Yep! That's right!

I am moving to a new account! I'm wanting a clean fresh start with FA. I had gone through so many hardships through my life and now everything seems to be going smoothly for once!
My mother and I actually are building up a real relationship for once.

So, please go to  Kneel4Loki13 and watch me, my loving awesome followers!

For now on! I am mostly taking art requests from those ( Besides close friends ) who join my livestreams!

I will be doing a livestream once a week the least. I am also doing requests for Halloween picture requests. So if you wish to get free art request from me, keep your eyes and ears open for my picture stating that I am doing a livestream! :3

Ugh! Can this day get any worse!! I had the worse day ever..

First off.. I woke up this morning and of course as always my mother is a grumpy bitch with a stick shoved up her ass.. Because today my grandmother was going to take me clothes shopping.. And my mother didn't want to go.. So I told her " Then don't go if you don't want too.." she turned around and snapped at me saying " Yeah and leave you to get clothes?? You don't know how to do anything! You'll just buy more crap like the stuff you're already wearing! "

Oh.. And it gets better.. As we're both getting ready to go.. My mother, who is a skinny tooth pick starts complaining because she gained 3 pounds.. I didn't say anything.. I was blow drying my hair.. And all of a sudden she snaps at me again.. " Well excuse me, I don't like being FAT like you.."
Keeping my mouth shut.. I continued to get ready..

Now, we finally meet up over at the mall and we head over to Fridays for lunch.. If this morning couldn't get worse.. It did.. My mother starts throwing an attitude towards my grandmother and I just as we're sitting down in the booth.. When my mother and grandmother fight.. They fight like cats and dogs..

They start to argue loudly! Calling each other names back and forth.. It was embarrassing.. Everyone else around us started to glare towards us.. Then they started to bring me into this argument.. Saying the good ole' " Well.. Riki said this, Riki said that! Tell her this, tell her that! "
Wanting no part in this.. I kept completely silent.. My mother stood up and yelled at me saying that she was disappointed in me and that I'm a liar.. Wait.. WHAT? I didn't even open my mouth!

She storms off saying to me " Thanks Riki for kicking me out onto the streets. "

Now my mother overly dramatizes everything if she doesn't get her way and he one person she blames or takes it out on is me..

Because of the argument between her and my grandmother.. She's blaming me now!

Finally we leave the Fridays and walk over to Sears.. All of a sudden.. I'm walking behind my grandmother and BAM! My mother comes up behind me and smacks me hard in the back of the head.. Saying " How dare you not stick up for me. I am very disappointed in you.. I should spank you and since you're my daughter I can spank you if I want too."

She hit me hard.. Now.. I am 21 years old.. She is threatening to hit me and send me back to my father who is in California.. She can threaten me all she wants.. But I'm 21..

So aside from all the " you're so over weight ", " your so fat ", " you make me so mad", " I'm done with you ", and "I don't want you in my life " comments from my mother..

I come home.. During the whole car ride she doesn't say a thing to me.. As soon as she gets home, she changed her clothes and left and hasn't been home since.

If life didn't want to kick me in the ass again! Our toilet is clogged up.. So I went next door and borrowed our neighbors plunger.. It didn't work.. So I left it alone.. Come back to find our toilet over flooded.. So I had to clean that up.. It destroyed some of my gamer magazines.. And now the whole house smells like shit..

Perfect.. Just perfect..

Is in dire need of help...Here is there story and what is going on https://www.furaffinity.net/journal...../#cid:35590682

I may not know them...but this is indeed serious...I wish I could donate in some way..but, I am doing my best to help get the word out about there story...It touches home hard..

My dear friend if she is a match..she is willing to give them one of her kidneys...but, if she isn't she is going to doing a donation pool in order to help...---> https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4984499/

If you can't donate..please help spread the word everywhere..help this fur in need...i'm sure some where out there will do the same for you...

Okay, now that I got you're attention! :D

I do need help, in fact! Halloween is coming up in two months and my friend Emily is planning on taking me to Disney World for Halloween!

I am wanting to do a human Impmon from Digimon Tamers for Halloween, since around Halloween Disney allows you to go in costume.

There is a certain design I drew out. I don't have it uploaded though, but I need to find someone who can make me a Impmon hat and tail! I'll be willing to pay! And I know, people say not to use felt to make tails.. Buuut I don't want a fluffy Impmon tail x_x;

Here is a hat example.

http://www.deviantart.com/art/Terri.....-Hat-172219409

I don't want the face or eyes on the hat. All I want is the ears. ;_;

And here is a picture of Impmon. http://images.wikia.com/digimon/ima.....9!Impmon_b.jpg

If someone is willing to help.. I would be so very grateful.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:34980175

Go there if you want an adorable free pixel icon! <3

chibi's chibi's! http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4869325/

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4719012

Once I finally finish up 's Art Trade request.

I'm going to stop drawing Mature art for awhile. Just not feeling it.. The feeling comes and goes.. For a few weeks I will be all like.. " OMG I wanna draw Mature art! Omg! " than for a month or so, I would see any Mature art and be like.. " Ew.. Get that shit away from me.. "


I can't control this x_x; Just comes and goes constantly..

So this means no Art Requests for Mature art for awhile. Sorry :\

R.I.P. the 51 people who lost their lives from the Tornado in Oklahoma..

I'm sorry to say everyone.. It will take even longer to get the art requests done.. I'm so seriously bummed and upset..

I downloaded this virus protection called SpyBot.. It ended up deleting something for my Paint Tool Sai download I had.. Now everytime I try to re-download it.. It says " It's expired "

I can't get it back.. I'm so frustrated.. I tried downloading other art programs.. But they just don't do it for me.. Not to mention my damn art pen is acting up..

I just want to scream right now.. I will not go back to using GIMP.. It made my art look like crap.. I just don't know how to use the curving tool like my mate.. I like to quick sketch.. But GIMP doesn't have the smooth lines.. Like SAI does.. And I don't have a job so I can't buy it myself.. The money I have is saved for a convention next month..

I don't know what to do..

Yep! It's my 21st birthday everyone! <3333

On my mates birthday party, after having dinner at CC's we all went back to her house. I went into the bathroom to take out my Madara Uchiha contacts. I got the first one out alright. But was having trouble getting the second one out.. Well, they were all ready to have drinks, so they rushed me to get out the last one.

While rushing to get it out.. My finger nail cut the side of it, because with these contacts you have to carefully pinch them off your eyes.

Without knowing, I tried to put them on last night and that one that was damaged literally split in half on my eye LOL

So, taking it off. I am left with only one eye contact! D:

I told my mom, so, for my birthday on the first of May. She is going to buy me a new one, which with shipping and everything is only around $16

Yay! Luckily it didn't take that long to come in the mail. Only two weeks. If she gets the money sooner, she might buy it earlier than that

Today is my mate, 's 21st birthday today!! :D

If you like, or could. Swing by and wish her a happy birthday! I'm sure she will greatly appreciate it!

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Man..
Why do I have to be so broke T-T;

My mate plans on going out for dinner for her birthday, than there's my birthday, than the convention along with my friend Emily's birthday on the same weekend of the convention and she is planing to go out to dinner as well..

I don't have a job.. My mom doesn't have a job.. My grandma is paying for our phone bill,rent, and other stuff.. So I can't ask her for money..

I just hope my father and grandma in California can send me some cash.. I need to save $35 to $40 for a weekend pass for the con.. A little bit of money for spending.. Some money for food.. And to pay for my dinner both times..

With the money expenses.. I might as well just do nothing for my birthday ):

I mean, I don't even know if I can come up with simple $4.50 for a bus pass to go to the mall in time for my birthday.. I just don't know what to do.. Maybe I'm just over thinking and worrying about it..

FAE will be my last con for a while.

Why do you ask?

Because there are somethings I want to take care of before I go rushing into going to cons.
My plans after Florida Anime Experience

1. Learn how to drive

2. Get a better job than that crappy job I had where I was only making $40 a week, that, or I was also thinking about going back to school. There are some schools that pay you to go to school.

3. Open up a bank account

4. Get my own car, because to get a car I need a job to pay for car insurance and gas x-x;

But first I want to learn to drive, tired of asking my mother for rides and getting shit for it. Also, sick of not being able to go to cons or events and not having a ride.. ):

These are the two things I need to do. THAN I will be back to conning! >:D

Ha.. Got you're attention now huh? lol

Well now that you're reading this, I need someones advice.
I'm at my wits end..

I think it was a year ago my mother fell and broke her rib.. She went to the hospital and all they did was ace wrap it and told her to stay in bed and rest it.. Well.. My mother being the stubborn stupid nincompoop she is.. Refused to stay in bed like she was told.. It didn't heal..

Because Obama pretty much fucked up the health care system..

My mother hasn't been able to do anything about it because she doesn't have insurance.. And the hospitals that will do something about it without insurance treat you like shit.. And it keeps getting worse.. She can hardly move it's so painful.. If she lets it go any longer, I'm afraid the broken rib might puncture one of her organs or something..
I just don't know what to do..

She refuses to even try.. All she does is sit in bed and feel sorry for herself and tell everyone she's in so much pain.. I tell her to call my grandmother and try to talk to her and all she says is " She doesn't care.. She wont do anything because she doesn't care "

I know it's not supposed to be my job to baby and take care of my mother.. Even though most of the time I feel more like the parent.. I try to push her into getting help and all she wants to do is lay in bed and cry and overly obsess about her fucking x-boyfriend ( Who I mind you.. IS MARRIED ).. I mean I let her go on the laptop and when I get it back I see all of these website tabs open of different sites she used to look her boyfriend up.. I mean.. SERIOUSLY!? She's looked him up on Facebook, Google, Wikipedia, Background checks.. It's like.. WTF!

Just.. grr..

So, I don't know if this is old news or what.. But I just found out today that PETA is riding up UbiSoft's ass for the new Assassin's Creed game the Black Flag..

All because there is a scene in it, where you go Whaling in the game apparently.. Woooow..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&a.....p;feature=fvwp here is a rather funny video about it

Also a online article for it as well. http://www.mnn.com/lifestyle/arts-c.....haling-element

Guuuh.. I am hating everything I am drawing right now.. I don't even want you guys to see such horrible looking art work..

I found this article on AOL . com and the title was " Nice People shouldn't work for this Industry"

Curious of what it was about, I started to read it..

Now my major fear of going to get a job is.. I am a nice, caring, people pleaser.. I'm also very very sensitive.. With the last job I had as a dog groomer, my boss and 2nd boss/coworker would yell at me about every little thing I did wrong.. Of course.. I left work in tears and emotionally upset.. I am a nice person.. No matter who says other wise.. Especially when it comes to my job, I try and try and try to please my bosses the best I can, trying to not get myself yelled at.. Even though it greatly fails..

Luckily I haven't had to deal with a rude, angry customer yet.. Because honestly I think I would crack and break down right there..

Anyway this is the article if you care to read it.
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Employers love to put nice people in customer service positions. Especially if they're authentically nice people -- I'm talking about the kind it's impossible to get mad at because they're just naturally so dang polite and pleasant. It's obvious that they genuinely want to solve everyone's problems, and they're working really hard to make it happen.

This setup makes sense (put nice employees in front of clients = a no-brainer) and works out well for all involved -- except you, the sweetheart professional.

For you, the arrangement is stressful and trying and leads to major job dissatisfaction. Here's why:

Nice people Are Sensitive
Customers are loud, abrasive and impatient. They're rude. There are exceptions, of course, but anyone who's worked even one day in a client-facing position knows that people coming to customer service are usually upset. And for some reason, many clients find it acceptable to take their frustrations out on you, the well-meaning customer service employee, as if you're intentionally out to make their experiences with your company crappy.

The main problem with this is that you internalize the insults and absurd accusations and take it all personally. As a truly nice individual, you absorb this non-personal angry venting and blame yourself for the issue. The more customers you work with, the worse you feel.

Nice People Are Easily Flustered
All you want to do as a nice person is make the client happy. That's a difficult enough endeavor on its own, but when several customers are barking commands at once, your people-pleasing brain starts smoking. All these clients need help, and most of them are mean about it, and you so desperately want to take care of all of them immediately -- but the high level of negative input impairs your ability to problem-solve.

And so you bounce around from complaint to complaint, attempting to put out each fire but getting pulled away before it's out by a larger one -- and ultimately, you hardly accomplish anything.

At the end of the day, you reflect on all the issues that you weren't able to resolve and doubt your capabilities as a professional.

Nice Introverts Have It Even Worse
Extroverted people get their strength from speaking with others. Chatting and interacting excites and enlivens them. Introverts, on the other hand, find too much verbal communication tiring. It leaves them mentally exhausted, and they need some alone time to recharge.

It makes sense, then, that if you're an introverted employee in a customer service position -- where interacting with other people is the name of the game -- you're at an increased disadvantage. Not only is your "niceness" working against you, but you're also operating in an environment that depletes you of energy.

A nice customer service employee leaves work feeling offended and doubtful; you, the nice introverted customer service employee, leave work feeling offended, doubtful and drained.

Bottom line: Know yourself well and navigate the professional world accordingly.

And if you're honestly nice, stay far, far away from most customer service roles.

What is this shit!?

Why the hell am I getting back into Naruto!? WHYYY!!

Damn you Itachi!! And my friend Danielle has a big part in the fandom grabbing me back into it >_<;;

I was watching an episode with Itachi, where Itachi was working beside Naruto.. And was talking to Naruto saying that Naruto is the only one to stop Sasuke from destroying Konoha.. And saying how much he cares for his little brother..

That episode just hit my heart strings with Itachi ;-;

The evil art block has struck again! D:

I know I owe so many art requests and you all are waiting ever so patiently.
I am trying to get these art requests done, but for some reason, everytime I try to sketch it out. It just can't seem to get poses out right..

It's pretty much 3 in the morning..

I think I slept wrong, or something.. Been having on and off stomach sickness and migraines.. I'm so tired I want to sleep.. But can't.. I feel feverish.. Hot.. Everytime I try to lay down on the couch I feel the stomach sickness instantly hit me as if I can just throw up and I can hardly breathe.. My body aches and my head is pounding..

All I want to do is sleep.. I had taken two things for it.. A hour or so ago, a Tylenol.. And just now the medication I have for my knee pain.. Praying that it works long enough for me to fall asleep..

I feel so stiff.. and sore.. All I want to do is cry.. I even took a hot shower today hoping it would help.. But, being at my mates house, I can't leave the bathroom door open while I take a shower.. Which I always do when I'm home.. The shower steam makes it harder for me to breathe.. And I almost threw up in the shower.. I felt this aggravating lump of yuck in my throat and tried to cough it up.. Well, I have a very sensitive gag reflex, so makes me throw up easily..

Not that you want to know that.. Idk.. Just trying to keep my mind busy from the intense pain.. Everywhere.. I just feel like crying right now.. But, everyone is asleep and I don't wish to wake them..

I saw this in 's journal. I just had to try it with my love :)


1. Who eats more?
I do sadly :I

2. Who said "I love you" first?
Muno said I love you first in text :D

3. Who is the morning person?
I am more of a morning person than she is. When we sleep together, I wake up around 9ish or 11, depending how tired I am. I am a morning cuddler, while Muno-babe really isn't LOL But none the less I get my cuddles whither she wants to or not.

4. Who sings better?
<('-'^) (^'-'^) (^'-')> ~*~KIRBY~*~

5. Who's older?
Muno is, by 7 days

6. Who's smarter?
I would say Muno is smarter ;-; She always did better at school work than I x_x;

7. Whose temper is worse?

That is debatable sometimes lol Between the two of us. But when it comes down to us butting heads, I would say Muno wins that one.

8. Who cries more?
Also debatable! Even though Muno cries after almost every Disney movie xD I love you hun!

9. How did you meet?

Well, I was 10 years old and I had just moved to Florida from California. Going through a rough time with the sudden extreme change of location, I was withdrawing from everyone. I had been to three different schools till I came to the school where I met Muno. The teacher had me shadow Muno for a day. I clung to her like a little duckling and when we both found out we both loved anime, we've been friends ever since, till that friendship grew to a loving passion.

10. Where are you both from?
I was born in Santa Cruz California, while Muno was born in Saint Petersburg Florida :)

11. Whose feet are bigger?
Mine, hands down @_@; She's got tiny feet

12. Whose hair is longer?
Mine. When I first met her, my hair was pretty much past my butt. Till we cut it, but whenever Muno and I both had our hair cut, I always had my hair longer than Muno's.

13. Who's better with the computer?
I say we are both sometimes equal, depends on what we're doing though.

14. Do they have pets? How about you?
Muno has a cat (Jasmine), a dog (Max), and two birds ( Bambam and Hedwig)

15. Do you plan on getting married?
I hope so, someday. But, I guess being the same sex is kind of hard, but marriage is pretty much just a piece of paper. But it would be nice to have a wedding someday. :)

16. Who's the most stubborn?
I would say we both are pretty stuborn

17. Who is the first one to admit when they're wrong?
Depends on the fight and what started it and who started it.

18. Who asked who out?
I did. After Muno first said she loved me, I told her my feelings for her and asked her out. For the first year, we kept it a secret, but now almost everyone knows about us. :)

19. Who's more sensitive?
I would say we are both pretty equal in that department lol

20. Who's taller?
I am xP

21. Who has more friends?

Neither. Most of Muno's friends are my friends and most of my friends are Muno's friends, so lol

22. Who has more siblings?
We both are middle children. She has a younger sister and a older brother, while I have a younger brother and a older brother.

23. Who wears the pants in the relationship?
We like to switch the wearing of the pants :) More fun that way.

Okay, so I owe a few art requests. I'm getting to them as soon as I can. So I am making a progress journal of the requests I'm working on. :3


~Art Requests~

1. *not started*

2. *finished* http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10128615/

3. *In progress*

4. *not started*

5. *not started*