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Posted 15 years ago I will no longer be using this account.
Why? Because I have no need for it.
When I first discovered that I was interested in babyfur and DL stuff, I was confused. Of course, that's a normal reaction. It is strange. I worried about the stigma, so I made this account. And then I found that there was a whole community out there...these people seemed very nice. There was a closeness I saw that was nowhere else. I wanted that. Going through most of your life literally friend-less makes it seem very appealing. I thought that maybe, I could be apart of the community too.
I was stupid to believe that was possible. There's no room in here for me. I end here the same way that I began. With nobody. By that, I mean this account...because I've met caring people through my other account.
Everyone else has a close, tight knit group of friends, who are like their family. I seem to be the only one without that...I thought that maybe, my interest in this subject would help me be a part of that. I couldn't be more wrong. Not that I haven't met nice babyfurs, I have...there were several that I talked to, oh maybe 3 times before they dissappear? I know in some cases I'm not blameless...because I have anxiety problems so it's hard for me to talk to someone first. I apologise to the one of you who I did that do. There are also others who seemed to have changed their messenger names, told others, but did not tell me. I know I did not do anything to wrong them either. They say they are kind to everyone and want friends, but if that was the case, they wouldn't have done that.
How come when a newcomer comes along, and a certain someone meets them, they are introduced to others by them? How come they get a special journal letting people know they exist? How come I never got that?
I've drawn pictures and attended streams in hopes to make friends. That didn't work. Not that they weren't appricated or anything...just, I thought maybe it would make people want to be my friend...
Does no one care simply because I'm shy? That I'm not like other babyfurs that seem to be all cuddles all the time? Is it because I'm female?
There was one kindhearted babyfur that I have talked to on a regular basis. But I did not meet them through this account.
I know this sounds whiny. I just needed to get it all out, I've been feeling this way for quite some time, even before I got sick. In case anyone actually cares, I've been feeling quite ill for about 2 months now...I've also developed double vision, which makes it pretty much impossible to see anything unless it's close up or without closing one eye. My life has been severely limited due to that and the chronic fatigue I've been feeling. I've been to doctors but no one can tell me what's wrong with me. That along with other personal things has led me to "regress" in a bad way, as I've spiraled into depression again, something I've been battling with since childhood. But I don't want any pats on the head or hugs. I doubt anyone will read this anyway. I'm not writing this for attention, I'm not going to come back in a few days. I am serious.
I'm not leaving FA though. I will still be on my main account:
aurathewolf Though most likely not very actively for a while. I may re-watch some people I have watched here, and I most likely will post whatever I would've posted here over there eventually. I just wanted to let people know what was up, if there was anyone who cared in the first place...because it would probably be rude to just up and leave without an explaination. I apologize to those who I said I might possibly do art for...I'm just not up to it anymore...
Tl;dr: Will no longer be on this account due to feeling unwanted. Depressed and having medical issues. Will still be on main account. The end.
Why? Because I have no need for it.
When I first discovered that I was interested in babyfur and DL stuff, I was confused. Of course, that's a normal reaction. It is strange. I worried about the stigma, so I made this account. And then I found that there was a whole community out there...these people seemed very nice. There was a closeness I saw that was nowhere else. I wanted that. Going through most of your life literally friend-less makes it seem very appealing. I thought that maybe, I could be apart of the community too.
I was stupid to believe that was possible. There's no room in here for me. I end here the same way that I began. With nobody. By that, I mean this account...because I've met caring people through my other account.
Everyone else has a close, tight knit group of friends, who are like their family. I seem to be the only one without that...I thought that maybe, my interest in this subject would help me be a part of that. I couldn't be more wrong. Not that I haven't met nice babyfurs, I have...there were several that I talked to, oh maybe 3 times before they dissappear? I know in some cases I'm not blameless...because I have anxiety problems so it's hard for me to talk to someone first. I apologise to the one of you who I did that do. There are also others who seemed to have changed their messenger names, told others, but did not tell me. I know I did not do anything to wrong them either. They say they are kind to everyone and want friends, but if that was the case, they wouldn't have done that.
How come when a newcomer comes along, and a certain someone meets them, they are introduced to others by them? How come they get a special journal letting people know they exist? How come I never got that?
I've drawn pictures and attended streams in hopes to make friends. That didn't work. Not that they weren't appricated or anything...just, I thought maybe it would make people want to be my friend...
Does no one care simply because I'm shy? That I'm not like other babyfurs that seem to be all cuddles all the time? Is it because I'm female?
There was one kindhearted babyfur that I have talked to on a regular basis. But I did not meet them through this account.
I know this sounds whiny. I just needed to get it all out, I've been feeling this way for quite some time, even before I got sick. In case anyone actually cares, I've been feeling quite ill for about 2 months now...I've also developed double vision, which makes it pretty much impossible to see anything unless it's close up or without closing one eye. My life has been severely limited due to that and the chronic fatigue I've been feeling. I've been to doctors but no one can tell me what's wrong with me. That along with other personal things has led me to "regress" in a bad way, as I've spiraled into depression again, something I've been battling with since childhood. But I don't want any pats on the head or hugs. I doubt anyone will read this anyway. I'm not writing this for attention, I'm not going to come back in a few days. I am serious.
I'm not leaving FA though. I will still be on my main account:
aurathewolf Though most likely not very actively for a while. I may re-watch some people I have watched here, and I most likely will post whatever I would've posted here over there eventually. I just wanted to let people know what was up, if there was anyone who cared in the first place...because it would probably be rude to just up and leave without an explaination. I apologize to those who I said I might possibly do art for...I'm just not up to it anymore...Tl;dr: Will no longer be on this account due to feeling unwanted. Depressed and having medical issues. Will still be on main account. The end.
Life meme
Posted 15 years agoRules:
1) Open your music library
2) Put it on shuffle
3) For each question type the song that plays
4) Press next song for each question
Opening Credits: “Planet Venom” (Super Smash Bros)
Waking Up: “Cirno’s theme” (Vocaloid Kaito Version)
First Day at School: “Etna Boogie” (Tenpai Sato, Disgaea) O___o
Falling in Love: “Take on Me” (Vocaloid Kaito Version) xD
Fight Song: “Ending theme” (Nobuo Uematsu, Final Fantasy 10) That must be one sad fight.
Breaking Up: “Overture II” (We love Katamari) That must be one happy breakup.
Prom: “Imakuni’s Theme” (Ichiro Shimakura, Pokemon Trading Card Game) Yes.
Life's OK: “K.K Cruisin’”(Animal Crossing)
Mental Breakdown: “Super Tap” (Rhythm Tengoku) Wat.
Driving: “Fat Lip” (Sum 41) Shoulda been a Crush40 song xD
Flashback: “Remix 8” (Rhythm Tengoku Gold)
Getting Back Together: “Final Battle” (Nobuo Uematsu, Final Fantasy 10) Doesn’t sound like a good thing.
Wedding: Welcome to the Black Parade (My Chemical Romance)
Birth of a Child: “サムデイ -Unplugged-“ (The World Ends with you)
Final Battle: “The Final Road” (Pokemon RBY) How fitting.
Death Scene: “Honey” (Vocaloids) What a happy death.
Funeral: “Me Vs. Maradona Vs. Elvis” (Brand New)
End Credits: “Give a Reason” (From Slayers)
1) Open your music library
2) Put it on shuffle
3) For each question type the song that plays
4) Press next song for each question
Opening Credits: “Planet Venom” (Super Smash Bros)
Waking Up: “Cirno’s theme” (Vocaloid Kaito Version)
First Day at School: “Etna Boogie” (Tenpai Sato, Disgaea) O___o
Falling in Love: “Take on Me” (Vocaloid Kaito Version) xD
Fight Song: “Ending theme” (Nobuo Uematsu, Final Fantasy 10) That must be one sad fight.
Breaking Up: “Overture II” (We love Katamari) That must be one happy breakup.
Prom: “Imakuni’s Theme” (Ichiro Shimakura, Pokemon Trading Card Game) Yes.
Life's OK: “K.K Cruisin’”(Animal Crossing)
Mental Breakdown: “Super Tap” (Rhythm Tengoku) Wat.
Driving: “Fat Lip” (Sum 41) Shoulda been a Crush40 song xD
Flashback: “Remix 8” (Rhythm Tengoku Gold)
Getting Back Together: “Final Battle” (Nobuo Uematsu, Final Fantasy 10) Doesn’t sound like a good thing.
Wedding: Welcome to the Black Parade (My Chemical Romance)
Birth of a Child: “サムデイ -Unplugged-“ (The World Ends with you)
Final Battle: “The Final Road” (Pokemon RBY) How fitting.
Death Scene: “Honey” (Vocaloids) What a happy death.
Funeral: “Me Vs. Maradona Vs. Elvis” (Brand New)
End Credits: “Give a Reason” (From Slayers)
Getting to know you
Posted 15 years agoBorrowd from 
tavimunk
1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Film:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of FA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?
tavimunk1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Film:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of FA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?
Merry Christmas all!
Posted 16 years agoI know it's not Christmas yet, but I'll be visiting family so I won't be on tomorrow probably. I hope everyone has a wonderful Holidays ^^
Also, I apolgoise if I didn't get a chance to do a Christmas pic for everyone. I got a lot of watches after I started uploading them, so I didn't have time to do them for most of the new watchers. Also, I sort of ran out of ideas for poses and such >_>
But I'm really glad that people are actually starting to like my art. I didn't think anyone would. Maybe I'll start doing comissions if people actually want anything from me.
Anyways, I know times have been hard for pretty much everyone, so I hope that at least you guys will all have a good day tomorrow!
Also, I apolgoise if I didn't get a chance to do a Christmas pic for everyone. I got a lot of watches after I started uploading them, so I didn't have time to do them for most of the new watchers. Also, I sort of ran out of ideas for poses and such >_>
But I'm really glad that people are actually starting to like my art. I didn't think anyone would. Maybe I'll start doing comissions if people actually want anything from me.
Anyways, I know times have been hard for pretty much everyone, so I hope that at least you guys will all have a good day tomorrow!
