Hello everyone!

It's officially holiday season from now until January in the States so I'm letting commissioners know work is going to be slowing down a bit.

Secondly, come December, my husband and I will be moving so work will be slowing down even further. We were supposed to start moving this month (slowly) but the person living in the other house refuses to leave until the 1st despite prior agreements, so that's fine. The house needs some repairs and maintenance so that's going to take a lot of my time. Not to mention, it's going to be winter and then things like paint jobs and washing the carpets/walls will take longer to dry. I apologize.

Moving is an awful experience and I'm so tired of doing it BUT it also means that I'll have some space away from my abusive dad again and I'm so looking forward to that. Due to the move, commission slot openings will be scarce since I don't want people to wait a long time for their art to be done, so please consider supporting me on patreon instead, where there's discounted slots open! I just wanted to let folks know work will be slow on all fronts due to packing, cleaning, maintenance, and moving, so when we get a set date for all that, I'll update.

As the journal states!

My prices have officially jumped up yet again. Things are getting costly here, but I'm still job hunting and bills/rent need to be paid.

For the foreseeable future, I'll be doing adopts and YCHs as well as commissions on top of the usual Patreon stuff.

AS PROMISED, all commission slots on Patreon/Subscribestar will NOT be raising to match my current prices, keeping them at the same amount as now. So if you're a frequent commissioner, I recommend pledging to those tiers soon.

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Secondly, I am going to be moving soon! My sister bought a new house, so I'll be taking over the lease from her other house. However, because of this, my bills will be increasing since I'll be paying 'proper rent', as well as having utilities in our name. Because of THIS, I'll be needing to open for more comms monthly to afford rent. We have a roommate that'll be moving in but it won't be until next year so work will be excessive and then lessen slightly as we get another body to help pay.

I don't have the exact move-in date yet, as we need to get the place clean and inspected and all that but it'll probably be December/January. Obviously, work will be slow then as we move stuff over/get internet, so I'm asking for some serious patience in the coming months <3

Obviously, we're all happy FA is back after the hack, but like everyone else, these are the places you can find me:

https://lilythekitsune.sofurry.com

https://x.com/lilythekitsune

https://bsky.app/profile/lilythekit.....ne.bsky.social

https://www.weasyl.com/~lilythekitsune

https://discord.com/invite/KtzTCJug4t

https://www.patreon.com/lilythekitsune

https://subscribestar.adult/lilythekitsune

https://itaku.ee/profile/lilythekitsune

You can also contact me for any inquiries at Lilythekitsune@gmail.com

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Also, please be sure to follow me on Twitch if you like cozy farming games or watching me get bullies by my entire family and friend group. I do art stuff there on occasion AND for every 60 followers I get, I do an art giveaway. For every T3 sub, I also do a thank you headshot. Do NOT feel obligated to subscribe, but I would love a follow from you.

https://www.twitch.tv/ignightroad

So. As the journal says.

My mom was supposed to come visit for my birthday in June, but then she told me she couldn't because her lungs were getting scanned and they had to wait for the results. She saw another doctor in July and the results finally came back. She's got lung cancer. The doctor is going to discuss chemo and treatment going forward but...

I lost two friends this year to cancer, in April, and recently in July. Both very young, very talented people with their whole lives ahead of them. I lost both grandparents to it, and my best friend's mom has breast cancer right now. between this news, still handling the affairs from my uncle's sudden death in January, and more, it's been tough here.

I was already going through some stuff and that's why art's been so slow, but I want to apologize for being absent. It's been one blow after another. I'm not asking for prayers or anything, but maybe if you could send a little positive vibes my way? And please, if you smoke--quit. It's not worth it. I'll try and update when I can but I don't know much. My mom didn't even tell me; I had to learn by overhearing my dad. Anyways, I'm going to try and handle what I can. Please forgive me if things are slow for a while, it's a lot to process and I'm not really in the right mindset before all of this.

Thank you, everyone, it really means a lot! Today was boring and uneventful, but it's another year around the sun and my dog's birthday too. She got a little cookie cake (for dogs) and I split it between the two.

Despite the quiet, I had a really good day, all in parts to my fans who cheered me up today, thank you!

To another year!

I have a FREE poll up for Patreon. You do NOT need to pledge to vote but you may need to follow the account to do so.

If Patron's Choice wins, I'll choose the ones with the most likes, put them in a poll, and decide from there.

You have 1 week (June 5th) to decide!

CLICK HERE TO VOTE

As the journal says!

Only asking because it gets NO views on Twitter and the comments/faves lately on Furaffinity have been abysmal. Even the people who've commented on the other pages haven't even touched the new ones and I don't know if they saw them yet or not. I've started posting the pages a little bit early to the public to see if maybe the wait was a bit too long.

I can't help but think maybe the comic's just bad? Or maybe the past pages haven't been all that great? The Patreon comments are next to nothing lately, too. I really want to finish it strong since we got a few pages left but I hope it's just me being paranoid. I know likes/views/comments/retweets aren't everything, but when algorithms have sucked and when I feel people aren't reading on any other site than Xitter, it's a bit disheartening.

Anyways, not to whine and moan, I was just unsure if folks HAVE been reading and have maybe just been shy or maybe people haven't caught up yet (or nuked their whole gallery and had no idea I even posted a new page a few days ago). This isn't meant to be a pity party but more of me putting my finger on the pulse and seeing if it's still alive and well in people's minds.

https://x.com/Lilythekitsune/status.....763781788?s=20

Here's some photos and evidence of the surgery! She had it yesterday and stayed overnight, and we picked her up earlier. She's still drugged out and tired but she's eating and drinking just fine. Currently, she's laying behind me and fast asleep. She gets her drainage tube removed in about 5-7 days and then her stitches in about 10-14 depending on how the wounds look when we get the tube out.

Furries have been so fucking generous for me and my family for years and this was no different. This was the biggest fundraiser I ever had to ask for and I want to tell people thank you. Especially  vawlkus who singlehandedly basically gave me their whole savings to make this happen. we paid for the deposit yesterday ($3500) and the rest today, as well as her pills and painkillers. Thankfully, the vets don't charge to get stitches and such removed so that'll help us out a ton in the long run.

As stated, work will be slow since I gotta keep a close eye on her for the next three days but I'll be working on the growth drive, Patreon work, and more as soon as I can. I want to thank everyone for spreading the word and donating, whether once or several times, and I want to thank everyone for being so patient with me the past year being annoying with the fundraiser posts and reminders. it DID work though since her surgery was paid for. And a huge thank you to the vets who took care of Sundance and did her surgery, they did such a good job and I can't thank them enough for taking her in in literally a week after we got the funds.

Hello everyone!

A little bit further, but around this time last year, my dog went into a vet clinic for a surgery consultation on her lipoma. We were told to give her a CT scan, which cost us $3,200 and then we were told we'd need to pay $5,000 roughly for surgery. These images have since been posted to her Gofundme as evidence of the surgery and estimated costs. It took us a year of crowdfunding/fundraising and today we were able to get her surgery reconsultation. The vet who did the CT scan took another look at her lipoma and said it looked roughly the same size so there wouldn't need to be another CT scan though he 'highly recommended it'.

However, due to the fact it took us over a year to crowdfund and due to the fact *everything* is being inflated in the economy, we were told it could be an extra thousand dollars. We were also told that her surgery will be Tuesday, October 31. Obviously less than a week is NOT enough time to make a thousand dollars BUT we're going to contact the billing department and see if maybe we could do a payment plan for the last thousand we didn't know we'd owe. Due to everyone's work in sharing and donating, we were able to make the $5,000 needed FOR the surgery, but the new $1,000-ish needed...definitely not lol. We're gonna see if maybe we can take out a loan from the bank since we don't have a good credit score for Care Credit/Scratch Pay (hence the fundraising to begin with).

I STILL HAVE A GROWTH DRIVE ONGOING IF FOLKS WANT TO HELP US TRY AND RAISE THAT LAST THOUSAND.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52355963/

However, I want to let folks know she IS getting her surgery and I cannot thank people enough for helping. a HUGE shout out to  vawlkus who singlehandedly dropped SO much money to help us out. You're such a wonderful person and I cannot thank you enough. And for the folks who couldn't donate but still shared the Twitter and Gofundme, I want to give you all a huge thank you as well. Without spreading the word, people wouldn't know about the fundraiser.
https://www.gofundme.com/f/sundances-tumor-removal

I want to apologize ahead of time since I'll probably be slow with art in November. She'll be recovering for around two weeks and we'll be going to the vet office a lot to get her stitches and drainage tube out as well as checkups.

Hello!

It's been...almost a year since I rebooted the series. I'll be honest, most of that time I was busy, but now that things are gradually slowing down, I wanted to discuss the comic and my plans moving forward.

Firstly, I'm still working out some details of the plot. I wanted it to be a reboot in the fact that it's going to be similar TO the original but enough of a reboot that the old plot is overhauled into something fresh and new. There will be nods to the old plot of course; already we've see the tree and we're back at Hazardone. But here's the problems I hit along the way I need to rectify.

1. Characters.
Patreon folks will be able to be in cameos of course, but I needed permanent cast members. Since I only own...three of my original characters, I had to make a whole new cast. I'm still finishing up designs and keeping them under wraps though I'd like to show off their designs soon.

2. Costs.
I'm debating making this comic Patreon exclusive. Not to paywall it but the reason that I'd like to wean away from commissions and do comics full-time. A comic page a week would give me 2 Hellish and 2 Chemical updates monthly, until Hellish is done of course. I'd like to, at least, make enough money to pay my bills and focus on the comic itself. I did post the first 2 pages to gauge people's reactions and a few seemed excited and in disbelief.

3. Plot.
As mentioned, I wanna make the plot unique and make some little nods to the old one. Considering the last comic was about Talon's family--of which I own...anybody anymore--it wouldn't make sense for the drama to be about them again. I still have a few loose ends and I wanna make sure that this comic actually feels fun to read. I want it to be MORE about the immortals and werewolves and less about Talon as the center if it makes sense.

Regardless. I'm sorry it's been so long. Sadly, I probably won't have a page up until September as I'm super busy this month with some timed projects and commissions. I also got a job for the first time in a few years and it doesn't start until August. I hope that this'll help me get a little healthier and offer me the funds to be able to pay for my dog's surgery and get re-diagnosed for anxiety disorder. I have not been well for....a long time.

But the TL;DR is I'll be posting some snippets on Patreon in the coming weeks and I hope you're all excited to see the new comic.

I know folks have been eager for comic updates and I'm here to yet again explain where they are. I am not in the slightest upset when I type these words, I just want to clarify for everybody some things since a lot of folks are out of the loop.

Firstly: FOLLOW ME ON TWITTER. I am way more active there than FA.

Secondly: FOLLOW MY DISCORD. Most of it is out of access unless you're a Patreon patron but I still post updates everybody can see.

Thirdly: BE PATIENT.

All I can say right now is that a lot of bad things have been happening in my life lately. A family member suddenly died the other day, my dog has a tumor the size of a football that turned out to be six total tumors that needs to come out that I've been crowdfunding for, my health has taken a sharp decline over the past few months and I need to wait for January for insurance to kick in, and other such issues at home. I am overloaded with commissions I'm very behind for, I'm even MORE behind on Patreon rewards, and I want to try and get a minimum of two comic pages out a month on Patreon. I have not been successful last month and this month I am praying is not the same.

The short and long of it, as it's always been, is this: IF YOU WANT COMIC PAGES FASTER, PLEDGE ON PATREON. MORE PATRONS MEANS LESS COMMISSION WORK I NEED TO TAKE, WHICH MEANS MORE TIME TO UPDATE AND DEVOTE ENTIRELY TO COMICS.

it's been this way since Chemical Attraction. It's been this way since I started Hellish Delights. I make very little on Patreon and so I need to supplement my income with commissions, which in turn gives me LESS time for comics, which in turn makes people less likely to pledge. Do you see how the cycle works for the worst?

Now, as always, the comic tier is $8 a month. If you want to see the pages even FASTER, you can pledge to the $15 tier and get some free art out of it as well. I am doing everything I can to work but life is constantly kicking me when I'm down. I was doing so good and now I'm back to my old ways because I simply don't have the time or energy to draw even for myself. Church's ref sheet took me two months to finish for crying out loud.

TL;DR: Comic pages are coming but if you want to support them and read them months in advance, please support me on Patreon.

Hello hello, everyone.

Firstly, I want to say a huge apology for work being so slow in November. I got really sick towards the mid/last half and then there was holidays (which I couldn't attend anyways). And when I started feeling better, I'd get hit with waves of vertigo at the computer and it made things hard to focus on when the room was spinning. So, I got what I could done but admittedly it wasn't much. I wanted to get some comic pages and Patreon stuff done this month but sadly the world was against me. I'll be doing what I can to catch back up on work ASAP and I apologize for those who expected a productive month--I did too.

Secondly, my dog had her bloodwork done yesterday and her CT scan today. We've been in and out of the hospital for a few days straight with her and it's been stressful. We just got her a few hours ago and she's doing alright. She's very lethargic and took her medicine with some difficulty. She also was drinking water and fell asleep INTO the water and choked a little but she's been breathing fine. They had to make some incisions to check all of her tumors since the main one that weights three pounds apparently has more underneath it and they couldn't reach it. So they did two cuts and needle biopsies. Then, they got the results back from her blood tests and I don't recall exactly what the vet said, but one of her blood levels was massively high, at a 15, when most cats and dogs are around 1-10 max.

So...yeah. Thanks to everyone who donated, we afforded the CT scan but now's the issue of raising the 6,000$ for surgery. I am still open for commissions and I am also hosting a Gofundme, which you can find here:
https://gofund.me/09585f71

If you've been following me on FA or Twitter, you know that I've been trying to raise money for my dog's lipoma removal. A few months back she was diagnosed with a large one and it's gotten bigger. So I saw a surgical consultation vet today and it was palpated and biopsied and was found to have 'brown and black gunk' in it with 'little to no fatty cell tissue'.

From what I was told, the lipoma has been squashed downwards to her chest, where a larger tumor has grown atop of it, leading to that large mass that you can see from the photos. Because of the size of it, it's 'endangering her chest cavity' and if left untreated, could either become cancerous OR she'd need her front leg amputated, which is healthy otherwise.

Originally, she was only going to need roughly $3,000 for the surgery but now it's closer to $9,000.

She needs a CT scan to see how big the mass is and if it's safe to operate--and if so, WHERE they can operate and how deep--and then of course the surgery itself. I was denied for Care Credit and Scratch Pay, the only pet insurance payment plans they accept, so I either pay out of pocket, or nothing gets done.

Currently, I'm putting a chunk of every commission away, and all of my Patreon money for the month, but this will still take me over a year to afford on my own. I only make around 10-12k a YEAR and if the surgery is 9k, it's impossible to afford. I merely ask that if folks can't pay to spread the word as time is of the essence. Discord servers, telegram servers, your own FAs, Facebooks, Instagrams, Tiktoks, whatever have you. I don't want her to lose her leg and I definitely don't want her to lose her life so soon, she's only 8. I'll be opening for some adoptables in the coming days to try and make some cash while I finish my queue, and then open for wing-its when I have more wiggle room.

I want to say thank you to everyone who's already donated and spread the word, and I ask for only a bit more help:

https://www.gofundme.com/f/sundances-tumor-removal

https://twitter.com/Lilythekitsune/.....90762786848768

Want to preface this by saying it might be very rant-y and isn't important though I'd like people to read it, anyways.

Over the past twelve years, I've taken commissions. It's no surprise I'm disabled, and truthfully, it's the only job I can get. I've never been very helpful to my family because I make meager savings, and I always owe so much in taxes at the end of the year, I spend the next year paying it all off. Freelance is tough, and people always say 'but you draw for a living it can't be that difficult." And...in some ways, it's not. But in a lot of ways, it is.

I've mentioned for the past, maybe five years now, that I've been burnt out. Art used to be fun and it's now such a chore. I'm always drowning. I can never get ahead of work, I can never stockpile enough comic pages or get Patreon rewards out and clients are stuck waiting months for commissions when I used to do them in a day. And truthfully, I don't find my art appealing. It always feels so flat, so lifeless, I couldn't even pick it out of a crowd. But I don't know how to fix it. I've watched tutorials, studied from artists I enjoy, gone back to basics--nothing. It all feel so...wrong. Some people say it's because you're about to 'level up' with your art and your body is stuck trying to find out the next step and maybe that's it. I think it's more than likely the burn out.

Even lately with wing-its, I haven't felt much joy in them. People are getting upset they're artistic freedom and others are getting upset at the prices when I used to be so 'cheap'. I keep trying to 'budget' myself and make schedules, so that I don't bite off more than I can chew, but it's been insanely rough. Between my dog needing surgery and moving back home to an awful work and living environment, and my own medical and mental health issues, it's nigh impossible to feel happy or even proud of my work.

I keep angering clients and I keep dropping Patrons like flies and I know it's my fault. I can only apologize and promise to work harder but the tide is getting higher and I'm up to my neck in water. I can't take a break and recuperate because I have bills to pay and I can't just sit and study and do tutorials and such for myself because then people get mad I'm relaxing. I also have to stream full time and that just makes people more upset because I'm 'gaming' when I should be working--which I am. I'm frustrated and exhausted and I don't know what to do.

Now, I want to 100% be clear I am not blaming clients or Patrons. This is not their fault and they have every right to be upset with me. I've dropped the ball so badly since May and I'm STILL catching up on stuff from the move. I also need to work on commissions and comic pages and that takes up an annoyingly long amount of time, made double when I can hardly pick up a pen these days. Between the exhaustion, the burn out, the arthritis, and the fatigue, it's an ugly cocktail.

But the point of this journal is to say there might be changes soon. I might stop taking commissions for a while or open up a new type for my own sanity. Maybe some B/W sketches or something cheaper than wing-its. Maybe just do YCHs for a while or adoptables, focus on those while I do Patreon stuff, I'm unsure. The point is, I've been unhappy for a long time and I don't quite fit in with the fandom. I stopped making friends since every one I DID befriend either backstabbed me or just made me feel like shit, only used me for collabs or freebies and then left when they got someone better. As such, it's been lonely and I've felt detached from the fandom and I think it's affecting my work. I've holed myself up and tried not to let out too much personal info cuz folks love using it against me in the end.

I just wanna draw and make art people enjoy and honestly, it feels like I can't even do that right lately and I'm sorry. This isn't meant to be a pity party but an explanation. I AM sorry, for taking forever and for maybe letting folks down with their commissions they've received. However, I want to say thank you to all for donating to help Sundance and for being wonderful patrons and fans. Every like and comment means so much to me and I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart. I hope I can find a way to alleviate some stress and bounce back soon.

Hello everyone.

First off, just wanna say that this journal isn't an emergency or anything dire. However, it's important that I try and discuss it as soon as possible because things have gotten...difficult? Yeah, we'll go with difficult.

So, for starts, I turned 30. Not really an issue or anything but I'm 30 and I feel as though I haven't done anything in my life. I'm disabled, I have no IRL friends, and I can't drive (due to the disability) and can't get a job for the same reason. It's why I've done commissions for the past decade plus. It's all I CAN do and all I COULD do. A few years ago when I moved back home, you might remember I opened for emergency commissions what felt like every single week. I charged pennies for my art and we couldn't make ends meet. People harassed and attacked me over this and I still haven't really recovered. What do you do when you just never have money, and the times you DID have a little extra, you got scolded for buying something small?

Lately, things have been better. My Patreon is slowly taking off (thank you all so damn much!) and bills are...still a bit difficult but I feel everyone's in that boat thanks to the pandemic. I lost my house I was renting, I had to move states, and then things got so bad that I had to move back home because even with a roommate and my husband working full-time and me doing comms, we couldn't afford a one bedroom apartment in the slums. My dad lost HIS dad and since then he's been drowning in bills and a back injury has left him unable to work nothing more than small jobs, but they don't pay the bills.

Now, you're probably like "okay money is tight for everyone, what's the issue?"

Believe it or not, it's not about the money. I'm used to struggling, and lovely furries always come along and help me should I need to open for a comm here or there.

My main issue is...burnout.

Rather, it's more like...I don't WANT to draw. I know I need to, it's my job, but lately I just can't concentrate. Everything feels stale and weak and my art, while improving, just never really stands out? I just think that if my art was on the front page with a bunch of other artists', I wouldn't be able to tell the difference. Plus, with how hostile fandom is, I'm too afraid to draw MOST of the stuff I want to, for fear of being accused of being this or that. I'm already on a few furry watchlists, I don't wanna be on any more for things I'm not or haven't done. But...alas. Obviously, I'm working on commissions and Patreon stuff but it kind of feels like...I dunno.

I guess the easiest way to explain it is I've fallen out of love with the furry fandom. I don't connect with my characters, I don't have any friends in the fandom these days, and whenever I think about trying to branch out, I just don't feel welcome or wanted. I've lost so many friends over the past years and while most of it was my fault when I was in tough times and snippy, the other half was just...circumstance. Friends move on and separate, and some friends moved on to greener pastures, or only use Telegram. I've tried to be more known and get out there but I'm shockingly shy and don't really feel like I should speak in a conversation unless I'm invited or pinged (which yeah, explains why I never answer folks--I truly don't see messages otherwise).

I don't have fun drawing furry stuff anymore and I know I need to to survive. But what do I do when my hands and mind and heart don't wanna all work together? I don't feel like I can work on commissions if my heart isn't in it and I get so paralyzed with 'why bother?' that I get behind on work. I tried my best to catch up after I moved and was a few weeks behind but the gap got wider and wider. I owe Patreon rewards from months ago and I don't know if I'll ever catch up. I don't like letting people down, and I definitely don't like feeling like a failure.

I tried branching out. I joined other fandoms, I started trying to draw fanart and art for myself. I'm even a Vtuber now and stream on Twitch! But, I don't know, I just really don't feel all that comfortable, safe, or happy in the furry fandom. I don't feel like my art's good enough to impress people or get me noticed. I've been on FA and Twitter for YEARS and my numbers have barely gone up. People stopped commenting and favoriting, people only care about the comic pages (which is fine!) but it's just a reminder that I'm behind on Patreon work. I try and play games and unwind but I have people DMing me about updates for the comic, or asking during streams (which I want to be distanced FROM my furry life--PLEASE stop calling me Lily on stream) and I just get tired.

I'm afraid. I don't know of what, just that I am. I can hardly pick up a tablet pen these days. My art's feeling stagnant, people don't ever seem all that happy about it anymore, and honestly social media's got me feeling useless. 800 watchers after TWELVE YEARS? That's all I have to show for it...? Twelve years of drawing comics and porn and commissions and I only have 800 watchers on Twitter? To be honest, it's heartbreaking. I feel useless. I feel like others are way better and there's no denying that. I'm just TIRED.

I want the art vibes to return to me. I want to draw again and be happy, make some friends, be PROUD of a canvas. And yet, I can't. I'm burnt out. I'm exhausted. I'm drained creatively. And I don't know what to do. What DO I even do?

I guess, the gist is: what do you do when you no longer are happy with the thing that BROUGHT you happiness but you can't take a break because it's your livelihood.

Gonna be streaming shortly on Twitch.

Any donations today will be going towards my dental work on Tuesday. Any donations will ALSO be getting your username marked as a follower in Cult of the Lamb.

I'm very close to hitting my next follower milestone and I'd love to have you with me!

http://www.twitch.tv/ignightroad

PATREON UPDATES:

--Catch up on monster-tier rewards from before the move.

--Finish commissions from before the move (COMPLETED August 5th)

--Get two Hellish Delights pages up (roughly 28% done with both pages)

--Get the Chemical Attraction cover done (roughly 35% done)

--Get the first Chemical Attraction page done (roughly 15% done)

As always, my DMs on Discord are open as are FA notes. Please do not message me on Patreon's messing or Twitter as I hardly get notifications I have messages from those two.

I'm doing my best to get caught up on work while also streaming almost daily and working on projects outside of the furry fandom. I'm also busy this month with dental appointments and the heat is so bad in my non-AC room that my working time is basically chopped entirely otherwise. Currently sitting at a cool 87.4F as I type.

Again, thank you all for the patience. I'm doing my best to speed draw and not hurt myself. Kitsune tier rewards will resume in September, but before that, please remember you all have access to comic pages before the Hellhound tier as compensation for my inconveniences.

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GENERAL UPDATES:

August and September are gonna be full of a lot of works.
As I mentioned before, all comics are funded by Patreon patrons and will be posted to the public around 1-2 months after their original post date on Patreon.
You can read both Hellish Delights and Chemical Attraction for as little as $8 a month. That's two large coffees or less than a pack of cigarettes.
Kitsune Tier ($15) both get rewards AND can read the pages several days before Hellhound tier.

Anyways, yes. As I've stated, Chemical Attraction IS coming back. However, it's not going to be ANYTHING like the original save for Hazardone Laboratories. Reason being is, well....I sold almost all the characters minus Raxx. Now, I HAVE been given permission from the owners that I can still use some of the characters, but I would feel bad selling them and their likeness just to use them again for financial gains.

I'm still hammering through the story details; I want to actually write the story out before just making pages like before. I had a vague idea of what the story was and where it was going but I got too ambitious and sometimes....didn't know WHERE the plot was going. I made shit up, I dug myself into a hole. Hell, Chitsume wasn't even supposed to BE in the comic other than a flashback. Instead, he slowly became the main focal point. I don't wanna get stuck in this problems again so I'm going to be storyboarding and coming up with a full plot. I don't THINK it's gonna be 130+ pages this time, it might just be one chapter.

I am also still working on Were-Lily. I want to do a more traditional werewolf style story with transformation as the focal point as I've never done that outside of commissions and some pages in Chemical Attraction. I want to do something like that for once, perhaps black and white also.

FINALLY: Chemical Attraction will most likely be given a new name. Though it DOES appear to be more fitting for the new story, I also don't wanna do, like, 'Chemical Attraction Reboot' or whatever. It might change or it might not.

Either way, the chapter cover and perhaps the first two pages will be posted to Patreon this month. I look forward to seeing your reactions to it and Talon's new appearance.

YOU CAN KEEP UP WITH ME ON TWITTER: http://www.twitter.com/lilythekitsune

Rusted doors creak open.
The smell of grass and fresh water fills your senses.
Above you lies a massive, gnarled tree.
Though there's no open sky, the leaves rustle gently in a phantasmic breeze.
You inhale, the scent of a strange pollen clinging to your lungs.
It smells warm, like Summer, but somehow you know that's not right.
You step closer, grass bending beneath your sneakers.
And then it hits you: despite how bright it is, you know you're inside. You know it's night time.
And when you peer skyward, you see it: the moon, full and beautifully golden.
Your wrist itches, but when you go to scratch it, something blocks your nails.
A paper tag, with your first and last name, date of birth, and...
How fertile of a species you are.
You swallow roughly and look around and though there's nobody there, you feel eyes on you from all angles.
Your fingers tremble as you try to take off the tag but you can't.
You signed a waiver, it's all coming back to you now.
You stare down at your paper hospital gown and feel a chill run down your spine, a cool bead of sweat making you quiver.
Somehow, you know you asked for this...

And I'm 30 and very old now!

Today is a very bleak day as an American but I want to thank you all for the birthday wishes and all the love over the years. I've drawn my whole life, but have been doing commission for 12 years. I want to say thank you to everyone who used to/currently reads my comics, who commissioned me or donated when I needed it the most, who keeps my Discord server active, and for those who check in on me.

I cannot say thank you enough for all the love over the years and I hope I can continue to make people happy with my art. I'm very sorry things have been slow, I'm still settling in down here and a few of my recent comms are surprises so I haven't been able to upload to Patreon yet. But I hope that you all have a wonderful day and I'll continue to do my best to make artwork you'll all enjoy!

Also, psst, it's my dog's birthday a well, she turned 4!

PLease be sure to follow me on Twitter and Discord, I've been more active there and also been updating folks with stuff much quicker. I also stream through Discord sometimes and have been doing free art YCHs on Twitter (none recently since I'm currently busy catching up on pre-move art)

http://www.lilythekitsune.twitter.com

https://discord.gg/KtzTCJug4t

Hey all!

Made the 40+ hour journey safely. I returned home and am in the process of making sure our belongings are cockroach-free (thanks shitty apartment owner) and will be cleaning such. I also need to unpack everything, settle everything that needs to be done when you move such as DMV for a new ID, etc etc.

I'll be resuming work next week as soon as possible! Thank you all for the incredible assistance and patience, I can't thank you all enough.

It's good to be home. I just wish it didn't reek of cigarettes.

I think by now everyone's seen the usual stuff I get commissioned to draw: werewolves/werebeasts, transformation, hyper, and muscles.

However, what is something else folks want to see me draw? I have a lot of OCs I'd like to get to know and grow used to drawing, majority folks haven't seen (I like adoptables!) and I think drawing new fetishy stuff would be good for that! I have a lot of non-canid species I'd like to get used to doodling as well and after looking at the FA front page, I like seeing what other people are commissioned to draw. A sort of curiosity, I guess?

Thing is, nobody ever really commissions me for stuff 'out of my comfort zone', things I have happily listed on my TOS. I don't dislike the things I draw, no, and of course if people see a lot of the same stuff, they'd be more inclined to get that commissioned also. As such, I want to sort of branch out. I wanna draw more unique things, stuff not in my gallery. So, once I have some wiggle room, what would folks be curious to see?

Hello hello everyone!

Firstly, I want to say thank you for all the commissions and help folks have given us to help us move. I didn't want to get into it because, quite frankly, it's some private business, but the gist is my family's not doing too well in all sorts of manners so we'll be moving back home in two weeks. I'm still open for donations and in dire need of funds since we need to drive 3,000 miles and gas is.....well. Everyone knows. If any folks would like to donate, I DO have a growth drive going but please consider donating to my Kofi: http://www.ko-fi.com/lilythekitsune

Secondly, once I move, I'll be catching up on commissions and getting people their owed work for helping me with the move. Once that's done, and this time I mean it--I'm stopping commissions for a while. I MAY open for a YCH here or there or adoptables, but I need to step back and work on myself and my art. As such, once I finish my commissions, I'll be focusing exclusively on Patreon rewards and comic pages. Since all comics are paid for by Patrons, they'll get the pages weeks in advance and then I'll post them to my FA when they're done. If you'd like to see the comic pages as they come, I suggest pledging to my Patreon.

Thirdly, regarding Patreon: comic pages will be slow for June since I'll be moving and settling in and catching up on rewards and commissions. I'll do my best to get a promised comic page out in June but it'll probably be just the one. Once I have more free time in July, I'll be working on 2-3 pages a month for Hellish Delights and...

Fourthly, in August, I have a very special comic starting. August 21. It'll be in the $8 comic tier and will be SFW. The only hint is....a very very large tree. I hope you all look forward to it!

And fifthly, I want to thank you all who have supported me throughout the years. Time certainly flies! whether it be by retweeting my work or commenting/favoriting, commissioning me, donating, supporting my Twitch streams, or chatting in my Discord server--thank you. For just being able to support me and make me feel like I matter and that I'm important. I never truly feel good about my art ad compare myself to others a lot, but I have you all to thank for keeping me going and improving. I want to be an artist that you can all be proud of and give you all a comfortable place to exist. I haven't been the kindest of person over the years and I have apologized many times, but I wish to apologize agai to anybody I mad have hurt in the past. Life is a bitch and I have had more bouts of negativity than positivity. I've taken out my frustrations and gotten short with people who were just trying to help and I am deeply, truly sorry.

We're all human and I've made many mistakes; I'll always make them. But I'm growing and learning every day. I may not be the biggest artist or the nicest person, but I want to take the time to say that if anybody has grievances with me, my notes are open and I'd like to make things right. Life's too short and I'm an idiot and don't realize I hurt people sometimes. I also don't wanna make this ournal TOO personal but thank you for always being here. For making me laugh or being excited about a comic upload or just shooting the shit on Discord. You all mean a lot to me and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

While this IS my Patreon-only server, I tend to open commissions and YCHs here first. I use this server about as much as I use my Twitter which is daily. If you're looking to get a commission when I open next (most likely August) or just wanna see what's been going on daily, I highly recommend this server.

Please note, I have DMs turned off due to all of the scams going around on Discord, so if you wanna make sure I see your message please @ me. If it's a private question, please also @ me and I will open my DMs. I will not open any links from people, even commissioners, unless it's a link I trust.

Non-Patreon folks, of course, will get the general server role and will be unable to see Patreon rewards. I'm currently remaking the rules, so for now, just be cool and don't start any shit and you'll be fine. I'm a very laid back person but people's comfort is my #1 priority.

https://discord.gg/KtzTCJug4t

Lot of people have been asking and presumably don't follow my on Twitter (http://www.twitter.com/lilythekitsune)

I've decided to make Hellish Delights Patreon-only. I will be posting pages a few months (2-3) after they originally showcase on Patreon but I've decided to keep it set to be behind a paywall otherwise.

Originally, the comic was funded BY Patreon but since I'm weaning away from the furry community, and because I want to ONLY focus on comic work (and rewards) for a while, the pages will stay there for a bit.

I want to clarify that this is mostly because furries suddenly despise ferals in a NSFW context. I don't, personally, believe Church applies since he's a hellhound and can consent but I've gotten some heat because of it and I don't want to cancel yet another comic. Church doesn't have an anthro form and I think it'd go against his character to make one so I don't want to suddenly change the comic plot.

That said, there will be a new comic page up in early March. This next page is fighting me and I've redrawn it a few times but I'm still not happy with it.

If you'd like to continue reading and support me, you can do so here: http://www.patreon.com/lilythekitsune

EDIT: Clarifying cuz I shouldn't be writing at 3am. The comic will be uncensored on Patreon and will only have cropped panels posted to FA to prove it's still going on. Don't trust posting pages to the public uncensored since FA's gotten real weird with any character on four legs.