Hey all...

So here we are again, me disappearing once again after saying I was back. So...where the fuck have I been? Well, mainly I was taking a hard look at myself and asking myself why I was doing the things I do? I started this page at one point as a sort of roleplaying page as sort of...and escape from my real self, so I made up this ubber sexy version of the person I always wanted to be....and that person just so happens to be female.

Yes children, your favorite white bun is a trans, not the character, me, the person typing this journal in the real. It only took me pretenting to be a girl online for ten plus years as a way to destress and as a happy space for me to figure this shit out. In the past seven months, I have come out to pretty much every person in my life and started HRT and am working on presenting as a woman full time. Go figure, huh?

So you all must be thinking now, what is going to happen to this page? At the moment, I have no clue. I used this page and my bunnny version of me as a way to cope...I guess cope with being a closeted trans person for most of their life. I wanna say I will be back soon, but...I honestly can't say if this page will be active hardly at all after I post this.

One thing is clear though, this place and it's community in a way help to find myself and help hold me together while I was still figuring myself out, and that will always mean so much to me. So if you liked my writings and the art I posted....thank you. I thank you because you helped me, even if it might only be in a small way, helped me figure out who I wanted to be.

I don't want to say this is good bye for sure, but...at least for now, I will see you somewhere someday.

I love all of you
~Lily

Hey guys,

I am signal boosting for a close friend of mine. If you like retro gaming or collecting, you may like their channel. Check it out:

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4.....Y4ZLQnH4D64nhg

Hey all,

I think a thing I can do to stay a bit more active is to start spotlighting transformation stories I enjoy, and what better way to kick this off is to highlight a story I hired someone to write for me, and its a doozie.

If you like shemales, BBWs, TG, and ginormous dongs, then this story is for you! Its a slow burn, but it has lots of nerdy shemales BBWs banging, and who could say no to that? ...Well I guess people who aren't into that.....but you know what I mean, shut up...

the author  redstar00 also has lots of other yummy TF goodness, so check out his other works. Enjoy!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26577312/

So I have gathered a little bit of an audience on this page, and I would like to think that a lot of you share my love of written TF porn, and seeing how I am going to soon be diving into doing a lot more of it, I want to take this time to pick your guy's brains a bit.

So...what all do you like in your TF stories? Changes, fetishes, settings... Do you like fast changes? Slow changes? Do you like guys turning into girl or girls turning into better girls?Dicks? No dicks? Do you want to have the characters do some hard core fucking after their changes, or do you like the change more than sex? These are all questions I want to know in order to make my work more appealing.

I am still going to try and keep my work distinctly my work. but I also want to keep my readers' thoughts in mind so we can both be happy. So please, sound off in the comments and tell me what you like. Of course you don't have to if you don't want, but I implore you to not be shy and tell me what's on your mind. I wanna know what get's your juices flowing so I can better help them come gushing out....heh.

So to some this up....tell me what gets you hard/wet, and I might be able to help with that.

Hey all,

So I am back from a long break on FA. I haven't fully been gone from the site, posting comments here and there, but I am going to be coming back in a big way. I am also going to be shaking things up a bit. I am stil going to be your ubber busty nerdy console gamer bun you all know and love...but you may see a bit less Role Play-ish type content you've come to know me for.

So what exactly am I going to be doing instead?

Simply put, written TF porn. I have more or less been doing this already, but again, its going to have less of a sort of Role Play type OC type stories like how I tried to set up. As much as I'd love to be working at a pervy retro gaming store ran and operated by furry wifus, sadly that is not my reality. However, what I do have is a new idea for my own expanded universe where alchemy is a reality, fueling sexual transformation. I have the first two chapters of a story set in this universe coming very soon, so stay tuned for that.

But yeah, I am back and I am excited to be making more sexy TF content for you all. So with that said...


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nkeslh3g1kM

Hey all,

So, I got a code for the newest Shantae adventure on Wii U. I was a backer in this project but I wanted to get a physical version for this game, which leaves me with an extra code. A code which I will give to one of you fine peoples. I could have made it a first come first serve deal like last time, but I thought I would make it a little more interesting this time.

I love reading TF smut, but the problem is I run out of it way too quickly. So how about this, the first person who can link me to a TF story I haven't read before, I will give ya the code. Sound fair? Go right ahead and link the story in the comments or note me.


EDIT: And we have a winner. Congratulations to  artimusthefoxdragon1

I will be doing more of these in the future so keep an eye out.

Looking to Commission TF Stories?  redstar00 is a great writer of TF fiction who is looking to be hired now. I just got some wonderful stuff dun by him. If you want a better idea of how his writing style is, chekc it out. Can't recommend him enough.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21858427/

This is a serious one today guys.

Two close friends of mine on here,  kittybird and  derpdraggy are in a bit of a bind. One of the two is out a job at the moment and are struggling to pay bills and keep food in the house.  kittybird is trying to fill up her commission slots to try and keep things manageable until Derpy can get some new work. Many of the pieces on my page are done by her, so if you want to get some art for relatively cheap consider clicking the link below.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:51346083

Hey all,

Wow, a journal from me, go figure, right? Well its going to be a short and to the point affair this time. Sooo, if you watch me, chances are that you like huge tits like I do. You have to grow to like them if you are stuck with em, right? Well, if you like watching me for that reason, maybe you should check out and maybe even join  bustyfurs

This group was brought to my attention not too long ago and I had to join up. So yeah just spreading the word. Click the link if you'd like.

Much love,
~Lily

P.S. A new picture should be up pretty soonish. Keep an eye out for that.

I am having a new commission transformation series being drawn by  kittybird Comejoin us!

https://www.tigerdile.com/stream/kittybird/

I am straight up in love with this game. It very much lives up to the hype. I must have spent at least 10 hours on this game already, maybe even up to 20. Yeah, money well spent IMHO.

Soooo, I don't know how many of my watchers are Wii U owners, but I really want to start sharing my levels with you guys. If there is an interest, I will start posting the ID numbers to my levels. Let me know if this is something you want to see in the comments.

I has new avatar!

Done by the wonderful  derpdraggy and with help by  kittybird. What do you all think?

*Paws at her computer screen*

I want it... I want it noooooowwwwww!

How does this game keep looking better and better each time I see it. I can't wait until September elev- Really Nintendo? Think you....could have picked a better day to release it on?

Like a week early? pwease?

*bounces*

So I have been thinking it over. I notice there isn't a ton of people really offering story commissions with a transformation theme. The ones I had been following have either been on a very long break or is inactive or just moved on entirely. It got me to thinking, I like writing TFy stuff, I don't have a ton of ideas at the moment but I wouldn't mind being guided in a direction with someone else's ideas.

So...yeah Would anyone be interested in paying me to write TFy smut for them?

Comment! Let me know!

So I woke up this morning to see.....this.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MFZbAIOI3-c

When I first saw the title I got a tiny bit excited. "Oh wow, are they finally going to release Mega Man 9 and 10 in a physical package. Short answer, NOPE! Long answer....no, and its inferior to the Mega Man Anniversary Collection in every way shape and form. It won't even include Mega Man 7 or 8. Forget the fact I own all these games on the Virtual Console on 3DS, so the novelty of having these games on the go is gone, but....this is just lazy and bad. This is going to flop, and do you know how Capcom is going to take this? "Oh, People didn't buy this horrible game collection, the fans must not want Mega Man anymore."

You know Capcom, maybe its not the franchise's fault a shitty product didn't sell, maybe its because you just make half assed crap that you don't even advertise well enough. Maybe its YOUR fault.

Capcom did so well in my eye in the first half of generation 7, then things went down hill. I tried to speak out on the hate being spoken out against you. "Give them time" I said. "Let them turn it around." I told them...but Capcom is starting to reach Konami levels of disdain from me.

If you asked me a year ago if I thought Capcom had killed Mega Man, I would have said that that's the talk of over exaggerated fans. If you asked me now....? I am not so sure anymore.

I just want to take a moment to just gush about how excited I am for this game. Even if I wasn't at all interested in making Mario levels (which I totally am), I would get nearly limitless content with this game. Now I know other games had concepts like this before, like Little Big Planet or even Minecraft....but....I just don't care about those titles. The look, the art direction, the gameplay mechanics just did not jell with me at all. But this? How could I have such a meh feeling towards one kind of game and get so excited I rocket poop myself through the ceiling with another game? I couldn't tell you, but here we are.

Every new bit of content announced for this game gets me more and more excited. Every new enemy or hazard that is added to the game constantly has me thinking about what kinds of levels I want to make using those new pieces...and I want to share my levels with you guys when the game comes out.

I dunno, am I the only one this excited for Mario Maker? Let me know.

A true successor to the legendary Banjo-Kazooie video games is here. Former talent of Rareware have formed a new company and are ready to deliver the goods. Help get this game to consoles!

https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....vival?ref=card

Let the revival of 3D collect-a-thon platformers begin!

So I saw a few people I watch doing this and I thought I would try it out. I know Tuesday is almost over, but I was so tired after work...

Anywho, ask me anything!

So I have had this avatar for quite a while. I really do like things about it, like how my face looks in it, but I have wanted something better for the longest time. I really wanted to get an avatar that is animated. I had an idea of one for a while...one that shows I have a little bounce in my step, if you know what I mean.

I have tried to find an artist that does animated avatars, but I have only found one, and they don't seem to be responding to notes. does anyone know of an artist I can get a slightly naughty animated avatar made up for me?

I wanted to share this video, it pretty much embodies everything I feel about sexuality and how its viewed in media.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gI55CyoPsVU

I am getting really tired of shunning any kind of sexuality in games but letting extreme violence get a free pass. Please watch this video if you feel the same and if you are inclined, support #BoobsNotBlood.

Hey guys,

So, I know in the past most folks didn't really care to read about my thoughts on gaming, but I really wanted to talk about this today. And hey, maybe if you all like this I could talk more about it? Anywho, onto today's rant.

The Wii U....I get it. It really had an awful start. Its first year was simply terrible with hardly anything coming out for it at all. But it isn't 2012 anymore. So many great games for the system, and so many games to look forward to. If Nintendo isn't your thing, then I get it, I am mainly talking about people crying out Nintendoom for nearly 3 years, saying the Wii U is missing out on so many games....yet what does the PS4 have? A bunch of games I can also get on my PS3 and hardly anything else. Why are people praising the system so much when the damn thing doesn't even have its own killer ap yet? That is nearly unheard of! Even the PS3 had Metal Gear Solid 4 at this point in its lifespan. Why are people so okay with the PS4 or Xbox One without any real quality games to call their own. Sure the Wii U had to take a year to get its own killer aps but they AT LEAST have them now.

So many disappointing games for these systems....

Kill Zone Shadow Fall
Dying Light
Assassin's Creed Unity
Rise Sun of Rome
Knack
The Evil Within
Destiny

I can go on and on but you all get my point...and nearly all these games I listed you can get on PS3 or Xbox 360, and in the case of the PS3, you get less for what you pay for, like having free online gaming.

Look I am no fangirl, I keep a level head about these things, I WANT a reason to buy a PS4....but they are not giving me a reason to buy one. Only Ys 8 is convincing me to think about buying one, and even then I am not sure if this game will even come out here in the states. At the very least the Wii U gives me reasons to keep playing. I am happy I made the investment. Can someone please tell me why the PS4 can get away with releasing nothing but middle of the road mediocre games, up scaled PS3 games, or remasters of games that came out a year ago....because I honestly don't know why they can.

What are you really missing out on by not buying a PS4 right now...? because I am not seeing it.

Hey everyone,

So, this is going to be a little bit of a serious journal today. This is a subject that has been on my mind for a very long time. I didn't really want to bring it up because I didn't really want to make a fuss over it, but a few things happened recently that made it hard for me not to talk about it. So here I go.

For those who can tell, I have a pretty ridiculous body. That isn't to say that I dislike the way I look, not at all, quite the opposite, I love who I am. And I am not hiding anything, I have a very healthy apatite for sex, that's no secret. I know looking the way I do is going to warrant some unwanted attention, but....its comments from others I know that really gets to me. I get a lot of people who ask me why I don't work in porn or ask me if I am going to get into stripping because of how I look....I have to tell them that just because I look a certain way doesn't mean I am going to let sex dictate my life. Most back down after I say that....but I can't help but think they think of me as nothing but walking boobs. I kind of expect that from strangers, but from people who know me better? It just kind of hurts. Its not just off handed comments like that either, I have had many people who look at me with disgust because of my body. I try to ware normal conservative clothing at work for the most part, so its simply based off of how I look that I get some ugly looks and (on occasion) nasty comments.

I think the worst was a canine anthro who saw me stalking shelves at work, came up behind me with her hands on her hips and told me "You are a disgrace to anthros everywhere. You should be ashamed of yourself." and stomped out afterwards. I promise you, I was wearing something tasteful too, my normal sweater and knee length skirt combo I wear on most work days. So to her, she felt obligated to say this to me, only because I am very well endowed.

So.....I guess all I really want to say in this journal is....I am a normal girl. I might post sexy pics here and their, I might have some steamy stories to tell some times, and I may look the way I do...but I have more to me than that. I am a gamer, I love just hanging out with friends, I love swimming and biking and the theater. I love playing DnD and trying new food and new things in general...I also love my body and I love sex, It would be silly to say that isn't who I am, but that's not ALL of who I am. And I not going to be shamed by who I am either, letting others tell me how I look is wrong or bad, or me enjoying my sexuality is wrong or bad.

I love who I have become, and I wouldn't want to change a thing about me.

I guess that is all I wanted to say. Thank you all for reading all of my journals thus far...and for venting today. And for anyone who feels the way I did, just remember who you are and love who you are.

~Lily

Hey guys.

I am in a stream with  Kittybird to try and raise money to help  derpdraggy come watch us stream some games and maybe donate. I am there in a skype call to. So please come join us!

https://furstre.am/stream/Kittybird

Hi everyone,

So yeah, I am going to be pulling back the curtain a tiny bit for this journal, doing a OOC type post here....won't happen too often but I really wanted to get my thoughts about this out there if I could....seeing how I don't know too much about this subject.

So I wanna bring Lily more to life than she is at the moment. I wanted to get a fursuit made of her. Seeing how I am very clumsy with my hands and trying to take on a project like this would more than likely lead to poor results, I would like to hire someone to help me make this fursuit. However, seeing how I have NO IDEA where to look, I would like to bring this to you guys to see if any of my watchers knows of any fursuit makers that isn't too shy on making more...erm...sexualized characters. My inspiration for this is seeing Roxikat and her brilliant and awesome looking fursuit. I realize that her creator rarely if ever dawns the suit anymore, but Roxi was still an inspiration none the less. So I would want to make a suit in that same kind of style.

If any of you guys knows of anyone who they can point me in t please please please comment or send me a note with some info. If anyone doesn't know any info but would still like to help, I would appreciate it if you made a journal linking back to this one.

Thank you for reading, guys. There will be more coming soon.
~Lily

Hey guys,

Not the huge Update I still owe all of you, but there is going to be a stream at 12 PM PST today that I will be appearing in via a skype call with  Kittybird. So If you all wanna hear what I sound like, or see a talented artist draw things, come on down.  Kittybird also takes commissions too, so keep that in mind. One last thing, the art she draws is PG in nature, so try and keep conversation about at that level.

Hope to see you there!

Link: http://www.livestream.com/Kittybirdandhershineys