Once every blue moon makes those sweet moments so much more meaningful <3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fJ_r.....eature=related

I've been trying to be better, less thirsty for all the argueably evil things I was into before.

It will always be a part of me, but like an old friend said after reading my aura "Im a dark angel"

I don't want to be seen as a monster, I'm mannerly and kind to any who dont insist I change to a jackass.

I also don't want to be known for "Mala" who IS a real personality. Not just the character I based of him.

Due to a LOT of hallucinating recently and over-thinking, I feel it is time I find equilibrium with my angel.

"Need More Angels" - Tech N9ne


Drama, use to be my middle name
with ecstasy, sex and technically set me for a little fame
it gets to me, when the people I used to know switch and change
regretfully, I'm gonna say I don't wanna see none of 'em again
They stressin' me, when they think 'cause of my absence I'm playin' games
When really I just work in strain to let everybody else feel my pain
and respectfully, I gotta say buzz off you and Tech Nina thangs in jeopardy
'cause I need angels around me they should cling
but you never be strange lane
I feel this deep in my vein
Like Leprosy, you attackin' my nerves and mess with my brain
It's vexin' me, ain't a angel inside you distrustin' vain is your recipe
to complain is necessity, you're to blame so I reckon we,
no longer straight, that's why I never came
When you beckoned me, I need peace in my life
But with you need gangs and weaponary, im too busy to have these lousy lames
To come question me, man I really do need more angels blessing me

You see we've all done our dirt
God knows that I have and I know I can't take that back
But I can say today I'm makin a change
Ima leave the drama in my past
So if you try to bring me down
Don't you ever come around
I got no space in my life for negative
I said I need, I need more angels around me

Need, somebody to bring me a brighter day
Not somebody that when I see them coming gotta hide away
Like these losers leavin messages
Then gon try and say I went Hollywood when i dont answer
So you know I press delete right away
I need the drama gone, like I met my mama home
yep, persona's piranha, beyond the haters try my home
so if you wanna get on us, you get the lama chrome
I know that you hear me even though im speakin minor tones
thats to the demons who callin leavin' me death threats
been a couple of years of my spirit, aint even left yet.

(Chorus)

Need sun rays, not a dark cloud, that's why there still lookin for me like where art thou?
Oh brother, they so cluttered and hearts foul, ain't never return there call and they bout to start now
Need angel wings not gargoyle, you bring that beef to me get ready to get charbroiled
I treated them so nice in the past, this people are spoiled, reject them demons and get 'em all off of our soil
And when the smoke clears in your retina, who cleaned it up
You got to give it up to slegna, the black boots and red strings come to bless ya, less ya mess mesh
And threats best ya exa, dust yes that's us, but my angle, is to break loose of these webs that's so tangled
Such a shame ya name remains painful, so change ya games, cause we were stained but became angels

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4472920/

+ Fave it and you will raise some money to help the tiger preservation 3200 faves will raise $1,000!

BE HEROES , NOT ZEROES D<

Every heart contains a light. And it shines forever unto death.

One can always look through dark times with that light.

But sometimes we are hurt, and our gentle hands clench on that light.

The light is shaded by the clenched fist of hurt and all goes dark for a while.

Unclench your fists and find your path in the current darkness.


-Me to a friend (who won't be named)

http://www.youtube.com/user/engrave...../0/LxTOCcfcF78

I don't know what they think of furries, but oh well.
Show them some love.
And spread 'em around.

AND I'LL:

1. Tell you something I'll learn about you by looking at your FA page for 13 seconds.
2. Tell you which color you remind me of.
3. Tell you my first memory of you.
4. Tell you what pokemon you remind me of.
5. Ask you something I've always wondered about you, and your answer has to be as vague as possible to keep the suspense.
6. Tell you my favorite thing about you.
7. Give you a weird nickname
8. Tell you what's on my shirt right now.
9. Challenge you to post this on your journal.

 vene , my little bro, made this cute video.

Thought Id spread the love.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Id4KwyA8usk

http://www.current-movie-reviews.co.....estival-photo/


This is amazing.

I don't know wtf she was doing at a Gathering at all.
But it's fucking hilarious that the fam started stoning her whore ass! xD

http://www.showbizspy.com/article/2.....val-video.html

Tila echoed those sentiments on her Twitter page.

“Thank you everyone for your support,” Tequila tweeted. “The people at Juggalos behavior was disgusting and I am filing a suit against Them now. Thanks 4 ur luv. Pretty soon the owners who run the Juggalos will be bankrupt. My attorney Alan is already on it. This is disgusting behavior from men. But to all of my fans, I appreciate your outpour of love and support! Xoxo”

@ bold: We're already all broke bitch >D

My asshole of an ex was sent something at the same time I was by a friend.

I felt bad that I yelled at him, but I hate that fucking cuntstain of a name.

I dont want him seeing my email ever lest I get fucking bullshit mail about him.

Fffffucking hate that man.... D<

Allergies are hitting me like a fucking retaerd and its so bsd Im dizzy.
I guesx I cant type either. Oh well.

:D Thought Ids ashare

~! Keep in mind that I am not a nazi. This character is to express
my own hidden self loathing and unfocused hatred that is never seen!~

( I will be posting these bit by bit over time, just 'cuz it sucks to
read a lot of this stuff all at once.)


The diary of Herr Heinrich Sonnegeist
( Exerpts of a monster)


June 30, 1934:

The Gestapos apprehended me and what must have been a few thousand
today. They said I was to be brought to a camp for the safety of the
Fatherland. As I sit upon this wretched train, I wonder... the others
are less pessimistic than I, excited and gibbering about some 'new
beginning'. I fear we all may die...

June 32, 1934:

Yesterday was horrible! The Gestapo had us stripped and given new
uniforms to wear with a golden Hebrew star. They said I was a Juden,
but I am born German. I have been a devout German since birth. I had
tried to explain this to a Gestapo, but was nearly killed and made to
get back in the line!
Today was no better, we were awoken by the Gestapos and made to shower
together in some out door shacks. We were all startled, but the work
sorting took us all by the scruff. We were designated to jobs within the
camp. My job was a disciplinarian. As any German would for their Fuhrer,
...I accept my job.

June 34, 1934:
A young jew had been brought to me today. Apparently he had ran in front
of Herr Heinrich Himmler himself. At first , I had found this cute and told
him to do some push ups, as I had been punished in the military before, to
humor the SA... I was beaten for it and made to do the same to the boy...
As the day progressed I had noticed that I received not but dirty glares
from my fellow captives. My stay would not be a comfortable one...but I am
convinced I do the right thing, keeping order for the Reich was important in
these troubled times.

( To be continued)

I will be making "diary excerpts" from the diary of my character Sonnegeist,
now named Heinrich Sonnegeist. I am hoping to create a day by day story
for his development.

All critique is welcome.
But reader discretion IS ADVISED.

I plan for him to perform and witness horrors and tortures.
Fully descriptive horrors and tortures xD
There will of course be a warning.

Anyways, here's a list of forewarning content:

~NAZI
~CRUELTY
~RACISM
~FASCISM
~HATE CRIMES

And no XXX, this will be simply M rated.

Yoinked from my bro  vene


YOU KNOW YOU ARE A TRUE Missourian WHEN:
1. Vacation means going east or west on I-70 for the weekend but you never
leave the state.
2. You measure distance in minutes it takes you to get there.
3. You know several people who have hit a deer more than once.
4. You often switch from heat to AC in the same day and back again.
5. You drive 65 mph through a raging blizzard, without flinching.
6. You see people wearing camouflage at social events (including weddings).
7. You install security lights on your house and garage and leave both unlocked.
8. You carry jumper cables in your car and know how to use them.
9. You design your kids Halloween costume to fit over a snowsuit.
10. Driving is better in the winter because the potholes are filled with snow.
11. You know all 5 seasons: almost winter, winter, still winter, road construction, & It's Hot. <-- YES
12. Your idea of creative landscaping is a statue of a deer next to a blue spruce.
13. "Down south" means the boot heel of Missouri.
14. A brat is something you eat.
15. Your neighbor throws a party to celebrate his new pole shed.
16. You go out to a tailgate party every Friday.
17. You have more miles on your snow blower than your car.
18. You find 0 degrees a "little chilly."
19. You know the difference between corn and soy beans at a glance.
20. The #1 reason you are from Missouri is because you know that East St. Louis is not in Missouri.
21. A "hill" is any landmass higher than 20 feet above sea level.
22. You never drive anywhere within 20 miles of home without there being road construction.
23. You don't believe it until you see it.
24. You know what a pork steak is.

Very accurate 'cept it doesn't snow where I am unless it's a fucking blizzard of mass proportion.

So the Character Nitzan that I brought up a while back has offered me a brainstorm for his development.


I decided that he will not be stupid insane.
I decided he will have some method to his madness, in that he will in a sense become a mockery of heaven.

And with this he will be introduced to a Chapel that changes based on the time.
During the day, it is made of Gold and white marble, clean and a sense of ease fills it's halls.

With the daytime, comes an illusion of heavenly proportions, the fountain runs with cool clear pure waters and Nitzan himself looks pure as most would see an angel.


However. When between 12 am and 3:15 am , the chapel becomes perverse. Rust and blood stains the walls , filthy vermin filled oil fills the baptism pool and fountains. The cross is stained with blood, showing the sacrifices made. And the bible upon the alter returns to ashes and burnt content.
Nitzan himself decays as I said before in his madness, his perfection rots away. His fur tangled and messy, some flesh missing from decay and his wings half rotted showing bone.

This new bit of development came from listening to an inverse song x3 I figure it would make sense that he would believe himself to be the perfection of heaven while yet, only twisting reality to fool the masses into his twisted blasphemous beliefs.

Also: He will not be a fool publically. I think he needs to be crafty and clever in his approach to corruption.
Not just a maniac blabbering prophet.

Stolen from  Nivek88 because his village angered my gods.

[x] you meow/bark to get attention ( And crow and turkey calls at random xD)
[x] you find pets toys amusing ( My grands used to buy me dog toys O_o)
[] you get hyper by the smell of catnip
[x] you growl/hiss when someone gets too close to your food ( I roar and stab them with a fork)
[] you growl/hiss when someone you dislike is too close to you ( I leave them alone until they give me reason to publically shoot them down with my mouth)
[x] you purr/shake your leg when someone shows you affection ( I shake a bit and make odd purrs x3 )
[] if someone tosses a ball, you chase it and brings it back ( Im too lazy unless Im hyper)
Total: 4

[] you love to be scratched behind the ear ( My skin is real sensitive, no thanks)
[x] you love fish/meat
[x] you like to stick your head out trough the window of a moving car ( Not in MO :c Hornets hit you)
[x] you like when people pet your head ( I do it when Im nervous >.>)
[x] people can make you stop doing stuff by hitting you on the nose with a newspaper ( I would whap them back)
[] you think feathers are fun to play with
Total: 8

[x] you sleep a lot during daytime
[] you enjoy scaring birds
[] you lick peoples faces to show you like them
[x] you bite people if they annoy you ( Done it before :I )
[] you tend to steal food from your friends/family's plate when you have eaten all of yours
[x] milk or water is your favorite drink
Total: 11

[x] you own a collar and you enjoy wearing it
[] you own a leash and enjoy wearing it
[] you own animal ears/tail/paws or a fursuit
[x] you enjoy long walks in the park
[x] you meow/bark when you see something you want ( Actually a variety of other wierd noises)
Total: 14

[x] you call your hands and feet "paws" (around friends)
[x] you tilt your head when you do not understand what someone is talking about( lol)
[x] you run to the door when someone mentions a walk ( :B I like walks)
[x] you really enjoy cuddling ( Only with the person Im in a relationship with)
[x] you stretch your body and whimper a bit every morning when you wake up
[x] you can wake up and go back to sleep right away after looking around (I do this alot xD)
Total: 20

[x] you have your favorite spot besides your bed where you like to sleep ( The floor I guess?)
[x] you meow or bark very often ( I bark at my boss at work :D )
[x] you hide when you get scared ( lol I run my ass off too)
[x] you run to the door to see who it is every time someone comes in to the house ( LOL yes)
[] you like to chase flying insects and try to catch them with your bare hand
[x] you tend to chew on stuff a lot
[x] you like to do tricks to get a treat ( I have before if its mango slices :I )
Total: 26

[x] you own a wearable item/tag with your name on it ( my collar has my nametag)
[x] you refer to your self as an animal (We're ALL animals, whether we delusion otherwise or not))
[] your username has something to do with animals ( It has something to do with religion actually)
[] your e-mail has something to do with animals
[x] if you get a bleeding wound, you lick it to make it feel better ( Not to feel better, just for the blood)
[x] you look for edible stuff often ( Im ALWAYS hungry)
Total: 30

[x] you often find yourself looking trough the window for a long time
[x] you like to say hi to strangers
[x] you like to be petted when you have done something good
[x] people think you act like a pet
[x] you growl/hiss at stuff you do not like ( I hiss or roar when the lights turn on xD )
[] you like to eat grass
[x] if you get wet, you shake to get rid of the water ( when I have hair to shake)
Final Total: 36


Now, take your score and multiply it by two to get your final score.

72% Furry.

Im pretty durn furreh

Im thinking about actually writing the fanfic I made for Silent Hill.

It takes place in the forests of silent hill, around the actual lake. And will include creatures I thought up myself, along with a new punisher.

All the creatures (Other than a new form of the lurker) are new, and the actual ghost is original.

So now I pose to you a question... If I write this, and it will take a while for the first part... would you read it?

I want to know now because if I write it and nobody reads, >_> I wont write at all and will just have random ass art made.

SurgeTesla: xD

LokiOfTheSanctuus: :C Wesker is a terrible choice of babysitter Surge

AnnaTesla: XD hahaha

LokiOfTheSanctuus: He makes Loki get in the kennel and always sends crazy people to inject him with things

LokiOfTheSanctuus: Or tells him to shut up and be useful

LokiOfTheSanctuus: which makes loki go <qnq>

LokiOfTheSanctuus: <@n@>

SurgeTesla: <.<;;

LokiOfTheSanctuus: And he usually shirks his duty and makes Krauser babysit me D:

LokiOfTheSanctuus: Krauser just makes fun of me D;

LokiOfTheSanctuus: and throws flash grenades at me D';

LokiOfTheSanctuus: And fights with people :C

LokiOfTheSanctuus: Like when he was supposed to be watching me in Portugal

LokiOfTheSanctuus: Remember? REMEMBER?!

LokiOfTheSanctuus: -cries-

AnnaTesla: Then Ada cuddles him and tells him its okay then slips him some booze to shut him up

LokiOfTheSanctuus: xD

LokiOfTheSanctuus: So like

LokiOfTheSanctuus: Surge finds him drifting in a boat drunk

AnnaTesla: XD

LokiOfTheSanctuus: and Wesker blames Leon

LokiOfTheSanctuus: Then asks for double pay because Im a shitty kid xD

SurgeTesla: .... O_o

AnnaTesla: hahaha

AnnaTesla: -lolling all over the place-

Yoinked from  emilyraccoonfox because it's easy, like stealing candy from a unborn fetus.

1] Do you have the guts to answer these questions and re-post as The Controversial Survey?
Two in fact.

[02] Would you do meth if it was legalized?
Meth is for failures.

[03] Abortion: for or against it?
Neither. It's the decision of the person with a baby. If god or anyone was against it. all abortion clinics would spontaneously disintegrate.

[04] Do you think a country would fail with a female president?
I think a country will fail no matter what.
So yeah, I guess I do :O

[05] Do you believe in the death penalty?
Sure do! Killing to save lives is met with applause. Killing to simply kill, is different.

[06] Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already?
Yes. AND IT IS WHERE IM MOVING TO BIZNATCHES! 8D

[07] Are you for or against premarital sex?
It depends on who's what. If you love someone but they believe its wrong. Don't do it.
If neither care. GO FOR IT.

[08] Do you believe in God?
I believe God is a name given by humans to suit their lives in the way they see best. ~I~ believe in a greater force, whether it be godly or simple science. People just name its aspects to make life easier.

[09] Do you think same sex marriage should be legalized?
Duh. Im gay. AND ITS LEGAL TOO WHERE IM MOVING TOOOOO 8D

[10] Do you think it's wrong that so many Hispanics are illegally moving to the USA?
I dont care :D The US was built on illegal immigration.

[11] A twelve year old girl has a baby, should she keep it?
Sure, if she wants. Or set it up for adoption. Abortion isnt the ONLY answer muh friends.

[12] Should the alcohol age be lowered to eighteen?
People are too stupid and irresponsible to drink in the US to begin with. Fuck that.

[13] Should the war in Iraq be called off?
Whatever floats their boats. Right now it seems pointless. But then, the extremists just hate everyone. They might go bomb some other country.

[14] Assisted suicide is illegal: do you agree?
Having mercy on a vegetable should be legalized. I guarantee anyone in that state would want to die, whether they admit it now or not. Killing an emotional person, not so much. Hobos and Emos can fix their lives, a vegetable cannot.

[15] Do you believe in spanking your children?
BEAT THEM! D< lol no. But yeah, smack the kid if words arent solving it.

[16] Would you burn an American flag for a million dollars?
Why not. The only patriotism and respect I have for the US are the soldiers anyways.

[17] Who do you think would have made a better president? McCain or Obama?
McCain. Democrats seem to be over the equilibrium and are just wasting money now.
Equilibrium of interests is needed more than ever.

[18] Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?
Nope. If they do :o They obviously don't know me too well and can bend over and suck their own ass ^^ Most of them have more skeletons in THEIR closets anyways.

Loki Beragist says:
Whats the requirements for citizenship in Canada

Rye Beraist says:
Uhhh
-checks-
Holy...
Canadian citizens and permanent residents living in Canada, 18 years of age or older, may sponsor close relatives or family members including spouses, common-law/same-sex partners, conjugal partners who cannot live together and dependent children applying outside of Canada who want to become permanent residents of Canada.

Loki Beragist says:
So

I just register that Im living with you xD

Rye Beraist says:
Oh fuck...

Loki Beragist says:
<.<

Rye Beraist says:
One of the questions...
You WON'T like...
When do you expect the marriage to take place?

Loki Beragist says:
Well... ^^; actually I dont think that will be a problem...

Rye Beraist says:
-blinks-
Wait...what?
Loki Beragist says:
I been thinking a lot about that... I told you I would...
So...maybe after some time.... ^
^^
Rye Beraist says:
-BLUSH-
Well...
I just submitted the application...
Well
To see if you qualify

Loki Beragist says:
>///>

Rye Beraist says:
I put...like...June 2011 for estimated marriage time. >>

Loki Beragist says:
^^

Rye Beraist says:
You have no idea...
How much I'm smiling right now...

Loki Beragist says:
-cuddles to you- I really don't know why not...
You make me happy and I make you happy.

Rye Beraist says:
-strokes your hair gently-
Oh and...
In December, after Christmas
I get 2 weeks off.
Because the restaurant closes.
By then, Kim will have met me.
So perhaps it'll make things easier for a second visit..^^

Loki Beragist says:
^^
Or maybe I can go there

Rye Beraist says:
I'm so happy I could cry right now...

Loki Beragist says:
Awwww D: -licks under your eyes-

Rye Beraist says:
-holds your paws lightly, staring into your eyes-

Loki Beragist says:
-holds yours back, tail wagging- I love you baby

Rye Beraist says:
You make me the happiest person alive...I start my day thinking of you, and I end it dreaming of you...I constantly think about you in a way I've never thought about anyone before...when I'm down, you seem to pick me back up, you're the only one that can do that to me..I'd walk there if I had to, just to see your smile or your frown, just to hold you, to tell you everything will be alright...
because that's how you make me feel...
Regardless of the situation, I know, everything will be fine if we stick together..

Loki Beragist says:
Oh wow >//< ... -blushes under his paws-
Rye Beraist says:
I WANT to shed tears with you, I want to laugh with you until we can no longer breathe, I want to spend those quiet moments together where we DO just enjoy the silence; lost in eachothers gaze...I want to make you feel like you do matter, even if you've had a shitty day, because in all honestly, you ARE the only person that matters to me, I want you to be able to tell me anything without worry
because the fact is, regardless of what you tell me, I will love you.
I might not be the strongest, the fastest, the best looking, but I will always do my best to put a roof over our heads and food in our stomachs, I know it will be difficult, but together, we'll get through it.

Loki Beragist says:
<///<;;;;
Rye Beraist says:
-wipes the tears from his eyes and smiles softly-

Loki Beragist says:
Spoiler alert in retaliation...Im working on a poem for you ... ^^

Rye Beraist says:
-smiles- I love poetry.

Loki Beragist says:
Its going to be in german...but Ill translate it ^^

Rye Beraist says:
That's fine c:
What I just wrote to you...
That's only a fraction of what's going on in my head...

Loki Beragist says:
..... <3
I love you so much ^^;

Rye Beraist says:
Why do I get the feeling that you just saved what I wrote >>
I love you too Mike, more than I could humanly describe...

Loki Beragist says:
<w<
You smart foxy

Impending Disaster by: Devildriver

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h8y9sypCk1Y

There’s dirt on my shoes and there mud on his back
He’s been chasing his nightmares for days
I’m running with evil, its impending disaster
I’ve finally steered clear of his way

I see it staring you down
I feel it wrapping around
Shits taking you down so quick
I see it staring you down
I feel it wrapping around
Shits taking you down so quick

Why can’t I help my friend when he won’t even help himself?!

I can’t yell at you because
I’ve yelled at myself so many times
Hard times, hard times
Goddamn we’re two of a kind

I can’t yell at you because
I’ve yelled at myself so many times
Who now is to blame
When karma keeps coming around

Hard times and troubles we all live in peril
Its difficult, full of dismay
He buries his feelings, he shrouds his light
With oh so many evil thoughts

It’s the dirt on your shoes
It’s mud on our back
That makes us one in the same

I see it staring you down
I feel it wrapping you round
Shits taking you down so quick

I can’t yell at you because
I’ve yelled at myself so many times
Hard times, hard times
Goddamn we’re two of a kind

I can’t yell at you because
I’ve yelled at myself so many times
Who now is to blame
When karma keeps coming around

With oh so many evil things
Oh so
Oh so many evil things
Oh so many evil things

Who now is to blame
When karma keeps coming around

LokiOfTheSanctuus: THIS SHIT IS BANANAS
LokiOfTheSanctuus: B
LokiOfTheSanctuus: A
LokiOfTheSanctuus: N
LokiOfTheSanctuus: A
LokiOfTheSanctuus: N
LokiOfTheSanctuus: A
LokiOfTheSanctuus: S
Xilvius: ~throws a cinder block at loki~

( Like five minutes later after many many banana comments.)

Xilvius: awwww they killed the fucking dog
LokiOfTheSanctuus: That shit is bananas
CupcakeFag: D:
CupcakeFag: Awwh
Xilvius: loki
Xilvius: for the love of god
LokiOfTheSanctuus: xD

Yoinked from  TesxaCoyote BECAUSE SHES FAAAABULOUUUUTH!!!!

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
BAWWWWLLLLZ

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
Dark dark grey

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
no.

4. Do you plan outfits?
Sometimes if I visit someobody >.>

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Tired and hot ;-;

6. What's the closest thing to you that's red?
A coca cola cup thing.

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
I was in a wierd game world that was like a mix of L4D2, Allod, and Burnout D: It sucks when you have that slowmotion, unable-to-hurt-the-enemy issue in your subconscious.

8. Did you meet anybody new today?
The sun.

9. What are you craving right now?
Cereal. BUT WE HAS NO MILK! D;

10. Do you floss?
If we happen to have floss.

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
BLT

12. Are you emotional?
Im not outwardly emotional, albeit internally yes I am.

13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
and a lot higher :D

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
bite c:

15. Do you like your hair?
I guess :3 I wouldn't look right with any other hair.

16. Do you like yourself?
I'm so awesome :D

17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
If he paid the bill.

18. What are you listening to right now?
On the Eve of War by Jedi Mind Tricks.

19. Are your parents strict?
Dad is.

20. Would you go sky diving?
O gawd no. D;

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
A little.

22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
The band members in Trans Siberian Orchestra.

23. Do you rent movies often?
no I barely watch anything.

24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
Cds D:? OH and a pepsi.

25. How many countries have you visited?
USA, United States, America c:

26. Have you made a prank phone call?
Nope. Those never made me laugh.

27. Ever been on a train?
When I was little. And again at Silver Dollar City. I dont like trains. They're louder than my music.

28. Brown or white eggs?
Cooked eggs.

29. Do you have a cell-phone?
Yarp!

30. Do you use chap stick?
Sometimes, when I need it.

31. Do you own a gun?
We're rednecks silly. Of course we have a lot of guns. Like two .22's , a small magnum revolver, a winchester, and a hunting rifle of some sort. Im sure my uncle has more pistols.

32. Can you use chop sticks?
DX NOT AT ALL

33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
Myself -sigh-

34. Are you too forgiving?
It depends. If a personal threat is made, never. If its just small shit, yes I am.

35. Ever been in love?
Yus c:

36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow (or the next soonest week day)?
I dunno. Probably writing or drawing.

37. Ever have cream puffs?
Oh gawd yes xD

38. Last time you cried?
ummmm yesterday a bit when I saw my cousin trying to get our dying dog to drink. The dog was yowling and he was trying to hold the bowl to him and the dog couldnt move.

39. What was the last question you asked?
I forget.

40. Favorite time of the year?
Autumn and spring. Mostly Autumn. ^^Muh Bday is in October. So naturally xD

41. Do you have any tattoos?
nope.

42. Are you sarcastic?
When Im tired or pissy or REALLY concentrating.

43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
No.

44. Ever walked into a wall?
<w< Benadryl made me do it.

45. Favorite color?
GREEN < that.

46. Have you ever slapped someone?
Sure have xD

47. Is your hair curly?
nope. Very lightly wavy.

48. What was the last CD you bought?
Old Man's Child. Crimson Crusade(?)

49. Do looks matter?
No. But being cute is awesome xD

50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
No. Id end up in jail for it.

51. Is your phone bill sky high?
It was! I payed it off ^o^

52. Do you like your life right now?
not really because Im not on my own and not with or near Ryan.

53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
No. I leave my pc on for music.

54. Can you handle the truth?
I AM THE TRUTH

55. Do you have good vision?
Hell no. I cant see worth a shit.

56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
Fo sho. But not for fail reasons. And they know I dislike em.

57. How often do you talk on the phone?
When I'm not staring at a screen or at work.

58. The last person you held hands with?
Myself :D

59. What are you wearing?
Khakis and white Tshirt.

60.What is your favorite animal?
Wolves, Raccoons, Foxes, and Otters.

61. Where was your favorite picture taken at?
Good question O_o

62. Can you hula hoop?
Used to :o My manhandles get in the way xD

63. Do you have a job?
Yesh :3

64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
Ummmm a mango sorbet from Haagen Daz

65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
I invaded an abandoned warehouse and got to the very top with an old friend. We crawled through a lot of windows and did things Splinter Cell style xD

Yoinked from  TesxaCoyote because it was easy to steal :3

1) Name: Michael

2) Name Backwards: Leahcim

3) Were you named after anyone?: A great uncle.

4) Does your name mean anything?: Biblical it is an archangel. It also means "King".

5) Nick Name(s): Micky, Loki, Skizz ( Street name, no joke I have one :3 )

6) Screen Name(s): KlawwDarkwolf, LokiBeragist, LokioftheSanctuus, MaggotWolf13

7) Date of Birth: October 5th

8) Place of Birth: Missouri, USA

10) Current Location: The boons.

11) Sign: Libra

12) Religion: Sanctus. ( Oh yes, it's real)

13) Height: 5'8"

14) Weight: Probably bordering 190 or 200 by now ;-;

15) Shoe Size: 11.5

16) Hair color: dark brown

17) Eye color: blue/green, sometimes greyish blue

18) What you look like: ....? I have a little squish, a beard and short hair?

19) Innie or Outie: Innie!

20) Righty, Lefty,: Righty

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other? Gayz0rz

22) Best friend(s): No offense my furry friends whom I befriend pretty well, but it's definitely my friends Holden and Frank irl

23) Best friend you trust the most: Holden and Frank x3

24) Best friend {your sex}: Holden and Frank?

25) Best friends of the opposite sex: Zoey

26) Best Bud(s): Um. Holden Frank and Zoey?

27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend:  RyeBeragist <3333

28) Crush: Strawberry

29) Parent(s): RL: Ones on the coast, one in Canada. IC:  zova and his beloved.

30) Worst Enemy: Hmmmm. No one at the moment.

31) Favorite on-line Guy(s):  vene BECAUSE HE MY LITTLE BRAWTHER :3

32) Favorite on-line Girl(s): Hmmm. My friend Laura :3

33) Funniest friend:  raikou paws down >.>

34) Craziest friend: See above xD

35) Advice Friend: Mostly everyone.

36) Loudest Friend: HMMMMM

37) Person you cry with: Um, last? It was Ryan :3


Do You Have...


38) Any sisters: Not blood siblings.

39) Any brothers: I have a supposed half brother somewhere.

40) Any pets: Anna ( German Shep) Baron (Chow) Coco ( siamese tabby mix) Louie ( Maine Coon ) Mack & Mollie (Tabbies) Fatty ( British Shorthair?) Skitzy (Stray tabby) Fathead ( Stray Tabby)

41) A Disease: Mental ones? Schizophrenia, MDD, sevral anxiety disorders.

42) A Pager: No tankchu.

43) A Personal phone line: Nein

44) A Cell phone: SHO DOES

45) A Lava lamp: I used to have two :o

46) A Pool or hot tub: Pool

47) A Car: Not yet :c


Describe Your...


48) Personality: Social, somewhat of an attention whore, very sarcastic, Dark and violently humored, very not serious until I feel it's necessary, paranoid in public settings.

49) Driving: I become a sarcastic dick xD

50) Car or one you want: A new Volkswagon :o

51) Room: Sea green and very mismatched x3

53) School: doesn't exist to me anymore :D

54) Bed: A mattress on the ground

55) Relationship with your parent(s): I only see my dad. We're okay around each other now, used to have a very hostile hateful relation.


Do You...

56) Believe in yourself: Most of the time.

57) Believe in love at first sight?: Not really.

58) Consider yourself a good listener: I can be xD But I get impatient with stories that seem not so traumatizing. Which is rude, I know :c

60) Get Along with your parents: Dad: yes. Mom: Haven't seen her since I was like 5.

61) Save your e-mail conversations: Nope.

62) Pray: If praying is thinking in my head what I wish would happen.

63) Believe in reincarnation: I do :3

64) Like to make fun of people: Only friends, we bust on each other and ourselves all the time.

65) Like to talk on the phone: I do ~

66) Like to eat: EVERYTHAAAAAAANG except most asian, BBQ, and cooked cabbage, like sauerkraut.

67) Like to drive: No, not really. I prefer to walk.

68) Get motion sickness: not at all.

69) Eat the stems of broccoli: I eat the things raw :D

70) Eat Chicken fingers with a fork: I eat people fingers WIF MUH HANDS.

71) Dream in color: Yes I do.

72) Type with your fingers on home row: Lawl what?

73) Sleep with a stuffed animal: I dont really hold it, it just has to be near me xD


What Is...?


74) Right next to you: How many things can I tell you about?

75) On the walls of your room: a gas mask, trenchcoat and a shelf with random doo dads and a wolf picture.

76) On your mouse pad: A mouse?

77) Your dream car: One that doesn't need fuel.

78) Your dream date: Hmmm. Im not used to being brought out or 'wowed' I couldnt say. :c

79) Your dream honeymoon spot: Home? xD

80) Your dream wife: NOBODY. Because Id have a husband anyways.

81) Your bedtime: what?

82) Under your bed: carpet.

83) The single most important question: "Where am I?"

84) Your bad time of the day: Between 6am and 12 pm, Im always grumpy then xD

85) Your worst fear(s): Tornadoes, Family hate, and inability to protect myself and loved ones.

86) The weather like: Hot and humid.

87) The time: 2:40 Almost time for work. :3

88) The date: 6/27/10 <--- that

89) The best trick you ever played on someone: Im baffled.

90) The weirdest food or drink that you like: Hm. I dont really eat anything wierd.

91) Theme Song:probably "Wherein Lies Continue" by Slipknot.

92) The hardest thing about growing up: The expectation of being serious about everything and not having fun doing it. Which I don't do anyways.

93) Your funniest experience: When Holden got excited and did this weird dance, ran into a dresser, bounced off his bed and landed on the floor and the bookcase fell on him. (It was a light bookcase)

94) Your scariest moment: When I was thrown from a raft towards some nice sharp rocks in the rapids and my dad grabbed my hair in midair and pulled me back into the raft. What a bonding moment that was.

95) The silliest thing you've ever said: Like everything I say.

96) The funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex: Absolutely nothing.

97) The scariest thing that's ever happened while with your friend(s): We heard something in the woods following us. It was human footsteps. They stopped when my friend Mike pointed to where it was coming from. This was at sunset and the woods were uberdark, almost black.

99) The best feeling in the world: Talking to Ryan. That'll change when I get to BE with Ryan ^^

100) 5 people you tag: Hmmmm  vene ,  Rika ,  KioneZeeh ,  RyeBeragist , and  BlackNeoCat

I had a dispute tonight over emotional expression...or rather a conversation. It wasnt an arguement at all.

But I do not show that I care for my beloved to often...I cant...

It's NOT because I dont want to, and nobody's fault but mine.
My schizophrenia fucks my emotions...even if I dont want to I will either show incorrect emotion or no emotion.

Sadly...that isnt good for me...

My beloved is very emotion sensitive... and is upset that I cant show how much I care through emotions.

This upsets me, because even though it is not a failure on my part, I am angry at myself for the inability...

I will not lie to fake an emotional response... And I cant show him I care from a computer screen...

Man,... Shit is complicated...

Perhaps my last journal was a bit on the extreme.

I AM no longer patriotic in any way to the USA itself.

But nor do I hate it. I hate it's biproducts; the extremists.

This is not land of the free as its famed to be

You're only free until an extremist puts you in a grave.

How sobering.

I cannot help but feel hatred for now. But I'll be drugged to sleep soon anyways and be better tomorrow. Yay for sleep pills.

Anyways. To the soldiers whom I called out to on memorial. You are all still in my heart...but the Country you defend, not at all.