I've been neglecting to post things here because I'm an airhead but I've been updating my Twitter quite regularly with random shit, commissions and updates about life and work.

ONE big update being that my patreon is live again! i currently have 4 fully colored pages of my comic "oversight" there right now with #5 coming out on the first for patreon supporters. Go check it out!
If you can't/ don't want to support to see my comic there will be public releases posted on my twitter and later posted here on FA as well.

here are the links!

https://twitter.com/lost_paw

https://www.patreon.com/lostpaw

Looks like I got a good majority of my gallery back so I'll be posting my new works. updated coms and personal stuff here again very shortly~ thanks for your patience everyone <3

Thankyou to everyone who sent well wishes and stood up to my secret admirer.
Anyways, I have got my account back, logged out the other users IP and am nice and bundled up in my new security blanket of a password. A big big thanks to  dragoneer and the Tech team for all of the help and work they are still doing to ensure the erased submissions will (hopefully maybe) be restored!

in other news im using twitter more and more for posting wips, coms, and other art stuff as well as my business twitter for any and all commission related questions / inquiries. Here are some links to the twitter profiles

Business twitter run by myself and  BaitosKhamael
>>> https://twitter.com/salsacordera <<<

personal twitter

>> https://twitter.com/lost_paw <<

business site

> https://lost-paw.carrd.co/ <

more updates to come from here !

https://picarto.tv/Lostpaw emergency bill help... please please ;; im doing painted commissions black and white and pwyw pictures to raise the 1500 before my opportunity passes.. i hope to see yall there... thank you so much!!

So for those of you who dont follow my Twitter I was recently taken to the er again ... twice due to my medications (clonazapam) and the withdrawl that came with them for over a week .. the bills were huge for me ... so my parents helped me pay for them .. after a wonderful holiday fight my folks decided to say “fuck it were pissed at you pay us everything you owe us by tomorrow (this Saturday)” the er bills cost me (them) $600 and the total of what I owe them comes out to $1500... I’m going to be streaming tonight for Black Friday but .. idk I don’t think I can make enough in time for tomorrow needless to say... I have to swallow my pride once again and ask for help... I’m so tired of doing this but please if anyone has any suggestions, is interested in a commission, coming to stream or is willing to donate anything to help ..... please please do so comments and questions below I’ll answer everyone .... my PayPal is PayPal.me/lostpaw/ if anyone wants to send money to help ... but anyways. Thank you for reading this. I love you all.. and
I’m ... I’m sorry
-lost

Okay IM FINALLY BACK ON FA GUYS omg these month(s) have been crazy fuckin weird From cars breaking to family issues health problems urgent care and ER VISTS AGAIN UHG. Needless to say it’s been insane but things (seem like) are leveling out FINALLY ! If all of you have been curious about what’s been happening feel free to leave a comment or a question here and I’ll gladly answer!! Also if you want to keep up in a more /by the hour/ schedule then check out my Twitter where I’m more active then I probably should be !

Twitter: lost_paw

Love y’all thank you all for the wonderful notes of encouragement and well wishes <3

https://twitter.com/lost_paw/status.....09056005681152


all the other details are in the stream so feel free to drop by and ask questions!!!! :D more info over on my twitter here

https://twitter.com/lost_paw/status.....33893394948096

Like I’ve def been slacking on posting here and I have like 50+ images to post and fa is so damn slow to post each one.

Does annnnyone know a good like site to batch upload for fa ?

EDIT: I’m not looking for an alternate site to use for my main page I’m just looking for a 3rd party site that will upload TO FA

[center] YA KNOW WHAT fuck this shit I'm tired I'm sick and DONE WITH BEING THIS SLOW LITTLE SAD SCARED GIRL !

IM DONE LIFE GIVES YOU A PILE OF SHIT MAKE LEMONDAID AND FUCKIN SELL IT ! Yeah!!!!!!

Anyways lol my spaz aside. I'm done living my life in fear. I'm a gritty bitch who can do so much more then what I've shown you since that cunt fucked me up. Fuck that shit I'm done!! I movin on !!! I'm growin rhe fuck up!! I'm attacking coms like they're a child poking a wasp nest!

I'm opening up some long term coms because shit my little timmid ass got me in trouble again but this shit is the last HECKIN TIME I'm letting it happen. FUCKIN WOOOOOT.

I have a goal a goal I need to meet and I'm gonna do it! With your help ! For everyone who has faith in me and my art and the lost we all knew and loved back in the day I'm making my last step to independence one I'm gonna kill that WE are gonna kill together !

And fuck if you wana tip just to help me out ! My tip link is PayPal.me/lostpaw/ and guess what YOURE FUCKING AWESOME ANE THANK YOU YOU SWEET FLUFFY ANGELS ( or scaly angels I don't judge)

My long term commissions will be finished after my queue is done but you will receive progress on them though out my time working on my queue!!

Check out my commissions tab and send me a note if you're interested !!! I got a short ammount of time but I'm gonna do this ! We got this everyone let's bring the old lost BACK TO TOWN !!

Important info: (if interested Shoot me a note with your commission idea, quality and reff!)

Thank you all for your interest in it !! And all of the offers! Thankfully I made up what I lost when getting the replacement tablet ! Woooooot also. Stream tomorrow !!! <3

So for those of you who don't follow my twitter my cintiq is quickly taking a shit on me aka it's dying fast. I reciently made a purchase of a new tablet on amazon and had to use some money I reallllllllly would have liked to have avoided using. So to get that money back asap and get my house payment made on time tomorrow I'm opening up sketch stream slots early !!

The slots are partial body colored sketches for $40 a piece and they are paid up front so you don't have to attend the steam if you don't want to but you'll still get the image !! ! :D


Here's the quality example !
https://www.dropbox.com/s/fim5wqd3g.....20PM.jpeg?dl=0



If you're interested in getting one of these sketches for this weekend please send me a note or leave a comment here with your reff and sketch idea !

I'll update this journal when the slots are filled for the weekend !!

Thanks everyone !! <3

-paw

I'm also only offering this once and once only!

An art slave slot!!!!!!

The art slave 24 slot is $800 or a 12 hour art slave for $400 (a 20% discount on my normal hourly work
IT INCLUDES THE FOLLOWING
A full day of being your, well, artslave.
-no limits on content
-no limits on quality
-no limits on the amount of art
-no limits on the amount of chars
-can have me design you chars or reffs (ect)
-free control over the entire 24 hours
-YES, you will get an entire 24 hours of artwork from me
-you will get a free public or private stream (your choice)
-a sped up recording of the 24 hours of work!
-and the day set to your schedule on how/when the hours will be used.
- ( special offer one time ) a char of your choice WILL BECOME A CAMIO IN EVERY CHAPTER OF THE RECAMPED OVERSITE COMIC!!!!

I'm only offering this SINGLE SLOT for ONE DAY. 24 hours from the moment this journal is posted it will be available and after it will be gone forever!!!!!

I've been making great progress on my painted queue. My hoss boss  gephy has been keeping me on track and i should have all painted images done by the end of this month INCLUDING these new open slots!!! If you're interested in a painted slot of 2 hours or more please shoot me a note!! :D !!! First come first serve so be quick before they are taken up. these can be two chars with a max of 3 chars!!

ill be updating the journal as they slots fill so if you dont see (closed) then there are still slots available !~
examples:

http://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/lost-paw/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22915319/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22915296/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21191707/

also feel free to leave a comment if you have any questions~!

- paw

The goal has been reached !!! Thank you alllll soooooo much for all of your help and your generosity I'm completely speechless. You all care so much and showed me that I in fact have a home here As well as a home in Minnesota thanks to every single one of you. I'm so greatful ... so fucking greatful I just don't know how to place the right words in the right combination to tell you all how much of a life changer this is ... I just... thank you ...

I'm going to continue to do the stream here today to finish the folks that got on the pay what you want list! I also have to hall some ass cleaning my home now that I'm actually keeping it hahaha. That's for this weekend though <3 thank you all again so much ... so so so much ...

I love every single one of you with all of my heart. Thank you

- the saved sheep
- lostpaw

As many of you know 2 days ago i posted a journal about my monitor that broke. Thankfully that has been replaced now and my computer is up and running again! thank you again to everyone who helped me out in that time.....

something far worse has arisen that I honestly didn't see coming at all. TL;DR Im on the verge of losing my house... let me take this time to explain whats going on.

due to a bounced check that was unknown to me until last night my bank decided to say "well you owe us for last month and this month by tomorrow (roughly)" and "if you dont pay his large sum of money by then we are taking back your house and kicking you out" needless to say im wasn't prepared for this and i definitely am not stable enough yet financially to make this large payment, obviously.. im not proud of myself in this journal but i not giving up... but i need help...

at this point im sure that most of you understand why this is such a big deal... but there is an even worse side to this... a side i tend to not tell anyone just in case the worst case scenario happens.




here is the story ive kept secret from everyone i could even my own BF and parents....

roughly two years back i suffered some head trauma due to a source that id prefer to remain hidden due to personal details and the fact its against FA's TOS to call someone out personally. anyways, this head trauma caused some internal bleeding in and around a portion of my brain. I found out about this when i got extremely sick a year or so ago and was at the mayo clinic in Rochester MN. they performed a CT scan an were not quite sure what it was at the time an due to its location and size they were afraid to do a invasive surgery (literal brain surgery) to see what it was.... SO long story short i recently found out it is in fact a large clump of blood that is basically a giant blood clot in and around my brain. that i cant get fixed because i didn't seek medical attention until a year after it happened. This was out of fear and well Stockholm syndrome .... not something i like to admit... to my close friends let alone publicly..

(TL;DR: i got beat i fucked up didnt seek help and now i have a giant blood clot in my brain that is starting to move around in smaller bits due to stress)



IM sure if you read this or the TL;DR's you are wondering how in the hell the two things are linked at all.. (the brain injury and my unexpected house payment)




two days ago i wrote this journal: www.furaffinity.net/journal/8344580/ . its about the monitor that just broke on me an caused me to have to send out an SOS to get help to get a replacement. This obviously caused some stress for someone like me who has anxiety disorders to begin with. But what I didn't tell people is that.... the stress caused the clot from above to shift giving me a very minor stroke... I just waited it out and kept mentally active trying not to sleep more then needed and engaged my body and mind in all sorts of tasks to recoup from it as fast as possible. it was so small and this clot was still a secret at this point I just hid it and again.. stupidly.. didn't seek medical attention... as of right now i have control over my left side again and have fullrange of feelinng and basically im good. i have a GP appointment next month to check on the clot and yeah.... anyways to the reason these two things are liked.

(IMPORTANT INFO HERE) im afraid that the loss of my house and becoming homeless, if not bad enough on its own, will trigger a larger stroke to happen... and DOG knows what might happen... but anways....

IF YOU WANT TO HELP ME PLEASE KEEP READING ;;
<3

I'm going to be doing a few days of a PWYW stream or donation sketch stream where i will draw your char or chars for what ever you want to pay.

link to stream: https://picarto.tv/Lostpaw

I also have a tip jar open to anyone who would like to donate to help me save my house.. among the other thing (read above about that if you haven't) the link is here.. anything helps really honestly anything...

LINK: www.paypal.me/lostpaw/

the last thing you can do to help me is please help spread the word about my stream. tip jar. and whats happening... i desperately need help and im not used to asking for it...


im so sorry if this coming out so soon after the monitor situation... and i dont expect everyone to believe me but as long as one person does.... it will help me move forward...


thank you to all who read this and/ or helped or not just... i love all of you and thank you for coming to this journal regardless.

-Tyler

[edit] feel free to leave a comment a question or anything below here thank you all... <3

For all of you who follow my twitter I have been updating and chugging though coms. I was getting ready to set up shop for the day and start streaming and I came to learn that my monitor is dead now ... fuckin yay. I've been desperately trying to fix it all day today but it's completely dead and I have no back ups at all... so as much as I absolutely loath doing this... I need help... if anyone is feeling kind or generous or just wants to help me with this I'll have a link to my PayPal for any sort of tips or donations twoards replacing the monitor

www.paypal.me/lostpaw

Literally anything helps and I'll be so just awe struck and greatful to anyone who is able to spare a few dollars to help.. I just don't have enough words of apriciation for anyone who is willing ... just thank you ... so much. I also hope that this doesn't upset anyone or cause any drama...

Anyways thank you everyone for taking the time to read this.

(EDIT !)
Thank you everyone so much for the massive show of help ! It means the world to me to see so many of you caring so much and donating to this. To be honest it brought me to tears to see what all of you said and did. Just I'm so greatful to all of you and to show it I'm going to have a bit of a surprise this next week for all of you who came to my aid when I needed it most. Whether that was leaving a hopeful comment. Dontating. Or just spreading the word. I appreciate every last one of you and I hope I can show my gratitude in some way you'll all love. Thank you again to everyone so so so much... if only I had more words to use to describe how thankful I truly am. I hope everyone has a wonderful night tonight or a beautiful day !

I love you all <3

-lostpaw

HEEY GUYS and GALS im so sorry for the giant absence offline life had gotten really hectic for a while there and the plan in motion to get caught up took a BIT ( a lot more then a bit ) MORE TIME then expected.

ANYWAYS im finally back

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you should all start seeing daily/ bi daily updates on here again with art and all sorts of shiz ! also thank you everyone who noted me with well wishes and concerns about my heath... they were very very lovely to read after my time away from FA <3 i love all of you

-paw

this journal has taken me... a long long time to write and a lot of caffine and anti anxiety meds to get out. This will be the first time that i level with every single one of you that have taken the time to read this. I'm putting myself on the line here and making a very very risky move in doing so.

But here goes (everything) nothing.

I have been getting a lot of journals about commissions, commission queue, progress updates, and so on. I've been trying my best to stay positive in the face of losing my house and everything I've worked for here all while fighting my insurance, meds, family, and other very personal triggering things. (feel free to ask in the comments if you want to know but be aware they are very very very graphic).

Please do not mistaken this as a way for me to make excuses for my actions and the choices I MYSELF made to keep my home. The choices i made were done by me to the best of my mental ability at the time. Because of said choices I have dug myself a huge hole of commissions that until recently I haven't seen a way out of. Its caused me to have to go to the hospital many times for my anxiety caused by the sheer volume I have set up for myself..... I'm not proud of it, not one bit.


anyways I have finally came up with a plan to fix this and give everyone their moneys worth of art and at the same time hopefully salvage my name in the process. As much as someone like me can anyways.

Here is where everything is going to get real and im going to throw out some numbers that I would normally not share with the public and in reality probably shouldn't share but I'm going to anyways to be as real and honest with all of you as i can.



here we go...

I have roughly 50 (giver or take) outstanding commissions at random portions of completion. I'm not proud of myself in doing this and I'm not going to make excuses as to way i did it because thats cowardly. I beat myself up about this fact more then I probably should.

But I have a plan if you all with put your faith in me even though I don't deserve it.
I'm going to take the next few weeks. (14 to 21 days) doing nothing but in stream sketch commissions. Paid for and finished the same day.
these will be colored sketches for $50 - $60 per char depending on complexity of the coloring. I will be taking and finishing a minimum of 4 per day. This will be starting tomorrow.
by doing this ill be able to raise enough money to cover my bills, rent, medication, and food for 2 to hopefully 3 months allowing me the time to focus solely on the outstanding commissions and providing the proper quality that you all deserve.


there are 3 problems with this plan:

one;
with that many days of sketch streams would you all still be interested in getting the colored stream images from me?

two:
am I going to further upset my outstanding commissioners who have so graciously waited for their art.

three:
this one I'm the most scared of... will I have another mental breakdown..


this journal is about as vulnerable as i ever have been to such a wide audience and to be honest I'm terrified to post this journal. If any of you have any questions or comments please please please leave a comment ill be up probably most of the night stressing out about this haha.

also if you wana donate anything (I hate asking this in the first place but my manager thought i should add it) please note me .. and thank you so much..


i love you guys and gals,

lostpaw

I'm opening some commission slots for anyone interested. The slots can range from painted images to sketch commissions!

My commission info can be found on my commissions tab or here
https://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/lost-paw/

If you are interested in things like colored sketches or lined work the prices are as follows.

Base sketch: $40
Base sketch with color: $50
Lines with basic shade: $70
Flat color image with lines: $75-80 (depending on char complexity)

Feel free to comment here for your questions or comments !

If you are interested in picking up an image from me please note me with:
Your character ref
The type of commission/hour(s) of painting
Your idea for the image!

I will return your note as soon as possible !

EXTRA NOTE : I will change the journal title to (closed) when all slots are taken.

Thank you to everyone interested and everyone who has read though this <3

-paw

I'm deciding to go about my commissions a bit differently this time by doing my queue as sketches first and then moving on to colors all in one big batch instead of piece by piece. SO if you're interested in seeing some of my WIPS follow me on twitter!

https://twitter.com/lost_paw
https://twitter.com/lost_paw
https://twitter.com/lost_paw

I'm taking one commission slot for the beginning of April!

for info on my prices of painted images here is the link to my commissions tab!
http://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/lost-paw/

examples of resent paints!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22915319/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22915296/


If you're interested in picking up the slot leave me a note or a comment here !

also in other news my friend is offering traditional badge commissions right now!! go check her out if you haven't already!

 heracere

My good friend just started up her FA again! she has taken the leap into the world of commissions and is looking for some people to be her first customers in a while! she is doing traditional badges that will be shipped right to you !!!

art examples!
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http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22896666/



and her commissions journal!!
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http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8127683/


I highly reccomend checking her out and giving her a watch! she will be doing full portraits and other traditional work too as commissions! so yeah! gogogogogogogo


 heracere
 heracere
 heracere
 heracere
 heracere

CHECKUM ON TWITTER!!! I usually post a lot of wip work as well as random sketches and shit on twitter before they make it to FA (cuz damn its way easier to submit from my phone while layin in bed like a fuckin lump).

also! random life update shiz and other msc internet wheezing.

HERE IS THE LINNK

https://twitter.com/lost_paw