Currently taking commissions. May take a little while to respond to messages as I have a regular job.

I’m trying to upload my art here and have an archive of all my art, sfw and nsfw. I’ve been drawing a fair bit of self indulgent stuff I gotta post somewhere and twitter is dead so howdy.

Yeah, so I kinda fell off the face of the earth and social media last year. I have some good reasons as well as just not really wanting to fuck with it tbh but I'm not gonna get into it. I'll try dumping some of the art I've forgotten to post here the last year eventually and maybe get back into commission/YCHs now that I have time to devote to them.

So i said I'd be back a year ago and reopen commissions, but obviously that didn't happen. Life got a bit hectic. I'm sure most of you can relate. I've been battling depression and a general lack of passion for art. I feel like I've been clawing my way out of a pit, but the last two months have been easier and I've been drawing more. I adopted a cat for the first time. Her name is Moss and I adore her. I've been working and generally just been spending a lot of time with my family. I've gotten back to a point of confidence in my art and will be opening commission slots in the near future for a bit of extra spending money. I will also be upping my prices and revamping my commission rules to hopefully stream line the process, and make the social aspect of commission work easier on myself. I am considering creating a new more art focused twitter account but until then please feel free to follow me @ mossyhands on twitter.

Hey everyone, I mentioned in a journal a while back that my computer was broken and I wouldn't be active until it was repaired, I recently got it fixed. I will be returning and hopefully I will be ready to take commissions again soon. I was recently laid off work due to the current virus situation so I could use the money, but I understand that others may also be in a similar situation so do not feel pressured to commission me, I'll have them open for a while. Also I will be raising my commission prices as I mentioned in a journal prior to my hiatus. I just want to remind anyone who may have previously wanted one so as to not blind side anyone with the price increase. I just think that for the quality and speed of my work, it really isn't fair to myself to charge such a low price. I apologize for the extended absence. I'm excited to be back and I'm working on some personal projects as well that hopefully you all will get to see and enjoy in the coming year. I hope everyone is staying safe and practicing responsible social and hygienic behaviors in these scary times. Thank you to anyone who has stuck with me despite my extended absence.

My temporary hiatus from taking commissions may be extended as my computer blue screened on me and I’m unsure when I’ll be able to get it fixed.

Happy Holidays to everyone. I have clear queue and I won't be taking anymore commissions until after January first. I'm also going to take my price list down as I want to change my prices going into the new year to better match the quality of work I do. I've made big strides this year and I'm hoping for a lot of positive changes in my life in 2020. I hope everyone got what they wanted this year and if not, just know its never too late to get it. Happy Christmas from me and see you all in the new year!!

I'm a bit of a hypochondriac, I'm pretty anxious and when something feels off or wrong my mind immediately races to the absolute worst possible thing that it could be. The last couple months of my life when it turns out I was right about something being seriously wrong have kinda only made it worse. Anyway I'm pretty much completely healed from my surgery, and I've dealt with that issue. I'm now pursuing help for my anxiety issue and hopefully that can get sorted out. I'm trying my best to be a responsible person when it comes to my physical and mental health and take better control of the direction of my life.

I got my gallbladder removal surgery yesterday, everything went smoothly and I'm home free (if a bit sore). I have a week off of work to recover so you may get some incoming new art if I'm up to it, I have about a billion WIPs sitting around that need finished. If nothing else I'll likely clean up some old art and post it here.

I recently received some commission requests, which I'm very happy about. While I'm pleased to do work for you, I would like to explain that if my replies are at all slow it is because I am currently having a bit of a health issue. I should hopefully be home and relatively available for now, but unfortunately health issues are rarely conveniently timed or predictable, so if for some reason I go silent for a few days it may be due to me having to take another hospital stay. I don't want to worry anyone. The issue I'm currently having is not incredibly serious, but may make it hard for me to keep in contact constantly. I would like to put this explanation out there for anyone considering commissioning me or wanting to contact me at all. If I am unreachable for up to a week it is most likely a medical issue has come up. Hopefully this issue will be resolved within a 2 months or so.

I know its not healthy to only be completely open and emotionally vulnerable when I'm drunk but its nice being able to open up to friends about shit without feeling self conscious or judged for every little thing.

I was kinda in a slump lately but I feel myself bouncing back. I've been trying to get the hang of procreate, not great at it yet, but I'm gonna pick up my normal tablet for a bit bc I miss Sai.

I've been sick for like a week and its awful :(

Above the world, floating high, I find peace in the drink, free from worry and paranoia, and insecurities of the mind. I can love more freely, live without second guessing. Impassivity, often embarrassed in the morn. Though trapped in the moment, I find myself, blissful and unwary, unburdened. I feel more alive and more out of my mind then I've ever been. How will I wake in the morning and find myself so dull. Compared to the moment I am in.

Hey, I'm VERY drunk and in my feelings, but hi, i wish i knew how to talk to people more openly, and knew how to make new friends when i am sober but I'.m a cripplingly self-conscious person and don't know how to be genuine because i feel like I'm gonna be mocked or condescended to for having basic human feelings. I wish I knew how to approach people, but my entire existence is just a cycle of me second guessing myself, and p.s. don't b surprised if I delete this tomorrow when I sober up. I'll probably be really embarrassed and afraid of how people took this. Do I doubt myself or others? Its kinda confusing bc I have literally always (sense I was a small child) felt a vast wall between me and everyone I meet, its really hard to relate to others. I wonder if its Just Me or if its some mental or developmental issue that I was never diagnosed with bc my parents "didn't believe in it" , or a mental illness, or if its just normal bc I'm a Scorpio and we are supposedly #deep people who are supposed to feel misunderstood. Don't judged me for being into astrology please, it helps me cope with my fear of my own mortality. This is gonna turn into a wall of obnoxious text, I can tell. I'm so sorry, I',m very intoxicated, and I'm for the most part a very happy drunk, Hell I'm happy now, but I'm also always thinking, like, idk if other people can just,,, turn their brains off, or relax and not worry about literally every thing, but *insert Jeffree Star gif* can't relate. One of my doctor's thinks I have OCD but idk if its a full on diagnosis so pls don't quote me on that, but it makes sense from what I've seen. God I'm annoying.

I wanna be a writer. I wanna write shitty contemporary western romance novels. I UNIRONICALLY LOVE ROMANCE NOVELS OPPS capslock omfg. I'm so sorry if you actually took the time to read this. I'm actaully sorry, maybe its not annoying to u but I'm literally stuck with myself 24/seven so I find everythign I ever think or say or do annoying. the funny thing is that, generally speaking I'm a fairly happy person but u wouldn't be able to tell from my dumbass rant would u? jesus. I gues I'm just under a bunch of stress lately. my dad worries me. he is old and disabled and an addict and I quit my job and now I'm home all the time and I try me best to take care of him but I'm so scared also. I love him so much and I', m so afraid of him dyign (which is inevitable and will happen some day) and watching him get old and be super forgetful and and in pain all the time physically hurts me. He isn't the best person, but he means so much to me, he is the only person thats given me the closest thing to unconditional love a human can give, and now he's sick and old and I get to watch him wither away. I don't know how I'm gonna do this whole Being Alive thing without him. It makes me so scared I get physically sick thinking about it. I love him and my family so so so so sos much. I do NOT WANT YOUR NICE COMFORTING COMMENTS THO. IF ANYONE BOTHERED TO READ THIS PLEASE DO NOT TELL ME ITS ALL GONNA BE OKAY. ITS NOT. THIS SHIT SUCKS AND I DESERVE TO BE SAd about it for like A WHILE. so please don't try and give me any shallow appeasements. I understand and appreciate the sentiment but this isn't the time for it. lol assuming anyone even reads this. I'm so fucing egotistical.

God I wish I could hug someone rn, I kinda bummed myself out, luckily I have my family around me so when I wake up in the morning I should hopefully feel better and get a much needed affection & comfort. I love physical affection bc it feels like love without judgement or paranoia or self-conscious bullshit.; I don;t actually think anyone is gonna see this, honestly, its more jsut a SUPER honest message to future me. ok, I think i tired myself out. if u did happen to click on this, hi. whats your favorite color? mine is yellow.