So today i had decided to come out to my folks. Its something i have thought of for yeara and i finally did it... I was preparing myself alot for this so after work i went back to their place to sleep over since we got alot of work to do the next day!!

After around 2 hours of mentally preparing myself my dad decided he wanted to go sleep. So i told thel how much i love them and how special they are to me and what they mean to me and because of mom's now nonexistant tumour and of how scared i was i told them i am gay. My dad made a joke of wether i had a bf or not and my mom was processing this...

She asked if i was joking! Of course i told her i wasn. She started looking angry and then asked me if i like men and what not. I replied yes. She asked if i liked being fucked by men and i replied yes. She asked what i was expecting from her. I told her i just wanted her to know, because its the fair thing to do. She told me she can never be happy about this and went to her room. Came out ten mins later and we had a huge silence contest. She was furious and i am sure she wonders what went wrong. I tried explaining that being gay just a circumstance u accept similar to having brown eyes. She said bullshit to that. She was angry... She started saying how all of her hard work was for nothing and that she would just lock herself inside to avoid people. Started asking if it was my friends that made me gay. She asked if the psychologists forced me in this. She aksed why i told her such a horrible thing and i tols her that i wanted her to know because i love her. She was pissed and tried to process this. I felt sad because i know what she is goin through... I hate the fact that i am gay alot too but i accepted it. Its who i am. I told her that i am still me! I never brought a girl home so that will still be a thing! No girl. She yelled and asked me what am i?! I replied that i am Liz, i am male, i am 23, i am an optician, i have brown hair and i am gay.

These were the longest 40 mins in existance. She went to sleep, kissed my sister, kissed me and then she hugged me... It was a really sad hug. It felt like she was saying goodbye to someone that died.

I am not sure what i will be doing from now on. I had my sister next to me all the time who was holding my hand in silence and then we talked when my mom slept.

I am scared. I am anxious. Tomorrow will be a completely new day for me and i am not sure what to do. I know i let them down... I wish they could be happy for me tho... I honestly wish that. Wholeheartedly.

Maybe i should have kept my secret for another time... But i always keep shut because i don wana ruin the mood.

Oh god my heart feels like breaking...

A bit curious, since I can't find any group of similar nature!

I am interested in commissioning  ceeb for a story and an artist afterwards for a picture based on that story. Therefore, I am looking for someone to split this with (it'll help:>).

Theme is rape and violence.

I can only pick one or two studs that would be up to the challenge. I am honestly not sure what the price will be, but I estimate around 200$ or something

Ok so... this gets weird. Apparently, the doctors can't find ANYTHING wrong with her ._. It's weird cause they can't even find what had caused the tumor to appear in the x-rays to begin with, my mother is 101% not having anything unhealthy right now.

I am so relieved I just cried a river... I am insanely happy, oh my holy bullcrap! Like...

Wow... just god, wow!

I can't describe how I feel right now.

Thanks for everyone who asked and comforted me in a time like this! You guys can't imagine how much you have helped me! I mean it!

My mother received her medical results today from some magnetic X-ray whatever that is. Turns out there's something in her waist and the doctors think it's cancer. What a beautiful sunday this will be.

They still aren't sure. So here's to hoping, but honestly, I feel quite devastated. I am not sure how I am processing any of this.

When Lizeron was first created, he was a dominant, huge badass dragon and a protagonist in a story I was writing when i was 16. As years passed and I understood myself more and came to terms with it (so-so still working on that) I had decided to make him into a sona that expresses me in the fandom. Quite frankly, the only thing I can imagine Liz having different is his athletic build and his confidence in charming men without even thinking of consequences.

Lately tho, I keep feeling like I'd want a story for Lizeron. One that's inspired from life events but also from thoughts and problems that I come across with in real life, both mine and of others.

Does this seem weird? I mean, a fursona shouldn't really have a story other than the user's, at least in my point of view. Because if its a character you just use as a fursona, it's no longer "yourself"!

Because he is dying, holy shit!!! Someone save him, we need a doctor and fast!!!

And it's one of those times. I have no particular reason, but I feel angry and empty. If anything, I feel angry at myself, for letting myself get empty. Right now, most thing feel like they suck.

1) Work drains me. Period. I can't explain how much I feel like I need a 40 year vacation, with all expenses paid by someone else. I can't explain just how much I hate the small tiny period before Orthodox Easter, which marks the begining of the hot season for opticians, at least in greece. Lots of sun, means lots of light, which in turn means more people needing shades, which means more people coming in the store to buy things and make the experience as miserable as possible for anyone assisting them. Right now, the family owns a store in one of Greece's few developped shopping districts. We might be seeing 200-300 people everyday. Out of all of them, around 10-15 are actual buyers (at least, from our long year experience in the place). A few people are polite and respectful and it feels amazing to serve them, especially if they value the seller. Some of them are neutral and want to browse without any disturbance (which most times means they want their own peace and we don't pester them) and then... the last ones bring hell worth. I had a brilliant discussion today about why a store can't sell its merchandise at the price it bought it. With a human being. That votes!!!

2) My personal life is in a weird situation. I am thankful I have friends to pass some time and talk and relax at this point, they brighten my day. But other than that, everything feels empty. My hobbies consist of me spending money, wether it's commissions or hard rock collectibles or skins in dota, or even getting food deliveries. Overal, this is costy and kinda feels like a double edge sword. I tried drawing countless times, but sadly in vain, since it just doesn't feel fun at all

3) My knee is injured. Badly. I slipped on wet floor and smashed on the floor with it. It hurts to step on it on the stairs and it hurts amazingly enjoy when I am walking long distances. In 2 days, I have a check up appointment, but there's quite a possibility this will need surgery since all of my symptoms indicate Meniscus damage. Which also mean I can't really go to the gym. I wasn't even allowed to weight lift while seated.

4) For the first time in forever, the fandom irritates me. I can't get my grasp on this feeling at all, but it almost feels as if I want to express this solitude I feel by leaving it. Don't take my word for it, because I am never acting on this feeling, but alot of people had hurt me in just one year in here, even if I keep mostly silent about it. It all starts with Eurofurence and alot of things that happened since, but I really have been hurt way too much by too many unlucky bad timings and coincidences, one after the other.

5) Going back to me, I have been trying to have a diet. I managed to lose 2.5kilos in a month. This feels like it's too slow. It feels like I failed even in this and when I try to overthink it, I actually realise that I have no other reason to lose weight other than looks and feeling comfortable in my body. The first one is needed for my job, the second one I am not sure where I need it at all.

That's all for now. Thanks for reading and sorry for all this ranting in the middle of the night, but I feel like I wanted to put it in words and communicate all this with the world. Everything feels so pointless today, it feels horrible.

Allow me to say a few things about using my character in pictures and whatever in f-list, facebook and all the general shit.

In the past, I was hoping to keep Lizeron google free. Meaning, I wouldn't wanna have my username appearing on google alot especially in pornographic images. As years past and artists started posting him on their tumblrs to display their work, I realised that what I desired was impossible. Liz will be appearing in places wether I want it or not.

However, I still have a small ownership over him. I don't mind people using him in pictures on Twitter or F-list, but I'd appreciate if you could say he isn't your character. I am not asking for people to go "This is lizeron" but to remind others that they enjoyed the artist's artwork enough to use it, instead of giving the vibes that they like this char for their own. And this applies on F-list as well. Don't me wrong, but knowing someone I don't know roleplays with someone else I don't know and suddenly there's a clone of Lizeron called Bob, that looks exactly the same as Lizeron and is having fun with someone else kinda ticks me off.

That's all. Stay friendly and thank you for liking my char and his design, because I love it too (Possibly most than anyone else here)! So I'd like to maintain a certain level of uniqueness and privacy :D!

Thank you very much :D!!

(also, don't go hard on people that might use my char in their profiles! I stumbled upon a twitter page that someone just used the art for fun and people were going like "u aren't Lizeron1 !! they didn't state they are, so let them be D: they might be some 13 year old discovering internet, don't ruin it for them!)

How do u approach people outside of cons @_@? Like, do u go out to bars alone ?

I feel like, real life is set on hardmode and con is just a cheat code for a weekend of fun!

So... Over the past few years that I have been commissioning artists, I am thinking that I've been stolen and fooled too many times. It's not that I don't appreciate my money and I can be 100% understanding when it comes to free lancing people making a living (since I kinda work at a family business that goes through the same thing), but I am thinking I am losing track of some artists at a point.

I've tried keeping track with a notepad, but I lost the file in a mix of others and I lost the real life notes I kept on my desk cause cleaning lady. Will it be a dick move if I just go to paypal every 5.5months and just issue a refund if the artwork isn't received? I honestly am at my limit.

Right now, I have around 6 artists pulling my leg with this, 2 of which are owing the commission 1 year ago or more. There could be more, but because of the actual load I order, I sometimes lose pictures or names around when it's to small amounts. I feel like going for artist beware is not something I'd like. I hate public shaming and it goes against my ethics. There was also another artist who wouldn't draw until provoked about it. What should I do?

Damnit -.- people just have to do their job and I'd be happy!!!

 jiandou approached me yesterday and offered me a commission. I've been wanting one for too long and I will warn u lot beforehand, it will be quite raw. Sky's our limit and we get anything.

I am looking for someone for a very intense, HARDCORE, rape scene. The price is 200$ per person.

Here is an example of how raw we can get (WARNING FOR GORE) : http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17186418/

Disclaimer: Yes I am into being raped hard as a fantasy. Don't think of it too much, cause if u do, you are into zoophilia with a similar notion!!!

To make it fair, I gave the commission to the first person that approached me in skype before anyone else according to timelines ;x sorry and thanks folks <3

Do people know artists that make some neat and adorable stickers >;o? I am looking from annoyed to cute as fuck kind of stickers!!!

I am not that much of a gamer as most people know. But fuck, I tried this because someone suggested it in a stream. I finished it around half an hour ago, I still can't stop those tears from falling.

One of the best, most mindblowing, creepy yet captivating piece of epic awesomeness, right there. For the first time in my life, I liked a game way more than kingdom hearts. It was so original, so horrible, tragic, yet feel-gooding game. Fuck me, it was a true masterpiece. I give it a golden sphere, an oscar and a nobel prize.

This scarred my soul. Forever. Brillinait/

******SPOILER BELOW*********

I got the best ending ;~;

Beautiful touching movie with great messages ouo i wasn as hyped as everyone else but i can say it was a great movie!!? I liked all the furry jokes with the macro scene and i am glad I saw this with the rest of them greek furs!! watch it if u havent but it wasn the glorified thing allfurs talk about! The way i see it, it's just another disney masterpiece it just happens to have furries in it!!

I will take this moment to actually explain my love for pokemon. I think that as a series, it has marked my life more than any other, because I somehow remember the vividness and excitement I used to feel.

90s kid, one fateful saturday morning the phone rang. My best friend at that time, Alexander, was sounding incredibly hyped going like "YOU HAVE TO SEE THIS, TURN ON STAR CHANNEL" and that was it. That's how I first saw the first pokemon episode. Until season 3, I had missed no episode unless I just couldn't stay and we usually planned to see the episodes as huge groups. My school was going crazy with the pokemon flue in the first grades. And then it simply stopped for most people. It never stopped for me, except for one generation that my life was going nuts and I just didn't care anymore.

Funny thing: All the jocks (or more accurately the people that later went "It's for kids stuff") at my age can still name at least HALF of the pokemon from generation 1, to the point they hate that they still loved it.

Funny fact 2: Kudos to pokemon being one of the few games in the world that have the same dialogs for male and female protagonists. They practically never change, they make it to a point that it doesn't matter. I think, genderwise, that's kinda brilliant. It's feminism done right.

Funny fact 3: Despite funny fact 2, it will never be loved from LGBT communities cause attract doesn't always work!

This is in fashion !!! All the popufurs do it!

Notice me senpai, internet injustice and whatever the rest of the yadayada!!!

Nah, don't worry about it. If I ever leave, I will empty everything in the scraps and leave without a single word xD!

Step 1. Buy alot of quality art!
Step 2. Post it on FA!
Step 3. Enjoy the attention you get for the awesomeness you bought!
Step 4. Do a nice drama.
Step 5. Leave the fandom and tell everyone about it.
Step 6. Nuke your gallery.
Step 7. Come back to the fandom a short while later.
Step 8. Reupload everything again.
Step 9. Repeat from number 3.

#How to get more watchers from art you already bought!

Pimping my dear friend  samaraka who is an amazing artist. And you should go give him love!!!

Also, he has a YCH : http://www.furaffinity.net/full/19171918/

Do people know good artists for such dark and intense themes? Cause I've been looking around alot, but I never seem to find artists that can be... raw! x[

Wether you are below 1k watchers!
Wether you are above that!!
Wether you never commission artists!!
Wether you have commissioned all the popular artists!
Wether you own a super sexy sona!
Wether you own a fugly one!!
Wether you draw all the arts!
Wether you don't!!

I am a jerk to all of you equally!!!
and everyone knows u need at least 30k watchers to be popufur!!!

The amazing couple is back for more awesome awesomeness!!!

And whatever. Life's weird xD!

For a day or two, I feel like I need a small break from everything I am doing and try to motivate myself for things!

Memes are something like this: https://www.furaffinity.net/full/6459257/

I am looking for a few fun ones, since I am practising art again and whatever. Also, i need one to lighten my mood OuO!

THROW THEM TO ME! I will complete one everyday :D!

This is gonna be a bit of a rant. I need to get this out of my chest.

The company in which my apprenticeship took place scammed me. They claimed that apprentices don't get any salary, that the goverment will give them the amount of 1300$ to train me and that they would give it to me because they are so generous and because I really wanted to work there, I agreed to those terms. My apprenticeship started in october 2014. I never received anything from them. So, I kept calling them once every 2 months to remind them of my money. I decide enough is enough and even tho this is greece, a 9 month delay of a company that makes around 2.500.000$ annually is actually stupid. Turns out that everything was illegal, I should have received a payment of 2600$ while I was working there and that the money I am waiting for is basically a support to the company, to urge them to hire more apprenticeships (cheaper workers).

I went there and brought havoc. Fully informed, always polite and with a maturity that scared me. I rarely get this serious. I never had to. Turns out my money had been with them since september, but their evil, super mean accountant decided not to inform the boss of the company (Bullshit). Along side me, there were 6 other apprentices, of which a girl who was working 3 (THREE, FUCKING THREE) jobs at the same time. This money is some of the few I will ever make outside my family's business, so they mean alot to me, but they aren't crucial. For the rest of those guys and girls, that kind of money's an actual fortune and they need it to get by.

So Liz goes there, fucks up the accountant, talks with the boss, demands his money and even threatens with a law suit. Those fucks even lied to all of us about signing paper work and in one of those payments it's stated that we were receiving a proper salary (LOL).

This has me thinking. Of alot of things. I am generally a guy that thinks alot and acts too little but I am generally lost. I keep thinking of my future and for the first time ever, it's straightforward. No more studies, I have my national service to do in september and then who knows!? I feel I give too much of myself in my work and I have this tiny part of me that wishes I could one day stand toe to toe with the big names here (even worldwide, if the future allows it). But I keep thinking of everyone I know who has succeeded and they all took advantage of something. Lie to their coworkers and are ready to stab anyone in the back just for profit. Is that the only actual way for success?

I generally need a week off. Or two. I need a vacation and sadly I can't even get one. And when I ask for it, the reply I get "U are going at that con u wanted, in August" OuO huhu, I am going nuts.

I started scribbling again! I am also on the right track for my diet, even tho with all the moods I am having, I feel like I wanna ruin the asshole of a box of vanilla icecream while crying and watching a mexican soap opera in national TV!