Well it seems I was dumb and did not read my ticket right for my bus so ill be sitting in station for first 5 hours. How ever I saw this picture and it made me feel better lol http://i.imgur.com/v8dB1Ub.jpg

Thankfully though will still be on time and still just as excited to go xD

I hope every one has been having a good week and if not have a look at that picture and maybe have a laugh lol. I will most likely have limited internet on my phone may come on to FA every so often we shall see. I have to say for the few like legit friends on here I am so very grateful for all of you. Literally you guys are my family you know who you are and you make me smile every day. Thank you all

Off to go sit at a station for 5 hours! My ass is ready!

Yesterday was a slightly lousy day. Had to put dog to sleep. Really only owned her for 3 years my brother wanted to get rid of her because where he was moving to he could not take the dog. She was already old so I know that we did the best we could and added a few years onto her life. My dad grew more attached to her then I did so its a bit sad to see him bummed out. Been trying to just stay positive about that stuff.

A few days before that my friends offered me a room at FWA and I sat and thought about it for a long while. I have always been a little insecure and slightly shy so never thought of going to one. But after thinking about it for a while I just said to my self "if I don't do it now when will I ever go." so I decided to take them up on the offer and got bus tickets. Super excited to see some friends there and maybe make some new ones.

For some one going to a con for the first time does any one have any tips for me or fun things to do at them and such. Also is it normal for me to feel nervous or anxious even. I really have not traveled much on my own so I think it will be a fun experience and hopefully I will have a good time.

Hope you all are having a good day ^_^ Just wanted to say thank you for any one I miss who watches or fav's a artwork of my characters. Really appreciate it very much so.

Seriously amazing artist and very reasonable prices go check him out!  k0suna

Link to prices : https://www.furaffinity.net/view/12676567/

Welp today I am 25 and just wanted to say thank you so much every one for all the birthday wishes I have gotten really means a lot to me. You guys and gals rock!

Look forward to changing and doing a lot of things this year hopefully xD Got invited to wildstar beta so have been playing that since yesterday its only a 2 day long beta but the game is so much funnnn ugh lol.

 theagilepanda is opened for commissions! http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12749836/

Feel free to ask me anything! Also wanted to say thank you to every one for the favorites and watches. I try to get to every one I can I apologize if I miss any. Just want you to know I appreciate it all and plan on doing a raffle in a few weeks again to celebrate 1k watchers.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sw5S2-T-Ogk

If I ever happen to have a spare 250k laying around...I would totally get this cause I love to look at stars and yea I am a dork lol.

*goes to sleep dreaming of watch* lol

"I used to think that the worst thing in life was to end up all alone. It's not. The worst thing in life is ending up with people who make you feel all alone." -RW

Passed few months I have come to understand that easily 90% of the people I have met or communicate with on skype or online in general would never speak to me unless I did all the work to get in touch with them every time. I don't understand at times why I go out of my way for people. Try to make them smile and cheer them up when I know they would never do the same for me. Then ill go and kick my self after saying why did I just waste all that time. I know at the end of the day I do it cause making people happy makes me happy but after its all said and done I realize how little I am to them at the end of the day.

My loyalty and wanting to be a good friend to people seems to get me miss treated quite a bit. Some times intentionally other times not. I know its my own fault for putting my self in those situations but its hard for me to change how I am. I just like to be kind and make people smile. So I am sort of stuck in a slump as to what to do about it. Feel like I have a small very small handful of people I can consider true friends. People that no matter how long apart I can hang out with and it would be like we never skipped a day. And I know its not about having a huge amount of friends that's not something I want.

I have always said quality over quantity. But right now I guess I feel like I have been losing or already lost the few people I care for and thought felt the same. Bleh sorry for the early morning sad journal thing. Just confused I guess. Some times I wish I was not as nice as I try to be. I am not looking for a pat on the back in return or anything but have just had people say things to me like there always going to be there and such. But in reality they are only my friend when they want to be my friend. Ugh I don't know.

Part of me wants to say fuck it and clear out a majority of my list. Tired of doing 100% of the work to keep a friendship going. I know I am not 100% innocent my self there have been long periods where I don't speak at times but I always try to do my best. Actions speak louder then words to me. Saying something is one thing. Doing it and showing it is what I guess id like.

Raffle winner is #44  charliefolf http://i.imgur.com/fFk2lXn.png I will contact you shortly and we can talk details xD

I hope ever one has a good new beginning to there year. I do plan on doing more raffles in the near future. Thank you for every one for being so cool on here you guys rock xD

Ask me anything you'd like I will do my best to answer honestly. Also happy new years!

Just want to say thank you to all my watchers and friends. All the comments the views and favorites are all so very appreciated. I love this community so very much. I have made some truly great friends thanks to this website. And hope to continue to do so. I just wanted to show my appreciate for all the sweet comments and support every one always gives me on here. Hope you guys have a wonderful holiday and decide to take part in my little raffle. I will be giving each person a number and after the new year I will use a random number generator to pick a winner!

You are welcome to share this information with your friends or even do a journal but it is not required in any way <3

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What you will receive:

The winner will receive a two-character porn/or/tame piece with my character Radek drawn by !!

The rules are simple:

- Must be a watching me to qualify for the raffle.
- Must have a colored reference or picture of character.
- Character may be any gender.
- Play nice!

How to enter:

Simply post a link reference (on this journal!) to your character, and tell me something interesting about your character or anything ya like!
That's it! : )

Raffle Ends:

After the new year!

If one more person messages my skype or notes me about how they hate my horse Radek I will be removing them and blocking them. I am super sweet to every one I know.

I don't care if you think he is unoriginal or uncreative or you just don't like horses. I don't want to fucking hear it. I did not make him for you. I made him for me as a reflection of part of my personality. I thought about this character for months before making him. I don't question your species don't tell me mines a bad choice. Every one can be what they want to be :/

The last thing I expect to hear from a "friend" is how they don't like a character of mine as a first message from them. How about you get some fucking manners and ask me how my day is or say hello. Instead of just messaging me off the bat saying they hate Radek.

I am so patient with people. I feel stupid for being so nice to people. I get walked over and treated like shit because of it. I can't help how I am. I just like to see people smile and don't have the heart to say mean things in return. I just wish people would treat me how I treat them. I am always there for my friends and try to be as nice as can be and make them smile.


For the few good friends I do have you know who you are and thank you for being true good caring friends.

Sorry for the rant will remove in a while. Also keep a look out in my journals ill be doing a free art give away in the near future for having over 10,000 page views. For the few people watching me thank you so very much <3

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Radek and LordWolfie are me F-list. Proof journal thing.