Off to a con in Galway, going to cosplay, go crazy, kiss and hug cosplayers and maybe get some grub, see you after!

I've been having one of the toughest times of my life in the last two months. I love what I do which is being a doctor which I have been working at for the past two years. It is a vastly rewarding experience which I love doing but it does have downsides which have been wearing me down and this month I just don't know what to do.

I lost a number of patients in the past two months, people I was close to and who I was in charge of. but now because of things I couldn't control they lost their lives. I don't think I've ever been this hard and I'm just a mess which doesn't help me or my family. they are there for me and are trying to help but I can't seem to come out of this.

I don't normally talk about my feelings usually, normally I'm quite shy and I hide or withdraw behind a fake and happy shell which I tend to revert to so that I don't upset others around me. This happens even more the sadder I get so that nobody who knows me irl even knows I'm upset, except a few special people.

I am just sick of crying myself to sleep and breaking down into tears constantly during work or at random times throughout the day.

What I would like is not anything substantial, I just need some help in the form of advice, I just need to know how I can come back from this and find myself again so that I can bounce back to myself and finally find a way to emerge from this dark hole of depression which I keep falling back into every time I near the exit. I have tried everything like spending time with friends and family as well as doing all the things I love but I just can't seem to come back.

Frankly I need help and I don't know who to turn to hence the rambling journal.....

Ireland has become one of the first country to legalize gay marriage today! I am so happy and proud that finally our country is showing that the vast majority of us want equality and freedom! To everyone who voted yes, thank you so much!

I'm going out to celebrate by meeting up with a few of my gay friends and we are having a huge party!

Hi everyone, I'm back and I feel like writing again after so long! Does anyone have any recommendations on what to write? Smut is my idea just can't decide what XD

Hello everyone! I have to explain my long leave of absence and explain that it will last a lot longer, As some of you may know that my college life is extremely difficult with the sheer workload which we get, top that with my family life and my work I barely ever even get a single night to get on to chat amongst my friends here and this is this plain inconvienant.

Worst of all was that in December my home was hit by a storm with very strong winds and as a result much of my forest has been knocked down and the house has been hit hard with a two different trees collapsing on to our house and smashing down the kitchen and living room. Luckily no one was hurt but it's a major problem for us as our house is pretty much totaled.

We are already going through tough times with money but now we have to rebuild our house on top of that and I'm not exactly sure how that is going to work to be honest. A few of my friends have managed to actually raise money for me between them which was so sweet and it has been a huge help so hopefully we should be able to get the construction started soon but it will take a long time.

We are staying at my mom's house who kindly took us in but the sad news is that between everything I won't be able to pay for my internet since as much as I love my friends on here it is going to have to be cut back on to save money, I will have the college internet at times but like I said I barely have time in college to get on here but I will try and leave journals just to keep you updated on this.

Sorry for the absence guys hopefully this will all sort itself out soon and we can get back to being active once more.

When witches shriek and werewolves howl, You'll find me here on the prowl!

Have a good Halloween everyone!

Found this new artist on FA, very talented as you can see by her gallery. Go and watch guys ^^

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/kii.....plz=1347824271

Yup I'm an idiot, had 25 comments and I somehow managed to delete everyone of them by accident >.<

I'm sorry everyone. I have not been on much at all in these last two weeks. I was informed that I would have to go into a surgery that had a 25% chance of me even surviving and the worries have just been occupying all my time.

I made it through alright though minus some damage to my voice box which has left me without the ability to talk but I am doing fine. I still don't know if I will be doing much at all on this so please bear with me. Hopefully I'll be back on my feet soon

Hello folks! I'm going to spain for two weeks! Wish you all the very best and hope you all have fun and take care. I'm going to miss you all so get ready for multiple hugs when I return! Farewell my friends!

The lovely Seriph is having a raffle, I do hope you'll attend ^^

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3598882/

Hey guys, my computer has been really buggy lately, the internet router i have been using has somehow got a virus and im not sure how to deal with it since i need the code which i don't have, It could just eventually shut down for awhile but im not sure. Just wanted to let you all know. If anyone knows how i can do a virus purge on my router from this computer it would be greatly appreciated

hey guys, found a neat writer who has some interesting ideas and good storys, go check him out hehe

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/casbuenting/

A good friend of mine is doing an auction right now, if you're interested please get your fuzzy rumps over there!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3372815/

It takes alot of dedication and practise to become an expert artist but these people are not superheros. They got to their level but practising and practising until they're hands were 50% ink! If you try, you can become one too.

My friend explains this very well here:

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7726328

As an Irish girl I feel that its my responsilbily to wish you all a fun st paddys day guys, don't drink too much guinness and have fun! All the best guys, this is your day to party like the irish. See you under the table!

Yo bees and bunnies, a friend of mine is giving away art. Go watch him and help fulfill his plan of world domination!

 techster-darkstar

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3222956/

Watch him, I command you!!!!!!

Hey everyone it's my mates birthday, say happy birthday to the shy little guy cause he needs more best wishes (it fills his hunger O.O) yaaaaaaaaaaay party times

Well as it says, i'm back in the hospital once more, my pneumonia has gotten alot worse unfortunately and i'm stuck here for a while. Really sorry guys but I mightn't be able to talk to much of you and if i do it might be only for a short while. They are giving me a lot of really powerful drugs and its very hard to keep my thoughts straight so my mate is writing this for me.

Hope you all are having a nice day and I hope to see you again soon! Be good everyone!

Hehe It's my birthday today!!! Having so much fun here, hope you guys are having a good day too ^^

No matter your religon, race or hairstyle. I wish you all the very best over the next few days. Have a great one folks!

Would anyone be interested in actually watching me stream some of my stories? Because I tend to get so much more writing done when someone is watching me doing it. Let me know please

The awesome lady reika is holding a sale. She draws really awesome art so go buy her stuff and watch here if you aren't already!


http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2771880/

Alright you fuzzy little critters heres the deal, want to have fun? Chat with loads of cool furs? Role play? Then get your cute little rumps over to this site where you can do all that and more!

http://blackstarlounge.freeforums.org/

All the furs there are really good awesome friends of mine so you know it will be fun!

See you there! *goes poof*

Thank you so much everyone! It may not seem like much but to me its amazing. So thank you everyone! :3