I did it. My parents were going to be out of the house for at least a few hours so it was the perfect time. I left a few messages in places and said good bye to my friends in what I thought was a way they wouldn't realize what it meant right away.
I spent the next bit of time preparing things to cause as little difficulty as possible. putting things of importance where it could be easily found and doing the chores that i was assigned for while my parents were gone.
Then about half an hour before the time i decided a friend called me. I answered and hung up right away. she called me back a few times and i did the same thing again each time. I sent a couple of texts to her because i knew she figured it out. eventually i called her back just a few minutes before she was going to call the police.
after some talking she managed to get my parents cell phone number out of me and called them telling them what was happening. It still took a while for my family to get home and my friend stayed with me on the phone until they got back almost two hours later.
I ended up in the hospital and later a specialist type place on how to deal with the situation. In the end i ended up in an outpatient psych ward type place. I spent about two weeks going there during the day.
As it stands now I am not cured. I am doing better but it is a struggle. I have dark thoughts and feelings that I can not hide from myself. I struggle not to do things with a blade or snap at people who are trying to help.
I don't really know why i am writing this since most of you probably wont care, but I know it feels kind of good to get this out and i am crying as I write this unable to stop. I don't know completely what parts are making me cry. if it is the fact my friend saved me or the fact i am struggling or the fact I failed.
I just know that sometimes I will scream out to be left alone when what I want most is to be held close.
One year ago to the day I had a plan. I had the time it would happen and how it would happen. I had planned out how I was going to kill myself.
I had the pills on my desk ready to be ate and the things i was going to do before I did it. My parents were going to be out of the house for at least a few hours so it was the perfect time. I left a few messages in places and said good bye to my friends in what I thought was a way they wouldn't realize what it meant right away.
I spent the next bit of time preparing things to cause as little difficulty as possible. putting things of importance where it could be easily found and doing the chores that i was assigned for while my parents were gone.
Then about half an hour before the time i decided a friend called me. I answered and hung up right away. she called me back a few times and i did the same thing again each time. I sent a couple of texts to her because i knew she figured it out. eventually i called her back just a few minutes before she was going to call the police.
after some talking she managed to get my parents cell phone number out of me and called them telling them what was happening. It still took a while for my family to get home and my friend stayed with me on the phone until they got back almost two hours later.
I ended up in the hospital and later a specialist type place on how to deal with the situation. In the end i ended up in an outpatient psych ward type place. I spent about two weeks going there during the day.
As it stands now I am not cured. I am doing better but it is a struggle. I have dark thoughts and feelings that I can not hide from myself. I struggle not to do things with a blade or snap at people who are trying to help.
I don't really know why i am writing this since most of you probably wont care, but I know it feels kind of good to get this out and i am crying as I write this unable to stop. I don't know completely what parts are making me cry. if it is the fact my friend saved me or the fact i am struggling or the fact I failed.
I just know that sometimes I will scream out to be left alone when what I want most is to be held close.
dream
General | Posted 14 years agoWell I had kinda a weird dream last night. I was my raccoon actually on that first day of school like in my story. it was interesting because I saw so many different animal people walking around the school. I even saw a couple of pokemon. It felt so different being hit on in a dream by so many different creatures. I ended up being taken shopping by a blue wolf. (i like the color blue) and got to try on a lot of cloths even though the tail made some of it hard.
In closing I will say a kiss, even on the cheek, feels different from a muzzle then normal lips.
In closing I will say a kiss, even on the cheek, feels different from a muzzle then normal lips.
angry driving
General | Posted 15 years agoWhy is it that when I am on the highway and the speed limit says seventy miles an hour and i am going say seventy three people are still flying past me like i am only going fourty? Seriously how big of a hurry do people have to be in?
stories
General | Posted 15 years agoWell since I can't draw and am only average at coloring I am going to try telling some stories here. I got the location but that is it so far. When things are done and I have my friend look it over for any major flaws I plan to post them.
