I will be moving to my new account:  voidshark

There is no art there yet but there will be, and I'll no longer be posting here.
So please go watch that account!

So got the MRI results back. It shows that I have the herniated cerebellur tonsil thing still (it's a thing in the back/bottom of the brain), 4 mm so I'll be going to a neurosurgeon some ways off to see what his thoughts on the matter are. It appears there some inflamation in the brain just below that. I've also got some disc degeneration which they said is a bit odd for my age, but not particularly dangerous. There's a narrowed region..thing in some part of the spinal fluid passageway which is problematic and additionally there is some...thing I forgot the name of that doesn't have enough spine fluid stuff. Soooo I'm supposed to get that stuff looked into. They think the inflamation may be the cause of my splotchy memory. They suspect I have a relatively high likelyhood of having Chiari I, but that will be for the neurosurgeon to decide, and additionally for him to decide if I should have the surgery or not.

BLFC, so long as the neurosurgeon appointment doesn't land on it, I'm going to -try- to make it there, since its only 2/3 hours away. My parents said they'd take me. So we'll see how that all plays out. If I do go I probably won't be doing much, haha. Maybe sitting around somewhere, drawing or something. I'm always happy to meet people though.

Badge commissions are basically permanently open, so if interested, just toss me an e-mail at sharkyfloof[at]gmail.com

As for the going away part--this part sucks. It basically sounds like my doctor things reading overstimulates my brain and may never be fully cured. He made it sound like eventually at some unnown point in the future I may be able to read-some- that's not good with me, nor has readng giving me troubles beyond headaches. So long story short I will be around only very limited. And for a time I may be away entirely. I'm basically going to see what he wants to do and try to do it some. But I am NOT leaving permanently. There's no real basis that reading is causing me any real trouble, so it's more or less just to appease the doctor for now. So my appearance will be splotchy. Right now I'm around(ish). So I'll probably post some stuff up and then post a journal indicating I'm not entirely around etc.I don't want to leave too long/entirely because I've worked really hard to get where I am and I feel like if I'm away too long it'll mess it all up. So there you have it. Current things going on.

tl;dr Won't be online for awhile. Will post a journal when I return. Doctors orders.


Hey everyone, I've got a message that I haaaaate to deliver. I have to be away for awhile, like entirely away. I won't be on to check messages, answer PMs, etc. I won't be on Skype or any other messenger either.

This is not by my own decision. It's doctors orders. They've been doing more work with figuring out what's wrong with me, and a lot of it is seeming to be brain related. Like there are parts of my brain that are not even functioning, and basically everything ever is overstimulating it right now and its spazzing out and unable to cope.

It's more in depth than that and a crazy amount of info, but long story short, I have been told I am not allowed to read anything more than like a Stop sign. I do not know for how long this will last. If I get a better idea I'll hop on to update this. He said I would be able to read again, he just didn't say when. I'm figuring anywhere from at least a few weeks to potentially multiple months. I don't know, it's a new treatment plan.

I'll post a journal when I return though and as I said try to keep everyone updated.

Okay so I'm livestreaming. It'll likely be the last for awhile, so if you want to drop in, come on in! I'll be finishing up a comic, maybe outlining some cats, and coloring some Cry expressions.

original.livestream.com/smileh…

Will delete this when its done

Finishing up some color work on a comic thingy. Probably shortish stream
http://original.livestream.com/smilehkitteh

First off, commissioners, I didn't cheat you out of your money, nor did I up and leave. I apologize for my silence but neurofeedback made me incredibly ill, and they added in another weekly session so I was feeling terrible all week long, plus 6 doctor appointments per week wears on a person, that aside there has been a lot of drama going on. Neurofeedback seems to be heading in the right direction now, but only time will tell. I do apologize for not mentioning it, but as I said, have been pretty darn sick. Still am sick for the record.

That said, I have some other announcements to mention too. I'm going to be ditching a lot of my works in progress (not commission related) because I realized I have such a back log that I'd be unable to support my current projects so there may be things I mentioned in previous journals that should be considered all cancelled at this point. I want to get back to the heart of my work here otherwise it'll never get done.

And to my commissioners, I'll get back in contact with you soon guys,

Sorry for the inactivity. I'm not dead, and I'm also not bored. Life has been craaazy. And then I got sick too. Twice. I have 3 doctors appointments tomorrow ._.
Had one yesterday too. Been feeling pretty bad...hopefully that improves. More art hopefully soon. Will upload the stuff I forgot to here as well.

Headshots and badges are still open as well. Prices should be on my front page, sorry for the delay.

I can't remember if I posted this or not, but I have a tumblr. Or well I have two actually.
So I'll post them here for anyone who uses said site. I'm not very good with said site, but I am trying to keep the tumblrs up to date.

http://qwuedeviv.tumblr.com/
http://smilehkitteh.tumblr.com/

Smooleh has Neurofeedback sessions now. Is $100 per week, I need at least 21 sessions they say, and could go up to 42. You do the the math, lol. I've got a regular job of course, and my generous patreon donators, but recently I had a bit of an influx of costs because I had to buy a couple programs in order to be able to continue art. So I'm still not feeling great, but I think I can manage Headshots/Badges. These will be started right away, so there won't be a huge wait.

https://docs.google.com/presentatio.....892f09e0b_0_24

Prices are listed there. If interested, send me a Note with what you want and such and I'll let you know if I can do it/which price bracket is falls under.
(Most usually fall under simple unless its a species I'm not familiar with or has insane markings/tattoos/wings)

I have no limit of slots at this point, but if too many inquires come in, I may need to. Please note! You will need to be able to get payment to me preferably at the time of inquiry (after you're given the price obviously) , but I may allow for up to one week, depending on the circumstances.

No holds for now unfortunately.

Sorry for activity being kind of low. I've been super busy lately ^-^' and also I was kind of taking a break and working more with my RP characters and other account stuff. So less was posted to the main. Should be updating what I have soon though, and also answering the messages I've yet to do so with.

I bet that title will anger people lololol. Anyway I don't mean I'm switching to Patreon, just I'm starting to upload the things I was supposed to have over there as rewards ^u^ sketches, full rez, etc (stuff that should've been up sept.-current >,>). So for those who are already signed up on my patreon, be on the lookout =D Unless you aren't interested in such lol, then don't worry about it.

I should be resuming the comic soon to, as a side note. I'm hoping to find a better way to upload some of the stuff soon too...but until then, please be patient with my hurrdurr attempts of getting everything organized.


https://www.patreon.com/ltsmiley?ty=h

Once I get that and my tumblr/weasyl caught up I shall resume art 8D.....around the bazillion doctor appointments and sick feels.

Officially! I am back. =) I've finished all my commissions so I am back once again, although I'm playing catch up across all the sites. s a sort of important little side note, I'm still quite sick. But it seeeeems like I've been a tad bit better the past few days...maybe. I really hope it stays that way, we'll see. I am at least starting to adjust to some of the meds I have to take so that's nice.

Anyway tis good to be back~

EDIT:
They also have an FB apparently:

https://www.facebook.com/smilehkitt.....ist?fref=photo



A couple people, or admins (not sure which) brought it to my attention that I have an impersonator over on a site called:
http://dnaxcattalk.dnaxcat.net/forum.php

Sooo in case anyone is there, it's not me. XD I very much do not speak that language hahahahaha. XDXD
Anyway they said they were gonna ban them, but twas just a heads up in case anyone was over on said site who had seen it or something.

Oh and I'm still on my little absence thingy while working on commissions.
That's all!

I am going into self induced solitary confinement. There's only one cure for it. The commissions being finished. Catch my drift? Whatever the heck that means. In simple terms, I'm not gonna reply to comments until I get my commissions done....or at least a lot done. But I'm aiming for until they're all done. I'm hoping hoping hoping, that I'll finish them by the end of the year. But we'll see.

So when I don't reply don't worry! I'm not deleting my messages, I'm just storing them until I'm done. 'Cause I'll be honest here. I'm not cut out to do commissions. I'm really not. A few every now and then yes, but not a regular basis. I have too much stuff I wanna be doing so very badly. I start getting really agitated. I've done over 58 commissions in 7 months. X3

Don't take that the wrong way though! I greatly appreciate all of you who commissioned me to help me with medical stuff and getting the new tablet. =) I'm just...really reallyreally REALLY REALLY REALLY worn out from doing commissions. ALAS. I'm not backing down. Rather I'm charging head on into it whenever my health allows.

Fun fact for those who didn't know, I've been staying up until like 9 am every morning working on commissions.

SO A RECAP HERE. SOLITARY CONFINEMENT. I'm not ignoring you. Well, I am, temporarily. But I'm not deleting any messages. So once the commissions are done I'll make a terrifying run through and comment on everything.

I'll update my patreon at that time, see what I owe who via said patreon too and try to make good on that, then I'll be tumbling head first into my own art projects again from then, the comic, the books etc. This year has kinda been a bummer for me. I didn't have any time to write a new book and it's been eating at me fiercely.

SO PLEASE. If you see anyone who is distraught over me not answering, please redirect them to this journal, or let them know. We'll see how good I am at holding to my word.

To everyone, I'm working as fast as I can, and I appreciate you all being patient. I'm having a really rough time with things. I had been doing a tad better, then I got sick with this insane super cold thing. Lost my voice for over a week, it's still partially gone, and all of a sudden my stomach is as bad as it ever was before they tried to give it anything to help at all.

I've been so sick the past couple days I haven't even felt well enough to type on my laptop laying in bed. So just a heads up, some days I'm faster at working, other days, it's not happening. So I'm still working at it.

Also the note on Patreon is that, I know I haven't got the content up yet, I'm hoping to do so after I get the commissions finished because it just takes too much out of me to try to do it all at once.

I know some people have been curious with what the heck is up with me lately SO, I had been waiting because I was still having a lot of pending tests etc.So here's kind of an update of where I'm at currently.
As it turns out, I think this thing that started up like gosh 12 weeks ago now? Anyway the thing that started up 12 weeks ago I guess was just a very sudden increase to my usual issues. What's that mean? That means apparently this is my new normal. TwT My health has been deteriorating rather fast over the years. So! New course of action. They prescribed another med--won't know if it works for quite some time because I gotta slowly build up to the proper dosage, they're going after the brain function/nerve receptors. It's...really hard to summarize all of what's going on, but also they want me to try this other supplement (I assure you I've been on just about anything you could imagine.) and see if it helps at all. They're going back to the original idea of it being Functional Dyspepsia or Nonucular Dyspepsia (Means the same thing) and two types in basic. The motility one and the ulcer-like one. I guess mine is probably considered severe. Since it's been a constant thing for 11 years and most of what you see online talks about some weeks. While the word generally means indigestion/upset stomach the functional aspect of it basically means, I'm not built right or wired right. It operates out of order and apparently that can cause such pains and nausea as I've had.

On top of that I've got a crud ton of stomach issues ranging from gastritis (basically stomach is all inflamed), bile reflux, leaky gut, low IGa, low IGg, suppressed immune system, a couple bacteria things in gi tract, Elhors Danlos Syndrome/hypermobility (possibly not spelled right way), low Killer K cells, (not 100% sure if I listed that right.) and there's a bunch of other junk too but these are the main things along with a lot of food sensitivities, allergies, and the Leaky Gut constantly makes new allergies too bleh. ene UM. So that's the stomach aspect of it sort of, at least what is known. Then of course there's the other stuff, like my tailbone that they haven't figured out anything else on yet. Although if I have the one thing supposedly it makes me more susceptible to pain in general or something. That and also the inability to digest fats, wheat or yeast or something, and malabsorption n stuff.

So a plethora of problems. So I think for right now I'm supposed to try these two meds, I've basically done all the tests I can and tried the meds and doctors and everything so this is another of those last try effort things. I have no idea what will happen if it doesn't work. I'm just taking one step at a time though.


Oh and yeah I'm currently sick with this head and chest thing. ene tons of congestion, my ears are all backed up, doctor said one side has a lot of pressure and the other side has liquid and bubbles. And my throat is an atrocity, a swollen one at that, and I got laryngitis to top it all off. o3o I am in misery land, so here's to hoping some stuff works. ;w;

-on that note they've basically tried this two times before in the past and it didn't work. But this one is a different medicine so here's hoping still.

Just a heads up to all, I'm not ignoring inquires about commission statuses or badges etc. I'm full blown sick on top of the issues that have been keeping me in bed these months......I feel..............miserable..........utterly miserable. Like I don't want to move as much as an inch in my bed. Just uggggggggh. And then of course the bills n stuff been stackin' up. Was finally able to process some of those, and I think I got the Qwuedeviv books all wrapped up and ready to ship as well as some other stuff. Couldn't drag myself up to my feet long enough to finish the two badges to send out though. I'll try tomorrow, but no promises, as I said I feel straight up miserable.

Just a reminder/heads up to all. Progress is currently slow,because I've got some really weird health issues going on that are kicking me around something fierce. No improvement and no idea what's up still. I can still barely eat though and I can't get out of bed, and on top of it all the meds they have me on to try and help keep me comfy quite literally make me sleep 19 hours out of the day, be up for 2 and then down again. Been to a lot of doctors as well and had a procedure a few days back, anyway, long story short.

I'm trying but it's not going along too fast. So if you are in a hurry, well first off let me know if it has a due date, because I do TRY to work around them, but it's difficult in this state. Secondly, if you need to pull out that's okay, but I do have to charge for whatever work has already been done. So if I've done the sketch and you want to get a refund I charge for the sketch but not the other work. And of course you'd get the sketch and all that.

All things considered I mean, I am moving pretty fast considering the circumstances, but I realize that may not be fast enough for all needs. I've got some big commissions, no one would want their commission rushed, right? So I'm trying to maintain steady quality.

Anyway just an update. And as always you can check the status of what's going on with the commission status link on my profile. I do keep it updated.

To keep tabs on progress:
https://docs.google.com/presentatio.....i=1#slide=id.p

Simply put
-progress is slow
-if you need a refund let me know
-if you're curious about updates you're ALWAYS welcome to ask
-I don't consider any amount "too often"

Yes, I've also got Halloween themed Headshot commissions open. Whether you've got something specific in mind or want to leave it to me it's entirely up to you.
I can do
-fangs
-glowing eyes
-Halloween BG colors
-gorey faces
-insaneyfaces
-mummy wrappings
- a whole variety of stuff! (So just ask if you have something specific in mind and we can see c=)


Stills are the regular prices. If interested I'd suggest letting me know soon though! That way you can get some use out of it if you like before Halloween!


Still Halloween headshots are the usual price: $25 for simple (most characters)
https://docs.google.com/presentatio.....629a66569_0487


Animated Headshots--these will be made at dimensions compatible with FA icons. I can only do basic stuff so there's a couple options.

A simple blinking icon: $40


Frame Change (A dramatic shift from say, sane to insane looking without any transitional frames): $40 (because I have to draw two separate images)


Expression Change (May change to one expression, but nothing too overall complex): $45-$50 depending on complexity.



Animated Slots:
1
2

Still Slots:
1Jollydwaggy
2
3
4


(subject to change)


Please don't forget to check out my other journal about coloring commissions too!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7082429/

I need money, simply put. I raised enough last time to get those tests done, unfortunately, when I had those tests done, something went horribly awry with me. I literally have no idea what happened, but it happened like over night and after 7 straight weeks of being unable to get out of bed and excruciating pain, I am incredibly tired of it, and need relief. Now I get SOME relief from eating nothing but small portions of white rice and rabbit or white fish. But it's very small portions, I'm losing weight, it's not a good deal. The meds they gave me cost a whopping $1,200 for a month supply D= I tried their closest alternative and it made my jaw go numb amidst a plethora of other things. So I'm trying to apply for some aid of some sort and hopefully won't have to pay too much but in the meantime I gotta buy it, and medical has been costing me an arm and a leg. Literally a couple thousand has gone out the last couple months easy on medical alone.

So I'm working on the commission list of stuff still but its difficult from bed. What I can do from bed is color stuff though. Flat color primarily.


What I'm Offering
Long story short, I'm opening anything where I'll flat color images. That means, if you drew or commissioned some lineart or a sketch, that I will color it for the prices below if you like.


Basically $10 for a single character, if more are in the pic it's an additional $5 per character, unless they're insanely difficult. Backgrounds are gonna be more cause it's a big chore--case by case basis.

Now if you want shading, you'll need to get your hands on the original PSD or SAI file, otherwise it won't turn out so good. That as well willbe quite a but more as it takes much more time. You MUST have the original artist's permission for me to color the image if you were not the one to draw it, so make sure to ask.

Topic wise, I'm more lenient on what I'll color than what I'll draw, in part because I need money, but also because it doesn't bug me as much. Note I won't be posting any of the colored works in my gallery, but you of course are free to do so on your own.


*This does not mean I am stopping work on the big list of comms you see on my front page. I'm working on both depending on my condition at a given time. For more details pm or comment etc.

Important: I'm offering to color preexisting images, not draw the image and then color it.

I know people have mixed opinions about these, but I've decided to make one of my own, because my goal is to dedicate myself to my drawing and writing endeavors. So if people happen to want to support that, then great! c= If not, no big deal. They come with various perks though.

And just as a reminder, I am not switching my content to patreon only. Still posting the stuff as per normal. You won't see any changes on my accounts. =) Well, other than a little link in the descripts XP I dunno how all the other artists do it or whatever, but feedback means a lot to me, so I wouldn't want to switch to such a thing. I like to share stuff with people to enjoy. c= It's basically if you like my art and projects a lot, and have anything you could toss my way to help out, it'd be appreciated but not required. My comic and art will remain free.

It's worth mentioning, all of the stuff listed there won't really be initiated until after I finish this big block of commissions up, but I'm starting to advertise it. I think I've got all the options worked out now too. It's set on a monthly payment plan.

https://www.patreon.com/ltsmiley

If you feel inclined to help. =) Or just want to check it out. For the record, any amount is totally helpful. Cause as I've said before, if a lot of people chose the $1 option it's not a huge strain on the wallet, and an accumulation really helps me out. I mean if a 100 people did that, that's be a hundred bucks. owo

SO YEAH. THAT'S ALL FOR NOW.

I just wanted to toss out a reminder that my Headshot and Badge commissions are still open. All other types are closed though. USUALLY if you have a deadline you need it by and you let me know, I can get it to you before said deadline. But you have to make sure to let me know about it. Especially right now.


Commissions Price List
Commission Waiting/ProgressCommission Policies





I have these open because, I unfortunately, have really expensive medication. The one that is currently keeping me a little more comfty in bed while I'm dealing with whatever is wrong with me costs a whopping $1,200 for a month's supply! D= My parents had been helping with the costs, but they say the checking account doesn't have the money. So if I don't want to be utterly miserable while laying down, I need to make some more money so I can have the meds my doctor prescribed for me this week.


Now on that note, I am aware I have a big back log of commissions! And I am working on them as fast as I can! But I don't want to lose quality for sake of speed, so please bear with me.

So any money I get in right now will go towards my meds first and foremost.
Whenever/if I ever get to get out of bed again, I also need a new comp. =\ My main is a mess of hardware issues, it's just going out, and I JUST got that new tablet a few months back. Ohhh life. Anyway. Here's prices.

I've had a lot of hefty bills lately. $750 in dental, $500 in supplements the past couple months. Not surprisingly, its really hard to keep up with the costs, especially when I'm laid out like this. And that's not even mentioning the TONS of doctors I've seen in that time and ER. I'm just hoping to get enough between me and my parents to cover the prescription. I still can't get out of bed, but it makes the horrible razor feeling die down in my stomach to a manageable level.

Sometimes life tosses you lemons, and they tell ya to make lemonade.....if you happen to have an eroded stomach that doesn't always work. LAME STATEMENT OF THE DAY. Sometimes life doesn't just tossorgive you lemons, sometimes life shoots them machine gun style and pelts the back of your head with it. Other times life straps you down and attempts to throw the lemon's juice in your eyes. =I

What does this have to do with you?
As many of you know, I have been having a heck of time with my health and commissions. I've been stuck in bed going on 6 weeks now. 6 fullll weeks and I mean totally stuck in bed, and many doctors appointments. Horrible pain, ER visit, more doctors etc.

We thought we had it all worked out for commissions. We got an arm so I could work from bed. Nope. Didn't work. Was out that money and still no resolution so I started trying to use my other tablet. It kindly got virus invested and took many weeks to fix. Plus the lack of the zoom function was making it not turn out well plus the stress it was putting on me was just awful.

So we went to a hospital supply store. Got a tilt table. Nicer than the other stuff, a little dangerous, but still I had to sit up and felt utterly awful so couldn't get much done. Still I worked with it a bit, and pulled my other more color accurate screen over so I could see.

A LOT of trial and error later we got another hospital bed table and hooked up ANOTHER arm to it, and with some tweaking, tablet was in a workable place where I could draw lying down. Alright, now we're talking. Aside from the fact that tablet refuses to recognize its native resolution and is a peice of junk and useless for said reasoning.

More trial and error. Trying different cords, different ports on the comp, even different OS. Slight improvement! So I go to update the driver. Your driver is custom and thus cannot update. =I =I =I stupid integrated piece of junk. So I found a way to work around it. Yay! We're on a roll again!

NOPE. Power dies and so does screen. Screen refuses to turn back on. Several adjustments. Different cords. Still not working. Must be GPU. Buy new GPU. Computer refuses to turn on. Some troubleshooting later, me and ruffy get that working. Computer proceeds to mess up its resolution again =I =I =I More hours spent fixing that. Do note this is while feeling SUPER AWFUL, so it has been a mess.

Drivers take forever to install. Okay, finally up to speed. Plug in color accurate monitor. Nothing. =I





..........WHY



So long story short I'm not sure if my screen is shot or my computer is an idiot. I lean more towards my computer is an idiot. But the point is I can't get my screen to come on and that's a problem for commissions because I can't tell what colors I'm using, so the colors could turn out relatively awful. So I've been just doing flat colors using the dropper tool. Still trying to get that fixed but just an update.


And healthwise I am doing absolutely atrocious. Just terrible. Losing weight, can't get out of bed, feel awful writhing in bed, can't sleep 'cause pain. And it hit out of nowhere. For now I am nibbling on white rice and fish (I HATE FISH) as per doctor's orders, and he gave me quite the mix of meds, mostly for pain, muscle relaxing and sedatives just to hold me over until I can get the upper endoscopy.Which is next month. All the meds are more or less geared towards dealing with ulcers. One of the hard things ismy stomach doesn't make enough hydrochloric acid to begin with and that causes it to get rather upset, but it can't have more right now because most likely it is messed up inside, and it also tends to have bile in it. Blah. I've been having a rough time. But just thought I'd update you guys.

Oh right...and the pills....$10 a pill...have to take them 4x a day......meaning the perscription for 30 days will be 1200.....................for -one- of the meds I am on.

http://www.furaffinity.net/full/9300607/ versus http://www.furaffinity.net/full/17309138/

Was looking through my old art, assigning it to folders (still doing so) and wow, trip down memory lane. I think one of the things I find neat is in these past few years I've been n a journey to find the combination of colors and such that I've wanted, and I've slowly worked the right way, with some recent leaps and bounds, and it's neat to see that everything from the start until present still retains the same characteristics, just refined and in different ratios.

Yes I know this is a major switch from my past journal, but that's because I am trying to occupy myself in bed when I am not feeling utterly terrible. But I am not good enough to work on the commissions from bed yet so I thought I'd work on sketching some baby devivs as I learn this tablet. I've got a list of some of them I'm drawing as babies, but this is more about little scenes and stuff.

Now the deviv life style is -very- different than your common upbringing. But I figured what the heck, I'm lonely, so I'll toss out this journal and if you've got ideas, comment, cause as I said, I'm lonely. So if you've got any ideas of stuff for some baby devivs to be doing or something, let me know. This won't be a first come first serve or anything. I'll just be looking at the ideas and if it sparks something I'll transition it to work with how the 'devivs raise their young. And obviously I'll only be drawing for however long I feel like it, but I felt like practicing kittens are more kittenish scenes but it's been a loooong time


So I'll be drawing baby devivs either interacting with each other or with the adults or all of the above.

I'm currently working on a pic of several kittens (not sure how many) and someone keeping an eye on them.

Also thinking about doing a kitten pile pic.