For those of you who may not have heard...

Jake, reuskay and I were out to do food shopping and run several errands this past friday. We were on the highway and hit several scattered flash thunder showers. We were driving the speed limit (65mph) and Reu, who was driving, started to lose control of his chevy cavalier as it began to hydroplane...the car turned and we were facing on coming traffic, sliding backwards as he was pumping his breaks trying to regain some sort of traction and have the car safely stop. The car drifted from the passing lane to the slow lane and then we hit the guardrails along the side of the highway and the car flipped twice...glass shattering, metal crunching, roof and glass coming down towards us...the car eventually came to a stop.

The car is totalled.

All three of Us were able to get out of the car though and besides many cuts, scrapes, abrasions, some road rash and deep bruises...we're all ok.

it was the most frightening experience of My lifetime...not only to have to face it Myself...but to have the two people that are part of My home and family there with Me and for their lives to have been also put in the same frightening/potentially life threatening situation...I still shiver and get teary eyed thinking about it.

I have many things to be thankful and grateful for and I know it. Many have gotten in lesser accidents and have been hurt far more terminally or have even been killed.

Love one another dear friends and never take this life we have for granted....you never know when it may come to its end <3

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Ahh as 2011 winds down, I thought it time to sit down and reflect upon the past 12 months. Amazing how a year can completely change one's view.

After My separation from My former mate, I sank into the pits of despair. I knew in My soul that the paths chosen were for the best but what the soul knows, the heart often denies.
Last winter I tried very hard to drown My sorrows deeply having given so much of Myself and desperately trying to hold onto the pieces of My shattered heart.

It was a long winter.

I am grateful to My dear close friends who helped Me thru such a difficult time, that I likely would not have emerged from without their care and guidance.

With the spring came new hope, a charming, sweet, loving husky crossed My path and in rescuing him from his own traumas, he sparked the flames of a fire I had tried for months to keep doused and drowned...

The warmer months came upon Us and with all the blossoms of spring, came the fruition of summer and I declared My new emerging feelings and hopes for the future, to this dear soul, and to My utmost delight We decided to travel the path of life together as mates.

The fall came, with the rich bold colors of autumn and every day that We spent living together served to strengthen Our relationship and prove the beautiful caring spirit that lives with in him.

And now as winter once again descends upon Us I look more and more forward to the future paths We shall travel, paw in paw, beside one another, adding to one another's strengths and supporting each other in times of weakness. I delight in having this wonderful being to curl up with and share the warmth of Our bed and each other. Knowing that when We wake, it is one another, who's eyes We will look into and say good morning My Love...

Each time I sing the words to the song that We have taken on as Ours, I realize I could not say it any more perfectly...

You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer,
I fall in love all over
Every time I look at you
I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're My Best friend*

I am so very blessed and honored always to call you My Mate, My Best Friend...My Beloved Jake Husky. You healed the wounds I thought unmendable and have helped Me grow in all the best of ways.

I look so very forward to the new year and every day We spend & will spend together.



*-You're My Best friend, by Tim McGraw

As many of you, who know Leeuw and I, know that We had been fighting to keep our relationship alive despite the distance of an ocean and international borders.
US immigration laws are unbearably rough on those traveling that path. So many rejections, so many roadblocks, so many hoops and hurdles to jump thru....ever feeling the heartaches of being apart...having only a large plush to hold 11 out of 12 months of the year as one tries to sleep hoping and dreaming for changes in the system...heartbreak as you drive your mate to the airport knowing that you will not see them for another 11 months.

That all being said, Leeuw has lost his hope in our system and, with all that we have been thru, I cannot blame him, nor do I. We have seperated so that we can forge new paths, in our respective homelands towards the happiness and hopefully love that we all one day deserve. I would ask all of our old dear and mutual friends to please give him his space for growth and to stop asking him what occurred as now you all know.

Leeuw~ Thank you for two wonderful years and 3 magical vacations that will never be forgotten filled with wonderful memories that you and I shared. Thank you for your warmth, your love, your tenderness & always for your truth and true caring for Me. Not one day of our mateship had I ever felt unloved. You were and are a blessing in My life and I am still happy to call you My dear friend.

I wish you all the happiness in the world and hope that you find love from one that is worthy of such an amazing person as you. ♥