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I feel I'm starting to become a failure in being a friend. I keep screwing up with some of my best friends. In more ways than one. It's happened on numerous occasions now, and I don't want to do it anymore.

Part of me just wants to leave them be, permanently for their own good, but part of me doesn't. Even my mate has had enough of it too. I've lost my touch completely. I've pretty much just completely changed. I've become spiteful and hateful towards others and I don't want to be like that, but I dunno. Just... I've changed, dramatically over the last few months.

One moment I'm really nice but then I just change and become really horrible. I don't want this. I don't want to lose friends, but I've already cleared 90% of my friends on steam because of it. I feel like I had to because I don't want to fuck up with any of them either. I just really need help!

I'm a raptor. But others see me as human. I'm not a human, never have been. My parents never listened to me. They always called me crazy and tried to get me help instead. I see the world as it's told to me, unless it's on a digital screen, then I see it all in colour and understand everything. If it's not on a screen, everything is grey. Everything is misted shadows. In order for people to see me how I really am I've had to take matters into my own claws to display this. I was bullied and abused by my parents and school. I never got a good education either. Up to the point I was removed forcefully from my parents home by my parents. A friend let me live with them for a while, but soon turned against me too, saying I was crazy. They too left me forcing me to leave their home and left me homeless. Now, I live with 2 of my best friends. I also fear a lot of things too. Some people mock me for some of them saying they don't even exist. Or you're pathetic. I'm scared of Pteranodons. I always watch the skies whenever I'm out. Fire. ( A candle flame. Match. Lighter. Cooker. ) Guns. Knives. Nets. The dark. Pretty much anything outside until they're described to me. Crocodiles. And thats just a few things. Pretty much anything outside the house, that I havn't got to being familiar with from previous description, I just see as a grey and black mist. The only reason I see the internal of the house clearly is cause I've been here for so long and it has described it to me.