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Posted 9 months agoI have not written much here in years. Those of you who have noticed I even exist probably know me for my as of the time of writing this, three part lesbian BDSM smut fic series, the Pledge. Admittedly, I don't think it's my best work. I was a younger man with a more intense libido and an eagerness to get that particular set of images out on to paper. Well I know I come to you at the turning of the tide...Okay enough dramatics. I've got some story ideas you may see posted here soon.
Both of these have a lot more M/F action, BDSM, and probably light orientation play elements going on. They'll probably become series of sorts. I don't want to go into all the details, but I will summarize the ideas I'm toying around with. There will also be some F/F stuff in there as well, but the focus is more on heterosexual relationships as opposed to my Pledge series...Which is pretty exclusively sapphic.
One of the underlying themes in both potential series is my personal fascination with motive. I am fascinated with characters who have complex psychologies and find themselves doing things they wouldn't normally do, or are completely consistent in their actions and behaviors, but are motivated by factors others would find strange. Characters in these stories are sometimes driven by desires they don't fully understand, ideas that make perfect sense to them, but other people might find perplexing, or circumstances that lead them to act in ways they normally wouldn't.
One of them is a story about young femboy who after a lifetime of neglect and other trials finds himself as a college aged adult in dire straits in an alternate version of earth where a sort of social work/institutionalized BDSM therapy group exists. One day after pulling off one stunt too many, he's captured by a domme who got a hold of the collar warrant (an in universe term I'll explain later). After initial rough treatment by his new trainer, they begin a long journey of recovery, indulgences, and what appears to be an unlikely blossoming romance. This romance is unlikely because despite the fact that his new domme/trainer doesn't have any qualms about performing certain acts on men such as pegging, spanking, whipping, and other such things...She considers herself lesbian, at least toward the start. Now before you get the wrong idea, no she doesn't "turn straight" in the story. She remains pretty strongly interested in women, but finds herself increasingly infatuated with the protagonist.
The second revolves around a feminine guy and his Mistress who has a complicated relationship with him and her own sexual and romantic desires. To give you an idea of what I mean, his Mistress is an autosexual woman who is homorantic. The two are sexually involved, but it's complicated by the fact that while he is a straight man who absolutely adores her, she isn't attracted to males and of themselves. This puts a strain on their relationship when he admits to being in love with her, but she cannot return those romantic feelings. This ultimately leads to her encouraging him to see other women who can love him in the ways she can't and even sets him up on a date with his actual love interest in the story. Aside from dealing with the complicated psychology of the characters involved, this series deals with an evolving poly relationship between the three of them. If you find it emotionally intense at points, when I finally upload it, don't worry there will be smut, and it does have a happy ending...Pun intended, but also yes, things do turn out alright for our main trio in the end.
Both of these have a lot more M/F action, BDSM, and probably light orientation play elements going on. They'll probably become series of sorts. I don't want to go into all the details, but I will summarize the ideas I'm toying around with. There will also be some F/F stuff in there as well, but the focus is more on heterosexual relationships as opposed to my Pledge series...Which is pretty exclusively sapphic.
One of the underlying themes in both potential series is my personal fascination with motive. I am fascinated with characters who have complex psychologies and find themselves doing things they wouldn't normally do, or are completely consistent in their actions and behaviors, but are motivated by factors others would find strange. Characters in these stories are sometimes driven by desires they don't fully understand, ideas that make perfect sense to them, but other people might find perplexing, or circumstances that lead them to act in ways they normally wouldn't.
One of them is a story about young femboy who after a lifetime of neglect and other trials finds himself as a college aged adult in dire straits in an alternate version of earth where a sort of social work/institutionalized BDSM therapy group exists. One day after pulling off one stunt too many, he's captured by a domme who got a hold of the collar warrant (an in universe term I'll explain later). After initial rough treatment by his new trainer, they begin a long journey of recovery, indulgences, and what appears to be an unlikely blossoming romance. This romance is unlikely because despite the fact that his new domme/trainer doesn't have any qualms about performing certain acts on men such as pegging, spanking, whipping, and other such things...She considers herself lesbian, at least toward the start. Now before you get the wrong idea, no she doesn't "turn straight" in the story. She remains pretty strongly interested in women, but finds herself increasingly infatuated with the protagonist.
The second revolves around a feminine guy and his Mistress who has a complicated relationship with him and her own sexual and romantic desires. To give you an idea of what I mean, his Mistress is an autosexual woman who is homorantic. The two are sexually involved, but it's complicated by the fact that while he is a straight man who absolutely adores her, she isn't attracted to males and of themselves. This puts a strain on their relationship when he admits to being in love with her, but she cannot return those romantic feelings. This ultimately leads to her encouraging him to see other women who can love him in the ways she can't and even sets him up on a date with his actual love interest in the story. Aside from dealing with the complicated psychology of the characters involved, this series deals with an evolving poly relationship between the three of them. If you find it emotionally intense at points, when I finally upload it, don't worry there will be smut, and it does have a happy ending...Pun intended, but also yes, things do turn out alright for our main trio in the end.
Some Things Just Need To Be Said
Posted 5 years agoI know I'm not exactly popular and very few people have heard of me or notice that I exist, but I do want to make some things damn clear.
If you're a Trump supporter or anything of the sort, unfollow me. I don't fucking want you associating with me. I don't have time for your tired rhetoric that people such as you have been regurgitating for well over a damned century. You aren't rebels. You only care about individualism when it comes to you and people like you. God forbid someone should make the choice to be vegan, be a religion other than Christian, just not drink a beer because they don't like beer, voice active opposition to political power structures, love who they want, express their gender identity, celebrate their own culture if they aren't of Euro-American descent, express their maleness or femininity in ways that aren't in line with what you think men and women should be, make choices on what they want to do with their own bodies, just not be harassed at work or out in public (You know that thing that the last time I checked counted for basic human decency), and numerous other things. You just want to regulate everything but big business. By the way, free speech is not freedom from criticism of that speech. You are free to say whatever bigoted, inane, unoriginal, and frankly at this point boring bullshit you want, but I'm also free to call you an asshole for it. These things ain't mutually exclusive.
Also can I ask you people why it's only an "agenda" when people on the left say "Hey maybe treat people with proper kindness and equity" but not when you want to more-a-less make Christianity the state religion or try to make it legal to fully discriminate against LGBTQIA+ people and people of color? I do have an agenda, but at least I admit it instead hiding behind empty slogans and falsehoods. If you argue for anything at all, you have an agenda. It just so happens that mine is predicated on making a better world for everyone not a select few.
You assholes talk about censorship, yet you're the ones issuing all the threats of violence, shooting people, ramming cars into peaceful protesters and demanding legislation that would make it illegal to criticize the country, it's government, discuss LGBTQIA+ identities and issues, express religious sentiments that don't align with your twisted parody of Christianity, and generally being a menace to people who just want to live their lives in peace. Who's trying to silence who here? Don't give me that free speech bullshit when you so clearly don't actually give a fuck.
By the way, prayer in school isn't illegal. What's illegal is for the school to mandate it, to say that students have to do it in a certain way, or for teachers to demand it. The kids are free to pray to whatever Divinities they please as long as it's of their own volition and not something demanded by the school itself.
While I'm at it, I'll admit wearing face masks isn't generally comfortable and I don't like it, I'd rather be safe if I'm going to be in really close proximity to people in a relatively cramped public space with a bunch of people I don't know. I can always take it off later when I'm at home or out walking in a less crowded public space, over at a friends place who doesn't give a damn, or something like that. I don't wear the mask for myself anyway. I do it for the people I know who are actually at risk, who actually are immune compromised. There is no satanic illuminati conspiracy. It's funny how y'all say companies should be able to put down whatever rules they want when it comes to discriminating against people, but they minute they say "Hmmmm....I think we should possibly take measures to ensure someones actual health and safety" you flip the fuck out. It's all fun and games until they do something you don't like. This didn't need to be some kind of political issue, but you've gone done made it one for no fucking reason. Yeesh...And you say us lefties like making stuff political.
But mostly... I'm just tired of dealing with you. I can debate you all you want, present you with facts and figures, insult you or whatever...If you're hellbent on ignoring reality or just being an asshole, well, there's not much I can do about it. I just want to be left in peace. Honestly, it's all I've ever wanted, but you keep insisting on making my life and numerous other peoples lives more complicated/stressful than they need to be.
Black Lives Matter
Trans* Lives Matter
Queer POC Lives Matter
If you don't like any of this, then you can pucker up and kiss my race traitor, anarcho-syndicalist, pagan, femboy, environmentalist, non-drinking, feminist, LGBTQIA+ ally, damn near complete pacifist, anti-death penalty, pansy ass and lick my anus while your at it. Peace... I'm just done with you.
Everybody else...Thanks for sticking around despite what disagreements we may have. I hope you're doing well.
If you're a Trump supporter or anything of the sort, unfollow me. I don't fucking want you associating with me. I don't have time for your tired rhetoric that people such as you have been regurgitating for well over a damned century. You aren't rebels. You only care about individualism when it comes to you and people like you. God forbid someone should make the choice to be vegan, be a religion other than Christian, just not drink a beer because they don't like beer, voice active opposition to political power structures, love who they want, express their gender identity, celebrate their own culture if they aren't of Euro-American descent, express their maleness or femininity in ways that aren't in line with what you think men and women should be, make choices on what they want to do with their own bodies, just not be harassed at work or out in public (You know that thing that the last time I checked counted for basic human decency), and numerous other things. You just want to regulate everything but big business. By the way, free speech is not freedom from criticism of that speech. You are free to say whatever bigoted, inane, unoriginal, and frankly at this point boring bullshit you want, but I'm also free to call you an asshole for it. These things ain't mutually exclusive.
Also can I ask you people why it's only an "agenda" when people on the left say "Hey maybe treat people with proper kindness and equity" but not when you want to more-a-less make Christianity the state religion or try to make it legal to fully discriminate against LGBTQIA+ people and people of color? I do have an agenda, but at least I admit it instead hiding behind empty slogans and falsehoods. If you argue for anything at all, you have an agenda. It just so happens that mine is predicated on making a better world for everyone not a select few.
You assholes talk about censorship, yet you're the ones issuing all the threats of violence, shooting people, ramming cars into peaceful protesters and demanding legislation that would make it illegal to criticize the country, it's government, discuss LGBTQIA+ identities and issues, express religious sentiments that don't align with your twisted parody of Christianity, and generally being a menace to people who just want to live their lives in peace. Who's trying to silence who here? Don't give me that free speech bullshit when you so clearly don't actually give a fuck.
By the way, prayer in school isn't illegal. What's illegal is for the school to mandate it, to say that students have to do it in a certain way, or for teachers to demand it. The kids are free to pray to whatever Divinities they please as long as it's of their own volition and not something demanded by the school itself.
While I'm at it, I'll admit wearing face masks isn't generally comfortable and I don't like it, I'd rather be safe if I'm going to be in really close proximity to people in a relatively cramped public space with a bunch of people I don't know. I can always take it off later when I'm at home or out walking in a less crowded public space, over at a friends place who doesn't give a damn, or something like that. I don't wear the mask for myself anyway. I do it for the people I know who are actually at risk, who actually are immune compromised. There is no satanic illuminati conspiracy. It's funny how y'all say companies should be able to put down whatever rules they want when it comes to discriminating against people, but they minute they say "Hmmmm....I think we should possibly take measures to ensure someones actual health and safety" you flip the fuck out. It's all fun and games until they do something you don't like. This didn't need to be some kind of political issue, but you've gone done made it one for no fucking reason. Yeesh...And you say us lefties like making stuff political.
But mostly... I'm just tired of dealing with you. I can debate you all you want, present you with facts and figures, insult you or whatever...If you're hellbent on ignoring reality or just being an asshole, well, there's not much I can do about it. I just want to be left in peace. Honestly, it's all I've ever wanted, but you keep insisting on making my life and numerous other peoples lives more complicated/stressful than they need to be.
Black Lives Matter
Trans* Lives Matter
Queer POC Lives Matter
If you don't like any of this, then you can pucker up and kiss my race traitor, anarcho-syndicalist, pagan, femboy, environmentalist, non-drinking, feminist, LGBTQIA+ ally, damn near complete pacifist, anti-death penalty, pansy ass and lick my anus while your at it. Peace... I'm just done with you.
Everybody else...Thanks for sticking around despite what disagreements we may have. I hope you're doing well.
Where I've Been
Posted 8 years agoHello everyone. It's been forever since anything new from me was post here. Over a year to be exact if you count my previous journal. I've been through some things. Many of them emotionally taxing. I've mostly been trying to get my life together and I haven't been in much of a place to write anything one might expect from me, especially given that the vast majority of my non-smutty stuff won't likely end up on here. I have to be in the right frame of mind to write.certain things and my frame of mind until recently had been one characterized by anxiety and stress. I also likely neglected to mention that I was diagnosed with two mental illnesses a while back and frankly I'm lucky I haven't needed meds to keep myself together well enough to work and complete my coursework.
However, things are starting to look up. I'm feeling hopeful for my future and I feel as if I finally have the opportunity to pursue life as I wish to live it. I've been getting back in touch with some people I went silent on a long time ago, I'm talking to and meeting new people. My problems aren't entirely gone, but things are better now and I can truly say I'm in a better state emotionally/psychologically right now. There was a fear that my life was already kind of over, but it's become clear to me that I'm not a lost cause. That there's good reason to be hopeful. I do apologize for leaving you all hanging. I might write something and post it here in the very near future. I can't say what yet, but something.
In case anyone was wondering, I am considering writing a fourth entry in the Pledge series. However, I might complete something else before that. Thanks for sticking around.
However, things are starting to look up. I'm feeling hopeful for my future and I feel as if I finally have the opportunity to pursue life as I wish to live it. I've been getting back in touch with some people I went silent on a long time ago, I'm talking to and meeting new people. My problems aren't entirely gone, but things are better now and I can truly say I'm in a better state emotionally/psychologically right now. There was a fear that my life was already kind of over, but it's become clear to me that I'm not a lost cause. That there's good reason to be hopeful. I do apologize for leaving you all hanging. I might write something and post it here in the very near future. I can't say what yet, but something.
In case anyone was wondering, I am considering writing a fourth entry in the Pledge series. However, I might complete something else before that. Thanks for sticking around.
So About the Long Wait.
Posted 9 years agoI do have plans to write more stories in the near future, including a fourth part to my Pledge series. I don't know how long that one will continue, but I do have an idea for a fourth. However I need to be in the right frame of mind to do that before I can get down to business. You will probably see some new M/F Femdom stuff before that. Perhaps a new series introducing new characters. Something with more of a romantic bent and probably a bit of cuckolding with 100% more femboy. It has always bothered me that there don't seem to be many stories focusing on fem men and sexual/romantic relationships with women. As a rather effeminate male myself, it's rather irritating to have to read stories about men who conform to a type of maleness that doesn't resonate with me. I could rant for countless centuries about how the mainstream definition of maleness pisses me the fuck off, but that's for another journal. Just keeping my watchers updated. Thanks to those of you have faved any of my writing and decided to follow the work I post here.
So I finally did that BDSM Test
Posted 10 years ago== Results from http://bdsmtest.org/ ==
100% Bondage Receiver
100% Submissive
91% Slave
85% Masochist
84% Exhibitionist
80% Degradation Receiver
68% Voyeur
59% Non-monogamist
30% Vanilla
29% Primal (Prey)
4% Primal (Predator)
0% All-Rounder
0% Bondage Giver
0% Degradation Giver
0% Dominant
0% Master/Mistress
0% Sadist
0% Switch
See my results online at http://bdsmtest.org/result.php?id=341802
I honestly don't know where that 4% predator comes from. Despite what this says I actually prefer monogamous relationships.
== Results from bdsmtest.org ==
100% Pet
100% Submissive
100% Slave
100% Primal (Prey)
100% Degradee
100% Rope bunny
94% Masochist
87% Voyeur
87% Boy/Girl
66% Exhibitionist
65% Experimentalist
48% Ageplayer
43% Brat
41% Non-monogamist
17% Vanilla
0% Switch
http://bdsmtest.org/result.php?id=5410242
100% Bondage Receiver
100% Submissive
91% Slave
85% Masochist
84% Exhibitionist
80% Degradation Receiver
68% Voyeur
59% Non-monogamist
30% Vanilla
29% Primal (Prey)
4% Primal (Predator)
0% All-Rounder
0% Bondage Giver
0% Degradation Giver
0% Dominant
0% Master/Mistress
0% Sadist
0% Switch
See my results online at http://bdsmtest.org/result.php?id=341802
I honestly don't know where that 4% predator comes from. Despite what this says I actually prefer monogamous relationships.
== Results from bdsmtest.org ==
100% Pet
100% Submissive
100% Slave
100% Primal (Prey)
100% Degradee
100% Rope bunny
94% Masochist
87% Voyeur
87% Boy/Girl
66% Exhibitionist
65% Experimentalist
48% Ageplayer
43% Brat
41% Non-monogamist
17% Vanilla
0% Switch
http://bdsmtest.org/result.php?id=5410242
Future Stories
Posted 10 years agoWell, you'll probably see a bit more writing from me in the near future, I'm planning on doing a fourth installment in my Pledge series. I'm not sure when it will be done, but I'm alsp going to be doing some side stories in the same ¨universe” if it can be called that. I want to do one focused on Deborah and another one with more romance and drama. It's going to be another femdom series but M/F instead. Something with femboy and Mistress loving.
It can't be! A new Journal?!
Posted 10 years agoWell I've been having a ton of computer issues lately and I was going to try and post something more, but it has taken forever. For those who love what little I actually have out there, I am still alive and kicking.
About the problem of transhumanism.
Posted 11 years agoJust thought I'd keep people informed on why transhumanism is not the perfect deal some think it is. It's not worth it.
http://www.wakingtimes.com/2014/06/.....capist-agenda/
http://ieet.org/index.php/IEET/more/searle20130916
http://rationallyspeaking.blogspot......shumanism.html
http://karljahn.tripod.com/trans.html
http://nawkcire.wordpress.com/2012/.....ranshumanism/#
http://futurisms.thenewatlantis.com.....wont-work.html
http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog.....-transhumanism
http://www.wakingtimes.com/2014/06/.....capist-agenda/
http://ieet.org/index.php/IEET/more/searle20130916
http://rationallyspeaking.blogspot......shumanism.html
http://karljahn.tripod.com/trans.html
http://nawkcire.wordpress.com/2012/.....ranshumanism/#
http://futurisms.thenewatlantis.com.....wont-work.html
http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog.....-transhumanism
Guide Lines for request revised
Posted 12 years ago1.Do not offer me money,I will not accept commission for the work I do here.
2.Do not expect instant completion. These things take time when you ask for quality work.
3. Do not ask for any of the following in the stories:
-Anything involving male on male romance or sex or for that matter anything between more than one of anyone with a penis or cboys. No sexual situations involving trans* people. Nothing against you all, just not interested
-Scat,vomit,urine,gore,gas, enemas,vore
-Actual rape
-Cubs, baby play, diapers, (Not really my thing)
-Incest, Child Abuse
-Nothing canon (going against canon drives me up the wall and I don't like fan fiction)
-Anything involving zoophilia
-Necrophilia or snuff
-Orientation play
-Generic slice of life/romance
-Male dominance
-Actual domestic violence
-Anything just bashing religion of any kind. I have no problem ridiculing people for being ignorant, but I'm not going to bash entire groups unduly. The real problem is material greed, arrogance, and political structures.
4.Do not ask me to write about someone else's character unless they are willing and have detailed description of the character's personality. This also goes for your own characters.
2.Do not expect instant completion. These things take time when you ask for quality work.
3. Do not ask for any of the following in the stories:
-Anything involving male on male romance or sex or for that matter anything between more than one of anyone with a penis or cboys. No sexual situations involving trans* people. Nothing against you all, just not interested
-Scat,vomit,urine,gore,gas, enemas,vore
-Actual rape
-Cubs, baby play, diapers, (Not really my thing)
-Incest, Child Abuse
-Nothing canon (going against canon drives me up the wall and I don't like fan fiction)
-Anything involving zoophilia
-Necrophilia or snuff
-Orientation play
-Generic slice of life/romance
-Male dominance
-Actual domestic violence
-Anything just bashing religion of any kind. I have no problem ridiculing people for being ignorant, but I'm not going to bash entire groups unduly. The real problem is material greed, arrogance, and political structures.
4.Do not ask me to write about someone else's character unless they are willing and have detailed description of the character's personality. This also goes for your own characters.
Warning
Posted 12 years agoThe following is taken from Amberhyena:
Rumor has it there is hacker on FA, hacking people and blocking our friends to make them block us. You'll then be banned from FA.
Write the same warning in your journal to protect not only yourself but everyone! Here's another warning: If I'm being a jerk, saying stuff like "Shut up", "Get lost" or "I don't want to see you on my homepage anymore", (or anything negative really) that's not really me. That's the hacker.
Write all of this down in your journal too!
Please do this, it's for the safety of everyone!
Forward this message before someone gets hacked!
Rumor has it there is hacker on FA, hacking people and blocking our friends to make them block us. You'll then be banned from FA.
Write the same warning in your journal to protect not only yourself but everyone! Here's another warning: If I'm being a jerk, saying stuff like "Shut up", "Get lost" or "I don't want to see you on my homepage anymore", (or anything negative really) that's not really me. That's the hacker.
Write all of this down in your journal too!
Please do this, it's for the safety of everyone!
Forward this message before someone gets hacked!
