Tomorrow we load up our car and begin the long road to a new state which we will call home for a while. We're both excited.

I got some upgrades for my computer recently, through a bizarre series of events that I really wish hadn't happened, but I am going to take advantage of it since it did.

Ok, so first off, we were trying to upgrade Dhaijaris's computer (roommate, former partner) when she bought some new parts but when Cain and I went to install them we forgot to flash the bios so the new processor wasn't recognized. Unfortunately, during the process of swapping processors, the old one got about 80% of the pins bent because the cpu fan was basically glued to the processor and I didn't realize that had happened so I didn't accomodate for it. Thus, the old processor was basically destroyed. Well, since we were the ones that fucked it up, we decided to just replace her computer and bought an entirely new one that was even better than what she was going to have with these updates (thank you Costco for having a cheap gaming rig!). As a result, Dhai gave me and Cain the things that were meant to upgrade her old computer.

Well, Dhai and I used to be together, and when I built mine and Dhai's computers back in 2018... I built them with identical parts. A few things had changed over the years from upgrades and parts dying, but this meant that the parts Dhai got to upgrade her old computer... would fit mine.

So, I flashed my bios and then installed all the new parts. Everything works great, and now my computer is almost as much of a power house as her's is. Cain's power house of a computer, which used to be leagues ahead of both Dhai's and my computers, is now the one slightly lagging behind. It feels funny to have such a new computer now. Not complaining though!

The upgrades were an RTX 3060, 32 GB of ram at a higher speed, and an AMD Ryzen 7 5800 XT processor.

I have set up my consultation for bottom surgery. It's not going to be for a year and a half, but... I'm excited and nervous. For anyone reading this, please vote blue. If I lose access to this because of people not able to see past the end of their own noses how bad the red side is for this country, I'm not going to be ok. No trans person is.

I'm 2.75 years into my transition and I am so happy with myself. I finally feel. I finally love myself. I have always been female, just it took a while in my life to learn this and get to where I am. I have 2 very supportive partners and I'm in a good place in a blue state.

This is important to me. Any trans or lgbt hate comments will be removed and the account blocked without warning.

I have been working (all be it slowly) on making a JRPG called Ralevok Rising. I plan to release it here once its done, but that likely won't be for a good long while. I have quite a few close friends and my mate who are acting as alpha testers, so it should be pretty damn good by the time I'm done.

I have plans for quite a few systems that will be in the game. A real estate element where you can buy houses in cities across the world and turn them into various different things including shops that will sell items you normally won't be able to find as easily. There's also a system of learning skills and magic that are not able to be learned by everyone in the party. Take final fantasy 6's esper system and final fantasy 1's spell buying system but make it to where only certain characters are able to learn certain things. There's also a crafting system that uses rare items and monster drops. Side quests and tracking for them as well.

I've always been a good writer, and the story I have going so far is really good. I'm not just tooting my own horn here, it is genuinely loved by everyone who's tried it. My main inspirations for this game are Dragon Quest 5 and Final Fantasy 4. Expect a game that is very SNES like, as this is the main era I started getting into RPGs.

Its a lot of work, absolutely, but I am genuinely enjoying it and hope everyone here will too once I release it in a few years. It's still in very early alpha at the moment.

I had a good time for the two out of four days that I was able to attend the con. Made a new friend and had the first ever picture of me taken where I see myself as the woman that I am fully. That I can't see any hint of the ugly male that I was born as and it feels amazing. I have always been a woman and now the entire world can see that too. I have also started talking to a couple of semi local people on Fetlife. Who knows where that will go. I'll take things as they come. Of course I'm also being very careful with everything.

I am going to be going to Anthro North West in Seattle this upcoming January! If anyone I know is gonna be there feel free to comment here and we can make plans to meet during the event!

I am 95% sure my video card is on its way to dying. I've had a few major crashes in the past few days that... how they happened directly points to my old GTX 760 finally getting close to death. Though its still working ok at the moment and I did dust my computer pretty well I think last night too...

Anyway, I ordered a GTX 1650 because it was the best option I could find that is an upgrade for under $400... honestly that's normally even 50% above my usual video card budget, but due to prices there was absolutely no way I could get anything worthy of gaming for under the usual $300 I've always done for video cards. Stupid chip shortage. The only problem is I am going to have to wait until the end of Feb to get my new video card.

But because of this chip shortage we've entered a time of technological stagnation and even possibly regression that I've never seen in my life time and I don't think has ever happened before. I am lucky enough to own a PS5, but because of things, the PS4 hasn't been circulated out of production yet and new games are still being made for it where as, in every previous console generation, the PS4 would long since be old news by now.

I am strongly considering keeping the tits on my hexalaceri. Even though hexalaceri don't have boobs normally. Anyone have thoughts?

My new icon! Yay!

I had a dream that I was a lycanthrope. I had become infected in 2019 and the dream took place sometime in the 2300s in Europe. Somehow I had gained eternal life with it as well. I had fully learned to control it as well. I was a part of this organization for lycanthropes but to outsiders I claimed to be a man of 61 years of age and retired. We resided in some old castle like mansion and were having some sort of event for people. Extremely fancy dining and such.

Man, if only such things were possible irl.

Just as a heads up, the hexalaceri species has been updated by the species creator and it's amazing! Within the next few months you'll see these changes reflected in new pictures uploaded here of mine as well as one created for my husband. I am so excited about this. Hexalaceri is still my favorite furry species of all time. So glad I can share in this with Rotarr.

I've come up with a name for my hexalaceri fursona!

It is: Xaltassi!

I've been asked a few times for information on the species of my fursona lately. So, here's what is known plus changes I've made from the original species. First thing to note is that all hexalaceri are herms now, so that will be slightly different from the pictures below. (as said in the desc of http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11530593/ )

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10419133/

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10419118/

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10596205/

As for changes: My hexalaceri does have a tongue (but still eats things whole), slit pupils instead of goat like ones, (as a result of having a tongue) can speak normal human language in addition to hexalaceri sounds, stands around 8 feet tall instead of the implied 6.5 to 7 feet tall shown in the picture. Also, since they are (to me) mostly insectoid I have my genital fluids to become very very drippy when aroused. Ejaculation is quite heavy too when orgasm hits.

My hexalaceri is a drun, but still herm as is obvious in the one nsfw (I need to get more) picture I have here of me: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18150763/ .

Hexalaceri is such a beautiful and wonderful species. I am so glad Rotarr let me be one and I can't imagine my fursona being anything else. One day soon I really hope to get one for my husband and then porn of us fucking hard.

Rotarr, you've made an absolutely beautiful species, and I really want you to draw the next porn I get.

Hey, since I've started playing on Arelith I am on discord pretty much all the time now. I'd love to get some more furry friends to talk with there. Find my discord on my user page contacts section. I'll be sure to talk back when I'm free.

I was in some sort of red muscled anthro form with digitigrade legs and claws. It was still very human looking for chest and face, but I had red skin with yellow bordering around the chest and belly muscles which were all well defined. I was wearing nothing but a loincloth walking around in a world of nonhumans in immortals everywhere. It seemed to be a mall of some sort during a bright sunny day. I was walking with 2 others of whom I think were supposed to represent Natasha and Delano from Arelith that I play with rather extensively.

We walked into the mall and started browsing around this junk store. It had some old electronics and piles of stuff on shelves like a thrift store. I took a picture with my phone to prove I had been there and I was greatly enjoying looking around. There was also a massage room where I saw an anthro feline getting a massage while nude.

I had a dream last night where I was a gnoll druid (think WoW druids) who was a slave to Hitler during WW2. I was working in some sort of dark castle. One night I ended up going to some side room and found someone who I found sexy. I don't remember who or what she was, bit we fucked and afterwards I found myself laying on the ground in modern times. I was found by another druid who had also been displaced in time. We were wandering around and found a village where we stayed the night and found another druid. Turns out we were all different specs, The big guy in front was guardian, I was feral, and the chick who found us was resto. I'm not 100% sure, but I think the other two were humans. All 3 of us had been displaced in time and were on an RPG style adventure to figure things out and fix something. I don't remember too many details.

I had a dream where Dhai and I ended up going back to Houston TX in 1992 by accident. We ended up going through some sort of time portal that we didn't see before it was too late. In our state of dazed confusion about what just happened we get chased by a cop who arrests us and accuses us of being drug users since it was a problem in the area we ended up and we were kinda in the middle of the road when we arrived. After we manage to get away we're told about a drug rehabilitation program that is in California. Apparently its the closest one to Houston as these programs hadn't spread very far yet, it was one of two locations in the entire country. We end up meeting a female who had also come back in time from a similar portal and were in the process of trying to explain things gently to her after she had been brought in for the same supposed drug use.

We were being held in this open facility that was a combination police station and scientific research facility. We weren't allowed to leave (which completely contradicts what happened previously in the dream) so I ended up finding a way out by shifting into a small bird. I give the researchers the slip after using a fast moving river to increase my speed. Dhai is no longer anywhere to be seen, but we meet up again later. I am guessing we each somehow had to manage our own escapes from there. Later on us 3 meet up again on the street still in 1992. Apparently the chick who was with us was an otherkin elf of some sort. I said that I knew this area of Houston as it was near where we ended up moving in 1994. Then there was this scene where I was being attacked by a dog and his muzzle was around my throat, but no force was being used and it turned out this whole thing was being filmed for a tv show and we were just actors (this was not the feeling at all in the rest of the dream). I told the dog that it was kind of a turn on for me to have his muzzle around my neck like that knowing I wasn't really in danger and he responded with something snarky that I don't remember. I ended up waking up at that point.

I was on a journey with 3 companions much like Final Fantasy 15's idea. Just 4 of us on a road trip adventuring and trying to save the world. It was a completely unique set of people though. There was a female who was a werewolf (she was really hot when shifted), there were two males of whom I don't remember much about, and then there was me, a black feral dragon who could shift into a human form, but mostly stayed in his dragon form. I pretty much only shifted to fit in the suv/ van we were driving in even though I wasn't much bigger than anyone else.

The dream focused heavily on how it felt to have 4 legs, scales, and 2 wings. Basically how it felt to move and just generally be a dragon. I remember several times we talked as if it was a video game. Like one line I remember saying is that my health regeneration was high enough to just stand in the tornado. I remember us 4 going through some underground industrial like facility, full of metal pathways/ bridges with lava beneath. I remember one section where we were walking along a road in what seemed to be a desert area. That desert area is where we saw a very large dust storm that was apparently caused by some super boss that we didn't have to fight and weren't high enough level for at the time. There was one other time we were resting at some inn of sorts and she was still shifted into here werewolf form as was I in my dragon form. I think we curled up with each other and slept together that night. Nothing sexual, but it was cuddly and relaxing.

I absolutely love the angled muzzle opening thing that I've started seeing being done a lot lately. I totally need to get that done on a commission sometime.

Here are some examples by Twistedhound. Look at their muzzles.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20742568/

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20739219/

I bought Stardew Valley on the day it came out and my husband and I have been playing it almost nonstop. He has put in roughly 60 hours so far and my steam library says I've put in 41 hours. I have a little bit left to do in game, but not too much and its no longer the only thing I am playing, so it might take a week or so to finish what I wanted to do, but damn, is it a great game. If you liked Harvest Moon (any of them), I highly recommend picking this game up. You won't be dissapointed.

I bought a humble jumbo bundle and it came with a shit ton of games, 3 of which I have no intention of ever playing and I know noone who is interested in them, so here are the gift links. Click it and you could own the game! Please post a comment here on which game(s) you took so I can update the journal and remove used links. You can take all three if you want, I don't care, that's why I am posting them here in this journal. Please note these are all Steam keys.

Insurgancy:
{removed because game was taken}

Men of War: Assult Squad GOTY edition:
{removed because game was taken}

Spintires:
{removed because game was taken}

To the people who got these games, I hope you enjoy them!

*barks at everyone happily, sits down on his haunches and lifts one of his front paws and tries to act cute*

I have been trying to get ahold of Rotarr for a few months now, but it seems she has left the community (or at least FA) for the time being. Rotarr if you're reading this please leave me a comment!

Basically, I want to get more commissions of my hexalaceri character. The character is mine, but the species and design are hers. I don't own any intellectual rights to it. How long should I wait before commissioning another artist without Rotarr's permission? I believe it was Feb or March that I sent my initial note/ email to her explaining I wanted another commission.

Anyway, happy days to all! woof!

I have to say I really love the new FA layout. Its faster to load everything and easier to read. Its a great update to this site. I recommend turning it on. Seems completely stable to me and all the features are there.

Apparently FA blocks known Tor entry points. I find that kind of funny that they feel the need to do that.