I wanted to post this on the off chance people actually read it, or feel like responding, as my last journal was a little too short and It's time for updates just in general.

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So, first and foremost, those of you who are waiting on commissions from me still:

First, sorry. I don't feel like the word's quite strong enough, but it is what it is and I refuse to keep beating myself up over it. I'm art-blocked really bad because I don't like what I'm making.

I literally did not mean for this to happen but while working a RL job for a few years my skills just got worse. I can't look at my art without seeing the GLARING flaws in my anatomy skills, and my processes. To me, my art currently and some past stuff, looks like shit, and I don't like it at all. Since I hate my own art that bad, it's really hard for me to sit down and relax, work on it, and figure it out. But - I am and do intend to keep trying to improve.

Did I forget/what about said commissions?

No, I didn't forget them. I keep a running list on my home-page so I can go back and re-do things when I'm at a good point to do so. If the waiting game gets too long and people want refunds, they can ask, otherwise, eventually you WILL get your art. I just need to get over my art-style loathing or change it up to where I'm actually pleased with what I'm posting.

What does that mean? I think I'm going to start trying to experiment with a few different styles. Maybe I'll get into painting, or maybe I'll just change up -how- my actual style looks. Maybe it's just too limited or constrained, but if I'm not 'growing' it's stagnating and art should be passionate. if I'm not passionate about it, then it's no longer art but production and I ain't about that life.

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What have I been up to lately, if I didn't do enough art training in my absence time?

Since the last update, since I'm art-blocked to fuck, the only things I've been working on art-wise are Second Life furry texture re-mods for people. My sl main account/username is and has always been linked on my page (esme.crumb) my alt and modding account is (minaki.aya) so you can hit me up if you need a mod done, or join my discord. Just yap at me for the right tag.

I've been focusing more on modding things as for me that's easier generally since anatomy issues aren't my fault and my job's just making other people's characters pretty in world. I'm sure some of ya already know me from there anyways.

I think that kind of covers most of what I feel like sharing, for those who don't know where/what I'm up to that's the dealy. The easiest way to get in contact with me is on discord or my email. However, if I'm too busy to respond, I just won't.

Also just an fyiy, I'm upgrading my PC at the moment. [sept.9/2025 last update for this] once it gets back in and I get all my art programs downloaded, it'll be progress as per normal. My skills are still not where they wanna be for 2D but my SL mods always turn out fantastic. Maybe if I'm asked I'll upload some shots of the work I've done in my scraps or something.

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And in closing?:

Ideally if all goes well for me soon though, I can slowly keep experimenting and possibly get back to first off finishing what commissions I owe, and then drawing more personal pieces for myself, that I don't completely and absolutely hate looking at. (Also note to commissioners, I'm not dissing characters/concepts, just my own abilities so please don't worry on that front.) Anyways, that's all for me, until the next time I feel an update is important.

Thanks for reading, if you have. Be well all.

>>{Pineapple Princess Lorena ™ }

Mmn, Not too much to say, since I haven't posted a new journal in two years, so here, have some general life updates about art/me.

1) I want to hunt down some anatomy books and draw more so I can actually look at my art without screaming.
2) I got a fancy new icon... But I also need one for Esme's account. Maybe I'll try to draw some tomorrow.
3) A simple ref of my own 'sona took me a whole day to complete. Art be slow at the moment.
4) Mood wise I'm doing fairly decent for once, but could use a nap. Overall I'm good.
5) Art status/hiatus is still in effect until I can fix my own art blaaaah. See 1)*.
6) RL as per usual is kicking my ass, but I am alive so it's fine.
7) Feel free to blabla at me in the comments.

https://discord.gg/RMrKt9K2tS <- TOO LAZY TO MAKE A NEW JOURNAL FOR JUST THIS BUT - I made an actual server with a group you guys can join if you care about my art. I've also re-joined second life so if you know me from there click the unicorn. If you want to see art dumps from me or talk to me from here, click the theatrical masks. Oh and please read the rules, I'm not a huge fan of blocking people.


Okay, so first off, I haven't updated you guys anywhere in literally months and that may end up taking even more months given where I'm at now. (Still relevant in fact as I edited this in September of 2021)
That has NOT been easy on me, or my conscience. I'm not saying this as a means to excuse the behavior but I'd like to address a few issues about me in the first place.

This all started when I first took my initial 'leave' of FA and was required to get a "real job" just to make ends meet and get out of a place where I was just surviving and in a constant state of fear to where I'm living now which is only slightly more stable and I'll go into that first and foremost. So here's the main shit that I've had on my plate this last few years and it's probably one of the biggest reasons I haven't known how to even preface this, and this probably won't be received in the best way, but I'm done being ashamed about myself so here's a few points that I'd like to make clear. I am not trying to excuse anything, but I am trying to explain it in a coherent way to the people who have been trying to get in contact with me or asking for updates on the commissions I owe them.

That leads me to the second point that I'd like to make.

My art is shit. I have trouble seeing it as anything that isn't shit. I do not remember how I used to draw and it means that I am constantly trying to remember how my brushes used to work or how to make them work for me now. I'm also working on a tv screen so what you guys see versus what i see is way different. I need to invest in a computer monitor instead of a lower resolution tv because I can't see how my blending brushes work and my lines are probably all blurry, but I can't afford it currently. It's part of the reason I do not think I'm a good artist right now. I think my work is more closely resembling a crap tier factory production piece than being seen as a custom piece created by an artist with actual creativity. I feel like my artwork is overpriced and underdeveloped. There I said it. I'm scared that I've hit my plateau as an artist as I don't see any improvement in what I'm creating. I need more people in my life that are artists themselves who I can talk to about this shit, and that's just not something I have right now, so it's making it hard for me to compare and get opinions on my work that I feel come from someone that isn't a 'fan' of my work, but someone that creates themselves and can be more critical. I have absolutely no confidence in my abilities currently and, I feel like everything I've been putting out and everything I'm working on looks like shit. I also look back on my old art and think that also looks like shit. I see what is wrong with it. I remember tidbits of how I used to draw, and I know what I need to work on, but the more time I'm taking to try to remedy the issue, the harder it gets because I see myself failing and I fucking hate it.

It's been a struggle guys, for real. I don't know if I just need to do a completely new style and hope for the best or if I should just continue to do things in my old style as I remember how to do that. What I can say is that there's a few things that are really making it hard for me to get inspired. First off is my queue of commissions. Dumbass me did not finish the art I owed before finding work, so I've got a backlog of things I owe people, and new commissions that I owe people as well. It's eating at me because I see the art sitting there, I try to work on it, and I fucking hate the way it looks. I've been trying to go back and work on things step by step but I keep feeling like it's not good enough so I've been working on things, closing them without saving, and just struggling with my hands on my head, wondering when it'll feel good enough.

I don't know if I need to draw more personal art so there's less pressure on me to perform until i get back into the swing of things, or if it's the lack of an 'art community' or social group of other artists that I can talk to about how to fix the things I don't like in my art. I've been wracking my brain about this and noting that it makes me feel like I'm alone and I don't know if I can trust my own eyes when I'm looking at these half-cocked things I'm producing... It feels like if I have issues with something or it looks wonky, I don't have people to do a redline or look at it and say "yeah you gotta redraw that hand it's backwards" or "legs are way too long" or "pay attention to the shading, that looks like it's pillow shaded and you can do better." or if I need people to look at it and say "wow that looks great, keep it up" fan style appreciation. I really just do not know. I'm stuck in this strange limbo. I see where I'm going wrong, but I don't know how to fix it, and I want to fix it because I mean this is all stuff that people have either paid for or expect me to draw better than what I've been doing recently.

I also have to stress that rebuilding my fanbase and finding people on other socials is incredibly difficult for me to do, since I don't particularly enjoy social media in the first place. I'm finding it hard to spread myself out across multiple platforms and I still don't feel like I'm doing a great job of that. I let my patreon go and kick the bucket since frankly I don't think that my current system would work on tiers in the first place, and I don't think there's enough people that would support me through patreon. I still have ko-fi going and my shinies system set-up but yeah I don't really know if those will get used either. I'm struggling because part of me wonders if there's even a point to getting back into drawing furry art or furry smut for the people who are still watching, or if they're just sticking around because they are dead accounts at this point.

I'm sorry if this feels like it's ranting but I needed to say -something- and try to explain what's going on with me, artist wise because I've been doing a shit job at staying in touch with the people I owe art to. I am super super extremely sorry about doing that, the way I've been doing that. It's been eating at me and the guilt has been even harder to work through the longer I've been putting off saying anything. I'm kind of at a loss, really. I'm scared because of all of the above, and that's not even touching on my personal life that's all just art-based.

Personal wise I'm just going to point form 2020 in a nutshell for me:
1) My now recently made ex-boyfriend cheated on me, and I broke up with him for it. He made it feel like it was my fault thanks to my agoraphobia and covid. That was great.
2) My mom has now been out of work for nearly 2 years and that means I'm constantly around a miserable narcissist who thinks I should be doing more to support her. Also great.
3) I have been socially ISOLATED for the entire time covid hit. I've been staying indoors and did not even see my family members for the holidays. I left the house a total of 10 times for groceries this year.
4) I've been rattled by my guilt and self-hate art-wise as addressed above but I'm trying to figure out how or what i need to do to fix it. It's not working so far.
5) My family has been on my ass for not being married/having kids/having a real job/being good enough extra bad this year because they're not seeing me and therefore think that I'm not doing enough to make shit work.
6) I haven't had enough energy to put into my interpersonal relationships, and I feel like I keep letting the people who love me down because I can barely string together the energy to get myself out of bed. I'm struggling pretty badly with that.

There's more there too but I feel like I needed to at least shove some journals up in the places I post art to, for the moderate following that I do have. I know that some of you are just going to not care or delete the journal without reading as well, and I mean that's fine. I expect that. Honestly just knowing I have this written up so I can point people to it is a little bit of a help for me. I promise that I'm going to try to work this shit out, but it's really not easy on me. I hate that I feel so weak right now but yeah. 2020 was a BITCH. 2021 so far has been pretty damned bad too. That breakup has been rough on top of all the other crap in my life and my artsy fartsy self hate. I'm sorry that this all sounds so dramatic and whiny. But I needed to say something.

Sorry, I'll continue to try harder guys, but I honestly don't know what my art's going to turn out like or how long it's going to take to get pieces done. It's been months and I swear I am trying, but it feels pretty bad when I look at what I'm making and think it looks like trash. I'll try harder. I will get through this. It's not the first time I've had a medium sized queue to work through, but it's gonna take a bit of time, and I might need to reach out to some social networks, and or other furry artists to kind of chat and learn from other artists again until I get to a point where I don't feel like tearing every digital canvas I've been working on recently.

Sorry for the long post guys but yeah, life has not been great. This is most of why that is, and I'm sorry if I haven't been reaching out much on discord or through notes or whatever. I'll do my best to get better. In short, 2020 sucked. 2021 still is suck, but I'll try my best to figure out what I gotta do to get my art back into shape.

>>{ Pineapple Princess Lorena ™ }

I'm not gonna bother cross-posting journals. Here's a bit of an update.
I'm still working on commissions, first off. Please don't worry. It's just taking me longer than I'd like. As always discord's down below and is an option for chatting.

Health-wise, things are mostly good. I'm trying to be positive and listen to feel-good music, get my shit together, ditch the drama and enjoy life. All that fun stuff.
My mom got out of surgery fine, most of the family stuff I deal with is on the up/getting better. Granted, there's always issues, but that's life haha. In my current mental state/mania that I'm dealing with, I decided a bunch of things, while working on personal art tonight, which is slowly helping me feel less like my inner beast is trying to crawl out of a cage lol.

1) I'm dropping past drama, all of it, deadstop.
If we had beef/issues/drama in the past, regardless of what it is - I don't care anymore. I'm forgetting about it. If I watch you on here still, it's for your art, I'm watching you for art reasons.

2) I'm going to try to spend at least a few hours a day doing something -I- want to do.
It's hard to explain, but I feel trapped in my own skin, from the expectations of others. I need to relax and take more time for me.

3) I'm going to try to focus on being more social/friendly.
Feel free to talk to me more, I'll try to respond when I can, and not just ghost so much when i'm low mental energy.

I could write more, but let's be real, only like 7-8 people even read my journals these days. Lol. Regardless, if you want to know more about my current sitch/what's up.
Seriously just add me to discord and message me there, if you want more info.

I'll try to update my journals a little bit more too in the coming few months.
Thanks for your continued patience.
>>{Pineapple Princess Lorena ™}

Okay, so here's the thing with me. Yes I am working on art. Doing so however, has made me realise something about myself though.

My art style? Is not fun to me anymore. I get that a lot of you watch me for the art that I produce, some are friends or some prefer to just follow me to figure out what I'm up to or to chat or whatever which is honestly fine, and I appreciate having so many of you stick around with me for so long. But as I sit here with enough of a backlog that new commissions will be on hold until stuff is done I've learned a lot about what I really am struggling with.

Part of me wants to keep producing artwork which others wanna see, that I know people enjoy, but I'm also realising that there are parts of my process that are a bit more mechanical these days than actually being artwork. The problem with that is that yes I can produce much faster work using the tools I have available (Line tools are a lifesaver for more complicated designs for example) but at the expense of what 'real art' is for me. So I'm kind of in this place where I'm not happy with what I'm putting out again.

I'm drawing things others enjoy but I find that for me the overarching process has been a hassle. Instead of art being 'fun' for me to work on when I'm like this it becomes a chore. And also I get to deal with knowing people are waiting to see their commissions or the art I put out but it's hard when I feel like the progress I've made is not 'good enough' or 'worth' what is being paid for but I really want the ability to just chill, make my art my own, not produce it because it's what sells but produce something more experimental, diverse.

Example, I'm usually very clean with my lineart and it's something a lot of you like seeing, but I think I'm actually progressing more into a painterly/sketchy/experimental style as I get back into arting again, and I wonder if I should just overhaul all of my commissions into more painterly/loose/fun styles instead of the heavy linework and soft shading that you're all used to. I'm stuck in this sort of pit of "well they paid me to draw things in my old style" versus being able to paint things a lot faster and looser if I don't rely on having the lines as clean as they used to be and I'd be able to likely make backgrounds much faster and more accurate if I did things in a painted style too.

So, I'm having a bit of an artist crisis so to speak while I wonder what to do with the art I'm tossing out there. I wonder if maybe I should just message commissioners about this and get their take on it or if I should just stick with what I know and keep producing things which are less 'art' and more 'productions' for me... Ack.

Either way, sorry guys for the rant, but if you've been wondering why art isn't coming out fast, that's what's up. I'm kind of stuck at this impasse, and trying to take time/breaks and work on things when I can or feel inspired to work, but that clearly hasn't been happening fast enough so i need to update everyone. Either way, art stuff will happen soon, i just gotta either bust ass and put things out that i'm not cool with or expect all of you to be fine with me to just drastically change my art style (which is unfair and I don't expect you to do that either.) Keep in mind, I'm also returning to art after a long haitus so art might look a little weird until i get back into the swing of things.

As for this time's hold up it's because the lines my body wants to produce are softer, less clean, more 'sketch' like, instead of the think heavy black lines that I normally do there's a lot of opacity change and variance in line width which is bugging me since my old stuff was pretty consistent thanks to using tools to make them that way. I'm still on the fence right now about what-do but yeah, post these commissions i think i'm going to be trying to radically change my style to one that is more experimental and less 'rigid' so i can start feeling more creative and less 'stuck' in old patterns.

Regarding other things, my mom's going again for surgery in a few days to get her second cataract surgery, and just recovered from having a stent put in and a minor heart attack so I've been busy trying to do chores and make sure she's doing okay too, so I've been a bit stressed. I have other stress/friend drama etc as well, but otherwise I'm doing fairly okay. Things could be better but they could also be much worse so I can't complain too much.

Just trying to keep people updated where need be. As per usual if you're concerned about where art is at, you can note me, or discord me, and I'll get back to you about progress. Just ask me about stuff directly as I tend to ignore more 'boredom' based conversation since I'm pretty busy. I'll respond on things where it's needed if it's business related but I don't really handle 'social' conversations that well unless it's someone that is pretty good at carrying a convo instead of expecting me to do that kind of leg work.

TL;DR : having art problems and don't know the fix/solution yet. I'll probably take a nap soon, and try to sort it out. Thanks for reading if you have.

>>{Pineapple Princess Lorena™}

Probably a bit boring to read, but this is what's going on with me as of May 10th.

1) Lifestyle changes and what they mean for me:
a) Moving furniture and tossing a ton of crap out.
So, not that many of you know this but my mom's a bit of a hoarder, and as such we've got tons of literal crap just sitting around in our home. Since that's the case, I've been doing a bit of spring cleaning as it were. This week I literally threw out 10 jumbo bags of garbage, decompiled/broke apart an old ass plyboard tv stand, threw that in the dump, my mom got a new daybed (which she thought would work as a bed but it won't so it's replacing our couch next week), which means the old couch needs to get pitched, and that's happening wednesday when my Sir's available with his truck. We have also threw out her bed, and she's buying a new one which might be here in the next few weeks to a month but that's another thing I need to set up.

b) My mom's still adjusting to her "new normal" now that she's had a stent put in near her heart, to prevent a future heart attack. Her scare in the hospital led to the doctors putting it in, although she did not have a literal heart attack, she had some enzymes in her blood indicating that one would have happened soon. So she'll be on blood thinners for a year, and anti-rejection type medication probably for the rest of her life but that means she's had to adjust things. Her hands/back/other pain related things are still making it difficult to do things for herself which is a big part of why I am still living here at this moment in time. That said, luckily we're paying down a mortgage now instead of renting a place.

2) Art related things.
I'm still working on what I owe when I can. This covid-19 situation and not being able to get outside of my house has been challenging, because I think what I really need is to just go somewhere outdoors on a warm day when it's quiet, just soak in some sunlight, and sketch or do something art-wise which is not commission related, since my art mojo as it were has been kind of dead the last few months here. I'm trying my best to get back to feeling good about my art again, but it's hard when you've got stuff owing but you don't have the 'juice' so to speak mentally to just hunker down and get it done. I do have some progress made but nothing substantial to where I feel comfortable posting it.

I'm going to be hestitant for a little bit on taking on new work unless it's priced a little bit higher for the time being because I need to finish the stuff I owe. The amount of guilt I have at the 9 (or so) pieces I still owe people, is really starting to drain my psyche, but I'm working on getting those done. As always if anyone is worried or wants to know more frequently what's up with me, please add me on discord, since that's primarily where I'm online (I don't sign out of discord ever, even when sleeping) they can just add me there.

3) Social related things.
I'm still remaining socially isolated, not just practicing social distancing, but I'm literally socially isolating outside of the clearing things out/using my Sir's truck to haul this stuff to the dump since he's luckily a helper type of person, he doesn't mind assisting me with getting things out of here, however - that also means I'm risking getting sick when we do meet so it's been difficult. I'm struggling between really wanting to see him, and not wanting to risk bringing the virus into our household. Luckily I live in a population thin area, so it's currently sitting at zero confirmed cases, and 15 recovered ones in my province, but it's still risky.

I'm a bit of a social butterfly when things are normal/good, and when I can afford to spend time with friends, so that's been somewhat trying on my mood. Luckily, I've been trying to play video games and such with friends if/when i can, which has helped a teeny bit at getting me feeling creative, but I'm still not there yet.

Sorry for the long post here, but yeah if anyone wants to know more details, discord me. :) I hope you/yours are doing well. *hugs*
>>~{Pineapple Princess Lorena™}

Long story short my mom ended up being sent to a hospital 45 minutes away from where we're living because of what we thought were just panic attacks. She ended up staying overnight for 2 days thus far because she needed an angiogram (microsurgery) to check for heart issues and potential heart attacks. They found an artery (not a doctor but i think artery) that was starting to close up a bit so she required a stint to be put in. The surgery went well. However as she's now up there by herself, my boyfriend needs to pick me up tonight so we can go get her tomorrow (she would be more comfortable if I was there also) so that's what I'll be doing.

As such please be patient with art-related things, since I've got a bit of a crisis going on due to that, and I'll be busy making sure my mom makes it home okay. I'll try to post updates on things once I get back but as you can imagine this kind of stress has put a bit of a stopper on my art creativity.

Please don't worry, my mom's fine and I'll be fine also, just away from my pc so I can't work on art as readily as usual. :) Thanks for the consideration, and I hope you/yours are well.
>>~{Pineapple Princess Lorena ™}

Sorry for slower uploads. Being "trapped" in my home has not been great for my art muse. I've been in this sort of "rut" art inspiration wise, and relying more on the guilties about not working than being super inspired. Progress is happening though, I just don't always update on what I'm currently working on.

General reminder for people though, if you want to know progress of your pieces just note me or discord message me. I'm "always" online discord wise, so i'll get the messages there the fastest, however I do check FA at least once or twice a day. I don't mind if people check in to see how things are coming along. I've also got my commission queue constantly updated so I don't lose track of what I owe.

Generally speaking, I've got most of my ongoing commissions at least partially completed at this point. I'll be trying to get all of the linework done for my current queue now that most of it is sketched out, and working on my backlog as I can. Lol, this art block sort of hit me hard as I'm still trying to get back into the swing of things. I'll get there though. :D

Keep an eye on my twitter too as I sometimes post updates on current work there, even if you don't use it, you should be able to check it out, or again, just shoot me a note to ask about progress or 'bother' me over on discord, it's fine!

How am I doing? Mostly okay. I've got a few little blips in the matrix of my life, but nothing too big. Some small arguments here and there, but other than that social isolating (I'm basically taking social distancing another step further, and not leaving my house unless I need to.) Art's coming along, I promise, just taking me a bit of time to make sure that things look as good as I can make them while I get progress completed on things.

Thank you for the continued patience though fluffbutts, fishy, scaly, or feathery friends. I really appreciate it.
>>{Pineapple Princess Lorena ™}

Okay, so this is a bit of a weird thing I'm doing, but I want to art, and I want to make my art available for what people want. I want to tell your stories, and I want to draw what -you- want me to draw. That's what I want my art to be. My story doesn't matter as much to me art-wise, for me art is making things for those that like my art enough to want to see me draw their characters. I kinda could use the help to take my mind off of what's going on in the world and also in my personal life, but I'm trying not to overload myself with commissions since I do still have a few outstanding. (which I'm working on) I was trying to wait but I need to try to support myself, and it's not been easy. I'm therefore trying to do what I can to make life a bit easier and maybe cheer some of you up a bit.

As such I'm kind of thinking of opening a very small amount of "pay what you can" commissions.

As a general rule:
♥ 5-10 dollars: Something rough and sketchy, less refined and more experimental, but still interesting to look at.
♥ 15-30 dollars: Either "chest and up" colored bust with simple shading, or flat colored waist up bust style. I am fine with doing a full shaded icon at this price also.
♥ 45-60 dollars: "Thighs and up" colored bust with shading/no bg, or a simple two character flat color image.
♥ 75 - 90 dollars: multiple characters with no background or a simple/stylised background.
♥ Anything over100 dollars will be something I spend a LOT of time and effort on looking really well polished, and I'll make sure to put higher priority on. The more this ends up being, the longer I will spend making sure I polish the finished image as well as I can.

My prices are in USD. Basically you can tell me what you want, and in what price range, and i'll give it a go. Also consider this a bit of a thank you for your patronage, I want to say thanks for watching me still. Every little bit really does help me out a lot, and I want to make my art more accessible for people who just need a little something to cheer up right now. :)

If you're interested, please comment below or shoot me a note. I'll open for 5 slots for now, if there's a lot of interest in this I'll open more slots as I complete art.
I'm probably going to keep these open for a few weeks. I might keep them going a bit longer too if they go well.

1. - 3 Character Sheets:
Hana - Anubian Jackal/Golden Jackal. Female.
Miranda- Spotted hyena. Female w/ accurate anatomy.
Roxanne- Behemoth, Large stature, Large fangs, claws, horns. Intersex. Breasts+Penis.

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Heyo. So I'm not sure exactly how many people will read this, but I'm having a little trouble sleeping and I figured now is as good a time as any to update everyone on some updates and changes I will be uptaking in the up and coming next few weeks on my own FA and art-wise, personally. Also some about my situational stuff at the end. Let's get into it then.

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Cleaning up the artists I watch

TL:DR; Getting rid of ALL YCH artists on my watch list. If I see multiple YCH spam from the same account which is posted more than once every few weeks? They're Gone. I'm done with "YCHaffinity" personally.

Those who are here now (and or did not take a 4 year bye FA) are probably aware that unfortunately FA seems to be overrun with "YCH spam" for a while now. I only recently returned to FA at the beginning of this year but yeah, ouch. At the time of me writing this, I'm currently watching 2,048 people on here which means that my inbox is not only flooded with the YCH spam, but by several artists, and I do mean several of them. I might lose a few mutual watchers in return, but honestly I am tired that tired of seeing the spam which is leading to me NOT seeing the unique or amazing art that is produced which isn't YCH spam.

I literally understand why a few of you guys have said that it's become hard to even see art from artists that you do want to look at. I nuked a total of 40k submissions today, Most of which on the first page was literal YCH sketch spam of the same image, over and over again with zero edits or creativity and with that I likely nuked a ton of great artwork in the middle of it. I could not see a damn thing between the literal white + (color of sketch) here pictures.

As such, like mentioned - I'm cleaning the hell out of the artists I've followed and probably will end up removing over a thousand or so people very likely because of this. But why not just ignore them Lorena? It's simple. I want to watch people who do unique **ART** or show me something that tells a story, gives me insight on how they draw certain things, or see when other artists post sexy critters that aren't a dime a dozen. I'm sorry but I don't see most YCH images as quality pieces anymore. Just cash grabs. Especially when I see the ones where they are literally selling more than one "exact same pose/background but your character here" types.

Once upon a time I even promoted certain auctions or YCH's. Back when I did art before 'quitting' due to RL and needing a 'real job.' Back, when I wasn't bombarded with at least 10-200 spam's a day. It's become ridiculous and I'm just getting rid of anyone that does it. It saves me going through so much sketch fodder to find what I actually want to see.

So yeah, step 1, byyyyyye YCHaffinity in my submissions box.

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Art Block, and what I think caused this one.

TL:DR; I solved my art block, I'm both broke and feel guilty for not working fast enough.

This is something that perhaps other artists or creative types (writers/musicians/dancers/photographers/etc) might be able to understand and or feel similarly about sometimes if they've taken a break or hiatus for an extended period of time and had outstanding art going. For me I left in 2016 I believe, due to a hell-like living situation. I had to quit art because I literally needed to save up 3k FAST to assist my mother in getting a downpayment on a house so I could get the FUCK out of renting. I was also messed up mentally thanks to non-consensual things occurring to me thanks to an abusive ex but yeah, I ended up quitting art entirely during that period of time because honestly I was fucking exhausted with the level of depression I had, I basically had to work retail (seriously you who do these jobs are amazing and I have mad respect due to how shitty people act towards retail staff) and I was way overstressed because of said job. I couldn't deal with that and art. So yeah. I need to talk about things.

I am working on my backlog, but there's a few things that keep breaking my art gusto. 1) I do not have my abilities up to snuff yet (i'm rusty, my art isn't as good as it used to be but it is better than what it once was. See gothhana 's scraps for an example) but since I don't have job security anymore I need to get a few more solid commissions per month so I can afford to work on the art I owe still while not struggling just to keep my bills paid. I do have it all written down and update it. I am glad I preemptively was smart enough to keep a running list here directly on FA, and have talked to all of the people looking for updates in the meantime. That does however mean that I'm currently and was struggling with "how the hell am I going to be able to do all of this?" I know I don't have a lot outstanding work left, and thank god for that but I still feel extreme guilt. I never have had issues delivering work in the past and I cried about it a few days ago, given the life stuff which I'll update about later in this journal, it was just all way too damn much on me at once.

I promise though, I'm at least -trying- to work on the things I owe. It's really hard when at the back of my mind I keep going 'this isn't good enough' or 'anatomy is way off' or 'ugh that isn't supposed to look like that' and I'm struggling to look at the good bits instead of the bad ones. I've been experimenting a little bit with the sale images I have going on which is actually really helpful but again I feel bad for making people wait while I beat myself up mentally and try to game or do something else to try to re-inspire me to try harder or do better...

If you've ever taken a break from practicing or using your skills you can lose a bit of your ability. Now, some of this is muscle memory. I didn't forget how to do everything, but I have definitely forgotten how I used to do certain types of shading, and backgrounds, and which brushes I was using. It's mostly technical stuff like that, but it still sucks...

I'll remember and figure it out soon, but yeah - that's a big part of why art wasn't happening, but then my RL happened as it likes to do when I'm having an existential issue as an artist...

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My family:

TL;DR: My grandmother is recovering, also my mom is sick too.

Some of you might have read about my grandmother. I posted a bit of a rant about it because we really are a small, close-knit family, and I am happy that she's finally gotten out of the hospital. She was literally hooked up to so many IV's just a few weeks ago I could barely look at her without crying. She was super sick, and I seriously was scared that she was going to die. Luckily she's gotten better, for now... She's not out of the wood-work entirely yet and is on medication but she was well enough, that they let her return back to her home in a small town, outside of my city. Thank god she got better.

What I didn't tell you guys about is that my mom is also sick but in a much less definitive, scarier sort of way. Here's the deal with that. She's essentially got an unknown illness and we've been going to specialist, and different specialist, who refers her to another specialist and we cannot find out what the hell is going on with her. It's terrifying and it's somewhat annoying also. Those who know me intimately might know that my mom hasn't been the greatest financially and that I've basically had to be more adult than 'child' and as such I've spent hundreds if not thousands getting her out of severe debt to where I'm at now, paycheck to paycheck on her wage. I've literally bailed her out for damn near 12 years now... Shit, yeah it's over thousands... She's had pretty much all of my tax returns yearly for that time-frame plus besides groceries I have paid for a ton of things in the house that needed fixing and such too. It's kind of depressing when I put it that way. Lol. Anyways, yeah - she's sick. And I don't know what she's sick with. Neither do the doctors, luckily in Canada, most of her medication is covered via her healthcare plan, and that hasn't been super expensive, but... It hasn't been cheap either, because with all of the travelling, I've spent easily hundreds of dollars on gas, parking, etc. It's not exactly cheap.

So yeah that's not great. Plus there's the coronavirus/covid-19 which I'm not getting into but please stay safe ( And hopefully you have toilet paper or a bidet... )

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Anyways that's enough updates for now. I'm still open for commission, which will be on my main page in my journal, or check my prices if you want something that isn't in the current special I have going.

If you wanna chat about art or want to get art from me, you can add me on discord, or note here on fa, or inbox me on twitter. I tend to prefer only talking about art unless I actually know you really well. If I seem a little prickly... There's also a good call that I might have forgotten you a bit as 4 years without chatting means that I don't have the best memory, and I kinda ditched my skype and Second Life entirely. Lol. So if I knew you from there... Sorry I forgot you probably.

Also I rarely say hi or message first because i'm a textually awkward puma like that. I do a lot better in person with chatting lol. Online can be a struggle for me to make the first move chat-wise. Oh, and I don't roleplay at ALL anymore so please don't add me to do that stuff. I don't respond much to emotes or gifs either for the same reason.

>>~{Pineapple Princess Lorena ™}

Hey fluffbutts. So, I'm making this to kind of help clear up why I haven't been arting or posting as much.

Long story short, my grandmother has been in the hospital for the last couple of weeks and she's really not doing well. It's kind of impacted me pretty hard because this is someone that I care about very deeply and we're pretty close. As such I just have been unmotivated or less motivated to work on art than I normally have as in the evenings I've been going to the hospital every day and for those of you who don't know me very well - I'm not great in hospital situations. My brain just kind of shuts down.

As such I've been pretty damned depressed, worried, and just not doing well emotionally or whatever. Don't get me wrong, I do want to finish the art I owe people and that's why I've been kind of waiting instead of taking any other new commissions on right now. I'm sort of in this art-block stage where I'm so stressed that my art isn't at it's peak and I feel bad when I post things that aren't done at my best abilities.

I should be back in the swing here soon though if she recovers quickly, I'm crossing my fingers and hoping for the best. She should be discharged pretty soon if she keeps being on the mend though so that's positive. But yeah, please don't fret. I know who I owe stuff too and I promise I'm working on getting my stuff together.

If anyone's nervous or wants updates more frequently feel free to pester me on discord, and I will do my best to keep you up to date - I keep my discord always online. Sometimes I don't get messages right away but I will respond when I can. Oh, and if it's not art related, sorry if I don't respond. I tend to put more focus towards the people I'm being paid to work for than just casual chats with friends, and I tend not to message other people first as a general rule.

All I can ask is please be patient with me during this time. I'm okay, just yeah - that's what the holdup is.

I hope you/yours are well in the meantime. I have all my socials linked on my page, so you can find me elsewhere if you want to keep in touch more easily.

>>~{Pineapple Princess Lorena ™}

Hey guys, So as the above title reads, still open for these since bills be as bills do.

Either a 2 character Lineart picture (Example linked below of my lineart) (5 dollars off original price, base is 65 for 2.)
1. Nsfw: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34266071/
2. Sfw: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/11240437/

I can draw any species, or any gender/sex.

Or I'll open for one single character SHADED commission, which I'll include a somewhat simple background. (I'll do about 5 dollars extra in details, it'll be slightly more detailed than both of the images linked.)
1. Nsfw: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34151895/
2. Sfw: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34314457/

I'd prefer that this is a "wing-it" style, either way. Aka: I figure out the poses, based on a quick backstory or general "theme" you have for the image. Just in case there are more than one person into this I think I'm going to open up 4 slots as I am pretty hard up right now financially. I love doing lineart the best out of all commission types and I also need to get faster at shading. So by helping me out, it's helping me out more than just financially too.

If you've checked this out, really THANK YOU. I can't explain how helpful it is just having at least a few people checking this out. I do think there's a lot going on right now which ain't helping, but if you want to help me out, or share it around it'd be appreciated a LOT!

1. Shower - Sandrah : DONE
2. Custom Wooloo Poketrainer Design : DONE
3. Fei - Lingerie thigh-up anime lingerie. : Sketched, Linearting.
4.

If you're interested, please comment below, and I'll get back to you as soon as possible!

>>~{Pineapple Princess Lorena™}

So, today's been a rough day on me mentally. I've been struggling with getting back to doing art and trying to figure out how the hell a lot of these artists can swing things. I'm a bit stressed out because part of me doesn't even know what you guys want to see anymore.

I don't know if this is because of YCHaffinity or if it's because people literally aren't interested in my artwork anymore? Or how many of you even still use this website. I think I've seen maybe 5 replies to my work, and barely any attention towards my journals. I hate how spammy FA has become honestly, which is why I'm trying to branch out, use my other art websites and stuff also. I mean FA never used to be perfect regarding comments or favorites and the like, but I feel like people are using the site less or they're not even remotely interested in regular commissions. Like is it because I'm still overcharging? Or is the market too flooded? No clue.

Plus my folders are fucked up thanks to how I set them up, so I'm tempted to honestly just make two giant-ass folders instead. My gallery might shift around a little bit because it's honestly gotten a bit too confusing folder-wise for me, and for some odd reason my really old art isn't even viewable through my main gallery. o-O I really dun get it.

Anyways, yeah my head's kinda spinning. It doesn't help that the weather here is cold as fuck outside, and it's so cold that it's giving me a headache. :| I'm going to at least try to relax for a few hours today.

If on the off chance you read this, please note that I am open for commissions and that your support would be incredibly helpful. I'm not going to ask for handouts because nothing in the world is for free, and it's not great for money thanks to the holiday season having just passed. That said, a little "Hey lorena, how's you?" is always appreciated and or adding my discord, or just popping by my page to say hey, how is? Lol...

Sorry for the vent/rant but it's been an annoying day for me, and next week is going to suck thanks to having no privacy and also being somewhat financially tapped.
>>{Pineapple Princess Lorena™}

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9344202/

I'm still open for commissions! I'd like to get a few more underway this month, so I can both get back into the swing of my style as well as handle a few random bills that will pop up next month. That way I can just relax, enjoy arting and finish up the ones I owe while not being totally broke (I've been there many times and it isn't fun.) Lol.

If anyone's interested, please check the journal above.

I'm tempted to keep that journal going as a running list of all the art I do this year , or make a new one if it gets too bulky to scroll through, since I think it'd be fun to keep a comparison for what seems to be the most popular among those of you who are still active here on FA, and also maintain an itinerary of all of the work I've done since I came back to art in December 2019.

I'm also working on past commissions. Most of them need to be adjusted a little bit, which is why I've been quiet about them. I have 5 old things to finish up at this point. Some are already lined with flatcolors, I'm trying to figure out how I want to shade them since my style's gotten a little less polished thanks to a 4 year no art break lol.

So yeah rambling Lorena aside - if you're interested, please comment in the journal above, I can take details through notes OR discord, twitter and emails, if anyone hates FA's note system.

I'm heading to sleep but if anyone is interested I'll respond tonight when I wake up haha.

>>~{Pineapple Princess Lorena™}

Oy, you got other websites you watch furry art on? Here's on FA is where you can find me primarily. That said, Here's my link tree for all the damn places ever!

https://linktr.ee/LorenaFA

I do have a tumblr listed on my profile also, but let's be real, since they went PG only that ain't gonna work for me primarily

I figured I'd share this here also, in case some of you use InkBunny, Weasyl, Twitter, or DeviantArt primarily and wish to follow me there. I'll likely be crossposting everywhere, forever - since I really do need to work on rebuilding followers now that I'm arting again.

If you wanna promote me, or shout me out, please do. I'm still open for commissions. Please check my prices above if you're interested in getting anything from me. Anything is fine! :)
>>~{Pineapple Princess Lorena ™}

Whee commissions! If you're interested, please comment below what type of commission you're interested in doing.

My commission info as, always is linked directly in the journal header. (Click the .:prices:. link above.)
I've got my ToS updated, to reflect my work terms. Prices I've actually made a cheaper for some things, as I'm basing what I get paid, on how difficult the job is for me. I'm doing so instead of basing it on dollar per hour.

There are examples in the prices link above, in my journal header. Again, my ToS has been updated. Please give it a look and or comment below, or just note me if you're interested in getting art from me.

All art done in 2019-2020/Running List

1. Ref Sheet: DONE
2.(Facebook Commission) - 2 character couple pose.: DONE
3. - Lineart of Kyra: DONE
4. - Wing-it pose Flatcolors//Freya w/thigh high boots/corset: DONE
5. - Pinup Fei//Shaded//Lingerie : DONE
6. Shower - Sandrah : DONE
7. Custom Wooloo Poketrainer Design. : Sketched/Linearting.
8. Fei - Lingerie thigh-up anime lingerie. : Sketched/Linearting.
9.
10.

Okay so updated my social medias, everywhere but on tumblr as I frankly don't remember how to use that properly.

Discord is free to add, and I'm always online there.

Twitter I'm going to be using to post little updates, and I'll be doing small patreon exclusives as I build more of a following there also.
I'm trying to get off of FA and onto Twitter, so if you want to keep in touch, follow my twitter.

It's emptyish now, but as I continue forward I will be posting things there, and on other websites. Depending on how many people end up following me, I'll end up with an exclusive art channel for my superfans to join and keep in touch with me.

I have a YCH here as well:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34107749/ I'll be updating the sketch in about 2.5 days when i'm back home (going out of town 3 days)

If you're still around please share the message/spread the word that I'm back, I might post little doodles that don't mean much over on ko-fi if i have enough people visiting me there. Any little bit helps, and for now I will still be using FA, until I end up with enough people on twitter that it makes more sense to post there.

:) Thanks for listening!!!

>>~{Pineapple Princess Lorena™}

Okeee guys so I've run into a bit of a problem, both regarding past arts and future arts.

Here's the dealio. I lost my job and was coasting a little bit on EI while I tried to figure out what the fuck was going on with my current life, and this is where I'm at now.

I gave my boyfriend my old pc, and i'm sure I've got -some- of the artworks I owe people on there still. He's not gonna reformat it till I look and find out but I have an issue... I kind of don't remember who I still owed art to, or still would owe people stuff back. There's a few things which will never be completed (Sultry Nights, I no longer am in regular contact with hex, so that's been on the "i can't finish this" and I haven't used my Skype in for-freaking-ever. Removed it as an option for contact, please use discord instead.

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EDIT:

- I found this in an old journal:
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6859969/

That helped me out, thanks past me. Time to contact the people I owe arts to.

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What I want to theoretically do is get back to art. I need to somehow make cash until I can either pay people back that I owe art to or they need to come to me and tell me what commissions I owe them.

it's been roughly since 2017 when I quit art - but yeah... I'm having a bit of a crisis. I don't want to be an asshole, and just not do the art I still left owing, but I legitimately do not remember what I still owe. (EDIT: Found out what I owe, have contacted everyone ish, just waiting on responses.)

I also might open up a sale of one of my characters, in hopes I can get some emergency cash from someone since I need about 70 dollars in order to pay for my phone and my cut of bills, and have about a month to do it in.

I guess what I'm asking is that people are okay with my opening for a new YCH while I work on old ones, and locate them.

Thoughts and opinions are welcome.
>>~{Pineapple Princess Lorena ™}

OH AND ADD ME ON DISCORD. It's publically available on my profile page, if you've got it and I owe you things. I'm "always on" as I'm a moderator for a friend, so that's a guaranteed instant contact. I've cleared out my steam to people I know irl for ease of use but yes. Add me to discord if you wish.

Mmm, so with the new year coming in, things really haven't gotten much easier for me thus far. Things actually have gotten more complex and not in a good way. Life wise I've been having these irritating pangs of just how human I actually am and how temporary everything is which means that my sanity isn't in a great place either. Lol. I have relationship drama, art drama, life drama, you name it.

Basically - since I've gotten my job, I'm realizing just how stupid people are. Sure it's retail which means the job is annoying to begin with, but I've got to deal with co-worker drama and scheduling. This month for example I've only been scheduled to work 4 days. Which means that I'll barely see three hundred bucks on my monthly paycheck. So that's great. Other drama is related to the fact that we have moved into a new house, but it needs repairs which I have to put off until the spring.

Art wise? I haven't really gotten my confidence back with art yet, but I'm trying to draw things again but I don't have the driving factors here that I used to. I've lost touch with many of my artist friends, and I don't really know how to boost my own confidence since that happened. I'm still finding it really hard to do anything that doesn't completely suck. It's funny when you lose your art muse, and actually get a job how little inspiration and self-confidence as an artist seems to find you.

I don't really know what that means in regards to art just yet, but I am hoping that I can save up enough to buy myself a pc that isn't shit by mid-way through this year. That'd probably solve half of the problems I have art-wise to be perfectly honest. I'd like to get into using 3D tools more often to help with perspective, so I stop drawing contrapposto-esque bullshit regarding anatomy issues in my own work. Torso skewed, neck skewed limbs being way too long, fingers looking wrong... It'd also help my backgrounds stop looking like a botched M.C Escher modernist crapshoot.

The older I'm getting and the more I'm looking at other artist's works, I can see just how flawed I am in regards to perspective, anatomy, and generally the lack of technical knowledge I have is getting to the point where I can't even enjoy my own art. If you even wanna call it that. That's why I have been on hiatus lately regarding art, and it's still why I'm still there. I can't even look at the outstanding commissions I have in regards to working on them because the anatomy is so bad. Honestly, until I get an upgraded computer, it's probably going to stay halted or slowed. My pc has some bad memories for me too, given that it was a factory rig that one of my exes put in a new case. I've only replaced the graphics card in the meantime and that's not cutting it for me. A while back I did buy a second backup pc, but it's incapable of putting a graphics card into, because I didn't check it out more closely.

My pc has bad memories, my tablet has bad memories, and until I replace those things and get the final goodbye on my past through that, it's going to be hard for me to feel good about working on what I've got and my ineptitude as an artist is really a buzzkill for me. I don't want to be someone that needs to use a thousand references for an end result that I don't like. So yeah - this is sort of where I'm standing art-wise.

Life drama? My current S.O is moving 45 minutes away. I won't be working on getting my drivers license until the spring, if I can get past the fear of driving somehow... That means that I've got to work around my work schedule, his work schedule, and finding a way to work things so it's not a day trip each time we meet. If I can't work that out, we probably won't work out as a couple. Not that breakups are the end of the world, and i've got enough experience with relationships to know what happens when things get too tough, but it's still something that's on the back on my mind. I'm also still sick after two weeks thanks to picking up one of the worst flu's I've had in -years- which just isn't going the hell away. That's stressing me out too.

I've also had more familial issues thanks to the fact that I'm basically a live-in maid for my mom and younger bro and have been for years, it's just another situation that's stressing me out. Oh, and the fact we're working on paying down a mortgage for 5 years or 6 if I can't swing 5 with my job. It's just annoying little things like this that bother me. I do know that I'm not the only person with issues, but ugh lol... It seems like the more I work on me, the less safe and comfortable I become. Maybe it's just like that for everyone.

Anyways, I'm not dead - just wanted to update people on what's up so the people that are still waiting and curious know where I'm at. I'm also going to likely end up making a new Skype account at some point this year, because I want to purge the past entirely and start fresh. I haven't been on skype in at least a year, and it's due to the program being filled with bad memories and people that I don't keep in contact with anymore. If I do, I'll announce it here on FA. It's still up in the air.

Hopefully everyone else is doing okay. If not, lets talk about it. Feel free to let me know what you guys have been up to in the comments. :)

>>~{Pineapple Princess Lorena ™}

Okay - First and foremost, I got a job, so yay! Thanks mostly to my friends who offered to be references for me, which I am grateful for and was convinced (and proven correct) that my references were the issue as I'm quite literally amazing at interviews.

Anyways, lemme tell you guys a little bit about what I now do for a living, and how that's going to affect my artwork...

Firstly I work at a small ladies wear boutique in my city which attracts mostly affluent people that are primarily located outside the city and staying at a local spa/casino. And my first month was insane, compared to what I have now for hours.

What I basically do:
* Organize displays. (You know mannequins, and the clothes that hangs on walls in clothing stores/purses/arrangements around the store. I set those up.)
* Steam and prepare clothing for hanging on the racks/putting away. (I now really, really want a steamer - way better than irons imo.)
* Put Price tags on clothes and move tags to the back so the tags hang nicely inside of the clothes.
* Marketing skills/greeting customers, helping them out - opening dressing rooms once they're holding clothes and putting the clothes in there nicely for them - general retail stuff.
* Janitorial duties, cleaning the washroom, vacuuming, wiping down the walls, cleaning the windows, general cleaning things.
* Using a cash register (which I've never done before this, and it's pretty fun - though we don't have a scanner so I input everything manually - item codes... aw yeah.)
* Keep track of what is/isn't on sale and restocking old clothes from a year or two ago. It's cool because on our tags we print when the clothes came out - so if it's from '14 or earlier - it's a sale item. If it's '15/'16 it's new enough to be a "new arrival."
* Locking doors/managing lights/basic opening/closing.
* Learning what someone's taste is in clothing by what they have on. This is pretty fun to do, if they're wearing a certain color I already know they're into that color. If they're more "classy" looking, I'm not going to bring her to the logo tank section. Lol...

We've got specific brands - older brands for older ladies, and younger brands for those in their early to late 20's. So - if an older lady comes in, I try to show off our collections for older people - and when a younger lady comes in, I show off the collections for younger people first.

As for my hours. I'm a casual employee. I work shifts and honestly I'm hoping by being super devoted/loyal/offering to help the people I work with when I know they hate doing a specific thing... That I get more days. Right now I'm currently set to work 8 days this month, 46.5 Hours total. Or in other words 9 hours over a typical work-week for a full time position.

So - that means that I don't currently have as much work to do as someone else would at a full time job and it also means I -might- be able to get work done via art, IF I get the chance to. I can't really make much promises regarding that, as it's dependent on how I feel. And this week - I'm crampy and grumpy, generally not a great combo so all I want to do is sleep and or relax/game. Aside from that though, we'll see what happens. I want a few things too - I want a new computer, and I want to get a new tablet as this one gives me bad memories of my ex, and my old tablet I handed to my brother to use/practice with. So - yeah I've got some investments already setting stuff aside for.

First and foremost I want to get my teeth fixed. That needs to happen so I can relax a little bit.
Secondly that I'm looking into cellphones as having one for an alarm, clock, portable internet device, and text/calling - useful. If there's a plan that is within what I make in a month (hoping that I make min wage, but I'm new so my wage starts low to "test" me out/probation type dealio.)
Thirdly I'm saving for my new computer.
Fourthly Tablet.
Lastly - once that's done if I still owe anyone money via art, I'll be refunding, or if I manage to get arts done, I'll probably only do personal art, or cheaper commissions for people that I actually want to work on. We'll see.

Once that's all out of the way - I can manage to put money away and slowly save up to completely pay off my student loan. I need to work until that's paid off, and then once I'm in the clear with that, I'm going to save up and go back to school - and get my ESL/ESOL/TESL so I can teach English as a second language in a foreign country. I wouldn't mind trying to live across the ocean somewhere as the weather in those places seems more temperate in the winter - even if there are earthquakes/tornados/storm things I've never been through.

I did get to renew my photo ID today, and get to the bank, plus got my new schedule for this month, so I did get something done, and the weather's pretty beautiful today, so overall today was a good day. I managed to set a goal for myself and do it, and I'm starting to feel like a normal person, doing normal things, and getting reintegrated into society.

Anyways, bit of an update for you.

Just so you guys know - I DO check FA daily, so if someone wants/needs to get ahold of me, you can note me here or send an email to my personal email which is gothhana at gmail dot com. Otherwise - I'll be trying to keep people updated via journals, somewhere. I haven't decided whether I should do that over on my tumblr (which is linked on my page), here on FA, or whatever - but I'm thinking maybe tumblr. If you're interested in following there, go ahead - but FA is the easiest way.

In regards to messaging clients, honestly - aside from steam I hate them all. Too big, too clunky, too -new- looking. I prefer a basic interface, and NO ADS IN A CHAT. Even though I removed all the ads from my skype via hosts, and through windows - it's still goddamned huge, and I don't like chatting to people while doing nothing else. As I have a single monitor system - that's just not my favorite chat client on the planet and honestly you guys, sometimes I like my downtime. So - updates via FA or tumblr are the easiest for me for the time being.

Hope everyone's well.
>>~{Pineapple Princess Lorena ™}

Key:
*Waiting for approval/response: (WFA)
*Approved, Ready for next stage: (APP)
*Working on (WORK)
*QUEUED: (Q)
* DONE (D)
* SKETCHED (SK)
* LINED (LI)
*Flat Colors: (FC)
*Waiting on: (WAIT)
*Refining/Redoing (RD)

2020:
1. KingSlayerKhaos - (LI)(Q) Twitch/Discord Channel Icon/Overlay for Twitter/Twitch.
2. casseanora (SK) 1x Ref Sheet.
3. catmancer (FC) (Q)- $120.00 Sandrah Summer Night time pool scene with floating one piece.

2016:
(TD *themed discount*) commissions: (Found all of these. Queued.)
2. kman - (LI)(Q) - (Reiyna - *Lingerie*)
3. simbamaliki - (SK)(Q) (Femme-Simba - *Business wear*)
4. blackdragon1800 - (SK)(Q) (Loretta - *Latex*)

LBF (lesbefriends Series/Auction Pics (RD)
5. 0/4 Pages Sketched - Editing needed on all of these. (Female makeout I'm pretty sure)
* Costumes selected - In notes. Synthia/Femme-Simba (Female)
** Conceptualize Pages, and edit FS' body type. I don't like how these look at all. They need fixing.

1. Sultry nights 5. (next in queue) - I do have to check in with hex about this and find out how page 4 is coming along as well. AFAIK most of my work on that one is done, but i'd like to see how 4 is going before starting on 5.
2. Commission for friend in rl. (Not paid yet)

That said, as I'm down to two things in my queue I'm ready to take on a few more pieces. I should now have more time to work on art as well so that's good, as life's settling down slowly.

SO I'm going to get some work done and open for commissions soon. :D Keep your eyes open guys.
~Lorena

1. Dominatrix YCH - Lining 25 percent done. Refined the sketch

2. Comic Page 5 Sultry Nights - flat-colored 10 percent. I managed to somehow merge the lines with the damn colors, but luckily I had a backup so i get to start over - yaaaaay.

3. Commission for Dan (No time limit.): sketch stage done, needs refinement and adjustments.

Okay so that's out of the way I just wanted to say that I am in the process of working on things, getting them done. I've been having motivation issues lately and I still feel like I need to adjust my prices and sales for you guys or some Iron Artists and such. Life's generally been lukewarm as of late, but it could be worse.

Updates for the next bit, tomorrow I'm helping my boyfriend with his cosplay costume for the fan expo. He'll be going as Uther from heroes of the storm so yeah that's nifty. Just gotta sew the loin cloth and cloak looking thing for the fabric and do the detail lines for the paint as i have a steadier hand. woo. -_- If it looks bad I'll just blame it on being a traditional artist.

Personally I'll probably just be going as a regular human being, but hey that's me. Lol. I would at some point find it cool to get one of those necomimi brainwave ears, and make some custom cougar ears for them, but - lol. I doubt that'll happen anytime soon as I've got bills to pay, hahaha.

So yeah, I'll be afk tomorrow, and possibly monday since he needs help with the costume, and I just so happen to have a sewing machine and waifish girly hands so I can get the patterns on there more easily and such.

To commission me: Send me a note on FA, or shoot an email to gothhana[at]gmail[dot]com if you prefer not to use notes.
Please make sure to read through my TOS before commissioning me, Thank you for your patronage. Also note all prices are in USD.
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Prices:

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☻ Icons:
♥Static
♥Connecting
♥Animated

-$20 Single
-$35 Couple or Connecting Icons.
-$40 Animated.
-$60 Couple or Connecting Animated Icon.

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☻ Line-art:
♥Example

$45 No Background + $20 per character.
$65 With background + $20 per character.

4 characters per piece, maximum.

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☻ Flat colors:
♥Example

$75 No Background + $20 per character.
$80 With Detailed Background + $20 per character.

4 characters per piece, at maximum.

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☻ Shaded:
♥NSFW♥
♥SFW♥
♥Background♥

-$80 No Background + $20 per character.
-$120 With Detailed Background + $20 per character.

4 characters per piece, at maximum.

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☻ Reference Sheets/Character Sheets:
Flat color only:
♥Example 1 (NSFW)♥
♥Example 2♥

$100 for 2 poses 1 front view and 1 back view (this includes the color palate/swatch), As well as any text.
+20 for a simple background (of my choice.)
+40 for a complex background (of your choice.)

Extras:

+$50 for an additional clothed "chibi" form of your character to show some personality.
+$30 per head shot OR close up of body parts. (Genitals/Paws/Pawpads/Tail/Tongue/etc.)
+$20 for additional full body poses.
+$15 for an additional torso pose/half pose

Additional Extras:

+$??-??? for complete custom clothing.
This depends on complexity, but like the below cost, it varies. Simple clothing/my choice? Probably won't incur much.
Super specific and complex design with a lot of details? It's gonna cost you a fair bit.

+$??-????? Extremely complex design element/s.
[This is here to sure I'm being paid fairly, for extra difficult work.]
Note: This number can be anything from a couple dollars to several hundreds of dollars.
It depends on how much work I'm going to need to do, and if it's too difficult for me, I'll just recommend a different artist instead.

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Terms of Service:

III) Payment Provider:
All payments will be made through PayPal.
Upon purchase, commissioner has 2 days to make a payment, if not paid within that time frame, I'll cancel the commission.

IIII) Self-Care Clause:
If I feel as though a commissioner is becoming abusive, obsessive, or has made me in any which way uncomfortable, your commission may be canceled without warning, and I will only refund as per my refund policy below. Please remember, while I am doing work -for- others that I am not a machine, and therefore expect customers treat me with kindness or professional respect.

IIII) Refund policy:
I will only refund a commissioner the amount of money for work that has not been completed.
Example: If I do a sketch, I will refund for all but the sketch, and the commissioner will get the incomplete piece.
If you want to cancel a commission, you must tell me before all work is complete or I will refund you only the amount remaining for the incomplete work.

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Note: I won't draw the following, regardless of any interest in the subject. It is either lack of skill or interest. Thank you for understanding.

I Won't Draw:
☺ Guro/Vore/Violence/Blood.
☺ Taurs/Ferals/Beasts.
☺ Egg-Laying, Dick Vore, Birthing/Unbirthing.
☺ Bathroom/Unclean themes (IE: Scat/Urine/Flatulence.)
☺ Diapers.
☺ Cub porn/Underaged porn. (Hell no to all of this.)
☺ Vehicles (I can't draw these at all.)

I Might Draw (Ask/Consult first.):

☺ Weapons/Shields; Light to Heavy Armor.
☺ Multiple body parts [IE: Extra arms/heads/etc.]
☺ Micro/Macro OR extreme size differences.
☺ General audience only cub/underaged character designs. [IE family art/concept character creation is fine, I will not draw porn of cubs though.]
☺ Double/Triple/More Penetration. [This will cost you a lot more though, hard to draw.]
☺ Very specific detailed designs OR complex tattoos on a character.
☺ Trademarked/Copyrighted characters. [Ask first. I won't draw Ash's Pikachu, but might draw your OC Pikachu.]
☺ Genderless characters. [I might not have the technical ability to draw your characters specific body-parts configuration. Ask me first.]
☺ Porn of my own characters. [Depends on the porn, who you want in the porn, and what I'm comfortable with drawing/having drawn.]
(IE: Lorena is off limits as I'm monogamous/In a relationship.)

[>>~{Pineapple Princess Lorena™]

Right-o. Here's the deal, I've been racking my brain trying to create a new character for when i get sick of drawing lorena. I do kind of miss my old dragon fursona but i wanted to make this species into a whole species because i wanted to create an -open- species. I don't have references for them but written descriptions are good too right? right? lolol. Anyways basically this is a run down.

Note, these creatures are all anthropomorphic and stand on two legs and each has two arms. wings may be seen on the shoulder blades like fairies but they're typically all anthros. no ferals...



1)Aquatic: For the Aquatic subspecies these will be likely fur less or have a mix of Hardened skin and fur which resemble cilia. They will not have much weight and are the tallest/thinnest of the creatures. They do not have scales like dragons but more smooth skin like certain fish. I want to make these guys super limber and tall, maybe with longer necks, and possibly some fins around their arms and legs. Longer fingers, and their tails will be thinner towards the base. Their eyes will be larger as well. They have underarm "wings" to help them swim. I am also thinking this subspecies will have smaller males than the females, and be more of a matriarchy in the way they run. They serve one queen at a time although she may have many noble daughters at a time, and the eldest is the one in training for succession. These guys stand the tallest at about 6-8 feet tall and are extremely intimidating with longer snouts, and are carnivorous. They can live out of the water like frogs can but they dry out after a while. Color wise, these are the darker blues, and greens typically. They may also have "stripes" like clown fish, and may also be seen with decorative coral jewellry. The males of the species are much shorter than females, and often barely reach over 6 feet tall, whereas most females reach 8 feet within two weeks of their maturity. also neither of these species male or female have breasts. and are not mammalian in nature. they're omnivores and feed their young plants and small fish.

2) Aquatic/Plains: These pairings are extremely discouraged and often do not come into being. Due to the strange pairs of coloration most of these children are odd mixed shades of coral and blue and due to breeding these creatures often have longer tails although hairless and stockier more plains sized bodies. These are often however small chested and seen with much smaller fins and wings. These children often serve as servants to the aquatic people, typically the rich, as they have no use above water, and cannot survive above water due to the odd pairing. As such these creatures do not see the light of day and will die of suffocation due to collecting more genetics from the aquatic pairing and the aquatic having much more dominant genes. These are much taller than both of the species being an otherwise unseen size of 10 feet tall.

3) Plains: For the Plains subspecies, these guys are going to have longer ears, and shorter fur with longer tails as well. These guys are going to be the most "fluffy" out of them. Was thinking of giving them really long and strong tails, maybe with fluffy tail tips as well as along their back. They might end up with back-manes, and by this i mean they'll have manes like although it won't be in the front/around their necks. Kind of like horses i guess. Might give these guys cloven or hooved feet as well and they'll be stockier/fatter body wise. Females are smaller than males by quite a bit, mostly noticeable in their hooves and hand size as well as stature. These guys can go up to 5.5 feet tall for females and 6.5 feet tall for males. These guys are typically pale greens, dark greens, browns, yellows, and whites depending on where they live. Often the similarly colored creatures will breed together. The white/light colored plains creatures live in the mountains or on beaches, whereas the green and yellow creatures change color depending on the season, shedding their fur and adapting to the weather around them The ones who change color often are seen spotted or speckled. These guys are omnivores as well, the females often collecting fruit from the flying/doing the trade and cooking the meat that the stockier larger males hunt and bring. The females raise their children typically and take care of the home. It's often seen as a patriarchy and democratic. they have breasts and are mammalian in nature for the females, feeding their children milk.

4) Plains/Flying: These guys can also breed with the flying subspecies and often end up with mixed hybrid creatures, that can not fly due to having pathetically small wings and they're often looked down upon by both species, leading to them working as "servants" to both the flying and plains people. These bastard children are often stuck to a life of servitude, unless they manage to pair up and breed one of the flying or plains creatures, they do not gain position in society. These children are always females due to the strange breeding they are often under 4 feet tall in adolescence but may become up to 6 feet tall as well. These have smaller breasts for female and are mammalian in child rearing.

5) Flying: For the Flying subspecies, these ones may have feathers or skin wings (haven't decided) or have shattered glass/magic wings. I like moths and fairies so i might give them antennae too. Larger eyes, smaller/thinner bodies. I might also make these guys have tiny hands and feet. Both the males and females are going to be much smaller than the first two 4.5 feet tall for females and 5 foot tall for males at best. These ones tend to be a little transparent and like the underwater subspecies they can "turn invisible" by adapting to their surroundings. Color wise they're often floral or fruit colored, often shades of pinks, reds, blues, violets, and bright colors These guys are omnivores, but prefer to eat fruits and berries or fish to the creatures that roam around. They're mischievous and a bit "fairy" like in that they like to pull pranks on the plains dwellers. These creatures are neither in a patriarchy or matriarchy and have no societal roles/stereotypes. These do however also like the aquatics have a royal family, consisting of a king and queen although both have equal rights and unlike humanity these people are very okay with creating children outside of a "marriage" although the king and queen must always be monogamous to ensure a place in power and not so many bastard children. These creatures have very small breasts on females and are also mammalian.

6) Flying/Underground: The Flying may also breed with the Underground clans, and produce blind though "flying" children, so these are often seen as normal members of the flying clan Though they are esteemed as more beautiful somehow due to semi transparent versions of the normal wings of the flying. Through such breeding you often see paler, more muted versions of the flying due to the mixing of pigmentation and unlike the plains folk, these are often smiled upon and deemed more "beautiful" than the plains/flying hybrids, due to their ability to hunt and fly. They also have a better sense of smell due to lack of vision and by the time they reach breeding age, they are usually fully blind, though through their noses, and echolocation like bats, they may often be wonderful hunters. These often do business with the plains people, trading them fruit and small creatures for the thicker pelts and fur that the plains people create. These creatures have larger breasts on the female due to their huge litters from the underground side.

7) Underground: As for the Underground dwellers, these guys are puny, and act a bit like rats or mole people in that their eyesight isn't very good, these do often have small see through wings like those of beetles, though they are often folded on their backs, it should be noted that they have much larger litters of children. They have about 8 children at a time but they have more female children so often it's seen that these pairings have two females or three to one male. These are a mining people, and often the males work while the females work together to take care of their underground homes. They live in a colony and while they can leave, as their eyesight is not that great they tend to not venture out on their own. These guys are going to be shorter and stockier as well, and possibly a little curved in stature maybe only 3-4 feet high., due to their constant bending over in the mines. Color wise these ones are pale in the eyes due to blindness, and colours are similar to rocks. These creatures often trade with the aquatic subspecies. Due to their underground tunnelling there are tunnels which lead to the water, and as such these two peoples trade together. These people work in a democracy and have a counsel of elected leaders amongst them and each group of the underground dwellers has a different elected group. These creatures build entire cities which are all connected in the very center of the world around them and often may travel long distances to vote in their main cities. The females have large breasts, due to their litter size.

Edit: Underground and Aquatic cannot breed due to size difference so no hybrids there.

Edit 2: Plains and underground dragons very rarely breed. VERY RARELY. Underground dragons do not speak the same language, and most underground dragons give off foul sounding ringing which plains dragons often die from. Some however are immune to this, and they can very rarely partner up.) Esme is one of the rare subtypes - and an unlikely occurance for above reasons.

Feel free to toss suggestions at me, and or have opinions. I'm making these for fun, and i want other people to like them enough to want one too.