Hey folks!

That was a majorly long pause wasn't it? ^__^;; Sorry I havn't been around much. School work piled up for a bit there and my internet went south so I had to take care of somethings before I could come back.

Right now I'm working on a commission for  scorp which should be down just in time for Halloween (thats when I get my internet back for good ^__^;; ).

I'm also in a short fiction contest at school right now...I think my chances are pretty good.

And to top it all off...I have mice. No, seriously, one just ran past the door. *sigh* this happens every winter! They come in from the field behind my house and turn my house on its ears! Time for traps! ^__^

Also, this friday me and Jojo are going to the pumpkin patch with his day care! Its his first real field trip. ^__^ I'll take a good picture and post it !

Nothing really else to report , just checking in, clearing my submissions page (before it caps 500 O_o ), and saying hi guys! I'll be able to check in (just not post) for the next week (well, I could post if I got my sister to give me back my flashdrive!) so I'll drop back in and out for the next week. Send me a message if you have a question, a request, a commission, or just wanna chat ^__^

See ya later Cats and Kittens!
LM

Do you think its worth it to post each of the different pic from the gender meme?

( by the way, if you're out there thinking "God, LM why don't you make these choices for yourself?" I generally ask questions like these because on a constant day to day basis I have to make decisions that normally effect every person I know all the time!...As a result sometimes my artistic brain is just to damn fried to decide on things like this. Sad ain't it?)

Also, do you think its worth it to continue making pics of all the different genders? It was fun! Should I do more?

I promise the next journal will be commission prices (I know I said I'd have it up Friday...er...I lied U_U;; )

QUICK!! What color sailor fuku would Love Mode wear?

So...um...yeah....I kinda...blew up my stove today.

....Everything is...fine, I guess...stove went back together easy enough...Just a little reminder to everyone out there that bug spray is serious shit and...and its flammable.

Very...very...flammable.

U_U;;

Hey folks!

A lot of stuff has happened over this weekend and I've got some annoucments to make! ^__^

First of all, a few of you know about the troubles I've been having with my classes. The work is fine its the profs who are being jerky. Well, since fixing my van has washed me out of excess moolah I'm going to drop my two evening classes and look for a part time job.

This won't affect my grades, my finanical aid, or their opinon of me. You gotta do what you gotta do.

Second, I'm going to be setting up a paypal account next weekend for recieving commissions. As a way of advertising the fact to others (who aren't on my watch list) I'm going to be doing 5 specific pictures. The first one is Ellie's (  mysticsphinx ) halloween costume pic. I just want to get it colored and offical like. ^__^

The other four are going to pop up in a series of twos. Two fully furry pics (I've not done those in a while) and two really porny pics. Its my way of letting folks know that I can do a variety of characters. There will also be some femmes in there.

Oh, and I'm going to re-organize my gallery. Put sketches away and such.

By next weekend I'll have commissions open! If you would like to go ahead and send me a note about what you'd like so we can hash out the details my mail box is always open.

Commission prices will be posted by this weekend. If you note me before that I'll give you a special deal for being the first! ^___^

Thanks everyone!

I am...fairly certain...that the mole pic for that girl in my school was all for nothing.

I won't know for sure until Monday though but there is a good chance I will have to miss that day of classes anyway.

...Shouldn't there be a rule about students with dependents (a.k.a KIDS!) or over a certain age should be given a little leeway from tardiness or absents?

I mean, I'm not staying home because I got wasted or just feel like taking a "ME" day....Its always something. Bro got bronchatus. The dryer busted and stunk up the house. The water was getting turned off or like Wensday when my van crapped out on me.

I get a call from the daycare during class (my phone is on vibrate in my pocket) and I HAVE to take it. No ifs ands or buts about it! And yet these snarky little pre-teen professorettes (normally the older profs have more understanding and know what I'm going thru first hand) have to make SOME cute little comment or bust my ass because I have to leave or at least answer the damn call!

I don't have a f-ing choice in the matter!!! What doesn't she target those snot nosed pinheads drawing stick figures and texting each other in the back of class? !

Keep going? Of course I'm going to keep going. But, this semester is kinda down the tubes so far. And if the first month screws you over you generally don't bounce back into to do much saving. Not every teacher will let you make up the work or wash their car for points.

I've got maybe two teachers who like me and think my work is worth it who will give me extra stuff to make up. Then theres the math professor who will let me make it up but he wants me to take tutoring (curse you fractions.....yes...I can't do fractions!...What of it?). And then theirs my drawing teacher.

Literally every teacher and student in the art department warned me about her. They all said "Dude, she's a bitch. I'm just saying that. She. Is. A. Bitch." And, like the moron that I am, I just thought they were exaggerating or getting off on the wrong foot with her.

I mean she young. Fresh twenties kind of young. How bad could she be?

Why don't I ever notice my own famous last words?

I do good work in her class. I take every project seriously, work as hard as I can, make time for drawing shoes and boxes with curtains on them. And yet she informed me that i was BARELY PASSING!!! School started on Aug 27th! How can I only be "barely passing?"

Her next little statement to me was about missing too many days and she won't take late projects and if I'm not there I can't make up the studio time AND now she's asking me about my son ALL THE TIME.

And not "oh how is your boy?" its more like "So, your son lives with you? All the time? Really?"

What. Is. Her. Fucking. Deal???


*lets out long sigh* ....Sorry kids....Just had to deflate.

Feel free to ignore this post. ^__^;;

Was doodling a rattle snake man in the student lounge at my school (waiting for class) when I met a really nice girlie! She watched me draw and said she used to draw too.

One thing led to another and we got along great when suddenly she asked if I'd do a commission for her! Now, most of you (or some of you) know I'm terrified of taking commissions. I personally think that my art isn't ready and still too much of a WIP. But she was eager so I said yes.

I'm done with the sketch and the ink and already have the flat colors done plus a fair idea of what I want to do for the background.

O_o have I lost my mind???? Holy sheez-nit Batman what am I thinking? @_@

So far everything she's said has been favorable and I've adjusted the pic like she wanted. Its just been so long since I drew a girl. Even though the pic she wants (a fursona mole girl) is the type I used to draw all the time. Have I been pigeon holing myself? Again? I need a pill for this!

*lets out breath* Oh..ok...I feel better getting that out. ^__^;; Just the random ramblings of your neighborhood Love Mode. You may now go about your business citizens...I on th other hand am going to sing along to the Psych theme song and let Shawn, Gus, and Lassiter sooth my soul. =^__^=

Quick question...

I've got in mind five characters (why do I always make them in groups of five? I'm a prime number bitch ^__^;; ) and five names to go with each character. But I haven't yet decided what to make them.

I'm going to call them; Ryphil, Kolt, Darenger, Gatlen, and Thommy.

....No those are not misspellings. Anyway, I can't pick an animal to use for them. I already have tons of puppy-dogs, mice men, flirty birds, and bugs and fish are no strangers to my sketch books either.

So any ideas what animal/humanoid would work?

Hey folks!

School is starting up and the summer is quickly (or in the case of the South "slowly") ebbing away.

I've had an eventful summer to say the least. I've finalized my divorce, helped almost every member of my family move in one way or another, and I was incarcerated with the general populace for almost two days.

...I guess that last one calls for a little background story huh?

Don't worry good friends. I've not joined a gang, been plunger raped, or become addicted to some needlessly expensive drug. Little reminder though for all you out there that "failure to appear" warrants are serious bitches. ^__^;;

This was a few weeks back and everything is taken care of now. And I gotta say I met some interesting and very nice ladies while I was in the clink. It was actually kind of a gift for them that I was there ( no I am NOT bragging) since most of them didn't have pictures of themselves with their loved ones and grandkids I drew pictures the whole time I was there.

It didn't hurt that along with family portraits I drew them and some of the men there porn so it evened out really. I was pretty popular there for the short time I was trying not to drop the soap.

The whole affair played murder on my family though.

Anyway has anyone else seen "Being Human" on BBC? Its frikken' awesome! A vampire (who's on the wagon), a werewolf (who is an adorable dork), and a ghost (who is very cute) are trying to live their lives as good normal brits. Priceless!

Its funny but its not really a comedy. It is very smexy.

Well, I've about half an hour til its time to pick up Jojo from daycare (he's such a little lady killer ^__^ ) and I've got some towels to fold before I amble off.

On my finale note its great to be free and I'm really happy to see all the great art you guys have been doing over the summer. I can't wait to see more! ^__^

Just thought I"d share with you all...

my son is, right this moment, decking me out with play-doh jewelry and telling me I'm stylish.

I officially have the cutest kid on the planet!!! =^__^=

Put an 'x' in the ones you do then add it up and that's your age!
Put a 'v' if you think it's half correct!

[ x] I know how to make a pot of coffee. *don't drink coffee*
[ x] I do my own laundry.
[x ] I can cook for myself.
[ x] I actually enjoy intellectual conversations.
[ ] I think politics are exciting.
[x ] My parents and grandparents have better things to say than my friends.

Total: 5

[ x] I show up for school and or work every day unless I'm sick.
[x] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse.
[ ] I've never gotten a detention.
[ ] I've watched talk shows to point out the credibility of it all.
[x] I know what credibility means without looking it up.
[x] I drink coffee at least once a week.

Total: 4

[x] I know how to run the dish washer and or do the dishes.
[ x] I can count to 10 in Spanish.
[x] When I say I'm going to do something I do it. (if I remember)
[x] My parents trust me.
[x ] I can mow the lawn.
[x] I can make adults laugh without being stupid.
[x ] I remember to water my plants.
[x] I study when I have to.
[ x] I pay attention at school.
[x] I remember to feed my pets.
Total: 10 (just three sections and I'm already 19)

[x ] I can spell experience without looking it up.
[x] I clean up my own mess.
[ ] The first thing I do when I wake up is get Diet Coke.
[x] I can go to the store without getting something I don't need.
[ x] I understand jokes the first time they are said.
[ ] I can type fast.
Total: 4

[x ] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour
[x ] I can look at someone hot without thinking of sex (but I do think of drawing them naked...purely for artist purposes of course.)
[x ] I realize that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[x ] I can read a book and actually finish it. (many many times over)
Total: 4

27...I'm actually 25. This meme was brought to you by the letters  alwaysjilted and the number 13 which was Jilted's mental age. ^__^

I should do a "gosh, sooo sorry about all those pics at once!" journal...but...*explodes with geeky goodness* I just CAN'T get my mind off Ninja Turtles!!!

I'm obsessed!!! I found a channel on youtube that has three muther f-ing seasons and I haven't stopped watching for four days!!! I just keep watching and watching and REWATCHING!!!!

I got on this really hard 80's cartoon kick when my sis's baby's daddy (thats his name) let me borrow his Silverhawks dvds and now I can't stop myself! I've even got some Silverhawk and TMNT Fastfoward yaoi fanart I'm gonna post!

...In fact...I"LL DO IT RIGHT NOW!!! *dances off in a happy little fangirl craze!* ^____^

...uh....anybody else noticing their watches being removed?

I don't really keep up with the folks I'm watching but I was checking a friends page and it had them marked as "not watched" when I know I've had them on watch for,well , since I've been posting. O_o

Its just freaky. Anyway...if anyone else is having the same prob let me know...maybe a glitch or just on my end but I really don't know.

I hardly ever do this memes but I thought I'd give it a shot today. I stole this one from Yuki-chan ^__^




Name: S.J.W.
Nickname: Honestly never really had one...does "Hey You!" count?
Fursona: Love Mode (neko-jin)
Date of Birth: Feb 18th....the year is none of your business ^_~
Birthplace: Florence...*mumbles* Alabama...
Current Location: Alexandria...*coughs* Alabama
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Brown (exciting neh?)
Height: 5'7...or 5'6...I think I shrunk.
Heritage: *chuckles* God I wish my dad were alive to answer this question...well just stick with "Human"
Piercings: One in each ear (and no more thank you.)
Tattoos: No but I would like to get the Batman/Superman crossover symbol as a tramp stamp...let them know I'm a geek front and back ^_~


Favourite:

Animal: Don't have one. I love all furry/fuzzy/scaley creatures the same!
Band/Singer: Nat King Cole, Frank Sinatra, Dean Martin, Sammy Davis Jr...notice a trend here?
Song: "I want a little girl" "Something Happens to me" "Something Stupid" "You Belong To me"
Movie: Princess Bride. I'd love to say a newer movie like Iron Man or the new Star Trek (LOVE THEM) but this one still makes me smile.
Disney Movie: Cinderella and Meet the Robensons (wait is that a disney movie?)
Disney Show: Handy Manny
Disney Character: Tarzan, Beast, Malificent,and Ron Stopable also all the Weekenders!
TV show: House!....*coughs* and Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles....what?
Food: Anything that only requires one hand.
Pizza topping: Pepperoni
Ice-Cream Flavor: Neopolitan
Pocky Flavor: Strawberry!
Drink (alcoholic): white russian
Cookie: peanut butter
Store: LOL...Wal-mart...we poor down here baby.
Clothing Brand: ...to answer this one you should probably have a clothing brand that you're loyal to...I do not.
Season: Fall
Month: November
Convention/Holiday/Festival: 4th of July (you'll die of over-heat or over-eat...your call)
Flower: Sweet Shrub (the flowers are dark maroon and tiny but the smell is heaven)
Board game: Go and All the king's Men (I've never lost)


This or That:

Sunny or rainy: Sunny with cloud cover
Chocolate or vanilla: Both
Fruit or veggie: Fruits
Night or day: Dusk
Sour or sweet: Sour
Love or money: Love...unfortunately.
Phone or in person: in person (I kinda hate phones when i know I could Just see the person)
Looks or personality: Personality...but a pretty face or some giant tits wouldn't hurt.
Coffee or tea: Iced tea with peach please.
Hot or cold: Hot (because its always fucking hot here)

Your:

Goal for this year: to be the child my mother has to worry about least.
Most missed memory: I miss...swimming at Papa's lake and I'll never have it again.
Best physical feature: ...*looks all over*....um....my...butt gets compliments...
First thought waking up: "OH NO NOT AGAIN!!!" or I have to get a shower
Hypothetical personality disorder: Bipolar
Preferred type of surgery: None. I'd like to be just perfect.
Sesame street alter ego: Mr. Snufflupigus
Fairytale alter ego: Cinderella....except I'd be the CinderBitch.
Most stupid remark: "There is no way this will blow up and I don't need the directions!" (honest quote word for word)
Worst crime: ...like ever? Or just me?...um I guess driving without a license
Greatest ambition: To be the best mommy who published her own homo-erotic manga!
Greatest fear: To fail my son.
Darkest secret: I had a miscarriage and held that secret from my family for four years.
Favorite subject: Art/writing
Strangest received gift: A friend bought me a vibrator...that was sorta weird.
Worst habit: Procrastination.

Do You:

Smoke: Nope
Drink: Rarely
Curse: Daily
Shower daily: Always (unless I'm sick)
Like thunderstorms: Of course
Dance in the rain: A few times
Sing: Whenever I'm sure no else can hear.
Play an instrument: not really
Wish on stars: Constantly
Believe in fate: Indeed
Believe in love at first sight: Could happen


Can You:

Drive: Everywhere
Sew: Anything
Cook: Everyday
Speak another language: Hell no
Dance: Only when I'm alone
Touch your nose with your tongue: Not yet but I'm hopeful
Whistle: Louder then anyone!
Curl your tongue: Yup ^_~

Have You Ever:

Been Drunk: Once I think
Been Stoned/High: No
Eaten Sushi: Sorry No
Been in Love: Yes...and then tossed out of it.
Skipped school: Those were "well-days"
Made prank calls: Never successfully
Sent someone a love letter: Sure have
Stolen something: No
Cried yourself to sleep: More then I'd like

Other Questions:

What annoys you most in a person? Someone who doesn't listen to both sides
Are you right or left handed? Right
When is your bedtime? ...when I damn well please.
What is the color of your room? White with posters and paintings
Do you have any siblings? 2 by blood and 3 by marriage
Do you have any pets? Not anymore
Would you kill someone you hate for a million dollars? No, positively not.
What is your middle name? Used to be Jean
Are you for or against gay marriage? For it all the way
What are your thoughts on abortion? Too long.
Do you have a crush on anyone? No, almost wish I did.
Are you afraid of the dark? No but I acknowledge its psychological power
How do you want to die? at the end of a long happy life.
What is the largest amount of popsicles that you have eaten on one day? three.
Would you take a bullet for the one you love? Forever and always
What is the last law you’ve broken? Jay-walking

In a Boy/Girl
Favorite Eye Color: Any is fine
Favorite Hair Color: I'd avoid blonds
Height: Boys slightly taller, girls shorter
Weight: yes I would like for them to have a mass density
Best Clothing Style: *grins* None...well...maybe some long boots and a blindfold.

Just a heads up I've got a back stock of Ranma 1/2 fanart that I'm doing for y gallery so I'm gonna be posting it here.

....you have been warned! ^__^ ;;

Been going thru some old sketch pads and discovered a wealth of anicent/bad art from high school. Still some of it is at least passable and there are a few furries and fanarts that I'm going to post just for shits and giggles.

While viewing these pics just remember...I am MUCH better now!

And don't hate! ^_~

Evening bubbies.

I'm tired and worn to the bone but I've been granted a sort of break for the up coming holidays so I decided I'd drop by.

I see lots of folks on my watch list have been uber busy. Kira and Elle are posting almost as much as Cat used to! ^__~

Myself I'm still down in the dumps. But appearantly I can still be productive even in depression (hehe..just call me Van Gogh...no I still have both my ears...I'm a pill popper not a cutter!).

Anyway, last night was the first night of what my mother is calling my "intensive care" (sorry if that title scared anyone...I'm fine physically). She has my son for the next few days leaving me to my own devices.

And whats my device of choice? Why art of course! Or to be more specific coloring old pics. I'm just gonna dump these in my gallery and if I feel the need to purge my soul again I'll post somemore tomorrow.

Thanks for listening folks!

...I got a call. My three year old had woken up a couple hours before and was curled up like a kitten beside me in my bed. When the phone rang I went from peaceful half-slumber to utterly awake in the blink of an eye.

A phone call that early could only be one thing.

William P. Mims had passed on.

My grandfather was an awsome man. I loved him. I adored him. I have this bad/good habit of idolizing the men in my family. For ill or fortune I have always felt a since of pride and respect for all of them.

In my father an unstable saint. In my brother a tortured genius. In my grandfather a man of solid true wisedom and caring.

With Papa gone now only my brother is left.

Anyway, once again I've gone around the long way to tell you guys that I'm gonna do another sweep to my inbox. If theres a pic you wanted me to comment on or a journal let me know in a note or something. Otherwise I'm basically going offline until the new year. I may do a christmas pic but I'm not sure yet.

See you guys in 09...here's hoping it sucks just a little bit less then this son of a bitch 08! *downs a glass of wine to mix with her pills* Merry christmas all!

LM

I went to the doctor two days ago.

An infection. Some pills for pain. Blood pressure still too high.

I told her I was having rage issues. Its true and I didn't want to hurt anyone or become like my father.

She sent me to a Social Worker/Shrink. I talked for three hours answering her questions and ended up tear and sobbing by the end of it.

There was one answer I gave that I want to share. I want to share it because I had no idea until I said it how much it fucking bothered me or how much it ment to me.

My family is great. I can tell them anything. I never told them this. I thought it didn't matter. It was nothing. I convinced myself it was nothing.

We all know on here by now that I'm a woman. The Love Mode thing is a fursona/persona/alter ego...what have you. Playing the part helps me reaffirm myself, rediscover desires, it even boast my confidence which is staggeringly low anyway.

It was five years ago. I had just met the man I would later marry and later still come to truely hate. Two weeks before Christmas I get a cold and my period. Now I'd not had my period for about a month and since I used to work with mostly other women at my old job we were all pretty much insinc (damn that band, now I can't spell that word correctly).

I was late. My boyfriend (actually he never was really like a boyfriend...more like a task master without the kinky benefits) joked around alot saying I was probably pregnant.

I told him he was nuts. The night before I go to the doctor there is alot of blood. More then usual. And its dark and globy (yeah I know gross). My stomach and my back hurt like hell.

So the next day I go to the free clinic. Its a doc-in-a-box near my apartment and they take all the basic taste. They even drew a little blood though now I don't remember why just that it happened.

When the Doc finally shows up he asks me if I'd been having unprotected sex. My first time was under force. Jason thought I was just lying about being a virgin and wanting to wait. Afterwards I was furious and determined to break it off with him for good.

But Jason, for that he is crazy, is a very clever man. He got me to apologize to him. Make him his favorite meal and then do it again. Son of a bitch.

I didn't tell the Doc all that. But Jason's method of birth control was fool prove in his eyes. To Jason pulling out was as good as anything and cheap too. What could go wrong?

So I told the Doc we weren't using a condom.

The Doctor told me I had a cold.

And that I'd had a mis-carrage.

He wrote me a script for some antibiotics for the cold. And gave me a phone number in case I needed to talk to a councilor.

I told him I probably wouldn't need to. It wasn't like I'd actually lost a baby right? It was just a globe of goo right? I didn't look anything like a baby when it got flushed away right?

Right?

Two weeks until christmas I didn't want to bother my family with something silly. And I couldn't tell Jason. He'd had girlfriends before that had mis-carried and he told me he felt responsible. At the time I couldn't hurt him like that.

I couldn't hurt anyone with the news. And why should I? It was a fluke. Too much stress. Not important enough to even mention for five whole years.


It was nothing. Right?

The Shrink asked me to name off all the tramatic things that had ever happened to me. And I first thought about my father's sudden death. My parents fights when I was young. The times my brother and father wrecked the house beating each other. The night Jason waited unitl I was asleep before he took from me.

The day my husband, the one I called my lover and best friend, tried to choke the life from me infront of our child no less.

Car accidents, death, fights, stress, drama, suddenly there was too much to choose from. But almost without me realizing it I started talking about the mis-carrage.

And I realized that maybe before that things weren't great but after that nothing ever felt right anymore.

That was when suicidle thoughts started. Not even really suicide just not being anymore. Bottled up pain for five years started spilling out.

They gave me some pills, some help lines, an appointment for group theropy and told me I wasn't awful.

How dare they. How fucking dare they tell me that I'm not awful when I let my baby die? If I had stronger, healther, if I had ditched that man after the first shot how would I be different? How would my life be different?

I have my son now. He's beautiful, wonderful, and so much of my life but I wonder now that I let myself think about that night. That night with blood and something darker that came from deep within my body. I wonder how things would've been.



This journal is long. I hate it for you but lets face not many folks read my journal anyway.

Its getting to that time of year where no matter how down I am I always find a reason to smile! So just a count of heads here...


...Who would like a christmas card this year? I'll be sending them out along with something special. ^__^

Send me a note with the address/PO box number/magic wardrobe you'd like me to send it to.

^___^

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....I might be having a bad day.

Oh I hadn't been tagged in so long I thought what the hell! Here ya go a tag survey from  RoxasArcana my dear Yuki!


=Rules=

○ Choose a singer/band/group.
○ Answer using ONLY titles of songs by that singer/band/group.
○ Tag 5 more people (let them know they've been tagged). NO TAGBACKS.

Mika

Are you male or female?
---> Grace Kelly

Describe yourself!
---> Stuck in the Middle

What do people feel when they're around you?
---> Love Today

Describe your current relationship.
---> Erase

Where would you like to be now?
---> Any Other World

How do you feel about love?
---> Lollipop (Love's gonna get ya down)

What's your life like?
---> Billy Brown (oh Billy Brown had lived an ordinary life...)

What would you ask for if you only had one wish?
---> Happy Ending

Say something wise.
---> Relax, Take it Easy!


I can't believe I made it thru that whole thing without using "Big Girl You Are Beautiful". ^__^

Not gonna tag anyone so just read and enjoy.

*sits up in bed and stretchs arms up*

Aaaah....oh...hello there my lovelies.

*pops back* Mmmm...I've been...a tad out of sorts lately. Got very ill for about a week and kinda over stressed.

*pulls covers over shoulders* Bottom line is now I'm taking pills for blood pressure (I swear to God I'm not THAT old) and I've been ordered (by both the doctor and my family) to take it easy for awhile.

*smiles* Now, its not like I'm on vacation or anything. I did quit one of my jobs (toy store...*sniff sniff* no more toys at 30% off!). For right now I'm going to try to relax with just the one job (still get free cookies!!) and with keeping my house clean and cooking for my family (honestly its very soothing). Plus I'll be getting more time with my son which...okay, in all honesty he may rise my blood pressure occasionally...but he's also one of the best comforts and wonders of my life...so, he helps too!

What does this mean for my art?

Well...I've not been "avoiding" my work....just sorta letting it come it me as it wants to. I'm trying to meet any more deadlines (not that I was ANY fucking good at meeting them before ^_^;; ). Still, new more wonderful things are soon to come as well as the return of some familer favorites.

Alrighty...well, I'm off to va-coom my living room! (honestly is it so wrong to admire Kasumi Tendou this much?) See you folks soon now that I have the internet back!

LM ^__~

I am working every kid's dream.

I spend the first six hours of my day baking cakes and cookies (none of which I like to eat anymore). After decorating cakes (Its a butch job...no really...pink icing makes me feel tough!) I go to my second job to work six more hours at the toy store.

They're both in the mall so I literally spend every waking hour of my day inside a giant shopping center.

As I was complaining (which I so rarely do) about my feet hurting, the fact that I'm working 12 hour days six days a week, low pay, never seeing my son except at night, etc etc....a child and his teenage companion pointed out he obvious to me.

I work at a cookie store half the day and a toy store the other half and they are both inside a mall.

The kid just looked at me eyes shining with amazement and squeeled that I had the best life ever.

^__^ Okay, so maybe he had a point.

Both my jobs are pretty kick ass from the child's point of view. And from the teen's side of it I spend most my days in a mall so thats pretty cool. Now if only I could have my son with me too I'd be in paradise. We could decorate cakes with blue and green icing (his fav colors) and then go play in the bounce house inside KB. The movie theater is right across from the toy shop so we could catch a midnight movie!

Yup if only child labor laws would lower their bar to age three and I could get him to focus on anything for more then two minutes we'd be a great pair of workers!


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Okay so that first part was kinda random. I'm just really dropping a line to let you guys know I started my second job and things are kinda backed.

Still here are my updates;

Next page of EWAF for  AdamZero will be posted hopefully by the end of the next week.

Referance sheet for  Sajber in color coming middle of next week.

Steamy pic of  SobekStar characters is inked and will be posted some time tomorrow.

Gift arts in the works for the following folks...

 RoxasArcana ,  MysticSphinx , and  VaugnApocalypse and another for  Catenatus because it just sorta came to me.

Also some new pics of Love Mode and some of my characters I haven't drawn in awhile.

If you would like a pic done for you (Carrie I PROMISE I'm going to do those storyboards for you!!) then leave me a message on here. If the idea is interesting I'll give it a whirl!

^__^ LM

Winners of the 2k pic are.....  Sajber and  SobekStar !!! Mostly because of a glitch on FA but still having two winners is not uncommon.

Okay so they each get a special pic drawn with my meager talent.  Sajber has requested a ref pic (two actually) for his fursona a clean version and a dirty version (COCK!!).  SobekStar can tell me what he wants anytime.

In addition I'm working on a 2k pic that I've been wanting to do for awhile and between work, lack of sleep, and my son it should be done by my 3k mark. ^__^ Life sucks!

Also as promised I've been devoting every spare minute (there aren't many) to the Fox Project and will have two pages up within the next three days.

Thats all...Thank you all for helping me reach 2k hope you've enjoyed my gallery and wacky comments so far and will look forward to more in the days to come.

Thank you and love you!

LM