Yeah, as some of you may have already heard, Furaffinity has made policy changes that certain things are not allowed to be on this site anymore. So because specific characters are for whatever reason now considered cubs, they can't be uploaded onto Furaffinity in any sexual way. It's ridiculous because none of the characters I've drawn are supposed to be young, but because a few people decided on what's considered cub, it's now regarded ban worthy. This means all my Pokemon, Stitch, and probably Kirby drawings have to go.

I have plans on not uploading anything onto Furaffinity from here on out and switching over to another site or two. Everything's backed up and currently deleting all images that's "breaking policy". The problem is I'm not sure which one I should move to. Possible places are Weasyl, Itaku, or Inkbunny. So I would like to hear suggestions, whether it be one of the places I listed or some other site I'm unaware of.

Hey everyone. I'm alive if anyone was worried. If your wondering what's going on and why I haven't been posting, I've been quite busy with a lot of real-life stuff. So for a quick summary, I got a new job, moved into a bigger place, and got some new roommates all less than a year ago.

However, with the new roommates, I haven't got the time or privacy to work on my drawings much anymore. If you can't tell, I do all my work in secret and no one knows I make this type of art. They'll either find it weird or get grossed out by it and I don't want to go through that type of drama right now. Especially with my unstable mental health, which I'm still trying to improve.

Now, for the reason why I'm writing this entry. I am currently working on something, but what I'm doing with it is taking a while. With this one, I'm trying some new methods and attempting to do a format I haven't done for some time. I'm drawing a character I was reminded of not too long ago and wanted to do him in my own interpretation. Still got a lot of work to do, so I don't know when I'll be finished. My hint is he's cute and from a Metroidvania game.

After some time of minimal response to everyone on Furaffinity, I'm sure you're questioning what's happened to me for the past half year now. Well, I'm finally here to update you all.

I'm officially in a relationship with my boyfriend and have been for a few months now. Remember the one I mentioned in the last journal? Sadly, it did not work out as well as I hoped. But, the good news is that I found someone else not long after. It's a long distance relationship by the way, but since I'm very introverted, I don't mind it much. He's just been a joy to hang around and talk to, and I've even got a chance to visit him a month ago.

Now, here's the news I'm sure some of you will a bit upset about. I've officially given up on making and submitting artwork. The spark that I once had when drawing is just not there anymore. It hasn't even crossed my mind since the last journal entry until recently, hence why I'm here telling you all this. I will still be here, just not submitting anymore. And don't worry, I won't be taking the work that I have uploaded down as they'll be here for those that enjoy them. I'm really sorry if this disappoints you, but I can't do something if I'm not enjoying it. Now, I hope you all have a wonderful day.

Hey everyone, I want to give some updates on why I haven't been uploading art for the past few months. First things first, my inspiration for drawing has dropped low again, but for different reasons. I've thought of stuff related to my past and possible future since the start of 2019. I will get more into that later as I want to discuss the other reasons. Don't worry, it's nothing serious.

The second reason. Hardware and performance issues have popped up with my computer for over half a year now. Random quick slowdowns, freezes, and just straight-up out of nowhere crashes with software. The fans also have running way more often than before even on the most basic tasks. It's gotten bad enough that I'm worried that something will end up frying itself on me one day and I would lose everything. So, I finally bought myself a brand spanking new PC a few months ago. Not only its multiple times stronger than my previous one, but I also got a 2K screen to go along with it. For those wondering why all the images have been small, it's because they were made on a dinky sub 1080p screen.

My third and last reason. Even with a new computer, I'm not going to install the software that I been using for years. Why? Because that software was Adobe Illustrator CS5. For those in the unknown, that version came out in 2010. Due to its age, the program is not performing well with newer GPU and CPU cards. Not going to attempt to try it on a modern machine because of that. I was already having difficulties with Illustrator on my older computer even before the issues began to arise. Since I've been hearing negative press with Adobe for the past few years, not going to buy software from them for a while. I've done research on a possible new program, and I am willing to take suggestions on a replacement. My only requirements are it needs to work with vector art and have a similar interface to Adobe software.

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Now, here's the main subject I wanted to announce to you all about with my recent reflections on life. I've... Been thinking of finding a companion. Why this is such a big deal for me? In the past 28 years, thoughts like this were rare and only held in my mind for a few minutes before brushing them off. This time, however, I've been doing a lot of serious thinking on the happiness of my future. I didn't grow up with a lot of positive connections with family for most of my life. Lots of arguing, fights, and marriage problems between my parents and siblings over the most stupid and minuscule shit. That, and among a few other stuff during my childhood and teenage days, very negatively affected me with depression. I just didn't want to be with anyone and become a bother to them.

But, since the start of 2019, ideas of getting into a relationship continually have cropped up. I've recently made a new friend in an online game not too long ago. Not only he is nice, but he's also very open to speaking on a bunch of topics and has a lot of similar interests. I've enjoyed these chats with him so much that I've thought of all the possible stuff we could together if we were to ever meet. I think this is a sign that I'm finally getting over the past and looking into improving my life. Depending what happens later on and I find out more about him, he might become my first boyfriend.

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Here's another big announcement. If he ends up as my boyfriend, there's a chance I won't be visiting this site anymore as I'm going to spend as much time with him as I can. That's just a maybe and I'll still be able to be on here even if I'm in a relationship for all I know. Just have to wait and see and will update on it when the time comes.

Some of you might of noticed that I haven't been posting as much as I did in the past. There's a few reasons for that.

First reason, I've want to improve my skills before uploading more of my work as I'm not completely satisfied with certain things of what I can and cannot do. I've only partially improve my art skills since back when I decided to put something up on this site at the end of 2015. That needs to change. I want my art to have better shading, better perspective, textures instead of just flat colors, and to have an actual background for my characters.

For my second reason, it's just laziness. Yes, it's that simple. Instead of improving my skills, I've spent most of my days just sitting on my ass either playing games, browsing the web, or fapping to porn after work. I guess the reason for it is not getting enough motivation to work on my art. I need find to find a way to correct that.