As the title says I have some slots open for people who want to commission me ! It's getting towards the end of the month here and I'm finally heading back home (thank god ) so everyone should see a pickup in postings!

Leave a comment here or shoot me a note if you're interested in a picture!!

I'm offering all sorts of stuff so feel free to ask !

As some of you might have seen I've been drawing more and more this week. Sadly the process has beeen slower then I would have hoped given my need to get back in the groove of art as well has issues with home life. so im chipping away through the commission queue but still have some bills to pay @.@. With that being said, would anyone be interested in picking up a commission for march! if you are interested comment below of feel free to send me a note.!!


(ALL other outstanding commissions are organized into my trello to be finished! I will have a public link available soon for everyone to see!)

a bit of an update on everything that has been going on!!

First off I want to say thank you to everyone for sticking with me through all this shit. I know it's been a really rough patch for the past few, well, YEARS I guess. But after my last journal things have really turned around for me. Sadly, with good things comes a fuckload of stuff to take care of. SO, I've been dealing with insurance companies, doctors, home life, relationships and god knows what else since that last journal 12 days ago. All that aside I'm finally settled down and drawing again! I'm currently in the process of setting up a public trello for everyone to view my queue and where there commission is on the queue/ day. Also, I'll be streaming basically every day for the next two weeks with commission work and sketch stream work. So something to look forward to!!!

On a personal note I finally found a doctor and clinic and insurance to start my hormone therapy! wooooooo (way too excited about thissss). Since i started ( a week and some change ago) I've been feeling physically fantastic for the first time in my life. On top of that I'm also feeling much better in the emotional department. I'm not going to rant on too long about this but I will be doing more updates about it on my twitter if anyone is interested in following that!

Lastly, If anyone has any questions/concerns/comments feel free to leave a comment here or shoot me a note. I'll do my best to respond to everyone! :D


-paw

[edit]- I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT PATREON! oh yeah! I'm currently working with a team to revamp the whole thing !! AGAIN! right now we are a writer, and two artist working on this comic to give everyone some large updates and quality content! ALSO to all patreon members at the end of this month will get the entire old comic pages (completed ones and also unfinished pages) so you're not left hanging as to what happens! I wont be posting those on FA here so its a patreon only deal. one important thing to note about this is YOU DO NOT HAVE TO BE A 10$ SUPPORTER TO GET THE OLD COMIC AT THE END OF THIS MONTH but if you want updates and early access to the //new// revamped new comic starting next month you would have to be that support tier!

I'm still looking for two people willing to get a painted commission from me !

All special info is in my commissions tab !

Leave a comment or shoot me a note if you're interested !!

Phew, okay. So there is something that I believe it is time to finally tell everyone. Before now this has been something I have only told my closest friends and my family. It will explain my absence and medical issues over the past well few years. It's taking a lot of courage to write this journal so please bare with me.

I'm transgender. I know this may not be a big deal to a lot of people in the fandom. But some who know me this may come to you as a shock if I havent told you yet. I've been dealing with therapy, medications, doctors and everything else to try to excape who I am but nothing worked. I've decided now to embrace it finally and I have never been more happy! But at the same time never been so broke. With the doctor bills, insurance problems, therapy costs and not to mention hormone treatment in running day to day. And most of the time I'm too bussy with life to get to update here. It's really hard on me to be so absent from all of you guys. But the hard part is over now so you'll be seeing a lot more of me in the coming days and months.

With that being said I wanted to boost this journal > https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8056178/ <

I'm cutting it close with paying my rent and doctor bills this month so I'm quite desperate. As much as I don't want to make the list a bit longer I don't have much of a choice. So if you are interested in getting a commission piece as well as helping me out through all of this please send me a note.

Also feel free to leave a comment if you have questions or comments ! I'll do my best to answer everyone :3

Love you guys,
Lostpaw

if your interested in a painted commission for February to help me get rent and bills paid please please please shoot me a note!!!!

Since I'm officially back in action for good I really need to pay rent <~<.sooooo if there is anyone out there that would like to nab a painted commission a lot from me hit me up !!

Leave a comment below if your interested in a painted commission
All other details will be under my commissions tab !

this month has been crazy. just absolutely nuts with personal stuff and medication withdrawl issues.
but thankfully everything is finally sorted out!
it has been complete hell wanting to get art done but being completely un able to uhguhg.


but any ways! im going to be streaming today/tomorrow! doing a sketch stream and commission work and im still looking for the last slot of the day!! if your interested in picking up a $40 slot leave a comment or just shoot me a note! :3

Looking for one person to start off the sketch stream day ! First come first serve ! Only $40!!

My good friend is selling a bunch of chars to help with bills and all so if you guys could take a moment of your time to go and take a look at what she has to offer that would be amazing!!!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8006452/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8006452/

<3

Still looking for one person to pick up a painted piece !!! Note me if you'd like!

I have two slots open ! For whatever ! Comment or deirectly note me if you're interested !!

I'm looking for two pained slot commissions for this week so I can get a full work week in. My meds are finally balanced !!! So I'm all reved up and ready to go especially with the holiday recharge !! So if your interested in a painted slot leave a comment or send me a note!!!

I'm back baby!!!! My meds WORKED!!!!! So you know what that means !!! I'm opening one more commission slot !!!!so comment if you want. It !! First come first serve !!! I'm looking for a fully painted picture! So comment if youre interested !!

On a side not awyis mofukkin art !

In my off time while trying to balance my meds I've found myself falling in love with battlefield 1. So naturally I have been looking for people to play with. If anyone has bf1 or origin in general and wants to add me as a friend my username is " lostpaw " !! Feel free to comment on the journal if you'd like !

i just started another round of medication once again and so far ITS WORKING! I'm realllly reallly happy about this and because of that I'm lookin to take on ONE full color painted commission to slowly work on though this week! If anyone would be interested in jumping on that let me know by leaving a comment and I'll send you a note :D!

as always if you have any questions, concerns, or comments feel free to leave a comment or note me :D!

Gonna be kinda short with the health update today. Things are getting more and more rough as my meds side effects are lessening. I don't know why but yeah.

On other news commissioners have been refunded as of today since the loan just came in.

If you have any comments questions or concerns feel free to contact me.

WHO KNOWS last time they "leveled" off they went south in a hurry. So I'm just enjoying it while it lasts. going to a new doc on Monday to address some of the issues I've been having.

another note refunds will be going out as soon as the loan clears so hold tight.

if you have any comments, questions, concerns, or just wanna chat feel free to leave a comment or hit me up on skype, telegram, or via note

my friend  kodadax got this amazing headshot of my sona for me to help cheer me up given all the shit that has been happening.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21687735/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21687735/

also wanted to pimp out the amazing artist who drew it as well! give them a watch their art is awesome!

 kapu_official
 kapu_official
 kapu_official
 kapu_official

to all my commissioners who have commissions out currently.. i cant live with the guilt of making you wait any longer. I'm currently pulling out a loan to pay everyone back to refund everyone, whether you are willing to wait or have been wanting a refund.

PLEASE PLEASE send me a note with the amount you paid and the preferred email for me to refund you through.

After my most resent doctors visit not much has changed. They didn't want to do any scans and just decided to once again up my dose..

I'm losing my fight guys and I'm not sure what I'm going to do about it. I'm pulling out all the loans i can to pay back commissioners that are as sick of me as i am of myself. but even that is taking too long. life is kinda falling to shambles for me right now.. the constant guilt and disappointment of letting everyone down day after day is eating me alive. I'm still unsure of how I'm even living with the shame of having depression and anxiety disorders..


thank all of you who have been supportive of me throughout all of this
and I'm deeply sorry to all of you who are upset with me and my lack of progress... I take full responsibility for my inability to work right now. I'm extremely ashamed of it.

i guess this turned into more of a vent journal but idk what else to turn too.



edit: random spelling things and sorry for the rant I honestly don't know why I decided to make this journal at all.

I'm going to be seeing my doctor once again tomorrow about further changes as well as scans to see if the plethora of medication have caused and physical issues mainly in my brain...

so no great news i guess.

sorry everyone for disappointing ya once again..

if you are one of the many people who got a commission before the all started and are sick of me being sick/ taking too long please note me about a refund.. the guilt of not being able to finish work right now is tearing me apart. but if you're willing to wait it out still, thank you ;;

After a few hell filled days of withdrawls and side effects from my resent change in medication I'm finally feeling confidant in saying that I think the worst of it is over. I'm finally starting to level off and come back to "normal" (whatever that means). With that being said I'm hoping that ill be back on track very soon. I would like to say in a day or so but god knows my luck is shit and I dont want to jinx myself. S

SO cross your fingers everyone ! lets hope that the worst is finally behind me!

again thank you to everyone especially my very patient commissioners for waiting this out with me!


if you have any questions/ concerns/ comments to make please feel free to leave a comment on this journal!

im looking to do a few sketches today with hopefully a new flair to them. I have got a few ideas to how to change up my style to make it more appealing. but if you are interested in getting one leave a comment!

this slot is $40 solo character

examples:
https://www.dropbox.com/s/uugoammq9.....owler.png?dl=0
https://www.dropbox.com/s/0kvnkghip.....onata.png?dl=0


1) reference image!
2) your idea (if you don't have one I can always wing it or you can give a theme)

be sure you are ready to pay when posting the comment

this will be first come first serve and I will reply to your comment and send you a note to confirm your slot! :D

you will receive your image via Dropbox link in a note at full res :D

I recitently switched to another new set of medications since I was having adverse reactions to the set I was on previously. I'm currently tapering off all of those and starting new ones at the same time. I'm hooding that these will level off soon so I can finally get back to work. It's been a hell of a ride this month and I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has been so understanding of what has been happening