1. What was your 1st kiss like with your current/1st mate?
It was New Years. It was about 5 seconds left on the count down and we're hugging, my face turned away to the screen watching the numbers drop, and Pros is telling me to turn around. Then at the last second, I do and we kiss for a long time, get so hot and red faced we had to run outside where it was cold, all giggly. We'd both apparently been secretly planning all day to surprise each other at midnight with a kiss. So fucking wonderful.

2. How did sex feel for you when you 1st done it with your 1st / current mate?
Perfect and exciting.

3. What was the most romantic thing you have done with your mate?
Possibly the new years kiss. lol.

4. What was the biggest thing you done for your mate?
I recovered from past issues <3

5. Did you have to give up something for your mate to make them happy?
Well, I chose to give up smoking to make Pros HAPPIER, not just happy.


Stole this part from

It's Proserpine's birthday today! [July 4th, wooo]
GO SEND BIRTHDAY WISHES AND STUFF [it's been sort of a rough week :[ ]

Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Moderate
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

Take the test here

few things.

>Pros gets here in about a day and 14ish hours
I'm super excited and so damn impatient
Like usual
I'll be gone for another 2 weeks
Well, I'll be around to check my mail once in a while, etc

>my attention span?
I don't know, it just seems to be randomly getting worse
I space/zone out pretty bad now
And I just stop what I'm doing
And when I 'come back' I don't recall doing anything
So I've been forgetting art I've been working on and even stopped talking in the middle of conversations
It's making it impossible to do art much
I just feel empty and blank
I have inspiration but I lack motivation? I'm not sure
I forced those last 3 drawings out and didn't feel anything good about it
[Not saying it isn't a good picture]
I WANT to draw, I know what I want to draw, I know how to do it and that I'm capable of doing it
But I just can't
I sit here frustrated and feeling like I'm constantly forgetting something

I'm not stressed about anything, and I'm pretty sure I'm not sick
But this is getting frustrating and worrisome not only for me but for Pros as well

Right now I feel lonely as hell and bored but... I just don't want to interact with anyone to fix it
I can't bring myself to do anything
I'm just sitting here reading TFLN for hours on end

Does anyone have any idea what's going on?
I hate this feeling

01) [x] You own tools that you use regularly
02) [x] You carry a wallet (generally in your back pocket).
03) [x] You prefer movies or shows where there is more action than romance
04) [ ] You spit on the ground when not in a building (it can be mucus or something else).
05) [x] You scratch where it itches when it itches
06) [x] Your idea of good footwear is boots or tough tennis
07) [x] Your wardrobe only changes if you gain weight or the clothes fall apart.
08) [x] You don't count calories when eating.
09) [x] You have deodorant strong enough to make you socially acceptable but not strong enough to make you smell like it.
10) [X] You tend to wipe your hands on your clothes instead of a napkin.

Total So Far: 9

Do you love:
11) [x] Video games
12) [x] Working on mechanical items.
13) [x] Building things.
14) [x] Working out at a gym machines
15) [x] Getting in and out of stores as quickly as possible.
16) [ ] Football (American)
17) [ ] Baseball
18) [x] Wrestling
19) [x] Boxing
20) [ ] Hunting and/or fishing

Total So Far: 16

Do you shop at:
21) [x] Home Depot
22) [x] Lowe's
23) [ ] Big and Tall men's stores
24) [ ] Hunting and Fishing supply shops
25) [ ] Auto supply stores or other mechanic shops
26) [x] Hobby shops
27) [x] Comic book stores
28) [ ] Sports supply stores
29) [X] Video game stores
30) [X] Electronic supply stores

Total So Far: 22

Do you say:
31) [x] Son (when the person is not your biological child or even younger than you)
32) [x] I can fix it.
33) [x] Man-up
34) [x] When I was your age - followed by how far you had to walk and in what weather conditions.
35) [x] Don't be a wuss.
36) [X] It's just a scratch
37) [x] Take it like a man.
38) [X] That's not how you do it.
39) [x] (insert profanity here)
40) [x] Here's your (insert profanity and what the person just said).

Total So Far: 32

Do you read:
41) [ ] Field and Stream.
42) [ ] Bear Magazine
43) [ ] Playboy
44) [ ] Sports Illustrated
45) [ ] Pro Football Weekly
46) [X] Comic books
47) [ ] Men's Health
48) [ ] Men's Fitness
49) [ ] Men's Journal
50) [ ] Private Media Group, Inc.

Total: 33

Multiply your total by 2 and then you have your percent

fuck yeaaaaa holmessssssss
but I'm not going to do anything special
I still need to draw slash for the 11k kiriban
I'm just seriously lacking any inspiration
And I dont want to give him a shitty drawing

This week is going by too slow
Needs to be sunday already
So I can see my fucking beautiful Proserpine <3<3<3
mon amour, mi amor, meine lieb, my love <3
Ahhh~ but enough
before this journal turns into something horribly mushy and vomit inducing

Well, my old dog has down-syndrome and I’m trying to teach it how to operate the computers at NASA.

That is how difficult it is working with my father to teach him how to use Microsoft Paint.

Help me.

People who try so hard to have a conversation with me, then as soon as I decide/manage to respond, stop talking.

People who IM me *hugs*, *nuzzles*, *cuddles* etc, especially when I don't really know them.

People who assume we're good friends just because we've talked a couple times.

People who ask me for requests when I'm not streaming & specifically asking for them, since my profile says REQUESTS: CLOSED.

People who ask for trades and can't draw.

People who add me on IM and either don't talk to me ever, or only talk to me once.

People who get offended when you don't +Watch them after they've shown you their page or +Watched you.

People that insult your work, when they could have either ignored it or offered constructive criticism.

People who go out of their way to harass you.



I had to deal with some of these lately, so I figured I'd post this here because I'm bored.

What are your pet peeves?

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1486123/

[ ] You own over 10 bottles of nail polish
[ ] You own a designer purse
[ ] You own perfume that cost over $60
[x] You had/have fake nails
[x] You have more hair products and body products than you can use
[ ] Your pet is a Chihuahua/Pomeranian/Yorkshire Terrier(mix)/Siamese/Shih Tzu/mini anything
[ ] You have clothes/shoes/accessories for your pet
[ ] You have enough clothes to cover an entire refugee camp
[x] You have enough pictures to create your own wallpaper
[x] A pink comforter, carpeting, walls or sheets
Total So Far: 4

Do you:
[ ] Spend more time at the mall than you do at homework
[x] Have had a hair color that is not natural
[x] Have "blonde moments" at least once a day
[ ] Buy stuff because it's awesome and then never wear/use it
[x] Constantly keep your phone at your side
[x] Dance around in your room when nobody else is home
[ ] Have a name for your car
[ ] Know what celebrity is dating who and who broke up this week
[ ] Refuse to go out in public without makeup
[ ] Prefer to be called "princess"
Total So Far: 8

Do you love:
[x] Makeup
[ ] Glitter
[ ] The color Pink
[x] Jewelry
[ ] Mirrors
[ ] Chick flicks
[x] Shoes
[x] Rainbows
[ ] Unicorns
[ ] Disney Movies
[x] Flowers
[x] Stuffed Animals
[ ] Purses
Total So Far: 14

Do you shop at:
[ ] Coach
[ ] Forever 21
[ ] Victoria's Secret
[ ] Guess
[ ] Claire's
[ ] Express
[ ] Delia's
[ ] Hollister
[ ] American Eagle
[ ] Abercrombie Fitch
[ ] Aeropostale
Total So Far: 14

Do you say:
[x] Whatever
[x] Oh my god
[ ] Hun
[ ] Fugly
[x] That's hot
[ ] Dunzo
[ ] Darling
[ ] Bff
[x] Cutie
[ ] Hottie
[x] Skank
[x] Totally
[x] For Sure (Foh sho')
[x] Fabulous
Total So Far: 22

Do you read:
[ ] Cosmopolitan
[ ] Glamour
[ ] Marie Claire
[ ] Elle Girl
[ ] Teen Vogue
[ ] People
[ ] Us Weekly
[ ] Star
[ ] Self
[ ] PerezHilton.com
[ ] Dlisted.com
[ ] Seventeen
[ ] people.com
[ ] usmagazine.com
[ ] popsugar.com
[ ] Pink Is The New Blog.com
Total So Far: 22

Do you love these:
[ ] Legally Blonde
[ ] Elizabethtown
[ ] Mean Girls
[ ] Now & Then
[ ] The Notebook
[ ] A Walk to Remember
[ ] Sweet Home Alabama
[ ] Where the Heart is
[ ] Just My luck
[ ] John Tucker Must Die
[ ] Center stage
[ ] Bring it On
[ ] How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
[ ] Mona Lisa Smile
[ ] My Girl
[ ] The Wedding Date
[ ] 10 Things I Hate About You
Total So Far: 22

Do you really enjoy:
[ ] America's Next Top Model
[ ] Project Runway
[ ] Desperate Housewives
[ ] The Simple Life
[ ] 8th & Ocean
[ ] Sex & the City
[ ] Grey's Anatomy
[ ] The O.C.
[ ] The City
[ ] Nip/Tuck (Bitches be too fake)
[ ] Gilmore Girls
[ ] Degrassi

Total: 22

Take your total and multiply it by 2. Then repost this as "I am #% Girly." With the number you got as the percent of course.

So folks, do you walk into a grocery store and talk to the cashier you don't know and ask them if you can just TAKE this apple, even though it has a price tag on it?



Didn't think so.



So why is it I post prices for my art and GASP, I get asked if they can trade or REQUEST art? In the same damn journal that POSTS THE PRICES. What sense does that make?

A trade, well MAYBE, you know, if it's a fair trade. I personally can recognize when my art is severely worth less than someone else's art. It's not like I go to Chimerasynx and ask for a trade, I'm no where near that level in terms of talent. And I don't go out of my way to tell other newer or less talented artists they absolutely suck, but I feel insulted when someone who struggles with what they're drawing asks me for a trade.

I especially hate when THEIR profile is covered in RULES for talking to them. "Read this first before you talk to me, blah blah blah". Guess what it says on MYYYY profile?

Requests: CLOSED
Trades: CLOSED
Commissions: OPEN
^{STOP asking for trades & requests}


And yet THEY are talking to ME?



UGG
/rant

Congrats to
they get free art

Also, I just made 1,000 views in 16 days.
I feel accomplished.
I'd just like to thank all my watchers for their views, comments and support. Blah blah blah.

Just a reminder, since the first post about it has been moved down, and was pretty premature.
Make sure you post your screencap HERE IN MY JOURNAL. DO NOT POST IT IN MY SHOUTS. Just so it's fair, and obvious who wins.


Also, interested in super cheap commissions?
I'm talking $5 or less.
Click here

Here's a list of my $5 and under commissions, click the names for examples


Bashing Icons ...$5
Derpy Danglers ...$4
Squishies ...$2
Dicks ...$2


More soon to come!

Just to let you know, I will not be making an account there simply because I won't be able to keep track of it and my FA as well. And I don't intend to leave FA. Also, if you see my art or an account by my name there and I haven't stated HERE that I made the account, report it, kthnx.

Also, I was reading about the acceptable uploads and such there, and it brought up the whole "we're a furry site, so NO HUMANS" thing to me. It reminded me of some of the people on here who get their panties in a bunch over human art. So this is my opinion on it [for FA]

FA is a furry art site. It is a website for furries, it is a website for fur art. To me, this means it's alright to BE a furry and post human art, OR you can just be a non-furry artist who posts FURRY art. I think that makes sense and is fair, don't you?

Anywho. I miss Pros, who went to bed hours ago, like I should have. D:


And leave me some shit to wake up to, I get bored http://www.formspring.me/Loth

It's a-coming
Screencap it and post it HERE IN MY JOURNAL, not my shouts
kthnx
And give me a theme or something.... blah
idk what to do.

In other news, I love Pros, who's having a gloomy day, Fluffy died :[
Go leave Pros some happiness and sunshine and stuff
-->> <<--

Ugg
So last night I didn't fall asleep until..... after 10 am?
And then tonight I passed out for a few hours and woke up at like 1:30am
And now I have a raging headache, it's nearly 5am
I'm not tired at all
And I need to be awake, showered and ready to go out with Katie at noon

Fuuuuuuuuuuuckkkkkk

I also miss Pros a fuckton
I feel all moody and shit, seriously depressed over it
I hate this
I want it to be July already

1 to 5 = Furry wannabe.
6 to 10 = Furry newbie.
11 to 15 = Furry.
16 to 20 = Hardened Furry.
21 to 25 = Hardcore Furry.


1. (x) Have you ever howled at the moon?
2. ( ) Have you ever barked at someone?
3. (x) Have you ever found yourself drawing or scribbling furry art when you're supposed to be doing something else?
4. (x) Have you ever worn an animal costume or tail as a child and pretended to be an animal?
5. ( ) Have you ever eaten out of a dog bowl?
6. ( ) Have you been to at least one furry con?
7. (x) Do you like to look at furry porn all the time?
8. ( ) Do you RP or play second life as a furry character?
9. ( ) Do you own a fursuit or at least a tail?
10. (x) Do you know what all these words mean or have used them at least once? Yiff, murr purr, etc [the words were missing in this one, so I guessed what they were]
11. ( ) Do you have at least 5 videos of you acting or doing something furry on youtube?
12. (x) Has your anthropersona/character been drawn in a furry porn type manner?
13. (X) Are you well known in the furry fandom? [um, sort of?]
14. ( ) Do you dream furry while you sleep?
15. (x) Would you transform into your character/fursona if you were given the chance to live like that for the rest of your life?
16. (x) Have you ever worn a collar?
17. ( ) Do you own more than 20 art badges of your fursonas or characters?
18. ( ) Have you been to more than 20 furry cons in your lifetime?
19. ( ) Do you think that deep down you have the spirit of an animal within you?
20. (x) Do you enjoy hanging out with other furries? ( very few )
21. ( ) Do you think we should have a furry run for president of the USA? (fuck that shit. lol)
22. ( ) If you ever became rich would you own a room in your house that was just to display your fursuits or furry art?
23. (x) Is your best friend furry? [sorta?]
24. (x) Do your furry friends call you by your furry name in public? [my furry name IS my name >_>]
25. ( ) Have you been in the furry fandom for at least 5 years?

I got 12

Just a few, random things to get the 10k kiriban journal out of the way

I keep getting New Watchers! .... But I check my Watcher's section of the profile and it's still at 481, I've gotten like 4, 5 watchers at least this week, and it hasn't put me past 481 ;-; which means a very convenient number of people keep unwatching me at the same time people +Watch me? I'm not put off as much as confused how it's staying the same number. o.o

Ummmm. I'm open for commissions, I kind of really need them. I do them pretty cheap & quick, note/comment me if you're interested, or spread the word to someone you know.

Ugg, I hate how stupid my "friends" can be sometimes. Bitch flirts with you, leads you on, lies to you as she's flirting with YOUR OTHER friend, tries to tear apart your best friends' relationships, completely disrespects you.... and 2 months later you forgive her? wtf. This is one of my friends right now, and I really want to punch him in the face.


BAH.

meanwhile....

It's coming soon!
Be the first to send me a screencap of it and get free art?
Woo.


Also, click this

I'm bored as fuck
And I may just repost my answers to people who reply to it here


01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any tattoos and/or piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a pessimistic or optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What eye color do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
26) What's your favorite place to hang out?
27) Do you believe in ghosts?
28) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
29) Do you swear a lot?
30) Biggest pet peeve?
31) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
32) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
33) Favorite and least favorite food?
34) Do you believe in God?
35) QUICK, PICK A DANCE STYLE.

Time to go back to the old routine
Sitting on my ass
Drawing
Horrible sleep
Rinse and repeat

Pros and Jary left earlier, thank you to those of you that helped out with that.

I sat in my room in tears with a bowl of cereal.
Leaving each other behind is getting tougher.
I hate this distance, but hopefully within the next year we'll be able to get a place?
Don't know.
I'm just really moody and upset right now.
This doesn't help the situation:

Need to bring it to my cousin's attention that she owes me a new Nintendo DS lite. I let her borrow it for a few months and when I got it back, she informs me that I need to buy a new battery for it. Well I did, and guess what? It still doesn't work. I'm seriously pissed. She never even offered to pay for a new battery [fucking 5$]. She always does this shit to me. 'Oh I'll get you a digital camera for x-mas since I know you need one.' Never got that either. Fuck this shit. I'm not being nice to her anymore.

I also can't get Second Life to work anymore. I start it up and it instantly crashes. Lovely.

I'm going to Pennsylvania tomorrow for a night, with Katie. We're going to do a photoshoot/mini vacation since she's been working so hard lately. I won't have internet there.

I'm about to start working on all the squishies people ordered, so those will be up within the next few days.

Yup. Rant. Blah.
I'm so fucking lonely right now.

brought me home, and due to a miscalculation may not have enough money to get back home.

We kind of only have one day.

I'm offering commissions cheap and quick, so we can make sure the money isn't an issue.

So here's the list of styles/types & prices for right now.
[the titles are also links to examples]

SIMPLE FLAT COLOR ... [fullbody] 10$ [bust/headshot] 6$ For each addition character add +3$

KISSY ICONS ... [single]4$ [matching set] 6$

PAPER DOLL ... 7$

SUPER CARTOONY ... 4$

SQUISHIE ... 2$

BLACK & WHITE ... 7$

COMPLEX COLOR ... [fullbody]15$ [bust/headshot] 10$

Donations are also super appreciated!
Please contact me, or mention this to others who can help?


<3<3

Ten things I wish I could say to people:

1. I love you, and I'm glad I've said it.
2. I wish you'd just go away and stop leaving me comments, I don't want to be your friend anymore.
3. I'm really glad you turned out a fat, single idiot since you talked shit about me in high school.
4. I want to punch you in the face, but it looks like someone already has, and you've eaten them.
5. You let me down ALL THE TIME. I'm not going to fucking draw your tattoo for our grandfather because of it. But I'm not going to tell you that. Suffer.
6. I wish I didn't still feel awkward around you when we hang out, we've technically known each other for years now and I know you won't judge me.
7. I really wish you could have apologized to me sober. Or at least remembered doing it. You gave me nightmares.
8. I really wish you weren't dead.
9. I hate you. You chose a stranger's life over mine. You were nearly the reason for me committing suicide. Luckily someone else stood up. You never fucking believe me and I suffer because of it.
10. I wish you didn't abuse me like you do. It's all mental too. You've yelled at me so much, told me I'm in the wrong so much, I feel useless and stupid around you. Your angry tendencies have rubbed off on me and now I get angry and violent too. If someone yells at me, I'm put on the verge of tears because of you. You saved my life once, but any respect I owed you then because of it is gone now. Thanks for fucking up my life too.

Nine things about myself:

1. I have GID
2. I'm immune to poison ivy and jelly fish
3. I could have gone into a biology-based career but I was too lazy and put off by my teachers.
4. I hate humanity.
5. I draw my art with a mouse, and yes it makes me feel accomplished/special.
6. I used to drink and smoke but I don't anymore.
7. I have pectus excavatum.
8. I read lips most of the time because I'm incapable of understanding spoken words often.
9. I have little heat-sensitivity in my right hand because my freshmen year of high school I melted all the skin off my fingers.

Eight ways to win my heart:

1. You have yo be Proserpine
2. Honestly
3. Openness
4. Trust
5. Cuddles
6. Strength
7. Let me protect/coddle you some of the time too
8. Connection



Seven things that cross my mind a lot:

1. Proserpine
2. Food
3. Sex
4. Pain
5. Organs
6. Anger
7. Art

Six things I do before I fall asleep:

1. Internet/art until I'm about to pass out
2. Tell whoever is still awake/talking to me, bye
3. Turn out the lights
4. Turn on a movie/show/music
5. Toss and turn, think too much about everything
6. Pass out from exhaustion

Five places I want to visit:

1. Germany
2. California
3. Pros's place :P
4. England
5. Alaska


Four things I'm wearing right now:

1. Pros's old Megaman shirt
2. Jeans
3. Socks
4. Plaid underwear

Three musical artists that I listen to often:

1. Muse
2. Regina Spektor
3. Combichrist

Two things I want to do before I die:

1. Get famous for something
2. Kill someone

One confession:

1. As open as I seem with strangers, I never actually tell them anything I could end up regretting.

Pros is taking me home today after work.
Jary might come with us.
Six hour drive.
Supposed to go to a local show in my town Saturday.
I really don't want to go back.
=/