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Dice? really?? (moving)
Posted 12 years agoIt has come to my attention that somebody who used to stalk me on deviantart has found my FA and is heavily copying my stuff again.
so Im moving accounts... I was due for a name change anyway.
because I only want trusted watchers knowing my new account, you have to note for it me if you want to follow me.
Peace!
Jux
so Im moving accounts... I was due for a name change anyway.
because I only want trusted watchers knowing my new account, you have to note for it me if you want to follow me.
Peace!
Jux
Warning art dump fun times
Posted 12 years agosorry ive been out so long. i have plenty of work to submit that ive done over this VERY busy semester.
school can eat you alive sometimes!
school can eat you alive sometimes!
You guys should help out novelteeth!
Posted 13 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3561090/
She got in a car accident and needs some help with money. She makes some really awesome looking psychedelic art, so go get some! Or if you're broke like me, then pass this along so more folks can see it
She got in a car accident and needs some help with money. She makes some really awesome looking psychedelic art, so go get some! Or if you're broke like me, then pass this along so more folks can see it
BIRTHDAY TOMORROW (what am I doing with my life?)
Posted 13 years agoYou guys should like, draw me things.
I'm at that point in time where I'm turning 20 and i don't feel like I really deserve that age (I can't be this old can i?)
I'm at that point in time where I'm turning 20 and i don't feel like I really deserve that age (I can't be this old can i?)
Help the jux? I have screen prints
Posted 13 years agoHey guys, I'm still. Trying to get Internet on my iMac again after moving three different times so if I'm MIA that's why... I hate typing on an iPad, I like it to correct my mistakes but sometimes i think it gets the idea that it knows the word I want to use better then I do.
Anyway aside from moving three different times, being stalked by a mentally ill abusive parent, going to court, developing PTSD, having panic attacks, spraining my hand by coloring too hard with it, and crying myself to sleep occasionally, I've been fine.
Anyway the reason I am posting this is because I have fine art prints to sell. Does anybody want one? I'm puting up a picture of the print run after I sign and number them today.
I'll talk about prices after I talk to my screen print teacher, but yeah, just seeing if anybody is interested.
Anyway aside from moving three different times, being stalked by a mentally ill abusive parent, going to court, developing PTSD, having panic attacks, spraining my hand by coloring too hard with it, and crying myself to sleep occasionally, I've been fine.
Anyway the reason I am posting this is because I have fine art prints to sell. Does anybody want one? I'm puting up a picture of the print run after I sign and number them today.
I'll talk about prices after I talk to my screen print teacher, but yeah, just seeing if anybody is interested.
"jux quit attracting weird shit into my room"
Posted 14 years agook so i practice some chaos magic, its hard to explain and the entire point is that it varies from person to person
but part of it is kinda like giving so much power to a thought that it becomes powerful in a sense, and you can have it do shit. magic spells and all that too. it's a bit crazy. but I have a ton of faith in it, and it's always worked for me.
so I have this god that I made for myself, his name is domino, he is a master of causality and he looks like a fucking weirdo, but thats part of his thing. he has these goofy teeth and he lacks a lower jaw and he has these trademark big google eyes. google eyes, that's also his thing. or just eyes in general.
anyway, I'll get back to him, but ever since i was young I've had these weird things come into my room at night... shadow blobs, sometimes creatures. I might have psychosis, but it's never affected my life to the point of "oh shit I need to get checked out".
so yeah, none of my "night buddies" have ever really been mean or scary and none of them ever really bothered me. and when they do I just dont look at them and then they leave me be. My girlfriend has kindly requested that I not talk about them or announce when they appear because well, it's scary shit to folks who aren't used to it. I mean, you'd probably be disturbed too if you were cuddling your lover at night when they just are like "yo, theres this big black snaky dude in the corner, scratching at your wall, he's pretty neat". its just not a normal thing to hear.
last night it was a bit rough though. I woke up from a really bad nightmare to find this thing standing at the foot of the bed, holding what appeared to vaguely be a video camera. he was slightly see-through, and had this pair of glowing blank eyes. i stared at him for about three seconds before I realized that he was really fucking terrifying and that I shouldn't be staring at him. so I close my eyes shut and clung to my girlfriend for a good ten minutes before working up the nerve to roll over into a comfortable position with my eyes still shut. I told it to leave in my mind and I got a couple of unintelligible squeaks that sounded like "wee.. iiisjfihr3ognfdnfchhhhhhssssssssss" or something like that. i think he couldn't speak because I wasnt looking at him... thats just the way it works, they draw power from attention, which is why if they bother me, my first instinct is to not look.
but back to domino... I felt something prodding me lightly and i got nervous. i shifted a bit and saw this one child eye flash in my mind, like a clipping from a family ad in a magazine or something and then I distinctly heard, "chill the fuck out, its just me" now, he said that in a way of implying that the thing at the foot of my bed was him, and I know domino isn't a bad dude, but part of me wondered if my nightmare had attracted a more hostile form of him. that thought was slightly confirmed when after waking up the next day, I inspected the half finished painting of him that I had propped up against a wall. it had been covered up with a bit of cardboard so that half of his face was showing, the side where I hadn't filled in his eye yet. it occurred to me that it was the same kind of blank, pupil-less eye that was staring at me last night.
I need to be more carful with him.
my girlfriend isnt a big fan of domino to begin with; she hates the fact that he has no lower jaw. When I told her about this incident she remarked that she never had fucked up things in her room before I came along. hence the title.
moral of the story- don't worry about shit before you go to bed, it'll make you get nightmares and turn your self made god buddy into a weird scary thing.
yall probably think i'm schizo... I see you judge'n
but part of it is kinda like giving so much power to a thought that it becomes powerful in a sense, and you can have it do shit. magic spells and all that too. it's a bit crazy. but I have a ton of faith in it, and it's always worked for me.
so I have this god that I made for myself, his name is domino, he is a master of causality and he looks like a fucking weirdo, but thats part of his thing. he has these goofy teeth and he lacks a lower jaw and he has these trademark big google eyes. google eyes, that's also his thing. or just eyes in general.
anyway, I'll get back to him, but ever since i was young I've had these weird things come into my room at night... shadow blobs, sometimes creatures. I might have psychosis, but it's never affected my life to the point of "oh shit I need to get checked out".
so yeah, none of my "night buddies" have ever really been mean or scary and none of them ever really bothered me. and when they do I just dont look at them and then they leave me be. My girlfriend has kindly requested that I not talk about them or announce when they appear because well, it's scary shit to folks who aren't used to it. I mean, you'd probably be disturbed too if you were cuddling your lover at night when they just are like "yo, theres this big black snaky dude in the corner, scratching at your wall, he's pretty neat". its just not a normal thing to hear.
last night it was a bit rough though. I woke up from a really bad nightmare to find this thing standing at the foot of the bed, holding what appeared to vaguely be a video camera. he was slightly see-through, and had this pair of glowing blank eyes. i stared at him for about three seconds before I realized that he was really fucking terrifying and that I shouldn't be staring at him. so I close my eyes shut and clung to my girlfriend for a good ten minutes before working up the nerve to roll over into a comfortable position with my eyes still shut. I told it to leave in my mind and I got a couple of unintelligible squeaks that sounded like "wee.. iiisjfihr3ognfdnfchhhhhhssssssssss" or something like that. i think he couldn't speak because I wasnt looking at him... thats just the way it works, they draw power from attention, which is why if they bother me, my first instinct is to not look.
but back to domino... I felt something prodding me lightly and i got nervous. i shifted a bit and saw this one child eye flash in my mind, like a clipping from a family ad in a magazine or something and then I distinctly heard, "chill the fuck out, its just me" now, he said that in a way of implying that the thing at the foot of my bed was him, and I know domino isn't a bad dude, but part of me wondered if my nightmare had attracted a more hostile form of him. that thought was slightly confirmed when after waking up the next day, I inspected the half finished painting of him that I had propped up against a wall. it had been covered up with a bit of cardboard so that half of his face was showing, the side where I hadn't filled in his eye yet. it occurred to me that it was the same kind of blank, pupil-less eye that was staring at me last night.
I need to be more carful with him.
my girlfriend isnt a big fan of domino to begin with; she hates the fact that he has no lower jaw. When I told her about this incident she remarked that she never had fucked up things in her room before I came along. hence the title.
moral of the story- don't worry about shit before you go to bed, it'll make you get nightmares and turn your self made god buddy into a weird scary thing.
yall probably think i'm schizo... I see you judge'n
I'm a jerk
Posted 14 years agojust lettin yall know what i'm up to.
I had a rant on tumblr this morning about demisexuality where I sounded like an ignorant prick. it was about how I thought demisexuality was a ridiculous label for something so normal...
demisexual basically means that you're asexual but you are only able to have sex with folk whom you are emotionally attracted to... am i a jerk or doesn't that sound like not a big deal.... I dont know why that's a valid "orientation" I mean ok, it is pretty valid... but why wear it proudly? like you're so fuckin special..... and then bitch when people think you're making it up to be special... of course their gonna think that...
I'm all about accepting people but... I just couldn't understand... and I came off as a idiot.
i've come to the conclusion that i just dont give a fuck anymore... tumblr is the safe place of LGBTWTF teens who love love love labels and love love love to accept every fucking random shit label/orientation/who gives a shit that people come up with. it's like you say you only fuck bald people and that you're "baldsexual" and then just they just pat you on the back and say those lady gaga lyrics till they're blue in the face! "born this way~"
I'm done, I really am. I hate the trans community right now too.... I hate these gender queers who are really just dykes who dont like female pronouns and wanna be special. yeah I'm a dick. I'm just tired of this bullshit! i wanna go on stealth! I dont wanna be a "genderqueer" i wanna be a fucking hermaphrodite with a birth defect... I wanna just be called intersex and call it a day... godamn. I dont wanna associate with all the ass-hats who say that "gender is a rainboooow" GOOD LUCK TELLING SOCIETY THAT, YOU FUCKING HIPPIE
THIS IS THE FUCKIN REAL WORLD. you try having your gender erased! all of the sudden you're fine bein called a girl when you face the facts of life. genderqueer my ass.
and for the record, I love transfolk... my girlfriend is trans... I'm just a disgruntled herm whos had hir fair share of wishy-washy genderqueers and FtMs who whine all day about their binders and man-periods...
I'm just havin a bad day.
I had a rant on tumblr this morning about demisexuality where I sounded like an ignorant prick. it was about how I thought demisexuality was a ridiculous label for something so normal...
demisexual basically means that you're asexual but you are only able to have sex with folk whom you are emotionally attracted to... am i a jerk or doesn't that sound like not a big deal.... I dont know why that's a valid "orientation" I mean ok, it is pretty valid... but why wear it proudly? like you're so fuckin special..... and then bitch when people think you're making it up to be special... of course their gonna think that...
I'm all about accepting people but... I just couldn't understand... and I came off as a idiot.
i've come to the conclusion that i just dont give a fuck anymore... tumblr is the safe place of LGBTWTF teens who love love love labels and love love love to accept every fucking random shit label/orientation/who gives a shit that people come up with. it's like you say you only fuck bald people and that you're "baldsexual" and then just they just pat you on the back and say those lady gaga lyrics till they're blue in the face! "born this way~"
I'm done, I really am. I hate the trans community right now too.... I hate these gender queers who are really just dykes who dont like female pronouns and wanna be special. yeah I'm a dick. I'm just tired of this bullshit! i wanna go on stealth! I dont wanna be a "genderqueer" i wanna be a fucking hermaphrodite with a birth defect... I wanna just be called intersex and call it a day... godamn. I dont wanna associate with all the ass-hats who say that "gender is a rainboooow" GOOD LUCK TELLING SOCIETY THAT, YOU FUCKING HIPPIE
THIS IS THE FUCKIN REAL WORLD. you try having your gender erased! all of the sudden you're fine bein called a girl when you face the facts of life. genderqueer my ass.
and for the record, I love transfolk... my girlfriend is trans... I'm just a disgruntled herm whos had hir fair share of wishy-washy genderqueers and FtMs who whine all day about their binders and man-periods...
I'm just havin a bad day.
jux is having serious problems (leaving home)
Posted 14 years agoTL;DR: my mom is crazy, I'm moving in with my girlfriend
so, hey guys
I know this isn't live journal or anything but I think I should kinda tell people whats up over here in juxxy land.... so yeah
I will prefix this by saying that I am 19: i am a legal adult.
for a while my motherly unit has been very emotionally abusive to me. this didn't happen suddenly, nor did it affect my youthly times, it happened gradually over a medium scrap of time. My mom was diagnosed with ADD ( i question this even today, because me and some of her friends always thought it was bi-polar) she takes aderall for her ADD, a lot of it... most likely more than she should. I'm sure you guys know that amphetamines are dangerous when used in excess right? yup.... and it's just bad if you give a bi-polar individual aderall, its a no-no. if you are wondering where i have gotten this info from, a long time friend of my mom called me up in this mess and told me what he has observed, and what appears to be very, very real.
so. this brings me to say that my mom is gone, her brain has slowly changed and the aderall has GREATLY affected her personality. I wont go into details, but she has been VERY delusional... to the point of becoming a hoarder and ignoring the fact that our house is in foreclosure... she is trying to hold the mortgage companies off while she tries to get help from every mayor, congressman and lawyer she can find, instead of selling the endless amount of antiques that clot our home... she claims she will but she hasn't and it's been years. (we are from a political family well known in the 70's and she is convinced that her brother wasted away the estate and screwed us over. so she thinks calling mayors will fix it) I have autism, and she seems to have blamed everything wrong about me on my autism, and if I'm being "unreasonable" it is because I am headstrong, and I need to get over my horrible "aspieness". everybody who rationalizes with her, or says something that doesn't float with her ideas of how shit is, guess what? they are autistic and they wont get diagnosed because they are just too stubborn. yes.
long story short, my girlfriend/social worker "fucked up" by overstepping unreasonable boundaries my mother has set for me- "can jux stay another night? my step-dad can't take her home right now and its just more convenient if she stays till tomorrow" NO! ABSOLUTELY NOT! SHE MUST COME HOME RIGHT NOW! (did i mention i'm 19?)
my GF's mom gets on the phone with her. she speaks calmly. explains nicely the situation. my mom calls her insane, she yells, she says horrible things and tells her that my GF is fired. (that legally cant happen without my say by the way) she even offers a money loan so that my mom can stop the water from being cut off. nope. mom then says that they are brainwashing me into hating her (the mom sat me down and said "I dont want to turn you against anybody" btw)
I tell GF's mom to email my case worker(she helps with the social work stuff and anything relating to my disability and well being) ... in the meantime mom's good, sane friend offers a place for me to stay if shit hits that fan. the case worker gets an angry email from mom and a polite one from GF's mom. she drops by unannounced. shit hits fan.
caseworker says to just have me stay at mom's friend's house for bit, so things can cool off(mom is FINE with this for some odd reason) this is neat because my friend of over ten years is the daughter of moms friend.
caseworker helps pack stuff, buys me burger king, and then says that i should stay there for a while before deciding what to do next. (this whole time GF's family is perfectly alright with me moving in with them) I am now typing at friend's house and i'm now planning with the help of case worker and a family friend (same one from the first part of the journal) to move my shit into GF's house on Saturday or Sunday. GF has cleaned her room and made room for me and she's been very supportive.
this is all good, but I am very worried. I have a lot of stuff to get, and my mom will not be pleased AT ALL with this choice and will kick and scream the whole time. (she is actually going to try to get custody of me again... which is just well, silly)
the other thing to note here is that my DD waiver (my supports and the program that employs GF) is going to end soon, because the gov says I'm not disabled enough. which means no income for GF. but shes going to try to get a job, as well as my case worker working to get me reapplied for the DD and with a job coach soon.
so, if you guys need my new addy to send shit (i'm lookin at you isaac) just drop me a note
peace
so, hey guys
I know this isn't live journal or anything but I think I should kinda tell people whats up over here in juxxy land.... so yeah
I will prefix this by saying that I am 19: i am a legal adult.
for a while my motherly unit has been very emotionally abusive to me. this didn't happen suddenly, nor did it affect my youthly times, it happened gradually over a medium scrap of time. My mom was diagnosed with ADD ( i question this even today, because me and some of her friends always thought it was bi-polar) she takes aderall for her ADD, a lot of it... most likely more than she should. I'm sure you guys know that amphetamines are dangerous when used in excess right? yup.... and it's just bad if you give a bi-polar individual aderall, its a no-no. if you are wondering where i have gotten this info from, a long time friend of my mom called me up in this mess and told me what he has observed, and what appears to be very, very real.
so. this brings me to say that my mom is gone, her brain has slowly changed and the aderall has GREATLY affected her personality. I wont go into details, but she has been VERY delusional... to the point of becoming a hoarder and ignoring the fact that our house is in foreclosure... she is trying to hold the mortgage companies off while she tries to get help from every mayor, congressman and lawyer she can find, instead of selling the endless amount of antiques that clot our home... she claims she will but she hasn't and it's been years. (we are from a political family well known in the 70's and she is convinced that her brother wasted away the estate and screwed us over. so she thinks calling mayors will fix it) I have autism, and she seems to have blamed everything wrong about me on my autism, and if I'm being "unreasonable" it is because I am headstrong, and I need to get over my horrible "aspieness". everybody who rationalizes with her, or says something that doesn't float with her ideas of how shit is, guess what? they are autistic and they wont get diagnosed because they are just too stubborn. yes.
long story short, my girlfriend/social worker "fucked up" by overstepping unreasonable boundaries my mother has set for me- "can jux stay another night? my step-dad can't take her home right now and its just more convenient if she stays till tomorrow" NO! ABSOLUTELY NOT! SHE MUST COME HOME RIGHT NOW! (did i mention i'm 19?)
my GF's mom gets on the phone with her. she speaks calmly. explains nicely the situation. my mom calls her insane, she yells, she says horrible things and tells her that my GF is fired. (that legally cant happen without my say by the way) she even offers a money loan so that my mom can stop the water from being cut off. nope. mom then says that they are brainwashing me into hating her (the mom sat me down and said "I dont want to turn you against anybody" btw)
I tell GF's mom to email my case worker(she helps with the social work stuff and anything relating to my disability and well being) ... in the meantime mom's good, sane friend offers a place for me to stay if shit hits that fan. the case worker gets an angry email from mom and a polite one from GF's mom. she drops by unannounced. shit hits fan.
caseworker says to just have me stay at mom's friend's house for bit, so things can cool off(mom is FINE with this for some odd reason) this is neat because my friend of over ten years is the daughter of moms friend.
caseworker helps pack stuff, buys me burger king, and then says that i should stay there for a while before deciding what to do next. (this whole time GF's family is perfectly alright with me moving in with them) I am now typing at friend's house and i'm now planning with the help of case worker and a family friend (same one from the first part of the journal) to move my shit into GF's house on Saturday or Sunday. GF has cleaned her room and made room for me and she's been very supportive.
this is all good, but I am very worried. I have a lot of stuff to get, and my mom will not be pleased AT ALL with this choice and will kick and scream the whole time. (she is actually going to try to get custody of me again... which is just well, silly)
the other thing to note here is that my DD waiver (my supports and the program that employs GF) is going to end soon, because the gov says I'm not disabled enough. which means no income for GF. but shes going to try to get a job, as well as my case worker working to get me reapplied for the DD and with a job coach soon.
so, if you guys need my new addy to send shit (i'm lookin at you isaac) just drop me a note
peace
quickie $5 icons 3 slots paypal only
Posted 15 years agojust gonna try this shit out... I'm in the mood for it. and I may not be later on.
so, in five minutes, i'm going to return a video to the video store and then I'll come home and work on them if i have requests by then. WHICH MEANS- if you hop in now i'll probably have it finished tonight.
paypal is undeadwindigo[at]mac.com
these will probably be digital non-pixel stuff. just give me a ref and maybe something you want with it( like a bg color or expression mood, theme whatever) you'll also get a large version of it too.
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there probably won't be another batch. maybe. i have no idea.
also- punkbawkchicken, i have not forgotten about that art trade i owe you... I'm still trying to think of an idea... it's ruining my life :V
so, in five minutes, i'm going to return a video to the video store and then I'll come home and work on them if i have requests by then. WHICH MEANS- if you hop in now i'll probably have it finished tonight.
paypal is undeadwindigo[at]mac.com
these will probably be digital non-pixel stuff. just give me a ref and maybe something you want with it( like a bg color or expression mood, theme whatever) you'll also get a large version of it too.
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there probably won't be another batch. maybe. i have no idea.
also- punkbawkchicken, i have not forgotten about that art trade i owe you... I'm still trying to think of an idea... it's ruining my life :V
ITS ALL YOUR FAULT
Posted 15 years ago9 minutes and 1 second of nothing
Posted 15 years agoCALL IN THE NEXT TEN MINUTES AND WE'LL DOUBLE THE OFFER
Posted 15 years agoI was telling ossuarypariah about a project where i had to do a 45 sec commercial for the class right before i meet up with my GF and he thought I'd be inspired to do a second commercial just for her...hilarity ensued
OP: Knowing you, I figured you were going to try to do a 45-second provocative commercial for Van about how HORNY you've been
OP: And it made for an amusing mental image
Jux Tapose: LOL YES
Jux Tupose: I wonder how that'd go....
OP: Oh no, now I gave you the idea...
*OP facepalms*
OP: She's gonna kill me
Jux Tapose: YES
OP: NO
OP: I WANT TO BE ALIVE
Jux Tapose: I SHALL ADVERTISE MY GENITALS TO HER
OP: O_O
*OP books a flight to Dubai*
Jux Tapose "ALL THIS COULD BE YOURS FOR ONLY ONE SIMPLE PAYMENT OF ASKING YOUR PARENTS FOR A SLEEPOVER"
OP: >.<
*OP thinks Dubai may not be far enough...*
Jux Tapose:"CALL NOW AND WE'LL THROW IN A FREE GLOWSTICK"
*OP dies*
Van doesn't check her FA often so lets hope she doesn't see this before I make my sales pitch
OP: Knowing you, I figured you were going to try to do a 45-second provocative commercial for Van about how HORNY you've been
OP: And it made for an amusing mental image
Jux Tapose: LOL YES
Jux Tupose: I wonder how that'd go....
OP: Oh no, now I gave you the idea...
*OP facepalms*
OP: She's gonna kill me
Jux Tapose: YES
OP: NO
OP: I WANT TO BE ALIVE
Jux Tapose: I SHALL ADVERTISE MY GENITALS TO HER
OP: O_O
*OP books a flight to Dubai*
Jux Tapose "ALL THIS COULD BE YOURS FOR ONLY ONE SIMPLE PAYMENT OF ASKING YOUR PARENTS FOR A SLEEPOVER"
OP: >.<
*OP thinks Dubai may not be far enough...*
Jux Tapose:"CALL NOW AND WE'LL THROW IN A FREE GLOWSTICK"
*OP dies*
Van doesn't check her FA often so lets hope she doesn't see this before I make my sales pitch
Some things i've learned/ figured out
Posted 15 years ago1. Some of David bowie's music makes me cry
2. You never realize phone sex is happening till after it happens. it was her fault, I swear.
3. I love imitation meat and i'm not a vegetarian at all.
4. There were pineapple chunks scattered all over the sidewalk yesterday. I'm pretty sure this was a message from the heavens... my girlfriend pointed out that some honeydew chunks were there too... but I ignored her. (I'm pretty sure Christianity started with a similar situation)
5. Never take your pants off while on the phone (see number 2)
7. arguing with idiots is very fun sometimes. this egotistical douche-bag of a guy in my typical group... well he tryed to say he was better than me in all ways... I then pointed out that I was gay-er than him (in the sane world of people who don't like herms, I'm considered a lesbian) This perfectly straight man, tryed to prove that it was "possible" that he was gayer than me, all for the sake of being right... needless to say everybody around me (GF included) proved him wrong and he said "hay guess what! YOU WIN... you win ONE thing against me! ONE!" I love that guy.
8. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YVIP.....eature=related I'm pretty sure I want to be a faith healer now
2. You never realize phone sex is happening till after it happens. it was her fault, I swear.
3. I love imitation meat and i'm not a vegetarian at all.
4. There were pineapple chunks scattered all over the sidewalk yesterday. I'm pretty sure this was a message from the heavens... my girlfriend pointed out that some honeydew chunks were there too... but I ignored her. (I'm pretty sure Christianity started with a similar situation)
5. Never take your pants off while on the phone (see number 2)
7. arguing with idiots is very fun sometimes. this egotistical douche-bag of a guy in my typical group... well he tryed to say he was better than me in all ways... I then pointed out that I was gay-er than him (in the sane world of people who don't like herms, I'm considered a lesbian) This perfectly straight man, tryed to prove that it was "possible" that he was gayer than me, all for the sake of being right... needless to say everybody around me (GF included) proved him wrong and he said "hay guess what! YOU WIN... you win ONE thing against me! ONE!" I love that guy.
8. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YVIP.....eature=related I'm pretty sure I want to be a faith healer now
Show and tell morphine man at the Wawa
Posted 15 years agoI was getting candy at the Wawa with my mom when this dude comes up to the counter next to me talking very loudly about paramedics and a morphine persciption he need to pick up across town and in his words- "buried in a non-descript location that I'm not really going to reveal"
I didn't think this man was speaking to me but he was and pulls out his bottle of morphine that he had on him
"Now, you gonna see what morphine looks like...*shakes out a single pill into his hand" see that? just a white tablet... just like asprin."
he also talks about the water he bought to take the morphine with and says "bottoms up!" before he drinks it down.
I have no clue why he picked me to come up to... must have been my hot pink bike shorts. Druggies like bright colors.
I didn't think this man was speaking to me but he was and pulls out his bottle of morphine that he had on him
"Now, you gonna see what morphine looks like...*shakes out a single pill into his hand" see that? just a white tablet... just like asprin."
he also talks about the water he bought to take the morphine with and says "bottoms up!" before he drinks it down.
I have no clue why he picked me to come up to... must have been my hot pink bike shorts. Druggies like bright colors.
Sad face :(
Posted 15 years agoDear Universe,
I wish my mom would go back to blissfully ignoring my personal choices and not tell me that I look like a brain-dead idiot when I don't dress loyal to my physical gender, and that my autism is the only reason I want to act like a boy and be "shocking".
yours truly,
Jux the brain-dead hermaphrodite.
I wish my mom would go back to blissfully ignoring my personal choices and not tell me that I look like a brain-dead idiot when I don't dress loyal to my physical gender, and that my autism is the only reason I want to act like a boy and be "shocking".
yours truly,
Jux the brain-dead hermaphrodite.
Buy my shit! (zazzle up and running)
Posted 15 years agohttp://www.zazzle.com/juxtupose <--- do it! now!
it's not much now, but I'm still adding stuff and all that... just wanted to get it up and linked for now
it's not much now, but I'm still adding stuff and all that... just wanted to get it up and linked for now
Ready to be judged
Posted 15 years agomight post this on my tumblr later...
Note: not a rant journal, not a sob juornal.. just a pondering statment juornal i don't need a hug or a tissue... I just wanna say shit.
Art is something I'm good at. you people/fellow aliens/furries know that.... but I am not good at anything but art. I'm good at slacking, being lazy and surfing the web for no apparent reason. I suck at math, and I can do *some* good writing but my grammer, sanity, and sentence structure are far from understandable. AND while I am blessed in the area of creative thoughts for writing, I suck balls when it comes to writing factual good college term papers. I have a fear of drawing naked people and people in general, AND I will never in a million fucking years draw a realistic picture of my human self. Never.
I am going to honor's college at ODU to get a BFA in drawing and design soon and I must prepare for the wave of souless art critiques, the naked models, and those stupid fucked up looks with the tilted comment of "that's.... interesting... and, uh.. different." I've already gotten used to these pricks I run into who upon hearing my goal to become a bizzaro graphic novelist and eventual animator, scoff and say things like "yeah, you and the rest of those arty teens... a career in art is rare and hopeless." yeah Einstein! I know that shit! and it might be really cool and nifty to become a scientist making a ton of money, but I didn't have that choice... when I was born, the universe shoved a crayon in my hand said "HAY! guess what jux? you get to try to have a career in art! that's it! no choice! art is and will be your life FOREVER!" Art is what I do, and I can't do anything else. I am not one of those stupid otaku jokes on DA who say shit like "Getting a job in art is hard but I believe in myself and all you people who say I won't make it can suck a dick when i do! ^^ <3" Nope, I know it's hard, I know I might just crash and burn and never make it... but I gotta try because it's all I can do. Art is everything to me... I just about slapped a hoe when I met my fellow art majors at orientation and one said something along the lines of "yeah, I like art, but it's not my life" WHAT?! you cannot be an art major with that fucking attitude... you'll die.
done rambling... just wanted to say that.
Note: not a rant journal, not a sob juornal.. just a pondering statment juornal i don't need a hug or a tissue... I just wanna say shit.
Art is something I'm good at. you people/fellow aliens/furries know that.... but I am not good at anything but art. I'm good at slacking, being lazy and surfing the web for no apparent reason. I suck at math, and I can do *some* good writing but my grammer, sanity, and sentence structure are far from understandable. AND while I am blessed in the area of creative thoughts for writing, I suck balls when it comes to writing factual good college term papers. I have a fear of drawing naked people and people in general, AND I will never in a million fucking years draw a realistic picture of my human self. Never.
I am going to honor's college at ODU to get a BFA in drawing and design soon and I must prepare for the wave of souless art critiques, the naked models, and those stupid fucked up looks with the tilted comment of "that's.... interesting... and, uh.. different." I've already gotten used to these pricks I run into who upon hearing my goal to become a bizzaro graphic novelist and eventual animator, scoff and say things like "yeah, you and the rest of those arty teens... a career in art is rare and hopeless." yeah Einstein! I know that shit! and it might be really cool and nifty to become a scientist making a ton of money, but I didn't have that choice... when I was born, the universe shoved a crayon in my hand said "HAY! guess what jux? you get to try to have a career in art! that's it! no choice! art is and will be your life FOREVER!" Art is what I do, and I can't do anything else. I am not one of those stupid otaku jokes on DA who say shit like "Getting a job in art is hard but I believe in myself and all you people who say I won't make it can suck a dick when i do! ^^ <3" Nope, I know it's hard, I know I might just crash and burn and never make it... but I gotta try because it's all I can do. Art is everything to me... I just about slapped a hoe when I met my fellow art majors at orientation and one said something along the lines of "yeah, I like art, but it's not my life" WHAT?! you cannot be an art major with that fucking attitude... you'll die.
done rambling... just wanted to say that.
PIZZA BITCH
Posted 15 years agoConvo with ossuarypariah
Jux:what are you eating?
OP:pizza!
Jux:BITCH
Jux:ryan, you are a bitch
OP: YES CALL ME A BITCH BABY!
Jux:what are you eating?
OP:pizza!
Jux:BITCH
Jux:ryan, you are a bitch
OP: YES CALL ME A BITCH BABY!
buuuuuhhhh
Posted 15 years agosorry for not being active lately, my cat Jezmoti's glacoma ruptured yesterday and I spent about three hours in the emegency vets office with my mom. Since we could not afford to have it removed that day at that particular vet (the operation was about $1300 at that office while it would have been $300 at the SPCA down the road) we had to take him this morning since the SPCA was closed yesterday. My mom had to wake up every two hours last night to give him eye drops so it would not get infected, therefore this morning she was not pleasent to be around. But he's getting it taken care of today, so no more issues with poor jezzo's eye.
on top of this I still have t-shirt designs to work on and other shit like that. (I have not forgotten about the art trade that I owe to punkbawkchicken)
AND my misstress Van, who I have not been able to speak to for over a week is going to germany tomorrow for a week, so yeah Juxxy is tired and busy and urrg.
Today I will try to get on top of commenting you guys who required my attention.
I would also like to voice my rage at my favorite library for being closed today- GARRRH! IT'S THE FUCKING 5TH IT'S NOT AMERICA DAY ANYMORE. I WANNA SIT IN YO AIR-CONDITIONED BOOK UNIT AND DRAAAAAWWWWW. Now I must draw in barnes and noble and be taunted by starbucks that I probably don't have the money for. If I do break down and buy some they better have the fucking green tea frap I really deserve.
I hate this country with a passion, I'd like to move to canada. The fireworks I saw yesterday were halfassed and partially hidden behind a building... didn't really care, I only care about the crazy vibration that fireworks give.
The YMCA is also closed.. so my eliptical workout must wait too.
on top of this I still have t-shirt designs to work on and other shit like that. (I have not forgotten about the art trade that I owe to punkbawkchicken)
AND my misstress Van, who I have not been able to speak to for over a week is going to germany tomorrow for a week, so yeah Juxxy is tired and busy and urrg.
Today I will try to get on top of commenting you guys who required my attention.
I would also like to voice my rage at my favorite library for being closed today- GARRRH! IT'S THE FUCKING 5TH IT'S NOT AMERICA DAY ANYMORE. I WANNA SIT IN YO AIR-CONDITIONED BOOK UNIT AND DRAAAAAWWWWW. Now I must draw in barnes and noble and be taunted by starbucks that I probably don't have the money for. If I do break down and buy some they better have the fucking green tea frap I really deserve.
I hate this country with a passion, I'd like to move to canada. The fireworks I saw yesterday were halfassed and partially hidden behind a building... didn't really care, I only care about the crazy vibration that fireworks give.
The YMCA is also closed.. so my eliptical workout must wait too.
Hide your fingers...
Posted 15 years ago... or an alien will come and cut them off and steal them XD
Mizuki Pitmen: Well D has a finger fedish XD
Jux Tapose: haha
Mizuki Pitmen: Thats why he sometimes collects hs victim's fingers if he likes them
Jux Tapose: good lord
Mizuki Pitmen: so theres a room in his lab full of fingers in jars
Jux Tapose: Archi would have to question him on this one
Mizuki Pitmen: well its the whole hand in jar but the part he likes best are the fingers
Jux Tapose :WHY?
does he look at them while he's masterbating?
Mizuki Pitmen: because the fingers don't look right without being attched to the hand
no
Jux Tapose: he should
Mizuki Pitmen: he just likes looking at them
Jux Tapose: and masterbating
Mizuki Pitmen: fine but he likes doing that in the room,
not because of the fingers though
its more of a fixation
Jux Tapose: FINGERBANG
Mizuki Pitmen: only live fingers turn him on
but he still likes the dead ones but just to look at
Blair comes up with the best stuff... no wonder i let her add things to D XD
Mizuki Pitmen: Well D has a finger fedish XD
Jux Tapose: haha
Mizuki Pitmen: Thats why he sometimes collects hs victim's fingers if he likes them
Jux Tapose: good lord
Mizuki Pitmen: so theres a room in his lab full of fingers in jars
Jux Tapose: Archi would have to question him on this one
Mizuki Pitmen: well its the whole hand in jar but the part he likes best are the fingers
Jux Tapose :WHY?
does he look at them while he's masterbating?
Mizuki Pitmen: because the fingers don't look right without being attched to the hand
no
Jux Tapose: he should
Mizuki Pitmen: he just likes looking at them
Jux Tapose: and masterbating
Mizuki Pitmen: fine but he likes doing that in the room,
not because of the fingers though
its more of a fixation
Jux Tapose: FINGERBANG
Mizuki Pitmen: only live fingers turn him on
but he still likes the dead ones but just to look at
Blair comes up with the best stuff... no wonder i let her add things to D XD
OH VAN :V
Posted 15 years agoMe: TELL ME A BEDTIME STORY
Van: BABY SHOE GARAGE SALE
she knows the best stories :B
Van: BABY SHOE GARAGE SALE
she knows the best stories :B
Help please!
Posted 15 years agohey you guys!
I'm going to be launching a Zazzle shop soon, and I want to get a feel for what you guys like. Like, I have a ton of different art pieces, but I'm not sure which ones are the most popular. I have some ideas, but I just want to get a little feedback from you all. so comment away!
what is your favorite thing I've done?
What sort of new art should I make? (more creatures? certain colors? concepts to elaborate on?)
what sort of things would you buy? I know t-shirts are a must.. but how about stickers, buttons, mugs? Zazzle allows me to make postage stamps, but I'm not sure if anyone would be interested in buying them.
oh, and for those curious- http://www.zazzle.com/ this is zazzle... it's kinda like cafe press, just a few more options.
also, here is my DA gallery which is a bit more extensive art-wise: http://abyss-13.deviantart.com/
I'm going to be launching a Zazzle shop soon, and I want to get a feel for what you guys like. Like, I have a ton of different art pieces, but I'm not sure which ones are the most popular. I have some ideas, but I just want to get a little feedback from you all. so comment away!
what is your favorite thing I've done?
What sort of new art should I make? (more creatures? certain colors? concepts to elaborate on?)
what sort of things would you buy? I know t-shirts are a must.. but how about stickers, buttons, mugs? Zazzle allows me to make postage stamps, but I'm not sure if anyone would be interested in buying them.
oh, and for those curious- http://www.zazzle.com/ this is zazzle... it's kinda like cafe press, just a few more options.
also, here is my DA gallery which is a bit more extensive art-wise: http://abyss-13.deviantart.com/
Confessions
Posted 15 years agoYoinked from-
psychweaselTen things I wish I could say to people:
1. Stop judging me, yes I am obnoxious but stop. judging. me.
2. Why can't you see that everybody hates you, you loud self centered bitch.
3. I don't think you're bi, I think you want attention.
4. TAKE A BATH, you fucking smell!
5. Stuff acting like you know what you're talking about when you clearly don't.
6. Stop asking dumb questions about gender confusion, google is made so you can figure things out without blatantly offending somebody.
7. Stop using sleep and meds as an excuse to be lazy, just own the fuck up and take responsibility for your goddamn mistakes!
8. You repeat everything you say and act like a stupid follower who loves everything I say, I know you have a mental illness but please leave me alone.
9. Stop flirting with me, you're a guy. I MAINLY date girls, stop thinking you are an exception, I am not interested.
10. I hope you fail at your future modeling/pyschology career and lose all your riches, you dumb bitch.
Nine things about myself:
1. I talk to much
2. I am very opinionated
3. I'm way too clingy
4. I'm autistic (high functioning)
5. I'm VERY loud
6. I have double joints in my fingers/hands and can bend my fingers vertically without touching them
7. I want to paint everything
8. I obsess over a lot of things
9. I wish I didn't stoop over so much when I walk.. it makes me look mentally retarded
Eight ways to win my heart:
1. Know a foreign language, speak lovey dovey things to me in this language, teach me this language
2. Be an artist, and draw me things.
3. Be androgynous! I LOVE girls who look like guys and guys who look like girls.
4. Talk to me as much as I talk to you.
5. Back me up and join me if I want to do something odd... like walk into public places in weird outfits
6. Give me love punches and restrain me, I like mild bondage
7. Hug and nuzzle me often!
8. Let me paint your body
Seven things that cross my mind a lot:
1. SEX
2. I gotta finish that thing
3. I need to stop rocking back and forth when I do or see things I think are funny
4. Where did this smudge come from?
5. I wonder if _____ is online.
6. what are other people in the world doing at this very moment.
7. Somebody out there is having sex.
Six things I do before I fall asleep:
1. Say good bye to whoever I am talking to online.
2. Put Bella (cat) up in the computer room and make sure she gets treats
3. Make sure Arrow (snake) has water
4. Give Norman (cat) a good brushing
5. Put on my PJs
6. Get my raggy zebra stuffed animal. (I've loved him to bits)
Five places I want to visit:
1. Canada
2. Hawaii
3. Germany
4. Australia
5. San Francisco
Four things I'm wearing right now:
1. A plain black T-shirt (had to wear it for the inprov show my drama class had)
2. A pair of jeans with a robot that my friend Van doodled on it
3. Bright UV orange shoes
4. Dark rimmed glasses
Three musical artists that I listen to often:
1. NINE INCH NAILS
2. And One
3. random bits of rave music.
Two things I want to do before I die:
1. Meet Trent Reznor
2. Be in a protest
One confession:
1. I hesitate to reveal what my real gender is online- I'm gender fluid and I don't like being one or the other, I want to be both. Sometimes I feel like a girl, others I feel like a guy... just the way i am, I don't want to pick.
Ask me stuff
Posted 15 years agoBIRTHDAY TIEM FOR JUX
Posted 15 years agoyup.. just because I'm excited and want to inform everybody. OH, and I got scribblenauts for DS with some of my gift money and it's THE BEST GAME EVAR.
