Reposted a compressed version of me wearing Isaac playing with 'loons. SFW :)

https://www.dropbox.com/s/q69f3up81.....P1050028-1.m4v

Okay furry 'looner-furs.....fursuit balloon video is up! https://www.dropbox.com/sh/fepk02wd.....zyf/dGL-rkhnda Entirely SFW.

A year ago today Yukon passed away. Sad. :( Goddammit, I miss you.

Okay, I don't know why I have such a hard time with this, but I do. I have an artist that I've wanted to commission for a long time lined up to do something for me, and I CAN'T FOR THE LIFE OF ME think of a good subject. Ideas....toss them at me. Sorry, no prizes...the submitter of the winning idea wins *absolutely nothing,* except for my (maybe) eternal gratitude.

So, peoplez, what do you want to see an inflatable wolf doing? Keep it clean, people, keep it clean! I know where that was going!

Does anyone know what happened to  Op_Turk? I hate it when people leave and don't say goodbye :(

The random deletion elves have struck again! For some inexplicable reason, some of my submissions are missing, so I guess I'll be doing some reposting. There doesn't seem to be any rhyme or reason as to what is missing, so I'm guessing it's a database glitch. :}

This came about randomly on Twitter, but hey, there SHOULD be an International Helium Day! *tosses all the squeakies free helium tanks*

If you're not a big inflatable squeakytoy or balloon, just ask me or one of my many associates how you too could be TF'd into an inflatable! (Temporary TF's available).

:D :D :D

First, I'd like to admit that I missed FA a lot, and I appreciate the efforts that  dragoneer put into restoring services as quickly as possible. To everyone that bitches every time there's a problem.....YOU try maintaining something like this and we'll see how you do with it. I'm really tired of armchair quarterbacks screaming about how the free service that they're not paying for is offline and somehow that entitles them to moan and whine and make snide remarks about people who put their own time and money into this thing. If you don't like it, go somewhere else.

Sure, if this were Google or Amazon where every second of downtime meant tens of thousands of dollars in lost revenue, there's be multiple backup server farms and multiple copies of the database on hot standby waiting to take over the second one of the other sites failed. But it's not, and there's no giant swimming pool of money the admins can dip into to have 200 technicians working on restoring service within minutes. Sometimes, even with all of the resources in the world at your disposal, things still take time;.

Anyway, welcome back fellow fur and watchers! It's nice to have the site back.

Is it just me or has there been a recent increase in the number of pooltoy fursonas (or at least alternate forms)? In the old days (you know, like 5 years ago), there was very little new squeaky art to be had, which made wolf sad. Within the last couple of years, there seems to be a noticeable increase in pooltoy/squeaky/inflation themed art :) This, on the other hand, makes wolf very happy!

If anyone has any doubts about being changed into a pooltoy or balloon. let me know....always happy to help with the transformation!

So all I can say is.....keep it up, people! It's a long road to squeaky world domination, but look at how far we've come!

:) :) :) :) :)

Recovering a bit more. I really do want to thank all of my friends for helping me through Yukon's death. I don't know if I'll ever be over it, but I have no choice but to move on. I'm going to start studying for the CCNA...I promised myself I'd do what after Yukon passed away and I had a lot more free time. I also plan on doing some traveling now that I am able and I don't have to worry about leaving Yukon with my mom.

I still have my sad days. Weekends, especially....they hit me a lot harder than weekdays. Today I slept clear into 5 PM, between being tired and not really having anything motivating me to get up. I'm not in complete depression...I'm able to work productively, but on weekends I feel sad and lonely and I don't feel like doing anything. It's depression and I need to get out of it, but it's hard. :(

I went to the doctor last week and between all the stress and whatnot, I've put on 8 pounds :( Fattywolf is fat. That's fine for my fursona...he's a toy and doesn't have to worry about health problems...not so good for the human me. Back on to the bicycle I go.

So...holding up, but I've been a lot better too. :\

Still reeling from Yukon's death. It seems to vary from day to day...I'm okay at work, but when I see the empty pen, sometimes I lose it. Tonight I went out and sat on the platform where he and I used to sit and it feels peaceful. Sometimes I just can't believe he's not there after 13 years of always being there.

One day at a time.

Thank you all again for your warm wishes and condolences. I never know what to say when somebody loses a pet or someone they love..."I'm sorry" always seems to generic, but really, in the end, it's not what you say, it's just that you say something and let the person know you are thinking about them. Nothing anyone says will bring him back, but it comforts me to know how many of you have been thinking of me...and that helps a lot.

Thank you, everyone, for your kind comments and condolences. I realize I'm not the only one that's ever gone through this, but I tend to be very sensitive and take things harder than the average person.

I've had a few days to calm down and reflect. I loved that animal so very much, and he had a very long and happy life and I will miss him so and it hurt me to have to euthanize him. But I do realize that I really had no other choice if I were going to spare him pain and suffering. Although he could still walk and was pretty spry for a 15 year old wolfdog, he had lost a lot of weight, he was incontinent, and had occasional tremors. I am thankful that he remained happy and mobile up to the very end. I believe he had suffered a stroke in October and probably occasional other minor ones, and that sometime Saturday night or Sunday morning, he had a fatal one. When I went out on Sunday, he wasn't moving, he was drooling, and his eyes would not focus and it was pretty clear to me that something major had happened and that he was in dire shape.

Thankfully, I was lucky enough to have a veterinarian who lives just down the road come down within a couple of hours and he was able to end Yukon's suffering. He was buried in the back yard along with a couple of toys and bones.

In all reality, he lived two or three years longer than most people predicted and I believe that he was quite happy and had a good life. I knew this was coming and have been trying to prepare myself for several years, but you're never fully prepared to lose someone you love dearly.

Thank you friends, for your sincere sympathy and care for my well being. You are the only reason I've been able to make it. The pain of loss is still there, but it has eased enough that I can get on with my life and I've finally made it through a whole day without crying.

At 3:57 this afternoon, I had to have Yukon euthanized. It was time. Goodbye, best friend. I will love you always until the day I die.

PS:Thank you everyone for your kind wishes and comforting words.

Yukon (my wolf-dog) not only made it through Furry Fiesta weekend, but he's still up and about and on the right side of the ground. I called the vet to get some antibiotics and he was amazed that such a big dog had made it to the age of 15. I know his death is inevitable and will happen sooner rather than later, but he's still happy and dishing out wolf-kisses, taking naps in the sun, and occasionally submitting to scritches and bellyrubs as he naps. I put his latest picture into scraps.

I really wish I had been able to go to Fiesta and I missed my friends, but I'm glad I stayed home to see him through. I've been trying to take it day by day, making his last days as comfortable and enjoyable as possible.

I've decided to cancel my Furry Fiesta trip. Yukon has been getting slower and more frail in the last few weeks, and although I don't think he is going to pass away this weekend, I don't feel right about leaving and being so far away for so long in case something happens. I've been there for him for almost 13 years, and I am just feeling as if I'm abandoning him when he needs me most.

I'm probably overreacting, but he's slowed down considerable since FC, enough to worry me to the point where I don't feel like I would be able to enjoy the convention.

I will miss everyone and I hope everyone has a fantastic time.

Although I quiet enjoy my time as a squeaky-toy, sometimes my gray color scheme has me feeling a bit dull, causing me to wonder if I should pay a visit to the pooltoy factory to get some brighter colors painted on. I've always been quite fond of the color blue, but alas I don't wish to copy anyone else's color scheme.

So, what does anyone think? Keep the old color...revert to my original brown color, or do something with the blue? :3

DSL has been up and down here for the last few days. Had a phone line issue which was supposedly fixed, but I think we got switched over to a copper pair with poor high-frequency response :( Keeps losing sync and the speeds are pretty crappy (600kb/s at most).

Haven't been online much lately..feeling overwhelmed and burned out :] Trying to get back to my old self.

Irene turned out to be a non-issue in my area, although a rotten tree branch up the road took out power for 24 hours at the end of the storm. Moderate winds and rain, but nothing of epic proportions and definitely not the worst I've seen. Once the storm made landfall, it fell apart, although I will add that northern NH and especially Vermont got hit hard by flooding. Here though...I'm glad to report, not much of anything.

I know I've been scarce online lately. I've been fighting a bout of depression and haven't been feeling very social lately, so please do not take it personally. I just really haven't felt like getting online much. Hopefully I'll snap out of the funk sooner rather than later, but for the mean time, bear with me.

Currently enduring the rain and wind from (now) tropical storm Irene. So far, though, no damage other than a few power glitches, lots of rain, and moderate winds. I'm sure we'll lose power eventually, but so far it's still on.

Figured I'd upload a few things while I still had power :)

Well, I suppose I should update this a bit more often than once every 8 months. :P Anyway, my commissions from  Rawr and  Zambuka have come in (in case you haven't noticed). I couldn't be happier ^^  Rawr draws absolutely amazingly cute pooltoys ^^

The commission from  Zambuka is my first adult commission and I see by the stats page that people seem to like it :) I personally think it's fantastic, but then again, I suppose I have a certain bias ;)

Not sure what's coming next. I'm getting a back porch built on to my house and I just ran up the credit card making my summer travel plans, so there are moths in my wallet, but like any good fur, I'm sure I can scrape together something for another commission ;)

There seem to be more and more squeaky/inflatable furs coming out of the woodwork, as well as many new artists who seem to be trying their paws at drawing inflatables, both of which make me very happy! I must say, I've seen some really good squeaky art coming up lately! ^^

I still have my concrud that I got at MFF... At one point, I thought it was turning into bronchitis, but it seems to have eased up somewhat. Whatever alien virus I picked up in Chicago, it's a nasty one .-

I really need to get some artz done and a have a few spare $$$...the question is...who to commission? Any suggestions, fellow squeakies?

Well, I brought home some great memories AND some con-crud. Thankfully, it held off long enough and it's only making work unpleasant and thankfully didn't ruin my con. :3

Nice to see everyone I saw, I'm sorry I didn't see you if I meant/wanted to, and if I hate you/didn't want to see you, I'm glad I didn't! ;) :) :)

Now in room 345 :) :) :) I'll have the red husky fursuit out and around, so say hello if you're here!

I'm in room 351 at MFF...moving tomorrow to a double room (all they had for tonight was a king room).

I'm having fursuit overload....soooo many cute suits, and it's only Thurday.

Sat in the registration line for about 90 minutes, but that's the way things go. :)

See you there if you're going!