it has been such a long time since I have been on here... I miss this part of me...

so incase anyone still cares...
cub #2 is great she is almost a year old!
I am working on my CMA and then going to nursing school. and so excited that I changed my life around.

please feel free to still talk to me I miss this part of my life!

I'm feeling it big time... I'm ready to have this one.... It's a girl as well... So I guess we will try one more time... Lol! That's what he thinks!

yep you read that right... i just found out saturday morning that i will be having another little one...
i have lots of mixed emotions on this one... because the boyfriend and i are still together, but we have been trying to save up to buy a house and pay off the last bit of debt that he has so we have a fresh start...
don't get me wrong i am super excited that i am going to be a mommy again and i can give layla a baby brother or sister.. but i was hoping that it would have happened in like 2 years... and we were married and living at our house and settled...
as i was told that day that god gives you signs in strange ways... i feel like this was my sign that he is the one and things will be alright....
because we have been fighting lately...and i kept asking myself is this really worth it... and then here starts the symptoms lol...

so now i am dealing with 24/7 nausea again... i had it with layla and hated it.... and my boobs hurt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and if any of you are on facebook with me please don't say anything because i have yet to tell my dad!!!!! i'm scared....

i have a piece of crap for an ex husband! I swear he treats his daughter like crap. no wonder she doesn't want to go visit or call him!
she wrote him on fathers day... and guess what! he didn't even say aw thanks babe i love you... she got nothing but a broken heart... i swear... this is why i am proud to say that i make a damn good mother and a damn good father!

now he has my dad pissed off... that was the wrong thing to do....

sorry LOL! I can't write this on facebook so i needed somewhere to vent LOL

ever want something you can have? or atleast its not in the cards at the moment??

yeah it sucks...

So much in my life has changed in the past 2 years... Mostly for the better...
just to fill in...
I have met an amazing guy that treats my daughter like she is his own and myself pretty good. My career is getting better! And the start of my shoulder sleeve tattoo that I have wanted for a very lnog time will be getting started in the next few months. (it is to represent my leopard side and is very elegant and graceful)
I broke my foot (tool box fell on it) and it is still healing 8 months later (but I have all my toes!) LOL

And the boyfriend... loves the artwork! I actually see him as a dragon... some times and a pain in my ass at others LOL hmmm a mule dragon hybrid... HAHA

I hope the ones i talked to welcome me back... have to step onto BF one of these days as well...

love you guys!

the more i sit back and just read and look at other peoples lives moving forward and it really seems mine is either at a stand still or going backwards.

I expressed and showed pics on here to a dear friend of mine. i think more to see if he would be like you freak and run away screaming and yet he didn't...
I still keep all of my pictures up of the artwork. and i treasure a few pieces dearly...

But what is the point? I haven't been on the chat in months again... The ones that i used to be so close to are now so distant and the one that i miss the most i haven't talked to in over a month maybe longer.

I just kinda feel lost, like I am loosing myself...

they always say that the peeps that are into the weird stuff are the scary ones.....

UMMM yeah NO!!!

the ones that you would think are normal are the bad ones that you need to move to the other side of the world to get away from...

I mean just wow people lately?? what is up with our generation??

I wanna turn gay seriously... I think I would be safer..

Oh yes that is right! I am starting the design for 3 costumes for AC 2010.

a very faint description of each (just cause I want to tease until I post the pics of each of them)

Costume 1: Leather
Costume 2: prehistoric (to go with the theme of the con)
Costume 3: school girl

possibly a 4th one not to sure yet....

But i am excited and today I bought part of the fabric for one of them and will be working on that for alittle while tonight.

I do think Dres with appreciate the 1st one... so stepping out of my element for that one but i know i will do it!

ok that is all for now!!!

To those that I can't get intouch with right away!!

The cub has made it to Texas safely!! Just landed at 10:30pm. she will be there for 1 whole week visiting her other grandparents!!

This was her first flight all by herself at 5 years old! But she took it like the champ I knew she would! I am so proud of her!

And for in the furture.. is there anyone that is in Texas??? maybe next time she goes I might go and meet up!!! she has her vacation and then I have mine!!

hehehe

#1: I have driven or riden in a Lamborghini Gallardo, an Acura NSX and a Lotus Espirt.

#2: I have cuddled and played with real timber wolves.

#3: I have flown in a helicopter.

I have had people give me all 3 of these....

but here is the truth!!

#1: I have driven in 2 of those 3 cars, I have driven the Gallardo and the NSX but only riden in the Espirt. My old boss has all 3. And just bought the brand new Skyline!!! Cant wait for that one...

#2: When I lived in Tenn and worked as a vet. tech. there was a customer that had 2 timber wolves Kane and Cara. They were like his german shepards... But he would go on long trips and bring them to my work and they got used to me and finally for a while I started to sit in the kennel with them and read books and eat lunch. Until a very bad day where Kane tried to attack my ex mother in law... Since then and after some injuries (will not explain them on here) but they were taken away and no one was seriously wounded. But I loved them both..

#3: Hell no i have never flown in a helicopter.... man I have to take sleepy meds hours before i go on a plane!!! Will I ever go in one though?? I sure hope so!


And paddsy!!! I know I told you the story about them while you were here and we were talking on the couch!!! *glares*

Great job Wyrrn!!!!!!!
And Luna!!!!

I post three things.

2 Facts, 1 Lie.

Take yer pick at which ones are which...and I'll explain later.


#1: I have driven or riden in a Lamborghini Gallardo, an Acura NSX and a Lotus Espirt.

#2: I have cuddled and played with real timber wolves.

#3: I have flown in a helicopter.


OOO which could it be??? choose wisely!!!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1749153

Also a piece of art that I bought at the auction at AC 2009.

I fell inlove with this and stayed at that picture the whole time it was in the gallery and made sure I bought it!!! hehehehe

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2452304

Ok now to corrrect what I did wrong earlier...

 padfootsm bought a copy of this for me at the auction at AC 2009.

it is awesome and beautiful! I am awaiting the custom framing to be finished for it and then I shall hang it up on my wall..

Thank you Paddsy!

THE RULES...
1) Post these rules
2) Post 8 true things about yourself
3) At the end you must tag 8 people and post their icons
4) Go to their page and send them a message saying you tagged them
5) NO TAG-BACKS


1) I am very open to everyone in my life about being furry...
2) I am afraid that I will never been good enough for anyone. Or anything in my life.
3) I will watch any scary movie no matter how scary it is... As long as I have a pillow to cover my eyes and to humm into!! (but now if i am by myself I also have the mute button on the remote!!)
4) I am fully a dog person... but I own a cat????
5) I love to do laundry... only putting it in the washer and dryer! I hate folding!!! Has like 4 loads to fold and put away still..... really bad habit
6) I love being a mom, but sometimes I don't think I am a good parent, since I have to be both. I'm more strict towards her then fun.
7) I love to just stay up late and talk about anything and everything in bed.
8) and.... I hold every single friendship that I have very dear and close to my heart because I do not let alot of people into my life. So I only have a small handful of close friends that i treasure what they say and respect them fully.

9) BONUS! I have found out recently how much into bondage I really am and how much of a freak I potentially can be! (thanks Dres for the long funny talks and to Pads for helping!!! hahahahahaha yeah I posted it! LOL)



Yeah there we go and I am not tagging anyone.. Wanna do it then do it!

Yeah my first journal!!!!

ok as alot may know this was my first con in general!!!
and...
I LOVED IT!!!!

I have never wanted to meet so many wonderful people in my life!
I finally met a wonderful person that i hope stays in my life for a very long time (you know exactly who you are) and then i meet this huge Yena! who lived up to his name! Then i met one of the most amazing artist who is the sweetest guy in the world (Crux)!
I was worried at first about meeting real furries but once i saw my bro Karo as one and then Dresden i knew i would be fine and i loved cuddling and snuggling with them! LOL and dancing with a neon green skunk... LOL
It needs to be longer and i so need to save up more money there was so much stuff there. The art that Pads and i got is amazing and just wonderful.
I want to go to every single AC and all the other cons now.

And yes this kitty so has con depression.

*holds everyone tightly*