Quick warning this is a ramble

sooooooo. ..
I went to a party last night. I didn't know anyone but the host. instantly I I made friends with everyone, something I've never done before. And then there was this one guy. beautiful. instantly in love with him. why!!.
it was such a great party but I spent the whole night pinning over this one guy who, is fucking straight, and it's like why am I doing this. but at the same time there are sings that may suggest there is something there and the whole night I just kept looking at him kept thinking about him. It was so obvious how I felt and......
Its the next day I'm slightly hungover and I still keep thinking about him but I'm never gonna see him again so what's the fucking point why do I put myself through this shit and why am I such a coward that even when drunk I can't build up the courage to kiss some complete stranger.

The best thing that's happened to me in a while is this film and book. I've not been out for long time and am still struggling to accept myself. But finding Simon vs the homo sapiens agenda helped me feel so much better about myself. just the fact that I related to it so heavily made me fall in love with it.

For example like Simon I started of by talking to some one on the Internet, although we new each other, and like Simon no one thought I was gay and my coming out was stollen from me by some barstard who's name starts with m.

The book helped me feel normal and after seeing the film today for once I'm actually happy and can't wait for the rest of my life. (I realise how cringy that is to read)

Nationality:British
Age:6
Sex:male
Sexuality:straight
Height:4ft1in

Favourite;
Food:SUGAR!!
Sport:rugby (ozy wouldn't allow anything else)
Genre(film/tv):animation
Loves;running, jumping and chasing everything.

Least-favourite;
Food:pineapple(it hurts my tummy)
Sport:football (what's a poff?)
Genre(film/tv):scar movies
Hates;sitting still for long periods of time, not being aloud outside


Blue is the younger brother of ozy. always full of energy it's sometimes hard to calm him down but without him Ozy's life would be boring. Blue is not as smart as his big brother but is already much more sociable and is always brining cheer to the people around him.

Nationality:British
Age:19
Sex:male
Sexuality:gay
Height:5ft6in slightly below average

Favourite;
Food:rare stake(dripping with blood)
Sport:rugby (position 7)
Genre(film/tv):action or musical(is it gay to like musicals?)
Loves;running, science, spending time alone in the dark(don’t judge)

Least-favourite;
Food:roast chicken(it’s just boring)
Sport:football(just a bunch of poffs kicking a ball)
Genre(film/tv):family comidy(like daddy’s home)
Hates;people who walk slow, being unesserserily sociable, vegetables(not some, ALL!)

Ozy is the oldest of two brothers. He is nerdy but sporty, and it’s when he’s on the pitch, chasing the player with the ball, that he feels most alive and is often very loud. However if you met him on any other day you’d find a boring, unsociable prick who would rather spend time alone than with people(definitely no parallels to myself)

Just thought I'd say hello to anyone who looks at my page.
there's not a lot on here yet, but I am constantly drawing new things and when I feel they are good enough they will show up.
Don't really know the point of this journal just thought I'd make it