Thank you all so much for 3000! The number sort of spiked near the end there, which was a nice feeling, but it was mainly in relation to my over-abundance of submissions, so I guess if I keep it up, I'll be at 4000 in no time. :3 I've decided I'll do one of those "Thank you" pictures for every 2000 hits so I won't look so full of myself.

Again, thank you all so much and I hope I can continue to make art you will like ^^ This was certainly a nice Christmas present from ya'll.

23 years old... I won't complain, though. Cuz I know in about ten years, I'm gonna be all like "gawd, remember when I was 23 and was all like ewww, i feel so oooold". Yeah, I'd regret that, so I won't complain. Instead, I will enjoy my dinner, my birthday cake, my presents, and birthday drinky time with my friend. :3

T'is true, I shall do some free art for the peeps. Not sure why, I guess I just need a distraction from Christmas and my lack of shopping money TT__TT So I hope I get at least a few takers.

Currently, I'll only do pre-created characters/fursonas (no more than one character/fursona, please). I do not feel like dreaming up something, so I want details or references. No backgrounds other than basic colors, no insane amount of details. I'm just doing some basic pictures. Clean or sexy/smut is fine, but please use my commission info page as a guideline for what I will and will not do: Linkage

Example picture:
General: Pic 1
Mature(ish): Pic 2

If you want a piece done for free, leave a comment below with a link to the character you want drawn and if you want the art clean or mature, and based on that, I'll decide who I want to draw. Sorry if that sounds kinda cruel, but I'm not totally comfortable drawing certain types of fursonas yet. For instance, I cannot really draw reptiles or avians, unless they're anthro. I think I'm fine with just about anything else, though. If I respond to your comment, send me a note with the specifics, like what they're wearing or doing. I will try to have the work done within a week of recieving your note.

Please note that since I'm not charging you for this, that doesn't mean I intend to do a crappy job. I will try my best to fulfill your desires, however if it ends up being a little off, I apologize.

Originally I was only gonna do three, but I kinda thought what the hell and went for the first five to respond. Have I bitten off more than I can chew? Probably, but let's see how it goes. Maybe this can train me to finish requested pieces faster.
slot 1: 001
slot 2: FOXXYFIRE
slot 3: KITH0241
slot 4: IAMCOMPLETE
slot 5: SEISUKE
Completed pieces will be linked to each name. I may decide to do another round of this later if this goes well, so be on the look out :3

Officially the scariest shit I've ever seen. So much scarier than the first one. It's the only movie that ever made me scream. I screamed, goddammit.

Go see it. In the theatre. Have someone there to cling to.

Stolen from sir  sublimate

A - AVAILABLE: Fuck me please.

B - BIRTHDAY: In the cold and barren month of December. SAME AS CIEL PHANTOMHIVE! SQUEE!

C - CRUSHING ON: A girl on Cosdev, though it's completely superficial. If you saw her, you're nipples would get hard too.

D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: V8 BITCH!

E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: A couple IRL guy friends.

F - FAVORITE SONG: atm, "Ramalama (Bang Bang)" by Roisin Murphy

G - GUMMY: Yuck

H - HOMETOWN: ATL, mah brudda

I - IN LOVE WITH: Kerli Koiv

J - JUGGLE: Teach me, o wise one.

K - KILLED SOMEONE: When you wish upon a star... that bitch may horribly crash her car.

L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: 10 hours, methinks.

M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Whatever will bring the boys to my yard.

N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: Dos

O - ONE WISH: I wish that I can complete a professional-looking comic in the future.

P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: My dad. He got chinese food.

Q- QUOTE: "If I wanna blitz myself into some papaya-induced hallucination, that's MY business..."

R- REASON TO SMILE: Actually winning all the rounds with Cassandra without dying once.

S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: Fall-Out Boy's "Beat It"

T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 8:00 am

U- UMBRELLA: Ella, ella, ella, ay, ay, ay...

V - VEGETABLE(S): Mushrooms?

W - WORST HABIT: Being late.

X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: Both wrists

Y – YOYOS ARE: Hard as fuck to untangle.

Z - ZODIAC SIGN: HORSEMAN!

My set debuted on cosplaydeviants today. I was pretty pleased seeing it go up and I got a few nice compliments on it from other deviants and users, though it hasn't really grabbed anyones attention yet. 

I made the mistake of reading people's comments on deviantart, though. Cosdev uploads teaser pics to DA and usually the comments people leave aren't very generous. They're flat-out barbaric, and I tried to tell myself not to take them seriously, however when I read one certain comment, I got pretty offended. They said "her nipples are WAY too big and if you focus in on her head, she looks like a dude. Just to be safe, I ain't fappin to this."

Ouch. 

I got over the shock of it cuz I know the other deviants will (publicly) have my back, but it'll probably eat at me tonight. I'm kinda laughing about it right now, though. Most people online are uncivilized so this won't kill me. I'll keep modeling for cosdev for now :3

Enjoy a teaser pic.

http://cosplaydeviants.com/girl_pro.....php?girl_id=93

They gave my profile an icon and updated my status from "Potential" to full-fledged "Cosplay Deviant"!

My set was accepted and is apparently being edited by the staff, so I'm just waiting to see when it goes live. It's probably gonna be a while, but I don't mind waiting a little. Check back soon for awesome Yosuke vagina/boob!

UPDATE!!! My set goes live in 4 1/2 weeks! EEEEEEEEEE!

I'M GOING CRAAAAZYYYY!!!

I fuckin took the pictures, sent them in, and now I gotta fucking WAAAAIT!!! I hate this! Arrrrghhh!

I took my cosdev pictures in my Toadette costume on this absolutely fantastic background (the pictures look like My Pretty Pony did crack and threw up, there's just so much pink XDD) and I sent them into the website, and it SAYS I gotta wait about a week or less, and I sent them in this past Wednesday but I don't wanna wait anymore! I've been checking the site every hour on the hour on my phone for the past two days!

And here's what sucks a lot more! My name was posted under the Deviants model list! THE MODEL LIST! Potentials aren't listed! Models are! But now it's been taken down, and I've assumed that as a bad omen! Like they thought "oh crap nvm it's a sucky photoset, tell her try again later". My set was beautiful! My boobs weren't, but everything else was!

I need pot right now. Lots and lots of pot.

The upside is I've finally started reading Harry Potter, so that's taken up a bit of my attention from worrying about the photoset.

TO BE CONTINUED!!!

Got the email this morning.


I was accepted.

I'm a Cosplay Deviant.

~nosebleeddeath~

Wow... I just took the pictures today. >///< We went out to a public park, waaay out on a dock where no one was around, pushed my embarrassment aside, and shazam... My friend now owns half-nudey pics of me. I must say, the open breeze feels fantastic on my boobs. XDD We've both gotten over the initial embarrassment of seeing me half-naked, so we should be able to move on to full nude soon, assuming I get the gig.

I'll be submitting the application for the site tonight, so I'll let you all know in about a week if I got the job or not. Wish me luck! :3

I'm having an internal debate. Some while ago I had heard of a site called cosplaydeviants and that they did nude cosplay modeling. (well they start with the costumes on and by the end of the photo set, they're nekkid).

I went to the site and just recently, I started considering maybe auditioning to be a model for the site. My friends talk me up about my cosplay modeling all the time, and maybe that's gone to my head, but I think I'd honestly like to try. I prolly won't get it, but it'd be worth a shot. Plus you get paid and there's like a million perks.

I mean, it's not porn, they made that really clear, and I've seen some of the pictures that've been published on that site... I can do it, right?

@_@ I'm scared, but I don't know if it's of the potential criticism, the chance at being rejected, that my family might find the pictures, or that half the world will see my boobies TT-TT

And on top of all that, I gotta get up the courage to ask my friend to take nudey pics if me. ~headdesk~

Lightning struck my room last night. My tv died instantly, which is no big deal, cuz it was one of those cheap tv-VCR combos from the drug store. I'm sure it was near death anyway.

My ps2 also suffered a fatality.

Yes, my ps2 is dead. I'm so insanely heartbroken, cuz I took such good care of it. It was one of the originals from way back and I'd already modified it to play import games. I named it Sugarbits for godsake!

I wanna cry... I love my ps2. Now I hafta buy a crappy used one on eBay... Bye bye Sugarbits, I will always love you.

(Now I just gotta get that rented "precious" movie out before it's due date XP )

I fucking told Richard Gere to get out of my way today. I felt like such a fag. I didn't know it was him! I asked a gentleman to step aside so I could properly do my job, and after I walked out of the room, my co-worker tells me it was Richard Gere. For some reason, I fangirled. I dunno why. I like him n all, but not enough to fangirl over, and I fricken fangirled. I'm such a nerd lol.

Other than that, I watched them fim some of the Ellen show yesterday. A stunt double for her did a bunch of crazy flips in front of a restaraunt. I'm sure it'll look awesome on tv. I just wish I could've seen the actual Ellen Degeneras.

Stolen from  sublimate yet again.

I'm using Yosuke for this one.

1. If your fursona had to be a primate, it'd be...
A lemur... A lemur is a primate, right? XDD I'm fuckin stupid.

2. If your fursona had to be a feline, it'd be...
Classic answer: a tiger.

3. If your fursona had to be a canine, it'd be...
A doggy! A huskie! A white and black huskie! Ray, a drop of golden suuuun...

4. If your fursona had to be a hoofed animal, it'd be...
Oy... I guess a deer. I love deer. And a white-tailed deer at that, cuz their scientific name is something-something Virginianus". HA.

5. Cetacean?
Those are like... fish, right? She'd be a goldfish then.

6. If your fursona had to be a rodent, it'd be...
Erm, a squirrel!

7. If your fursona had to be reptile, it'd be...
A snake so as to commence with teh vore more easily. That and she could spit venon in your eyes, mutherfucker.

8. If your fursona had to be a marsupial, it'd be...
Not many to choose from, methinks... A koala maybe?

9. If your fursona had to be a fully aquatic animal, it'd be...
Wait... hold on a minute...

10. If your fursona had to be an amphibian animal it'd be...
I dunno a lot of amphibians... Frog seems to be the mandatory answer right now.

11. If your fursona had to be an avian/bird, it'd be...
A canary! A pretty songbird so as to lull you to sleep so that she may later slit your throat unsuspectingly.

12. If your fursona had to be a creepy crawly, it'd be...
A spider of some sort. Anything smaller than a tarantula, prolly.

13. If your fursona had to be a real or unreal hybrid, it'd be...
Gasoline AND electric.

14. If your fursona had to be a mythical creature, it'd be...
I think she'd fancy flying, so I guess a pixie.

15. If your fursona had to be a Pokemon/Digimon , it'd be...
Oh snap, the funnest question yet... a DITTO! Then she could be ANY pokemon or backstreet boy!

16. If your fursona had to be a vehicle, it'd be...
What? Dude, is there a category for that on this site? Cuz if there is, I wanna see some vehicular hyper & watersports. But to answer the question, I suppose a crotch rocket. I've always wanted one.

Just something to pass the time, sorry.

Stolen from  sublimate

1.Are you single or taken?
Painfully single

2. Chocolate or flowers?
Chocolateomgchocolate

3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
... Work?

4.Do you like anyone?
I like someone's breasts... The girl attached to them needs some work though.

5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
I haven't dated anyone for the past seven or so Valentine's Days.

6. What would be your dream Valentines date?
Dunno... Nice restaurant, dessert at home, movie, blindingly awesome sex, a little shame, and spooning.

7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
I'd like to... I usually just buy fancy chocolate for myself.

8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
A few, I guess. But people who don't confess their feelings are lame. Grow some balls!

9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?
Maybe... Doubt it.

10. Do you believe in Cupid?
Sort of.

11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
Why would they? I'm not dating them.

12. Do you still send out Valentines cards?
I'm not seven, thanks.

13. Do you like candy hearts?
omg They're like cocaine. I buy them all year round. If I don't eat them, I grind them up and snort them through a dollar bill.

14. Flowers or chocolate?
.... Que?

15. Is Valentines day depressing?
Why ask me all that crap if you think I'm depressed by it? But I guess, no, not anymore, I got over it a couple years back.

16. How do you feel about PDA?
In small doses, it's fine, just don't rawdog it there in front of a crowd, asshole.

17. How is your love life?
If I had one, I'd share the answer with you.

18. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
I'VE NEVER BEEN DUMPED! I DO THE DUMPING! HA!... Wait, that sounded wrong... XDD I have never been dumped, all my past boyfriends (a rather short list), I ended up breaking it off, and it was never on a Valentine's Day. What coldhearted bastard would do that?

19. How many roses would you want?
None, I don't like keeping flowers.

20. Will you have a boyfriend/girlfriend next year?
Miss Cleo said yes, but then again, she hasn't called me from prison yet to confirm that, so...

Happy Valentine's Day, homies.

I cried last night. I figured I would, but for some reason I surprisesd myself. I love Conan so much, it sucks sooo bad that he left. Tv is boring without him. Leno shouldve been booted off, not Coco.

But I must say, the finale was fantastic. I'm not a Will Ferrell fan, but the performance was great. Conan actually looked kinda sexy playing guitar. :3 And I had no idea he was so good at it, too.

Bye bye Coco. Come back to tv soon (or else I'll kill myself.)

I just got into the mother if all yelling matches with my bitch stepmom.

Six days ago she accused me of giving her dirty looks (well, she YELLED it at me). Since then we haven't spoken until today. She asked me again why I gave her a dirty look that day. I said I didn't and when she persisted, one thing led to another, I accused her of being immature because she refused to listen to me, and that set her off.

She got at least five inches from my face and screamed her head off at me, then retreated to her bedroom, slammed the door, and ended our communication for the next coming few weeks.

My dad heard the whole thing but didn't day anything, which in this case is a good thing. I told him she shouldn't stay or she should see a therapist. I feel terrible for dad. He has to put up with her so much more than I do, and it's only going to get worse once I move out. The best thing for everyone is that she either moves far away or dies. I desperately want either to happen. She's just no good for anyone.

Consequently I have the headache from hell now and I probably won't b on the computer for a couple of days. Thank goodness for iPhone, huh? Lol awesome Internet coverage.

Is it weird that everytime they say "daybreakers" on tv, ithink they're saying "date-rapers"?

I'm having an issue with myself. I feel like I've boned myself over from having a good time. Ever.

I cannot, in any memory, recall every being attracted to a male ever since I was mature enough to understand the meaning of "being attracted to someone" and all the things that go with it. Yes, I'm still bashful around boys, but that mainly has to do with my horrible experiences in middle school and high school and I convinced myself no one could ever be attracted to me, much less good-looking guys, but that was just me being harsh on myself, and I've come to realize I'm much better-looking than I gave myself credit for (mainly cuz I've learned how to look better since high school). A guy looking at me and saying "you're hot" is very flattering, and in response I will blush. It happened to me at Jacon.

At Megacon early last year, I was asked out by three different guys. Now, I do admit I would never have accepted the first invitation, as it had "date rape" written all over it, but to this day I think, "What if I had accepted one of those advances? What am I missing?" Not that I have ever felt remorseful about my sexual orientation, it's nothing I can help. I am attracted to women and it's all I've ever felt myself as. But by declining all these gusy that ask me, it eventually had me wondering "What is it I'm declining exactly?" I'm cutting out a lot of experiences in my life by not going on dates, and since I can't seem to find a date with a vagina attached to it, I'm basically living a dateless life.

So what if I went on a date with a guy? It would seem harmless enough, and I'd be having fun by being with someone for a night, regardless of gender or orientation, and in the end, isn't that what happiness is about? And I'm not at all concerned about ever slipping into a serious relationship with anyone I'm not attracted to, so I think it'd be okay to go on a date with a guy for once.

But this is the part that concers me: Even though I'm on a date with a man, I'll never have any desire for him, but regardless of what I think, this guy could end up having feelings for me, and I'm just using him for a good time. Is that not in bad taste? It seems completely unfair to the poor guy, and I certainly don't wanna hurt his feelings by saying "I'm having a great time. Btw, I'm a fruitloop, so don't bank on me ever liking you back. Oh, you bought me cotton candy? How sweet of you! No, don't hold my hand." I could never in good conscience date a guy knowing I could never be attracted to him. It's unfair to him.

So what do I do? I want to go on dates, I want to feel better about myself, but I'm scared of hurting anyone. What do I do?

I made a Pokemon and a Saiyuki parapara. I'm working on a Slayers one. They're so cute.

My stepmother yelled at me the other day for no good reason. She accused me of giving her dirty looks throughout the day, but rather than be an adult and actually see if I was angry with her and resolve it in a mature manner, she just screamed at me and ignored me for the rest of the day. She's still ignoring me like a child, so I'm just trying to avoid her. I cannot, for the life of me, understand why my dad stays married to her. I wish she'd OD on her sleeping pills...

I bought "Paranormal Activity" and watched the alternate ending which was described in the commercial as "too scary for theatres". The chick just slits her throat in the end rather than lash out at the camera. Nothing scary about it.

iPhone is the shit. I haven't been able to put mine down since I got it.

My dad got a sweet new car a few weeks ago, a Ford Fusion. Ugly as hell but the inside is omg. It has Sync technology, and when I heard about that, I flipped out and asked if I could sync up our phones and my ipod to it. He didn't really respond, mainly cuz he has no enthusiasm for the system. That drives me crazy. Who the hell buys a car with Sync technology and doesn't use the Sync system? That's like buying a PS3 and only watching dvds on it, or going to an awesome foreign country and spending the whole time in a hotel. I love my dad, but sometimes he's just a bore.

For Christmas, I asked for a book of Michaelangelo's sculptures. Instead, I got a book on his scultpures, his art, his other random crap, and information on him. Additionally, I got a whole long biography book about him and stuff he's done and how he grew up and what he did that I don't care about. That came from my stepmother. She also got me a teddy bear. A fucking teddy bear. I haven't had a teddy bear in years, and I don't intend to keep any in the future. She seriously saw this thing and thought I'd like it? I'm not seven and I don't like cute cuddly things outside of real living animals. Her explanation behind the bear was "sometimes you should receive gifts you weren't expecting but have good thought behind it." Okay, fine, nice logic. This is the segue to the next story.

I was walking through FYE in the mall and saw a 2ft x 1 1/2ft framed HOLOGRAPHIC poster of the Beatles crossing Abbey Road. I remembered that my stepmother loves the Beatles and I thought she'd love it. Just to check, I called my dad and asked him if he'd think she'd like it. He said sure. My next thought was "Will she have anywhere to put it?" I simply thought "I'm sure she'll find someplace for it. If not, she'll just shove it in a corner somewhere and forget about it. Whatever." I bought for almost $25.
I give it to her for Christmas. After she opens the wrapping, she stops, stares at it, and laughs. I smile, thinking she likes it. The FIRST WORDS OUT OF HER MOUTH are "What is a 54-year-old woman going to do with a Beatles poster??"
GODDAMN YOU YOU STUPID BITCH! Unlike your fucking teddy bear, I actually put some THOUGHT into this gift! How DARE you??
I started having flashbacks of Yuki's wedding dress-shopping incident and I saw red again.

And now I'm going to write a KuroxFai fanfiction and a KuroxTomo fanfiction, hopefully getting one done soon. Wish me luck!

Stolen from  nightfaux

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Repost as "my life according to (band name)"

• Pick your Artist:
Within Temptation

• Are you a male or female?
Jillian

• Describe yourself:
Pale (lulz)

• How do you feel:
The Cross

• Describe where you currently live:
Somewhere

• If you could go anywhere, where would you go:
Final Destination

• Your favorite form of transportation:
Stand My Ground

• What did you get on your last Birthday?
All I Need

• Your best friend is:
Aquarius (maybe?)

• You and your best friends are:
Angels

• What's the weather like:
Frozen

• Favorite moment:
Intro

• If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:
Our Solemn Hour

• What is life to you:
Forsaken

• Your last relationship:
Hand of Sorrow (not really, but it makes sense as an answer)

• Your fear:
It's the Fear

• What is the best advice you have to give:
Forgiven

• Thought for the Day:
What Have You Done Now

• How I would like to die:
The Heart of Everything

• My soul's condition:
The Howling (I dunno...)

• Most Faithful Companion:
Memories

• My motto:
See Who I Am


This was a fun meme! I loved it! I don't think I repeated any answers... Point them out if I did.

I'm pissed. I'm spending new years eve alone and I hate it. I've spent every new years alone as far back as I can remember. Everyone is working or with someone else tonight. I'm uber lonely. I've always wanted to kiss someone at midnight as is tradition. Maybe next year I guess...

We're going to Miami tomorrow to sort of celebrate. It's still kind of disappointing. Maybe my cousin will take me out drinking with him and his friends. That's usually pretty fun.

Happy new year everyone, and sorry for the glum attitude.

Instructions: Out your media player on shuffle. Put down the first 15 songs. Add "In My Pants" to the end of the title. Bold the ones you found funny.

1. Secret paradise in my pants
2. The pandas must die in my pants
3. Bleed it out in my pants
4. Freaking out in my pants
5. Don't push it in my pants
6. Numb in my pants
7. Break it in my pants
8. Sweet doughnuts in my pants
9. Ice cream in my pants
10. Beat it in my pants
11. They don't want music in my pants
12. Barbossa is hungry in my pants
13. The way you like it in my pants
14. Hurt me in my pants
15. Adding to the noise in my pants

Extra points if you know the bands/artists to all these songs.

First of all, HUZZAH! FA is back, I'm so happy! Is it weird I'm posting so early after its revival?

Main content of this journal entry: I work at a theme park, therefore I often come in contact with guests, and of course I want to be polite and a good worker. So whenever I see someone taking a picture of their family, I walk up and ask "Would you like me to take the picture so you can all be in it?" They, most of the time, say yes and hand me the camera. What I don't understand is why people seem to think they need to point out the goddamn shutter button every fucking time. "Oh shit! How long have they been putting the shutter button on the top right corner of the camera? This is insane! The cosmos is totally fucked up now!" I'm part of the young generation. I know how to work these new-fangled devices called "cameras". Stop telling me how to use it, it's not rocket science.

I took, like, 10 pictures today and each time, they pointed out the shutter button and said "Just push this button". NO WAI! OMG! It takes all my strength not to say "Yeah, I know how to use a camera, they're not new technology."

Ha. I saw it yesterday. I hate that I'm admitting it, but I liked it. I mean, I'm sure it was a horrible movie to people who haven't read the books, but I actually liked it. It was tremendously better than the first, but I still have things to knitpick.

Continuity: I'm very happy Victoria's hair is FINALLY red like it's supposed to be, but it's still a continuity error. I don't think vampires just change hair color like that.

Werewolves: THEY'RE NOT WEREWOLVES!!!

Jacob: I laughed so hard when he pulled off his shirt. "Oh, your head's bleeding. Lemme get that for you." ~bow chikabow bow~

Marriage: They, at no point, elaborated in the movie that Bella fears getting married, which made her little gasp at the end or Edward's whole "I'll make a deal with you" thing fucking retarded. Anyone who hasn't read the book won't get it.

And of course: vampires DON'T SPARKLE. Urg. I hate you, Stephanie Meyers. Whatever concept you pulled out of your ass that made you believe that corpses sparkle in the sunlight should just be left in your ass. As well as how eye color is determined by your nutrient intake. If I ate spinach all the time, my eyes wouldn't turn green. If a vampire drinks blood with a different genetic pattern than other animals, they won't turn red. A vampire is still a human body, it's just dead. Human eyes are incapable of being red or yellow/gold.

Oh, god. Fuck you, Twilight saga. Fuck you, Twilight casting director, but thank you for Michael Sheen. At least you got one thing right. And I guess Peter Facielli, too.