Dog I shared with my roommate passed away in her sleep this morning. Julie as we called her was full of love. She saved my live several times and I can never repay that. Her health took a turn last night and we told her she didn't have to hang on for us. The whole household is emotionally wrecked right now. Keep us in your thoughts and prayers as it's going to be rough next few days

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As yesterday was valentines day often one thinks of love. Spring soon approaches and the animals will soon be getting active and either mating or having their offspring so it makes alot of sense. To me we should also think of the other forms of love as well and not neglect theme either. Love for our fellow man is just as important as we try to move forward to greatness. Love for our friends as they help keep us honest to ourselves even if we dont always like it . Love of generosity, helping those less fortunate not with a hand out but a hand up and being content with the smile on their face for the reward. Love for the beauty of nature as it up to ensure that all can see it. Love for family both blood and chosen. So keep this in mind and if you see some one struggling because they are single or just went through a breakup have compassion not pitty and help.

it has been awhile since i have posted. i have had surgery on my right wrist and will be having it done in a few days on my left, so yay i guess. I got my name changed and gender changed so im a new me, giggles. I still take care of wild, but lately hes been helping me out. i love him as a brother but that means i hate him at times too. make no mistake i wouldnt be as far in my transition and pushing for my health if not for him pushing me and being a pain in my rear. dont know what im going to do this summer with my favorite con being canceled because of furs acting like 2 year olds.

Well I was all set to do a journal complaining about how furs help out other furs out with stupid things like computer parts and stuff but whenever one is truly in need they turn their back. Then this morning happened. Me and wild found our most dear friend dead. It's hard enough losing a close friend but when that person is someone me and while considered family and for me was not just family but a confidante and also active transgender Ally for me. It's hard, but when you see her brought out in a body bag it makes it even more surreal. I did not think it was possible for me to cry as much as I have cried today and I'm still not done crying it is very raw and emotional for me and brought an emotional for wild the only thing we can do is try to be there for each other but it's not easy. so remember to be there for each other always don't leave things unsaid if I don't go but if you care about someone make sure that they know that everyday when possible because you never know when that day might come sooner than you think and you no longer have them. I will go now I will probably will not respond to any comments on this post for a few days it is still really wrong with me right now I hope you understand thank you

Some furs and i are trying to help out a fur in need. The fur is extremely shy and is stranded on the streets in las vegas. i ask that you please help us get the fur off the streets and t o a safe place. I have offered my plave till they can get on their feet. if you want to check out their page here is the link http://www.furaffinity.net/user/amethystapple/ i hope that works. and thankyou for any help you can provide.

I still have the evening to catch up with friends but con depression is starting to rear its head just a lil bit already. All that means is that it was a good con for me and will give me more to look forward to next year. I made some new friends this year and reconnected with friends that i had lost contact with. If you met me and consider me a friend i thankyou so much. To the ones I didnt get to meet I am sorry, i hope that you come next year. if your still in the denver area on monday and want to meet up leave me a message i fly out early tuesday morning.

One last thing, if you are new to the con experience and i helped you the best way you can repay that is to help others that are new as you was helped. Also remember that the con experience doesnt stay just at the con but wherever you go while the con is going on, there are always chances to make people smile and laugh.

Thanks for reading this and take care of each other.

Sorry for not letting my friends know how i have been sooner.It has been very crazy for me but not always in a bad way. First things first though.

I was in the hospital after being sick for a month and running a 104 temp often, so i went to my primary doctor who had me to to the hospital to get admitted promptly. They kept taking blood to run test on me and couldnt figure out what is wrong. While there i ran into blatant hostility cause of being a transgender individual. More on that later, all the test came back ok except that my potassium kept getting to low and they don't know why that was going on.

Being sick for that long i lost almost 60lbs. and that is not the good way but i have been able to get up and maintain 10lbs heaver. i want and need to loose the weight but need todo it in a healthy way but it was enough that when i saw my transgender clinic doc he finally raised my estrogen to where i hope it gets my body over the hump. I have noticed the emotional changes more now than before so i know something is going on but it is hard to be patient when everyone that knows you comments on how different i look and i cant see the changes but overall i am alot happier now. Oh and the hostility i faced, it got reported and the hospital system is implementing changes and making the staff go to classes on sensitivity now .

One last thing before i go, I am in Denver for RMFC and i hope to meet a lot of my friends there and have a great time. Thanks for reading and please be nice to yourself and others.

For those that don't know yet, I'm in the hospital. I thought I was fighting the flu but I wasn't getting better so I saw my primary doc who had me admitted to the hospital. They know it is an infection of some sort but haven't figured it out, when the do they can give me the treatment and I can get out of here and go home. One of the other things is they can't keep my potassium up so don't know if that will resolve itself with treatment for whatever I have but that will need to be controlled to or they won't let me go. Anyways I love you all and ask that you keep me in your thoughts and prayers thanks for reading

There is something I have been contemplating for awhile but i need your help. I am not one to ask for help even when i need it, something that drives some of my friends crazy. As many know (or i hope knows) by now I am a mtf transgender. For some time now i have been telling myself that as long as I could get the hormones and get the boys down below removed, i would be ok with not have the full bottom surgery. The more I have thought about it the more i realize that is not true for a couple of reasons. First insurance does not cover the first surgery even though it makes sense from a health standpoint, once those are removed the level of hormones does not have to be as high and that means less risk of serious side effects. Secondly if i have them removed i would want the job to be finished and have the shebang taken care of.

This is where i need your advice, i do not have the money for anything that would help me , no surgery or hair removal etc. So i have seen this brought up in other trans help forums, and that is starting a fundraising page. That would help me with the funding and also get me to a point that would make it easier to move without risking my transition. I do not want to seem desperate but alas im am feeling that way. So my question is is this something i should do and if so would you help spread the word, also do you know of any good sites for ths? Thanks for reading thorugh this

well i fly out tomorrow and will be gone a week. i hope to have alot of fun amd make some more new friends , oh and did i mention one of my cubs are going to be there and stay with me. im nervous but excited will let you all know how it went when i get back

Just me with another unimportant update. Talk about a whirlwind of an adventure that last couple of months have been crazy. The weather seems to be like that too lately, hehe. So, since the last update i have some good news, the doctor has incrweased my estrogen to 3mg daily. it seem that they are learning at the same time we are learning so it is a good sign when it used to be that they wouldn't go above 1mg for me. I find that the way i think and process information has changed slightly as well and am trying to get used to that. I do feel calmer and am adjusting to the emotional changes. I think the hardest part is trying to be patient, my nipple area on my chest has been sore at some time just annoying at others and knowing that that mean the changes are happiening but that it will take time. I have lost some friends because of this but made others so for now take care and keep your head up and dont give up on your dreams.

Got a call the last minute to help my brother and sister set up and do other things for them at the con. Was kinda crazy trying to get everything ready to go on short notice but it is worth it. had some glitches last night but so far today looks like it will be a great day. I am glad i was able to go and hope to make alot of friends. If any of you follow me and are attending give me a shout out would love to meet up.

As promised its that time again. I have been on the hormones just over a month now but seems longer. It was great at first but then my body started fighting back and having a short fuse and being aggressinve was not fun. When i saw the doctor he said that this was to be expected and increased the meds so is settleing back down again slowly. havent seen any changes that are noticeable yet but have noticed tenderness in the chest that is a good sign and reminds me that it is happening. I am looking forward to seeing my friends at morphicon. For the friends not in the area hopefully can get together and have fun soon. take care all and remember to give a hug its free and feels good.

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I have been able to stay smoke free and got my reward on the 13th. As the doc promised i got my hormones but his supervisor made some changes. He wanted to put me on 100mg spiro and 2mg of estrodiol, she said that was to high to start and lowered them down to 25mg and 1mg . I was not too happy at first but after talking to her and asking questions i understand why. This means i have to be more patient something I am not good at. It wont matter in the longrun as this is the start of a new journey now. Will try to post updates on this every so often if you out there read this then great but need to put it down somewhere. Big hugs to my friends and take care till next time.

It has been awhile since i have done an update so here it goes. I was accepted in to a new transgender health clinic, so limited they are only going to see 10 people for now. So i feel lucky for that. After talking to the doctor i am going to get my hormones with out having to jump through hoops, but there is a catch i have to quit smoking and stay that way till my next appointment. It has been a week so far that has not been easy it has had me moody and short tempered and not easy to get along with. but i am trying to keep my eye on the prize. The doctor also wants me to loose weight and see a shrink, but said that can wait till after i start on the hormones. The clinic is also fighting the various insurance companies out there to make them not only pay for the hormones but to pay for the surgery or a good portion of the surgeries anyways so that is good. It has taken years for this to happen but i believe that things happen when they do for a reason. I finish this by saying that I am still homesick and miss the rockies and my friends in that region and hope to go home soon. To my friends who have stood by me I thankyou very much and to the new ones that are following or hope to become friends with me i am flattered and hope i can live up to the expectations.

I like to play all sorts of games but usualy can find me playing cod, and i just got a ps 4 to play with cod ghosts and am looking for friends and hope that i ike cod dont scare you cause i like other games too just have not got them yet for the new system

Asking for help to spread the word, just started a guild on swtor for furries need help getting members so if you play or know of those that do please spread the word. If you are a player and want in the guild let me know by shout or note, and remember you now get a 5 percent bonus to all xp by being in a guild. hope to hear from alot of you and may the force be with you.

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